Tony soon fell asleep as we sat watching a movie. In actual fact I was glad he had done. I couldn't wait any longer, I quietly got off the bed & got my box out the closet. I took it and went inside the bathroom. If I did it here then he wouldn't see me if he wakes up.

I placed the box on the floor and sat opposite from it. Looking through it I found a clean syringe & needle, a clean blade & the small bottle of whiskey. It was all I could get hold of, in fact it was part of Mike's little stash.

I picked up the blade, pressing it against my skin hard before dragging it across. I sighed deeply, it wasn't enough. I dragged it across two times, three times, four times. I hadn't even realised I've done more damaged than wanted. I quickly grabbed a towel wrapping round my arm tight to cut off the blood supply.

“No more pain tonight..” I whispered as I pierced the skin with the needle, pushing the contents into my body. I picked up the whiskey, pouring a little over the fresh wounds on my arms, before drinking some. I counted to 60 before putting the stuff back in the box and heading back into the bathroom. I was sneaking around, bent down putting in my closet.

“Hey you...” Tony's sleepy voice made me jump.

“You scared me...” I laughed, quickly shoving the box in the closet. Fuck he shouldn't be awake. I pulled the sleeves down on my top & climbed into bed beside him. His arms soon wrapping round me, pulling me closer.

Then the deep sleep began to hit me.

No more pain tonight.

*** time lapse ***

Rolling over I woke up to see Tony grinning at me. “Morning sunshine...” he whispered leaning down, kissing me urgently.

“Ew Tone, don't.” I laughed, lifting my head up off the pillow I soon put it back down. Wow my head hurt, it's never been this bad before.

“We have school..” he whispered. I shook my head. No we didn't. I already said until they told me the truth I was not leaving my room. “...Claire? We have to go.”

“Not until I get the truth. Anyway, I have something much better.” I smirked, literally rolling off the bed hitting the floor with a thud. Groaning I crawled over to my closet, pulling out the whiskey and climbing back into bed. I heard someone outside my bedroom. “We are going to get drunk, have wild sex & get even more drunk.” I said a little louder than normal.

“Well I won't say no to that. But first I'm going to shower.” he smiled at me as he walked into the shower. Just as that happened my door burst open. Mike stood there, Jaime was just behind him.

“What?” I spat, watching them stare at me.

“You are coming to school.” Mike practically screamed at me. I scoffed and rolled my eyes. “Fine, you want to know the truth? Is that what it takes?”

I heard Vic shout not to tell me. “Well spit it out Michael.”

“Vic & Mike did that to Tony, I was the decoy.” Jaime rushed out. Mike looked at him wide eyed. “I couldn't lie to her.” I knew it! Why?

“Why Mike? Why would you do that?” I sighed, I refused to get angry.

“Just a little warning to him not to hurt you again.” he shrugged, walking out slamming my bedroom door behind him. Jaime was still in my room. The look on his face was filled with apologies. “I'm sorry pumpkin, I really am.”

“It's fine Hime-Time, I promise. Wanna come to the beach with me & Tone?” I smiled. If me and Tony were going to work then I needed Jaime to trust him again, to be able to know that what happened with him was just a one-off. That's all it was.

***

We pulled up after dropping Jaime back at his house. It was nothing but silence between us. Tony got out, slamming the car door as he did so. I sighed, getting out copying him exactly. The trip to the beach didn't end so well.

“Tone? Talk to me baby.” I sighed as we walked inside. He didn't say anything. He threw his keys somewhere & headed into the kitchen.

“You were literally flirting with him.” he snapped.

“Tony Perry are you fucking kidding me? He gave me a hug & kissed my forehead.” I half yelled at him. He looked down, then back up at me. Was he mad at me?

“I'm sorry, I'm just so damn paranoid that you'll find someone better than me.” I walked towards him, wrapping my arms round his neck, his hands resting on my sides.

“I'll tell you this once, I love you. I'm head over heels in love with you Tony & I don't ever want anyone else. You're perfect to me, I won't ever leave you baby.” I whispered, closing the gap between us as our lips joined. The kiss was urgent, it was a lot like our first kiss. He spun us around, pushing me against the counter, his kisses moving down my jaw line & to my neck. “Tone, let's take this up to the bedroom.” I whispered as he found my soft spot making me moan a little bit.

I got my boyfriend back. No more fights, no more arguments, it felt like what it did before. The spark was back & I was thankful for it.

Maybe this is what we needed.