The Tour Life Of Adriana Perry
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I rolled over, to an empty side of the bed. I opened one eye, looking around. What? Where did he go? I could hear some faint sniffles. Throwing my legs out of bed, I got up. I wandered out the back room and saw Bianca sat on James's knee crying a little. I didn't walk up to them, I just stood there watching him as he calmed her down.
I was about to go back to bed when his eyes met mine. Bianca fell asleep in his arms and he put her back to bed. “Bad dream daddy James. Her words not mine.” I bit my lip, nervously. “Take it Dylan's not a very good dad?”
“The worst; he can't do anything for her. My gran did most of it.” I sighed, sitting on the bed. My thoughts going back to the time he had me sent away for being an unfit mother. I can't believe I nearly lost my girl for the second time.
“Well she has her mum, her uncles, her auntie and all us lot now.” I nodded. Tears pricking in my eyes. We sat there on the edge of the bed, saying nothing. I had my head on his shoulder, he has his arm wrapped round me.
This was perfect.
***
I woke up to the sun dazzling through the gap in the curtain. I grabbed the pillow beside me and covered my head. By the looks of the sun it was quite early and early was never good. “Uncle Himeee, pleaseeeee can I have pancakes?!” I heard Bianca's voice.
“Wait until mommy gets up.”
“Mommy's lazy.” By now I had got up and quietly walked out.
“Mommy is not lazy.” I tickled her sides and picked her up. “Good morning beautiful, we have to talk later.” She nodded her head and jumped off me, sitting at the table. Jaime gave her some pancakes and put some on a plate for me. I watched as she covered her's in chocolate sauce. I couldn't help but giggle to myself. “Uncle Hime? I'm moving out when we reach home.”
The pan dropped out of his hands. “I thought that day would never come.” he laughed.
“Oi cheeky. I'm moving in with James.”
“Daddy James.” Bianca corrected me. Jaime gave me a questioning look. I shrugged it off as if it was no big deal. Of course it was but I'd talk to her later about it. After breakfast, I got her dressed and sorted for the day. Which was really doing nothing but travelling. I placed one of her DVD's on and sat down with her. We were watching Peppa Pig, both of us making snorting noises as the pig family did.
I couldn't help but feel happy, I had every reason to right? I had my daughter back, I had someone who truly cares about me and I was living the nearly perfect life right now. Touring the world with family and friends. I knew also though that this wouldn't last forever. Nothing ever did in my life so I had to keep hold of this for as long as I could.
“You're doing that tongue thing again.” I shook my head lightly. Fran was stood in front of me. “What were you thinking about?”
“Life. Just how good it is at the moment.” I smiled as she sat beside me. No-one else had really got up yet. There was just me, Bianca, Frances, Jaime and television. Oh yeah, we bought a new one. But anyway, the peace and quiet was great. I turned my attention back to the television and my mind began to wander again.
“You're leaving us? Your unborn baby?” I yelled.
“That thing is not mine.“
I got up to get some water. I didn't need them memories in my head. I had to keep a strong mind now. I had to keep on the straight and narrow. I had to be the best mother ever, I was going to be the best mother ever. A sleepy voice made me drop the glass in the sink. “Holy shit you scared me.”
“Sorry, I keep hearing pig noises.” Sam laughed, stretching while doing so.
“Little Fuentes is watching Peppa Pig.” I laughed as he did a pig impression. I grabbed a plastic cup and poured some water and sat back down on the sofa. This made a change, being able to actually relax. Not drinking or doing stupid stuff. Eventually all the others were up, talking between each other and being their usual selves. I was quite happy sat here watching children's dvd's. I felt someone staring at me, out the corner of my eye I saw Ben looking at me. He was trying to read me.
I flashed him a smile and continued watching the dvd. I could still feel his gaze on me. I didn't even have to be looking at him to know he was, I could just feel it. “I want fooooood.” Bianca jumped off the seat and ran to Mike. Prodding him in the leg. “I want fooood.” She said again. He laughed and began making her something to eat.
***
I was in the back room, tidying up after the mess that was left this morning when the door closed and there was Ben stood just behind it. I heard the lock go. “You're hiding something from us.”
“No I'm not.” I lied. I was hoping he wouldn't see through it.
“You're doing that thing with your nose when you lie. Spill.” I couldn't work out the tone in his voice. Was it a demand? A question? I decided to ignore him and continue tidying up. “Are you having second thoughts?” I shook my head, I could feel the tears rising.
“It's nothing, just my own problem.” I replied, hiding the fact I was about to cry. I felt his hand on my shoulder. I couldn't let this get out, no way. It'd ruin everything. This wasn't suppose to happen. I picked up a pile of clothes, something dropped out and before I had to chance to pick it up Ben had already grabbed it.
He looked up at me, his eyes widening. “How long have you known?”
“Since yesterday. Just give it back please.” I mumbled, holding my hand out.
“You have to tell him.”
“No. I can't. It'll ruin his life, it's going to ruin mine!” I snapped without realising. He held out his arms, motioning me to hug him. I openly accepted. I let the tears slip as soon as his wrapped round me. “Don't tell him.”
“Don't tell who what?” Shit. I let go of Ben, getting back to my chores. Ben left, leaving me with James. I noticed it on the bed. I grabbed it quickly but it was too late. He'd seen it. “Is that what I think it is?”
“It's Hannah's.” I rushed out. Okay, so I'm panicking. Well I was more like freaking the hell out right now. “I'm hiding it for her.”
“Your nose.” Dammit. I sighed and sat down on the edge of the bed. Holding it in my hands. “Are you going to tell me?”
“I'm pregnant. I found out yesterday.” This was it. The end of the relationship. He wouldn't stick around now. I handed it over to him, while he looked at it I couldn't quite see whether he was happy or pissed. Maybe both? I don't know, but the silence wasn't a comfortable one.
“Wow. I'm going to be a dad.” He eventually broke the silence. I still couldn't bring myself to look at him. He was happy, you could tell. “Aren't you happy?”
“I am, I just...What about your band?” I got the courage to look at him. “I have nothing after this tour but you, you have AA, tours, albums. Everything. You can't leave this life behind for me, especially not me.”
“Who said I'd be leaving?” Oh. He's leaving me.
“I just thought...Never mind.”
“Listen, I don't care what it takes. I'm taking care of you, I'll look after you and support you through this. Even if it means bringing a crazy, pregnant lady with me on every tour between now and the birth.”
“That's one tour.” I laughed. “I have to stop playing though.” I didn't want to stop playing. The whole point of this tour was for my dad and for me to make him proud and play for him. I didn't plan any of this.
“I'll go grab your uncles. Stay there and don't worry!” He left the room. I led down on the bed. Sighing. They wouldn't take this well. He soon returned with all three in tow. I stood up while they sat on the bed. How would I word this? This was a the biggest thing I've ever had to do, apart from giving birth the first time round. “Ads, go on.”
“I have to stop touring. Well playing.” All of them looked at me confused. Vic's eyes widened. He had caught on. Soon the other two caught on. “I didn't plan this to happen, it just did. I'm sorry.”
“Is that what you're worried about? Letting people down?” I nodded. “Listen honey, you're not letting anyone down. You're 21 now. You're happy with James, little Bianca is happy so put a fucking smile on your princess.”
I did just that, because he was right.
I was about to go back to bed when his eyes met mine. Bianca fell asleep in his arms and he put her back to bed. “Bad dream daddy James. Her words not mine.” I bit my lip, nervously. “Take it Dylan's not a very good dad?”
“The worst; he can't do anything for her. My gran did most of it.” I sighed, sitting on the bed. My thoughts going back to the time he had me sent away for being an unfit mother. I can't believe I nearly lost my girl for the second time.
“Well she has her mum, her uncles, her auntie and all us lot now.” I nodded. Tears pricking in my eyes. We sat there on the edge of the bed, saying nothing. I had my head on his shoulder, he has his arm wrapped round me.
This was perfect.
***
I woke up to the sun dazzling through the gap in the curtain. I grabbed the pillow beside me and covered my head. By the looks of the sun it was quite early and early was never good. “Uncle Himeee, pleaseeeee can I have pancakes?!” I heard Bianca's voice.
“Wait until mommy gets up.”
“Mommy's lazy.” By now I had got up and quietly walked out.
“Mommy is not lazy.” I tickled her sides and picked her up. “Good morning beautiful, we have to talk later.” She nodded her head and jumped off me, sitting at the table. Jaime gave her some pancakes and put some on a plate for me. I watched as she covered her's in chocolate sauce. I couldn't help but giggle to myself. “Uncle Hime? I'm moving out when we reach home.”
The pan dropped out of his hands. “I thought that day would never come.” he laughed.
“Oi cheeky. I'm moving in with James.”
“Daddy James.” Bianca corrected me. Jaime gave me a questioning look. I shrugged it off as if it was no big deal. Of course it was but I'd talk to her later about it. After breakfast, I got her dressed and sorted for the day. Which was really doing nothing but travelling. I placed one of her DVD's on and sat down with her. We were watching Peppa Pig, both of us making snorting noises as the pig family did.
I couldn't help but feel happy, I had every reason to right? I had my daughter back, I had someone who truly cares about me and I was living the nearly perfect life right now. Touring the world with family and friends. I knew also though that this wouldn't last forever. Nothing ever did in my life so I had to keep hold of this for as long as I could.
“You're doing that tongue thing again.” I shook my head lightly. Fran was stood in front of me. “What were you thinking about?”
“Life. Just how good it is at the moment.” I smiled as she sat beside me. No-one else had really got up yet. There was just me, Bianca, Frances, Jaime and television. Oh yeah, we bought a new one. But anyway, the peace and quiet was great. I turned my attention back to the television and my mind began to wander again.
“You're leaving us? Your unborn baby?” I yelled.
“That thing is not mine.“
I got up to get some water. I didn't need them memories in my head. I had to keep a strong mind now. I had to keep on the straight and narrow. I had to be the best mother ever, I was going to be the best mother ever. A sleepy voice made me drop the glass in the sink. “Holy shit you scared me.”
“Sorry, I keep hearing pig noises.” Sam laughed, stretching while doing so.
“Little Fuentes is watching Peppa Pig.” I laughed as he did a pig impression. I grabbed a plastic cup and poured some water and sat back down on the sofa. This made a change, being able to actually relax. Not drinking or doing stupid stuff. Eventually all the others were up, talking between each other and being their usual selves. I was quite happy sat here watching children's dvd's. I felt someone staring at me, out the corner of my eye I saw Ben looking at me. He was trying to read me.
I flashed him a smile and continued watching the dvd. I could still feel his gaze on me. I didn't even have to be looking at him to know he was, I could just feel it. “I want fooooood.” Bianca jumped off the seat and ran to Mike. Prodding him in the leg. “I want fooood.” She said again. He laughed and began making her something to eat.
***
I was in the back room, tidying up after the mess that was left this morning when the door closed and there was Ben stood just behind it. I heard the lock go. “You're hiding something from us.”
“No I'm not.” I lied. I was hoping he wouldn't see through it.
“You're doing that thing with your nose when you lie. Spill.” I couldn't work out the tone in his voice. Was it a demand? A question? I decided to ignore him and continue tidying up. “Are you having second thoughts?” I shook my head, I could feel the tears rising.
“It's nothing, just my own problem.” I replied, hiding the fact I was about to cry. I felt his hand on my shoulder. I couldn't let this get out, no way. It'd ruin everything. This wasn't suppose to happen. I picked up a pile of clothes, something dropped out and before I had to chance to pick it up Ben had already grabbed it.
He looked up at me, his eyes widening. “How long have you known?”
“Since yesterday. Just give it back please.” I mumbled, holding my hand out.
“You have to tell him.”
“No. I can't. It'll ruin his life, it's going to ruin mine!” I snapped without realising. He held out his arms, motioning me to hug him. I openly accepted. I let the tears slip as soon as his wrapped round me. “Don't tell him.”
“Don't tell who what?” Shit. I let go of Ben, getting back to my chores. Ben left, leaving me with James. I noticed it on the bed. I grabbed it quickly but it was too late. He'd seen it. “Is that what I think it is?”
“It's Hannah's.” I rushed out. Okay, so I'm panicking. Well I was more like freaking the hell out right now. “I'm hiding it for her.”
“Your nose.” Dammit. I sighed and sat down on the edge of the bed. Holding it in my hands. “Are you going to tell me?”
“I'm pregnant. I found out yesterday.” This was it. The end of the relationship. He wouldn't stick around now. I handed it over to him, while he looked at it I couldn't quite see whether he was happy or pissed. Maybe both? I don't know, but the silence wasn't a comfortable one.
“Wow. I'm going to be a dad.” He eventually broke the silence. I still couldn't bring myself to look at him. He was happy, you could tell. “Aren't you happy?”
“I am, I just...What about your band?” I got the courage to look at him. “I have nothing after this tour but you, you have AA, tours, albums. Everything. You can't leave this life behind for me, especially not me.”
“Who said I'd be leaving?” Oh. He's leaving me.
“I just thought...Never mind.”
“Listen, I don't care what it takes. I'm taking care of you, I'll look after you and support you through this. Even if it means bringing a crazy, pregnant lady with me on every tour between now and the birth.”
“That's one tour.” I laughed. “I have to stop playing though.” I didn't want to stop playing. The whole point of this tour was for my dad and for me to make him proud and play for him. I didn't plan any of this.
“I'll go grab your uncles. Stay there and don't worry!” He left the room. I led down on the bed. Sighing. They wouldn't take this well. He soon returned with all three in tow. I stood up while they sat on the bed. How would I word this? This was a the biggest thing I've ever had to do, apart from giving birth the first time round. “Ads, go on.”
“I have to stop touring. Well playing.” All of them looked at me confused. Vic's eyes widened. He had caught on. Soon the other two caught on. “I didn't plan this to happen, it just did. I'm sorry.”
“Is that what you're worried about? Letting people down?” I nodded. “Listen honey, you're not letting anyone down. You're 21 now. You're happy with James, little Bianca is happy so put a fucking smile on your princess.”
I did just that, because he was right.
10/16/13