We fell in love in a hopeless place.
You're a river in Congo, just a heart in ecstasy
I kept coming in and out of consciousness, everything would be bright then it’d go dark again. The last thing I remember was heaps of voices saying my name over and over again, as tattooed arms wrapped around me.
“Mike….” He began as he walked closer to me “Mike it’s almost been ten years,” he sat down next to me and put a comforting arm around me as I continued to cry,
“She’s the only one besides ma who can tell me she loves me” I sobbed, I sat there in Vic’s arm for almost a half an hour before it started to rain so we headed home.
“Where’s Cass?” I asked as I gazed through the window, watching the world get rained on. I heard Vic answer but I blocked it out, when we stopped at the lights I remembered when Lucy and I were fifteen it was raining and we ran into the rain and sat under a big tree that protected us from getting wet.
“Want to play truth or dare?” she smiled at me, whenever I saw her smile I knew everything would be okay, I nodded
“Paper scissors rock! Fuck!” I mumbled, that was the first time I had lost to Lucy in paper scissors rock
“Hmm, dare” I said; giving her a stern look
“I dare you…… To kiss me” without hesitation I leaned forwards and kissed her, it was both our first kiss; but I loved this girl so much I’d do anything she said.
Vic slammed on the brakes as we pulled into the driveway; I gave Vic an evil look before heading inside.
“CASSIDY!” I called out, she didn’t respond so I thought she wouldn’t be here, understandable because this is my parents’ house. I kicked my shoes off and walked into my room and heard the water running, must be having… Another shower, I thought I went to open the door but I stood in something wet “what the fuck?” I mumbled as I looked down I saw myself standing in a pool of blood which came from the bathroom.
“VIC!” I screamed out as I tried to bust down the locked door “VIC BRING THE KEYS TO THE BATHROOM!” I screamed Vic came running in with the keys to unlock the bathroom; I opened it and ran into the bathroom. There was blood everywhere, “Cass?!” I screamed as she was nowhere in sight, I heard a grunt come from the shower, of course she was in the shower. I opened the shower door and picked her up trying not to hurt her, “Cass,” I sobbed as I held her in my arms
“I called an ambulance,” Vic said as he stood in the doorway. I picked her up from the shower and placed her on my bed, I kept shaking her calling her name to try get her to wake up, but all I would get is a groaning noise and her trying to move. When the ambulance came I went to the hospital with her, Vic called the others then came to the hospital with them.
I sat in the waiting room for two hours or so, rocking back and forth. I couldn’t bear the thought of losing another person so close to me, “which one of you is Mike?” The doctor asked, I stood up and straightened myself out “me” I choked out,
“When you brought Cassidy in she was dead, thankfully we were able to revive her by giving her a stomach pump to flush out all the pills she took and a heart pump to help her heart go at the right speed, we also put butterfly stiches on every wound we could find,” the doctor smiled at me like everything was okay, but it wasn’t. This was my entire fault, if I hadn’t of freaked out when she told me she loves me she would probably be in my arms right now.
“Can I go see her?” I asked she nodded and we all went in to see her, I sat down next to her bed and grabbed her hand.
“I’m so sorry Cassidy,” I kissed her hand over and over again, I looked up and saw Casey place a giant teddy bear next to her bed.
“She’ll be alright” Casey told me as I buried my head in her hospital bed.
“Visiting hours are over in five, you will all need to leave” the doctor told us, the boys and Jaime’s girlfriend stood up and started to head out; but me.
“You too sir,” she said as she laid a hand on me, I looked at her with my probably swollen eyes. Her face dropped when she saw mine, he hand on my shoulder became more sympathetic “you can stay,” she sighed “but only you, and only this night.” She turned to leave but I stopped her
“When will she be awake?” I asked with my eyes darting left to right and so forth
“Tomorrow hopefully” she gave me a weak smile then left, I sat back down to where I was earlier and grabbed onto her hand, I looked at her frail limp body and began to sing blink182 – I miss you to her.
“(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3]
(I miss you, I miss you) [x4]”
“No, there’s hardly any room” he whispered and rested his head back down
“Mike, get up here now. You’ll be sore in the morning” Mike got up reluctantly and I moved over so he could fit, once he was on I snuggled into his arms. I was almost asleep when he whispered “I’m so sorry,”
***Mike’s POV***
I stood there in the mirror touching my tattoos; they all had faces and were pulling funny facials at me. I heard Cassidy laughing from behind me “YOU SEE THEM TOO!” I screamed as I turned to face her, I pulled her into a rough kiss “I love you Mike,” she murmured into the kiss. No, you can’t say that. I thought as I put my boxers and jeans on in a hurry“you can’t say that, not now!” I said just before I left. I stormed through the lounge where Vic was calling after me, once out of the house I ran. She can’t tell me she loves me I thought as I arrived at the cemetery, I sat down at Lucy’s grave and cried against the tombstone. I heard a leaf crunch behind me; I turned around with big puffy eyes and saw Vic.“Mike….” He began as he walked closer to me “Mike it’s almost been ten years,” he sat down next to me and put a comforting arm around me as I continued to cry,
“She’s the only one besides ma who can tell me she loves me” I sobbed, I sat there in Vic’s arm for almost a half an hour before it started to rain so we headed home.
“Where’s Cass?” I asked as I gazed through the window, watching the world get rained on. I heard Vic answer but I blocked it out, when we stopped at the lights I remembered when Lucy and I were fifteen it was raining and we ran into the rain and sat under a big tree that protected us from getting wet.
“Want to play truth or dare?” she smiled at me, whenever I saw her smile I knew everything would be okay, I nodded
“Paper scissors rock! Fuck!” I mumbled, that was the first time I had lost to Lucy in paper scissors rock
“Hmm, dare” I said; giving her a stern look
“I dare you…… To kiss me” without hesitation I leaned forwards and kissed her, it was both our first kiss; but I loved this girl so much I’d do anything she said.
Vic slammed on the brakes as we pulled into the driveway; I gave Vic an evil look before heading inside.
“CASSIDY!” I called out, she didn’t respond so I thought she wouldn’t be here, understandable because this is my parents’ house. I kicked my shoes off and walked into my room and heard the water running, must be having… Another shower, I thought I went to open the door but I stood in something wet “what the fuck?” I mumbled as I looked down I saw myself standing in a pool of blood which came from the bathroom.
“VIC!” I screamed out as I tried to bust down the locked door “VIC BRING THE KEYS TO THE BATHROOM!” I screamed Vic came running in with the keys to unlock the bathroom; I opened it and ran into the bathroom. There was blood everywhere, “Cass?!” I screamed as she was nowhere in sight, I heard a grunt come from the shower, of course she was in the shower. I opened the shower door and picked her up trying not to hurt her, “Cass,” I sobbed as I held her in my arms
“I called an ambulance,” Vic said as he stood in the doorway. I picked her up from the shower and placed her on my bed, I kept shaking her calling her name to try get her to wake up, but all I would get is a groaning noise and her trying to move. When the ambulance came I went to the hospital with her, Vic called the others then came to the hospital with them.
I sat in the waiting room for two hours or so, rocking back and forth. I couldn’t bear the thought of losing another person so close to me, “which one of you is Mike?” The doctor asked, I stood up and straightened myself out “me” I choked out,
“When you brought Cassidy in she was dead, thankfully we were able to revive her by giving her a stomach pump to flush out all the pills she took and a heart pump to help her heart go at the right speed, we also put butterfly stiches on every wound we could find,” the doctor smiled at me like everything was okay, but it wasn’t. This was my entire fault, if I hadn’t of freaked out when she told me she loves me she would probably be in my arms right now.
“Can I go see her?” I asked she nodded and we all went in to see her, I sat down next to her bed and grabbed her hand.
“I’m so sorry Cassidy,” I kissed her hand over and over again, I looked up and saw Casey place a giant teddy bear next to her bed.
“She’ll be alright” Casey told me as I buried my head in her hospital bed.
“Visiting hours are over in five, you will all need to leave” the doctor told us, the boys and Jaime’s girlfriend stood up and started to head out; but me.
“You too sir,” she said as she laid a hand on me, I looked at her with my probably swollen eyes. Her face dropped when she saw mine, he hand on my shoulder became more sympathetic “you can stay,” she sighed “but only you, and only this night.” She turned to leave but I stopped her
“When will she be awake?” I asked with my eyes darting left to right and so forth
“Tomorrow hopefully” she gave me a weak smile then left, I sat back down to where I was earlier and grabbed onto her hand, I looked at her frail limp body and began to sing blink182 – I miss you to her.
“(I miss you, I miss you)
Hello there, the angel from my nightmare
The shadow in the background of the morgue
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley
We can live like Jack and Sally if we want
Where you can always find me
We'll have Halloween on Christmas
And in the night we'll wish this never ends
We'll wish this never ends
(I miss you, I miss you)
(I miss you, I miss you)
Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
[x3]
(I miss you, I miss you) [x4]”
***CASSIDY”S POV***
I woke up and could hardly move, it was dark but I could make out the shapes of everything surrounding me. I tried to move my fingers but I couldn’t move one set, I looked down and saw Mike’s head rested on the bed and his hands entwined with mine. I looked around some more and realized I was in a hospital “Mike?” I whispered, “Mike!” I said a bit louder, he still didn’t move so I shook him a bit “Mike wake up” I whispered, his head slowly raised and our eyes met “come up here” I whispered“No, there’s hardly any room” he whispered and rested his head back down
“Mike, get up here now. You’ll be sore in the morning” Mike got up reluctantly and I moved over so he could fit, once he was on I snuggled into his arms. I was almost asleep when he whispered “I’m so sorry,”
Notes
halfway through writing this i stopped to make myself breakfast and i spilled like 20 honey puffs on my nice clean kitchen floor which i cleaned yesterday D:<Also enjoy :) I'm working on my Tony Perry story now, <3 please comment feedback
I'll update this after I update my other story! Sorry xD it's hard to manage 4 stories xox thank you so much though!
9/12/13