The Tour Life Of Adriana Perry
New Day, New Life.
Ever since my last breakdown, I've had people watching me like a hawk. People calling me every hour, people constantly texting me to make sure I was still on the straight and narrow. Let me tell you something, if it wasn't for Bianca I would of caved in 2 months ago. I was back to doing my usual routine every morning, minus the school run. I decided to have my little girl home schooled. I didn't like the idea of sending her to a public school. The friends she did make there always come round with their parents, like play dates you could say.
I should tell you, next year should be easier. I'm hoping so. I talked to the family, all of them insisting that we should just let dad rest now instead of dragging everything up year after year. They agreed. We still had him in our thoughts, in our hearts so his memory would never die. I never thought I'd see the day that my grand-parents, would finally let go. I understand it must be hard for them but it was the right thing to do. It was breaking their hearts as much as it was mine.
"I don't want you to go." I whined, tapping my foot on the floor as I sat on the edge of the bed watching James pack to once again leave for another tour.
"You'll be fine. You have Kellin, Bianca and your family." he smiled at me as he put some clothes in his case.
"Can't you just get a normal job?" I realised how ridiculous that sounded after I had said it. I understood though that this was his life. I sighed, taking the tank top out that he had just put in. "I'm keeping this one. I like it." I heard him let out a laugh before heading into the bathroom. I hated saying goodbye to people. I always get scared that I'd never see that person again.
"Kellin will be back before I leave. Stop worrying." he shouted from the bathroom. I shook my head and went downstairs to check on Bianca. Her tutor was here but I knew just had badly behaved she could be. She had recently turned into a right little madam. I was glad I went down because I found her throwing things across the table.
"Bianca, bedroom now!" I half shouted.
"No." she stated. I stood there, wide eyed. Never had she told me no before.
"Upstairs now." My voice became more stern. She rolled her eyes and off she went. I apologised to her tutor, paid her and told her I'd see her tomorrow. I didn't go out much now with Bianca being home schooled. Brandi had moved so I didn't have the company of her for when James way away. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket, getting it out I read the text and sighed. Great. I would be left with a mouthy child for 6 months.Kellin wasn't coming back as he was going to tour again.
Oh yeah, he got himself sorted and was back on the right road. I was glad about that. We stayed friends, even all this time. He was like the brother I don't have. I can't say never had, can I? I don't know. James soon came downstairs, Bianca in tow.
"Mom shouted at me..." I rolled my eyes at her statement.
"Because you were being a naughty girl."
"No I was not!" she stamped her foot. I gave her the look and she went quiet. Why did I get the moody/mouthy child? She couldn't of stayed being good could she? I shrugged my shoulders at James and headed out back for a cigarette. Bianca soon came running out and stood up against the fence talking to her friend from next door.
"Where's that gorgeous niece of mine?" I heard Mike's voice from inside. Before I knew it, my smoke had been taken from me and he was smoking it. "I have some good news and bad news."
"Good news first." I said before he could continue.
"You're going with James because we're sick of you now." he laughed, nudging me slightly. I stuck my tongue out at him and motioned for him to continue. "Bad news, Baby B has to stay here." Oh decisions. Decisions. Decisions. Could I really leave her for 6 months? I'd already done a fair share of leaving her already in her life. I would have to talk to her first. That would be the best thing to do, get her opinion on it. For a 5 year old she was pretty smart.
"Hi Nathan, can I steal her for 5 minutes?" I smiled at the little boy who was talking to her. He nodded and I took her to one side to talk to. She nodded and listened as I spoke as if to say she understood every single thing I had said. "So, do you want me to stay or go?"
"Go, I'm sick of you." she said in a mocking tone. I gave her a hug and left her to play again. I gave Mike a thumbs up and raced inside. James had his back to me as he spoke to Jaime so I jumped on him and wrapped my arms round his neck with a huge smile on my face. I told him I'd be joining him on tour which he was happy about. "Thanks for having her while I'm gone."
"It's alright, go pack." grinned Jaime. I jumped off James' back and ran upstairs to pack. I didn't have much time to do it in due to the fact that we left in a few days. They could of given me more time to prepare if I'm honest but hey, what the hell I'm getting a break from everything. I was beginning to miss being on the road if I was honest and it'd be nice to see just exactly what the Asking Alexandria lads got up to while touring on their own per say.
I picked up the picture of mom and dad that was beside my bed. I sat crossed legged on the bed and smiled at it. After a few minutes I placed it in the suitcase and led back. A good sigh leaving my body as I felt myself relax. I was disturbed by Bianca who jumped on my bed. "Mom, you have to come back with a brother or sister for me."
"Pardon?" I asked, shocked by what she had just said.
"Dad could spo--"
"Baby we spoke about that. You can't call James dad okay?" Her smile faded. I felt bad for this, I knew she adored him but I wanted to be sure that he'd stick around for good if she called him dad and not to mention I hadn't even spoken to him about it yet. "Listen sweetie, I'll talk to him about it okay? Then maybe when we get back, you might be able to call him that."
"Okay. Mom?"
"Yes?"
"I'll miss you." she said, throwing her arms round me and hugging me as tightly as she could.
"I'll miss you too. Be good for your uncles. No kissing boys either." I laughed. She pulled away and scrunched her face, shaking her head at the same time. She ran off again, leaving me in the quietness of my room. I looked around, without moving from the bed. I opened the drawer that was just beside the bed. I picked up the little black box that was in it. Opening it I tipped the stuff out onto the bed. "Time to let go."
I got up, holding them all in my hands careful enough to not cut myself. James appeared in the doorway, spotting the little silver things in my hands. "You're better than that beautiful." I smiled and nodded. I walked into the connecting bathroom, I put the toilet seat up. I stared at them in my hand just a little while longer.
I picked up one. "This one's for you mom." I whispered, putting it down the toilet and flushing it. I felt a lump start in my throat. The tears started to erupt.
"This one's for you dad." I flushed the second one.
"This one's for you Bianca." The third one.
"This one's for you Uncle Vic, Mike and Jaime." The fourth one.
"This one's for you, James." I flushed the fifth and final one. I looked up, one tear slipped. I wiped it away quickly and walked out the bathroom to be greeted by a cuddle. "It's time for me to forget the past."
"I'm proud of you."
***
I had gone around cleaning everything. I was leaving tomorrow and I wanted to come back to a clean house.
“Right, Mike go round check all the windows and doors are securely locked.” He nodded before going to do what he was told. I leaned against my case, trying to keep myself awake. “Addy! Grab the hoover, use it.” I rolled my eyes, groaning in protest.
I laughed to myself as I remembered. I couldn't understand why he would do it but now I do. Let's face it, no-one wants to come home from tour to start cleaning a full house. I was alone for a while today which gave me time to do all the stuff I wanted to do before going to Ben's house tonight ready for the early start tomorrow. The thought of getting up at an ungodly hour didn't appeal to me but it had to be done.
Once I had finished up cleaning, I set myself to work on making sure the front and back garden were all nicely done. Yes I had green fingers at heart, Gardening was one of them things I enjoyed doing. I was busy doing that when James and Bianca arrived. "You ready to go to your Uncle Jaime's?"
She nodded excitedly before running inside and coming back out with her case. "I'll take her, then I'll come back here to help you finish up." I stood up a second, giving a small kiss on his lips before getting back to work. To be honest I was a little nervous now about going on the tour. Me surrounded by a bunch of lads who were usually drunk or high nearly all the time. But in the lighter side, I knew how to handle a bunch of drunk guys.
Time seemed to pass by quickly because before I knew it I was done and sat out the back, cigarette in hand and staring at the sky. I found it peaceful out here, even if there were kids yelling, cars running around. It was my quiet place. "We should get going." I jumped slightly at the sound of his voice.
"Right. Give me a minute to lock everything up." I smiled, putting the cigarette out I went back in. I locked the door behind me, pulling the blackout screen down. I locked all the windows downstairs before doing the exact same upstairs as well. "See you soon home." I muttered before leaving and locking the front door up.
I climbed into the car, singing to myself as we drove the short journey to Ben's house. I was left to get all our 4 cases out the car while he went inside to meet everyone else. Yes he actually left me to do this myself. I pulled each one up, on it's own before putting them in the garage ready for the morning. I shut the garage door and proceeded inside. The second I walk in, something covered my eyes. I was confused to say the least.
I could hear people whispering but I couldn't make out what they were saying. Two people helped me walk through the house. I was beginning to get a little scared now. I was made to stop and the two people let go of me. I just stood there, unable to see a thing. I felt something messing with the back of my head, when the light hit me. I was back outside. Damn you wind for not giving it away.
Danny walked from behind me and went to join the others. All of them, were stood there. Smiles on their faces. James stood a little in front of them. I was curious as to what they were doing, more curious because my uncles were here. My best friends were here as well.
"We've had our up's and down's. We've had our arguments. I've messed up a few times, but everyday I wake up knowing I have the most beautiful girl beside me. You've put up with me through the trouble I've caused, you're still here. You've been through so much, you deserve to be happy. Which is why...." He paused, getting down on one knee. Pulling out a small black box. "...I'd like you to become my wife."
I stood there, jaw dropped, eyes wide. Unable to speak. I blink a few times. Was this real life? I looked at everyone who had the waiting look on their faces, I looked down at James who was beginning to look a bit nervous now.
I spotted my little girl, she was stood there with a huge grin on her face. Nodding her head.
"Of course I will. Now get up you idiot." I laughed. He stood up, put the ring on my finger before placing a soft, but passionate kiss on my lips. I smiled into the kissed and wrapped my arms around him.
***
"Oi get up!" I heard Sam's voice yell. I groaned and rolled over pulling the duvet over my head. I noticed the other side was empty. I sat up quickly. Glancing at the clock I noticed the time. I threw the covers off me and began to get ready as quickly as I could.
"You better b--- Oh good you're up."
"Yes, now leave while I finish up." I snapped. Did I mention at any point that I hated ungodly wake up calls? I raced around putting stuff in a separate bag. The door to the bedroom suddenly flew open and in ran Ben.
"I lost my wallet. Have you seen it?" he quickly said.
"Kitchen drawer, next to the sink." I smiled. He ran back out, I soon followed and ran downstairs. Every single one of us was running around, well at least I wasn't the only running late. I grabbed a glass of water and drank while I sorted the others out. I turned around ready to leave the kitchen once I had helped Ben.
"Fucking hell Ads. Watch it." shouted Danny. He stormed off, only to return minutes later with a different top. I apologised. Once we were all sorted, we grabbed our cases and left. The bus was here already, apparently he'd been waiting a good thirty minutes for us all. I guess we were tired? Once everyone was on the bus, you heard every single one of us let out a sigh.
"We are so not organised." laughed Cameron. We all nodded in agreement. It was true. Non of us had any time management. I had no idea how these lot even stuck to a tour schedule if I'm honest with you. I decided to go and pick a bunk before all the good ones went. I picked the third one up. I opened the curtains to see Sam in there.
"I wanted this one." I whined.
"You're sharing with me." James' voice said behind me.
This was going to a hell of a lot of fun.
I should tell you, next year should be easier. I'm hoping so. I talked to the family, all of them insisting that we should just let dad rest now instead of dragging everything up year after year. They agreed. We still had him in our thoughts, in our hearts so his memory would never die. I never thought I'd see the day that my grand-parents, would finally let go. I understand it must be hard for them but it was the right thing to do. It was breaking their hearts as much as it was mine.
"I don't want you to go." I whined, tapping my foot on the floor as I sat on the edge of the bed watching James pack to once again leave for another tour.
"You'll be fine. You have Kellin, Bianca and your family." he smiled at me as he put some clothes in his case.
"Can't you just get a normal job?" I realised how ridiculous that sounded after I had said it. I understood though that this was his life. I sighed, taking the tank top out that he had just put in. "I'm keeping this one. I like it." I heard him let out a laugh before heading into the bathroom. I hated saying goodbye to people. I always get scared that I'd never see that person again.
"Kellin will be back before I leave. Stop worrying." he shouted from the bathroom. I shook my head and went downstairs to check on Bianca. Her tutor was here but I knew just had badly behaved she could be. She had recently turned into a right little madam. I was glad I went down because I found her throwing things across the table.
"Bianca, bedroom now!" I half shouted.
"No." she stated. I stood there, wide eyed. Never had she told me no before.
"Upstairs now." My voice became more stern. She rolled her eyes and off she went. I apologised to her tutor, paid her and told her I'd see her tomorrow. I didn't go out much now with Bianca being home schooled. Brandi had moved so I didn't have the company of her for when James way away. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket, getting it out I read the text and sighed. Great. I would be left with a mouthy child for 6 months.Kellin wasn't coming back as he was going to tour again.
Oh yeah, he got himself sorted and was back on the right road. I was glad about that. We stayed friends, even all this time. He was like the brother I don't have. I can't say never had, can I? I don't know. James soon came downstairs, Bianca in tow.
"Mom shouted at me..." I rolled my eyes at her statement.
"Because you were being a naughty girl."
"No I was not!" she stamped her foot. I gave her the look and she went quiet. Why did I get the moody/mouthy child? She couldn't of stayed being good could she? I shrugged my shoulders at James and headed out back for a cigarette. Bianca soon came running out and stood up against the fence talking to her friend from next door.
"Where's that gorgeous niece of mine?" I heard Mike's voice from inside. Before I knew it, my smoke had been taken from me and he was smoking it. "I have some good news and bad news."
"Good news first." I said before he could continue.
"You're going with James because we're sick of you now." he laughed, nudging me slightly. I stuck my tongue out at him and motioned for him to continue. "Bad news, Baby B has to stay here." Oh decisions. Decisions. Decisions. Could I really leave her for 6 months? I'd already done a fair share of leaving her already in her life. I would have to talk to her first. That would be the best thing to do, get her opinion on it. For a 5 year old she was pretty smart.
"Hi Nathan, can I steal her for 5 minutes?" I smiled at the little boy who was talking to her. He nodded and I took her to one side to talk to. She nodded and listened as I spoke as if to say she understood every single thing I had said. "So, do you want me to stay or go?"
"Go, I'm sick of you." she said in a mocking tone. I gave her a hug and left her to play again. I gave Mike a thumbs up and raced inside. James had his back to me as he spoke to Jaime so I jumped on him and wrapped my arms round his neck with a huge smile on my face. I told him I'd be joining him on tour which he was happy about. "Thanks for having her while I'm gone."
"It's alright, go pack." grinned Jaime. I jumped off James' back and ran upstairs to pack. I didn't have much time to do it in due to the fact that we left in a few days. They could of given me more time to prepare if I'm honest but hey, what the hell I'm getting a break from everything. I was beginning to miss being on the road if I was honest and it'd be nice to see just exactly what the Asking Alexandria lads got up to while touring on their own per say.
I picked up the picture of mom and dad that was beside my bed. I sat crossed legged on the bed and smiled at it. After a few minutes I placed it in the suitcase and led back. A good sigh leaving my body as I felt myself relax. I was disturbed by Bianca who jumped on my bed. "Mom, you have to come back with a brother or sister for me."
"Pardon?" I asked, shocked by what she had just said.
"Dad could spo--"
"Baby we spoke about that. You can't call James dad okay?" Her smile faded. I felt bad for this, I knew she adored him but I wanted to be sure that he'd stick around for good if she called him dad and not to mention I hadn't even spoken to him about it yet. "Listen sweetie, I'll talk to him about it okay? Then maybe when we get back, you might be able to call him that."
"Okay. Mom?"
"Yes?"
"I'll miss you." she said, throwing her arms round me and hugging me as tightly as she could.
"I'll miss you too. Be good for your uncles. No kissing boys either." I laughed. She pulled away and scrunched her face, shaking her head at the same time. She ran off again, leaving me in the quietness of my room. I looked around, without moving from the bed. I opened the drawer that was just beside the bed. I picked up the little black box that was in it. Opening it I tipped the stuff out onto the bed. "Time to let go."
I got up, holding them all in my hands careful enough to not cut myself. James appeared in the doorway, spotting the little silver things in my hands. "You're better than that beautiful." I smiled and nodded. I walked into the connecting bathroom, I put the toilet seat up. I stared at them in my hand just a little while longer.
I picked up one. "This one's for you mom." I whispered, putting it down the toilet and flushing it. I felt a lump start in my throat. The tears started to erupt.
"This one's for you dad." I flushed the second one.
"This one's for you Bianca." The third one.
"This one's for you Uncle Vic, Mike and Jaime." The fourth one.
"This one's for you, James." I flushed the fifth and final one. I looked up, one tear slipped. I wiped it away quickly and walked out the bathroom to be greeted by a cuddle. "It's time for me to forget the past."
"I'm proud of you."
***
I had gone around cleaning everything. I was leaving tomorrow and I wanted to come back to a clean house.
“Right, Mike go round check all the windows and doors are securely locked.” He nodded before going to do what he was told. I leaned against my case, trying to keep myself awake. “Addy! Grab the hoover, use it.” I rolled my eyes, groaning in protest.
I laughed to myself as I remembered. I couldn't understand why he would do it but now I do. Let's face it, no-one wants to come home from tour to start cleaning a full house. I was alone for a while today which gave me time to do all the stuff I wanted to do before going to Ben's house tonight ready for the early start tomorrow. The thought of getting up at an ungodly hour didn't appeal to me but it had to be done.
Once I had finished up cleaning, I set myself to work on making sure the front and back garden were all nicely done. Yes I had green fingers at heart, Gardening was one of them things I enjoyed doing. I was busy doing that when James and Bianca arrived. "You ready to go to your Uncle Jaime's?"
She nodded excitedly before running inside and coming back out with her case. "I'll take her, then I'll come back here to help you finish up." I stood up a second, giving a small kiss on his lips before getting back to work. To be honest I was a little nervous now about going on the tour. Me surrounded by a bunch of lads who were usually drunk or high nearly all the time. But in the lighter side, I knew how to handle a bunch of drunk guys.
Time seemed to pass by quickly because before I knew it I was done and sat out the back, cigarette in hand and staring at the sky. I found it peaceful out here, even if there were kids yelling, cars running around. It was my quiet place. "We should get going." I jumped slightly at the sound of his voice.
"Right. Give me a minute to lock everything up." I smiled, putting the cigarette out I went back in. I locked the door behind me, pulling the blackout screen down. I locked all the windows downstairs before doing the exact same upstairs as well. "See you soon home." I muttered before leaving and locking the front door up.
I climbed into the car, singing to myself as we drove the short journey to Ben's house. I was left to get all our 4 cases out the car while he went inside to meet everyone else. Yes he actually left me to do this myself. I pulled each one up, on it's own before putting them in the garage ready for the morning. I shut the garage door and proceeded inside. The second I walk in, something covered my eyes. I was confused to say the least.
I could hear people whispering but I couldn't make out what they were saying. Two people helped me walk through the house. I was beginning to get a little scared now. I was made to stop and the two people let go of me. I just stood there, unable to see a thing. I felt something messing with the back of my head, when the light hit me. I was back outside. Damn you wind for not giving it away.
Danny walked from behind me and went to join the others. All of them, were stood there. Smiles on their faces. James stood a little in front of them. I was curious as to what they were doing, more curious because my uncles were here. My best friends were here as well.
"We've had our up's and down's. We've had our arguments. I've messed up a few times, but everyday I wake up knowing I have the most beautiful girl beside me. You've put up with me through the trouble I've caused, you're still here. You've been through so much, you deserve to be happy. Which is why...." He paused, getting down on one knee. Pulling out a small black box. "...I'd like you to become my wife."
I stood there, jaw dropped, eyes wide. Unable to speak. I blink a few times. Was this real life? I looked at everyone who had the waiting look on their faces, I looked down at James who was beginning to look a bit nervous now.
I spotted my little girl, she was stood there with a huge grin on her face. Nodding her head.
"Of course I will. Now get up you idiot." I laughed. He stood up, put the ring on my finger before placing a soft, but passionate kiss on my lips. I smiled into the kissed and wrapped my arms around him.
***
"Oi get up!" I heard Sam's voice yell. I groaned and rolled over pulling the duvet over my head. I noticed the other side was empty. I sat up quickly. Glancing at the clock I noticed the time. I threw the covers off me and began to get ready as quickly as I could.
"You better b--- Oh good you're up."
"Yes, now leave while I finish up." I snapped. Did I mention at any point that I hated ungodly wake up calls? I raced around putting stuff in a separate bag. The door to the bedroom suddenly flew open and in ran Ben.
"I lost my wallet. Have you seen it?" he quickly said.
"Kitchen drawer, next to the sink." I smiled. He ran back out, I soon followed and ran downstairs. Every single one of us was running around, well at least I wasn't the only running late. I grabbed a glass of water and drank while I sorted the others out. I turned around ready to leave the kitchen once I had helped Ben.
"Fucking hell Ads. Watch it." shouted Danny. He stormed off, only to return minutes later with a different top. I apologised. Once we were all sorted, we grabbed our cases and left. The bus was here already, apparently he'd been waiting a good thirty minutes for us all. I guess we were tired? Once everyone was on the bus, you heard every single one of us let out a sigh.
"We are so not organised." laughed Cameron. We all nodded in agreement. It was true. Non of us had any time management. I had no idea how these lot even stuck to a tour schedule if I'm honest with you. I decided to go and pick a bunk before all the good ones went. I picked the third one up. I opened the curtains to see Sam in there.
"I wanted this one." I whined.
"You're sharing with me." James' voice said behind me.
This was going to a hell of a lot of fun.
10/16/13