The crowd goes wild, perspiration drips down my forehead making my hair stick to the sides of my head. Jeez my hat is going to smell later, damn. - my clothes stick to my skin as I pour my soul into the finale of King For A Day "You told me think about it, well I did. Now I don't wanna feel a thing anymore, I'm tired of begging for the - things that I waaant, I'm over sleeping like a dog on the floor" Trenton from Hands Like Houses stepped in for Kellin because we're touring with them and Trenton's voice is crazy good. As he bellows out
"Imagine living like s king someday, a single night without a ghost in the walls, we are the shadow screaming take us noooow" I look to the crowd, really look, and I see such dedication. Person after person with their arms stretched as far as they can possibly stretch them, raising their fists and knocking on air to the beat, others do rock hand signs, girls cry, people crowd surf. I feel my heart swell, I'm going to miss this, this is going to hurt more than anything, I imagine the most vicious and excruciating pain that my psyche will allow me to imagine and I triple it and it still doesn't quite compare to how much this is going to kill me, kill them.

I wonder how the people at the barrier are still breathing, with the mass of people pushing forward with blind enthusiasm carved into their faces, like a sin that can't be washed away. How are they still able to breathe? How are their ribs not broken? - My stomach drops and my heart swells further, they know this, they know they're going to be pressed against all kinds of strangers, they know they're going to sweat until they feel like they are going to pass out, they know there is a slight chance (although we and security always try our best to prevent it) that they could end up injured. And they still attend, they still come and that's unconditional love. I feel my eyes brim with tears but I have no time to cry I have to finish the song, I clear my throat and sing, knowing it would be the last time
"We'd rather die than live to rest on the ground." My voice breaks with emotion on the last word "Shit" the crowd goes absolutely wild, and I see security relax with relief that it's finally over, a little smile creeps up on my lips but all in all I feel nauseated, can I do this? Hurt them all like this?
"Thank you, San Diego. You have been absolutely crazy tonight and we have loved every fucking second of it, right guys?" I turn around and Jaime, Mike and Tony all nod and Mike bangs a random beat on the drums, I see his eyes glistening from tears and I know all this in front of us means just as much to him as it does to me. - like when we were younger and we'd jam together and write lame songs, but we loved every minute of it - nothing has changed. I catch Jaime's eye and I see disappointment written all over his face, he swallows hard and I give him the weakest and most lame reassuring smile but that's all that I can manage, he nods and I know it was time to break the news - break their hearts.
"Okay guys, we have some news for you-" the crowd roars thinking it's optimistic news, like a new album or single, little do they know- "We, Pierce The Veil, have just played our l-last show" I choke out, the whole room goes silent, literally two thousand people stand and sit in this venue before us and not one of them speak or make a sound.

Silence everywhere, it is deafening.

I look at Tony like omg-what-now? And he shrugs pushing the hair out of his eyes and looking as distraught as I feel. I decide to just continue to talk.
"That means we as a band are no longer, well, a band" I sniff and wipe at my nose, pulling the bill of my snapback down a little further, as if it's going to protect me from this whole painful process. One girl screams NO and begins to cry and soon others are joining her, in the matter of three or four seconds the whole room is either crying or protesting.
"I know this is a lot to take in and we as a band are just as crushed as you are-" I take the microphone away from my mouth and turn around and bend over trying to compose myself as a tear trickles down my face, I take a deep breath, trying my best not to breakdown in front of so many people, my body begins to shake from unshed tears but I know I need to do this. I turn around and carry on "-I love these guys, only one of them is my biological brother but over the years we've become so close, and Tony and Jaime feel just like brothers too" I rub my face with my free hand, wipe away a few stray tears and look with adoration at Jaime and Tony. Everything I said is true, they are like brothers to me, they are family and I don't know what I'd do without them.

A girl at the barrier quickly scrambles over it and slams on the opposite side of it. Ouch. Security move quickly to remove her
"No!" I shout quickly and security cease to remove her "Hey" I say to the girl as I walk to the front of the stage and sit down on the edge. The girl picks herself up and as she faces me my heart breaks. Her eyes are red and bloodshot, almost swollen. I can tell they are like that because of the news I've just given and not because she was crying at our music.
"Hi" she whispers, the tears are continuous and soon she is hiccuping. I jump off the stage and embrace her in a hug
"It's okay, it's going to be okay." I sooth "We have three albums for you to listen to. They will keep you company. Our lyrics will be your friends"
"You don't-" hiccup "understa-" hiccup "nd" hiccup "You gu-uys-" hiccup "s-s-saved me-" hiccup "I'm h-here-" hiccup "thanks to-" hiccup "you" hiccup. I swear if I listen hard enough I could hear my own heart shatter. "I ha-a-ve scars-" hiccup "b-but-" hiccup "I don't- t-" hiccup "have cuts" hiccup "thanks t-to" hiccup "you p-pierce" hiccup "the veil" hiccup. Her crying becomes uncontrollable and hysterical and the lump in my throat that I'd only just managed to choke back down earlier, returned.

This girl, these girls, these people. We are hurting them, I am hurting them. I am hurting.

I tell the girl she needs to return to the crowd now so I can wrap this up and I give her one last hug "Stay strong" I whisper and get back on stage.
"So me and the guys want to thank you, San Diego. Not just you but all of our fans fans across the whole world. You guys are beyond amazing, you support us in everything and you never ever let us down" I wipe the tears away from under my eyes "I know it's a lot to ask of you right now but we need your support now more than ever. We just can't go on as a band anymore, we're sorry, I'm sorry." Jaime puts his guitar on the ground and turns around holding his face in his hands, his shoulders shake, making the fact he is crying visible, my heart hurts for him and I just want to go over and hug him but I know I need to continue before I really lose it. "We are so grateful, I hope you know that. We have been grateful since day one and we'll be grateful for the rest of our lives" Tony is wiping his eyes and and running his hands through his hair, listening intently, feeling just as shifty as I do, I presume. I swallow hard past the lump in my throat, this is way too hard "A Flair For The Dramatic wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for you, Selfish Machines wouldn't have happened if it wasn't for you, Collide With The Sky would not have happened if it wasn't for you. Pierce The Veil would never have happened if it wasn't for you guys and your constant love and support." The lump in my throat is too big now and I have to stop to compose myself, I take a couple of breaths and rub my face "I guess in this moment right now, we are selfish machines, and we're sorry for that, we've talked a lot and we have taken into account your feelings, I promise you that!" I begin to cry a little harder and I want to hit myself for falling apart in front of everyone I'm supposed to be being strong for. "Shit" I say into the microphone, my words echo the last lyric in King For A Day "I'm sorry, I'm doing my best to hold it together" I laugh pathetically. I don't hear him move but Mike comes over and gives me a hug, I need it and as my brother he knows it it and as his brother I know he needs it too. The crowd goes 'Awww' and begins to cheer and chant

Pierce The Veil

Pierce The Veil

Pierce The Veil

Tony and Jaime join Mike and I in a group hug

Pierce The Veil

Pierce The Veil

Pierce The Veil

And we just stand there for a few minutes, taking it all in, letting reality soak into our pores, letting the anguish weigh our heart down like lead and letting our ears take in the last time people are going to be chanting for us like this
"We love you" two girls shout and Mike takes the microphone and says 'we love you too.'
"Three cheers for Pierce The Veil" a random boy shouts "Hip-Hip" he shouts louder
"HOORAY" everyone responds loudly
"Hip-Hip!"
"HOORAY"
"Hip-fucking-hip!"
"HOORAAAAAAAY!"

They almost blow off the roof with their volume and us four guys just stand there arms round one another, in awe!

Us musicians are supposed to be the ones on the receiving end of admiration, but nothing, not any level of love could top what we feel for our fans right now.

Notes

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Took me ages to write this because I wrote it on my kindle instead of on the laptop (also the reason for any mistakes. Although I havechecked a lot)

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