"Iris do you still want to eat?"
"No, not really. I feel rather sick, I have a massive headache. Could you take me back to the hotel that Klaudia is staying in?"
"Iris you should really have something to eat, it will make you feel a bit better." Vic pushes the hair off my face and wiped the old tears away.
"Vic I just want to be alone this whole night is bring back memories, memories that I don't want. I don't want to drag you down with me."
"I will take you to your hotel but I am not leaving you. I will never leave you."
"Vic please?"
"Iris, I know what you are going to do if I leave you alone. Please I will get something to go, I will run you a hot bath you can eat in the bath. Then you can go to bed. Just please."
"Ok, I am sorry this whole night happend." Vic picks me up and brings me to his car,
"I will be back in five minutes just stay here!" I nod. Why am I so fucked up, why does he want me?
Vic comes back to the car with pasta and bread.
"I feel so weak, I feel like it was me that tried to comit." "Even tough I have tried before.," I say under my breath.
"what did you just say Iris? You have tried to you know?" Vic says. I know if I tell him he will be disapointed, should I just pretend to be asleep?
"It was a very dark day, my dad made me feel more of a nothing then normal and I was beaten up in school that day."
"So you where being bullied by your family and by the people at your school?"
"I have been bullied my whole life. the first day of school I was called stupid, ugly, worthless."
"When did you start to hurt yourself?" Vic asked, he sounded like he actually cared.
"when I was in high school, I was fourteen. I felt so worthless, stupid, I think what pushed me over the edge was my anxiety."
We had finally arrived at the hotel, that drive felt like hours.
Vic opens the car door for me and he puts his arm around me. I forgot that I had the hotel key in my bag, I grab it and open the door.
Klaudia is not there. Vic helps me sit in a chair while he goes and fills the bathtub with water.
I text Klaudia and ask where she is, I get no responce.
"Iris would you like help getting undressed?" Vic asks me from the bathroom.
"Uh I would, but I dont want to you to see me naked." Vic walks into the room, he grabs my hand and says,
"Why not, I love your body, I love you."
"Vic, darling why? I was always told no one will love you until you love yourself and I truthfully don't love myself. Actually it is the exact opposite."
"Well those people are bullshiters! Come on, I will help you."
Vic undoes my shoes first, then he stands me up and slides of my dress and underwear. He kisses my stomach I take my hair out of the mess it has become. Vic then undoes my bra, he kisses my stomach again. Vic then places me in the warm bath, he starts to fed me like I am a child.
"I like being taken care of. I feel as if you where my mother."
"I like taking care of you darling, I hope you mean that in a good way." Vic laughs, we had a nice long chat about his childhood.
As I am done eating and bathing, vic then dresses me, I feel like I am being cared for, oh wait I am.
Vic caries me to the bed and lays me down. He has to make a phone call, I think he is telling the guys where he is. I wait for Vic to climb in bed with me to fall asleep.
"Why did you chose me?"
"I loved your personality, your need to help people. But I noticed that you needed help to, so here I am. Trying to help you. Vic says while rubbing my back and kissing me.
"Today was the last concert, so we can do whatever you want tomorrow."
The last words I hear before I drift off to sleep are "I love you, Iris."

Notes

This is such a long chapter. I am sorry for the description of all of this :P
But Vic, can I just have him?