“So Kim, really, are you okay?” Vic asked me for the 100th time tonight. I simply nodded, not having the energy to repeat myself for the 100th time. “But, really?” Vic sighed, turning his attention to me for a quick second before he continued to look at the road. “I’m just worried, babe, I don’t know how you’re doing it.” he touched my hand and I smiled at him.

Finally, we got home and I sat down on the bed, flicking through channels.

“Kim you seem to have lost a little bit of weight…” Vic said, suddenly.

“I haven’t been eating loads because I’ve been sad.” I sighed.

“I know, but I don’t want you to slip into your old ways, I just worry, you know.” He said, cuddling into me. He was really starting to get on my nerves. “I just want you to be happy.”

“How the fuck do you expect me to be happy this soon?” I asked, pushing him off of me. I know I was blowing this out of proportion but Vic was just really getting on my nerves. He’s just too caring, sometimes.

“I don’t mean that…” Vic said, rubbing his temples. We’d been doing this a lot lately, having silly fights.

“I know, I know. I’m just overreacting. It’s just sort of annoying, constantly being asked if I’m okay, when obviously I’m not. And it’s not just by you, everyone’s been doing it.” I sighed, “I hate getting sympathy from people, especially family or friends that didn’t bother their arse with me before this happened to me.”

“I understand baby.”

“And I love you for it.” I said, smiling at him.

“I love you babe. I’ll run you a bath, and chat to you whilst you’re in there, relax us both a little.” He smiled, getting up and setting off to the bathroom.

About half an hour later I was shouted on and I went into the bathroom to see lots of candles lit and a warm bubble bath.

“Aw Vic, thank you. I love you.” I smiled, going over to him to hug him. I kissed his cheek and all over his face repeatedly. He laughed and tried to squirm out of my grip. “You’re not going anywhere mister.” I said, giving him a little eskimo kiss.

He laughed once more, “Get undressed and in the tub young lady.” He smirked and I nodded, taking off my shirt and bra first. I suddenly felt Vic staring at me and I was becoming more aware that I was half naked. I felt my cheeks turn red and Vic laughed, “Nothing I ain’t seen before babe.”

I rolled my eyes and turned around from him and took down my trousers, then my pants and quickly got in the tub. To be honest, we had a very lovely night together. It was nice to be so calm and nice to each other, for the first time in a few days.

“I love you so much, Kimmy.” Vic said as he handed me a towel.

“I love you handsome.” I kissed his lips and took the towel from him, standing up and out of the bath before wrapping the towel round me. I looked to Vic and he had a horrified look on his face, it genuinely looked like he’d just seen a ghost.

“Get dressed, we need to talk.” He said, looking from my thighs to my face. Shit.

“O-okay.” I stuttered. I quickly dried myself off and blew out all the candles before grabbing a
jumper and putting it over myself, then getting pyjama trousers and putting them on. I sat down on the bed with my legs crossed and my fingers nervously tapping against my shin.

“Kim.” Vic said with a stern voice.

I looked up to him with a fairly scared expression. I looked at him properly, and seen that he had tears forming in his eyes. As soon as he seen me notice them, he quickly rubbed his face and looked back up to me, our eyes meeting. This time it was my eyes that were filling.

“Kimmy.” He said, a tone of sympathy in his voice. “Come here.” He said, holding his arms out. I nodded and pulled myself into his arms, sobbing my heart out.

“You don’t know how h-hard it is, V-Vic. My, my mum’s gone and she’s…” I wailed.

“She’s not coming back, I know baby, but she would not want you to resort to that. She would want you to talk to someone, anyone. Please baby, don’t do this to yourself.” He said, crying now too.

“But Vic, without her I’m pointless. I can’t live without my mum, Vic, I can’t.” I said through sobs. I’m actually really surprised that he understood a word I was saying.

“Don’t you ever say that again!” He cried, “Don’t you ever,” he pulled me away from him just for a moment to look at him, both of our red and blotchy tear stained faces and sad eyes staring right at each other, “please, baby, don’t you ever say that again. You’re all I have, I love you so much, I don’t ever want you to feel that way.” He cried and I nodded.

“I-I love you too.” I sobbed. He pulled me in to hug him again and I squeezed on to him for my life, I didn’t want to lose him too.

“I don’t want to lose you baby, please stop, for me and for your mama. She’ll be so proud of you, you’ve been so strong. Just do it for her.”

I nodded, wiping away my tears with the sleeve of my jumper. “I will.” I smiled.

“That’s my girl.” He said, also wiping away his tears, “I love you.”

“I love you.” I said, pressing a soft kiss to his lips.

Notes

Title credit: Entirety - The Word Alive.

I'm SO sorry I haven't updated, between my mum being in hospital and being back at school and having homework I just haven't had the time, I'm so sorry!! Forgive me, I'll try to do updates on all of my stories each week! Thank you for being patient, you're all awesome. <3

PS I GOT MY LIP PIERCED, YAY