I Don't Know the Awkward Stranger to my Right
Stick A Needle In My Eye So I Can Finally Cry
~*POV Mike*~
The ride from the hospital was quiet and a bit awkward. I couldn't stop thinking about what Jenna said, 'You can do so much better than him.' The sad thing is, it's true. I'm nothing but a mess, and as of right now I have absolutely no life opportunities. I don't have Tonight Alive, I don't have Pierce The Veil and I don't have job. I'm such a waste of oxygen...
I sighed and looked out the window, what am I going to do with myself?
"Everything ok darling?" Tony asked, looking over at me.
"No, Tony," I said quietly, "Jenna was right, you can do so much better than me..."
"What?" he asked, "Where are you getting that from?"
"It's just," I started, "Right now I have absolutely nothing. I just quit my job and my band. Hell, I don't know what I want to do with myself anymore! I never had a backup plan!"
"That's ok Mikey," Tony said, "Because you don't have nothing, you have us. And we're going to help you figure this out. I think you deserve a little bit of time after everything that happened... And one I only want you, I'll never want anyone else."
I swallowed the bile that had formed in the back of my throat before giving him a small smile. I know what I want, but I can't have it. I want things to go back to normal. I want to be in a band with my best friends and my boyfriend. I want to be able to sleep through the night without having nightmares. I want to erase the past 6 months.
"It's going to be ok Mike," he said, "Just give it time."
I nodded and returned to the window. I want to believe him, but I don't know how it's going to be ok. I went from the top straight to the bottom. It's only a matter a time before Tony realizes how worthless I really am...
Not long after we pulled up to the apartment complex. I couldn't help but smile as Tony parked to car, I haven't seen this place in months. I didn't realize how much I missed home until I saw it. Tony got out of the car first and ran around to open the door for me. I laughed at him and went to get out. But instead, he put his arms around me and picked me up. He positioned me into bridal style and started walking.
"What are you doing?" I said, laughing at him.
"I don't know what you're talking about," he said in a singy voice.
I laughed again as he carried me up the stairs. He was practically running, and I was a bit afraid he was going to drop me, so I clutched his neck tighter. This got a chuckle out of him as we reached the door to our apartment. He put me down and kissed my forehead before opening the door.
When we walked inside I felt a smile grow on my face. I saw a banner that said, 'Welcome Home Mike' and it seemed like all of my friends were here. The first person that ran up and hugged me was Austin.
"Oh my god Mike I'm so sorry!" he yelled, "It's my fault you were out so late!"
"Aus, chill," I said, trying to get out of his strong grasp, "What's past is past. It's fine now."
He finally released me and said, "Good!"
The next person that got to me was Cam. He pulled me in for a short hug.
"Glad you're ok man," he said awkwardly. Cam was the shy one of the group, but I feel like I was closer to him than I was with the other Tonight Alive guys.
"Is Jen with you guys?" Jake asked, coming up besides Cam, "She said she was going to see you earlier."
"No," I responded, still really pissed at her, "And she's not coming, we are no longer friends."
"Why's that?" Jake asked, "You guys were like besties..."
"That was until she tried to make out with my boyfriend this morning," I informed them, "After he rejected her."
"Ouch," Cam said, "I didn't know you had a boyfriend Mike... That's kind of awkward considering you were so into her until you got your memory back..."
I bit my lip and looked over at Tony, he was looking at his feet. Thanks Cam. I mentally groaned and wrapped my arm around Tone.
"That is so irrelevant Cam, it's not even funny," I said, pulling Tony closer, "This one's the only one I want."
That caused Tony to giggle a bit, which put me at ease. I was worried that he'd be mad at me...
"Mike!" I heard Vic exclaim, hugging me, "I'm glad you're home bro!"
"So am I!" I exclaimed, I looked around at the people here, almost everyone important was here, "Are mom and dad coming?" I asked him.
"I'm afraid not," Vic said, giving me a half smile.
"Oh," I respond, "That reminds me. When you and Hime were fighting, Tony said something about our parents and then told me to ask you about it later. What's up with them? And why what did they have to do with your fight?"
"Well... Um... It's a long story Mikey..."
The ride from the hospital was quiet and a bit awkward. I couldn't stop thinking about what Jenna said, 'You can do so much better than him.' The sad thing is, it's true. I'm nothing but a mess, and as of right now I have absolutely no life opportunities. I don't have Tonight Alive, I don't have Pierce The Veil and I don't have job. I'm such a waste of oxygen...
I sighed and looked out the window, what am I going to do with myself?
"Everything ok darling?" Tony asked, looking over at me.
"No, Tony," I said quietly, "Jenna was right, you can do so much better than me..."
"What?" he asked, "Where are you getting that from?"
"It's just," I started, "Right now I have absolutely nothing. I just quit my job and my band. Hell, I don't know what I want to do with myself anymore! I never had a backup plan!"
"That's ok Mikey," Tony said, "Because you don't have nothing, you have us. And we're going to help you figure this out. I think you deserve a little bit of time after everything that happened... And one I only want you, I'll never want anyone else."
I swallowed the bile that had formed in the back of my throat before giving him a small smile. I know what I want, but I can't have it. I want things to go back to normal. I want to be in a band with my best friends and my boyfriend. I want to be able to sleep through the night without having nightmares. I want to erase the past 6 months.
"It's going to be ok Mike," he said, "Just give it time."
I nodded and returned to the window. I want to believe him, but I don't know how it's going to be ok. I went from the top straight to the bottom. It's only a matter a time before Tony realizes how worthless I really am...
Not long after we pulled up to the apartment complex. I couldn't help but smile as Tony parked to car, I haven't seen this place in months. I didn't realize how much I missed home until I saw it. Tony got out of the car first and ran around to open the door for me. I laughed at him and went to get out. But instead, he put his arms around me and picked me up. He positioned me into bridal style and started walking.
"What are you doing?" I said, laughing at him.
"I don't know what you're talking about," he said in a singy voice.
I laughed again as he carried me up the stairs. He was practically running, and I was a bit afraid he was going to drop me, so I clutched his neck tighter. This got a chuckle out of him as we reached the door to our apartment. He put me down and kissed my forehead before opening the door.
When we walked inside I felt a smile grow on my face. I saw a banner that said, 'Welcome Home Mike' and it seemed like all of my friends were here. The first person that ran up and hugged me was Austin.
"Oh my god Mike I'm so sorry!" he yelled, "It's my fault you were out so late!"
"Aus, chill," I said, trying to get out of his strong grasp, "What's past is past. It's fine now."
He finally released me and said, "Good!"
The next person that got to me was Cam. He pulled me in for a short hug.
"Glad you're ok man," he said awkwardly. Cam was the shy one of the group, but I feel like I was closer to him than I was with the other Tonight Alive guys.
"Is Jen with you guys?" Jake asked, coming up besides Cam, "She said she was going to see you earlier."
"No," I responded, still really pissed at her, "And she's not coming, we are no longer friends."
"Why's that?" Jake asked, "You guys were like besties..."
"That was until she tried to make out with my boyfriend this morning," I informed them, "After he rejected her."
"Ouch," Cam said, "I didn't know you had a boyfriend Mike... That's kind of awkward considering you were so into her until you got your memory back..."
I bit my lip and looked over at Tony, he was looking at his feet. Thanks Cam. I mentally groaned and wrapped my arm around Tone.
"That is so irrelevant Cam, it's not even funny," I said, pulling Tony closer, "This one's the only one I want."
That caused Tony to giggle a bit, which put me at ease. I was worried that he'd be mad at me...
"Mike!" I heard Vic exclaim, hugging me, "I'm glad you're home bro!"
"So am I!" I exclaimed, I looked around at the people here, almost everyone important was here, "Are mom and dad coming?" I asked him.
"I'm afraid not," Vic said, giving me a half smile.
"Oh," I respond, "That reminds me. When you and Hime were fighting, Tony said something about our parents and then told me to ask you about it later. What's up with them? And why what did they have to do with your fight?"
"Well... Um... It's a long story Mikey..."
Notes
Do you guys remember when I used to update like 3 times a day? Yeah me neither haha. On a serious note, I think this story is starting to wind down a bit. But that leaves me to a serious question that you all better fucking answer; What do you want to see next from me? I'll pretty much write any ship for PTV and I won't judge you if you suggest something not so common (except Mike and Vic. If you ship that I'm hardcore judging you) And if you have any prompts or story ideas you want me to write you can message them to me! <3Title Cred: Ghost Town (<3)
Okaay...I'm crying. ;_; I can't believe he left.
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