"Hey why are you acting like this?! We are best friends!" Klaudia looked over at me from the other table.
"Because, you are a bitch!"
"Shh Iris just ignore her." Vic grasps my hand and squeezed it tightly.
"No, do you know what she did?! She put me in that shit hole! She was the fault that I was in there!" I feel the tears well up in my eyes, but I push them back, they are the least of my worries right now.
The two tables go quiet, and they all stare at me.
"I am sorry I did that to you, I never wanted to hurt you. What did I even do?"
"What did you do?" I scoff at her in disgust. "You tried to break Vic and I up?! You were never there for me! You never even cared!" I keep my voice low to try not to bring attention to myself.
"I never wanted to leave you, I never wanted you to go. You are my best friend." She looks me deeply in the eyes.
"I can't trust you, how about you forget about me and I will forget about you. Our friendship never happened."
"No, I miss not talking to you."
"What about your problems? And when I had problems you just said that sucks! No, no talking no communication, nothing I want nothing to do with you!" I gradually get louder towards the end of my words.
"Fine just whatever you were always such a shitty friend anyways!" She storms out of the restaurant.
"Thank god that is over." I sigh in relief. All of the people at the table stare at me like I am crazy or something. "What? Why are you looking at me like I just killed someone!?"


"Iris I think she only wanted to be friends with you again." Vic stares at me and gives me a strange look.
"She is selfish, all she thinks about are her problems and herself," I say shaking my head in disgust just thinking about it.
"She seems like a shitty friend?! Look at you!" Emily scoffs at me.
"Hey you don't know her like I do!" I give her a disappointed face. It seems as if the world hated me again, like when I was a child. Everyone telling me what I just did was wrong. I felt awful, I felt as if the tears were going to start rolling down my cheeks. My mind took over and was saying aww you are so stupid, why are you such a fuck up?
I blocked out the world for what seemed for years but it got interrupted by Vic shaking my shoulders asking "Iris?! Are you going to get any food?!"
"No, I am not hungry."
"Alright."
They order all of their food, I continue to try to block them out but I could not. All I heard was the chatter of people and mexican music playing. My head pounding and my eyes swelling. I had not felt this way in a long time, I was so angry at myself for everything I did and everything I said. All my mistakes coming back to haunt me, all those times I should have been strong. I needed to be strong for myself for once, make a decision based on what is best for me.
The food arrives, the smell of mexican food fills the air.
"Iris, are you sure you don't want anything? You could have some of mine?" Vics voice reminds me that I am still here.
"No, thats alright."
"Are you alright?" He asks aggravating me.
"Yes I am fine, I am just tired." He lets out a sigh as if he was feeling what I was inside.
Emily's eyes burn into the side of my head, I glance over to see her giving me the look of death. They all talk around me, no one talking to me, no one saying anything that involved me. I felt very alone and unwanted, I felt like a child again. I felt my face become wet from the tear that fell to the floor. I sniffle and wipe the tear away quickly before anyone notices.
I saw Tony look at me as I finished to wipe the remaining tear left on my face. He whispers something to Mike who is sitting beside him, Mike nods. Oh no, he just told Mike about that god, I hope he does not say anything.
"Hey Iris, I am sorry." He whisper into my ear. Somehow the word of me crying got to Vic. He puts his arm around me and tightly brings me to his chest.

Notes

I am going to start naming the chapters with song titles or lyrics again, I like it better that way.
Very long chapter tonight hehe I hope you like it!