I hurt so bad. Everything just feels like it’s going to explode, my lower body is pretty much purple, it looks horrible. But no matter what I’m feeling Tony can make me feel better, with one touch or kiss nothing else matters.

I’m really excited to see Jaime, Vic and Mike later though. I’ve missed them like crazy! From what I’ve heard Mike is off stocking up on Lucky charms ‘cause the bus is all out-like what?!?!? How have we even managed to go through five boxes already?? Anways Vic is sleeping-aww! And Jaime is well… being Jaime, rounding up the others to get them here later, although I think the only problem he is going to have is finding Mike but whatever. Then there’s Tony, my perfect little Tony. Sitting there looking at me, I look towards him and he smiles at me which just breaks my heart I almost lost this, everything we had. I just think he should be at home, with his family not here, sleeping in the bus waiting for me to get better. I don’t want to burden him, whilst I love him and I know he loves me I just want him to be happy, that’s all.

He’s wearing his glasses today with his hat and then his hood over the top, the usual, he’s wrapped his hand around mine tightly, I just so desperately want to get out of this bed and wrap my arms around him and never let him go. He is the most perfect thing in my life and despite what I said yesterday I’m going to do all I can not to lose him, I’m doing my best to recover, with all their help hopefully it won’t be long.

The noise of Tony’s chair squeaking frightened me and that made him laugh and woke me up from daydreaming. “I forgot how easy it was to frighten you.” He giggled, it was so good seeing him smile, genuinely smile. I couldn’t help but smile even if he was mocking me, “Come here.” I whispered at him drawing him in with my finger. He stood up and looked confused, so I shuffled up along the bed as much I could before it really hurt and patted the bed next to me and lifted the sheets for him to come in.

“Oh.” He said and smiled rather cockily. He slipped his shoes off and climbed in beside me, nestling me in his arms, I put my head in between his neck and shoulder and he placed his head on mine. “I love you.” He whispered at me. “I Love you thiiisss much!” and tried stretching my arms out really wide which just made him laugh at me again. “What have you been doing without me all this time?” Mine turn to laugh at him.
“Erm… err not really a whole lot. We dedicated out last show to you though and obviously Hold On Till May. Everyone seemed to like it too, we had lots of fans wishing you well and stuff.” He showed me his twitter and all the get well soon messages he’d received. “When the guys get here we should get a group photo and post it to say thanks.” I suggested and Tony nodded.

“Let’s not wish them back too soon though.” He laughed and kissing me so gently, it was like we just melted into each other, I started to feel warm and tingly all over. This was perfect. I just hope mike gets lost in the store for a little longer.

Jaime opening the door woke me up, and I turned to see Tony still sleeping like a baby. I covered him up a little more to keep him warm, this is probably the most sleep he has had in a while. “Syd!” Jaime practically yelled and ran over to hug me tightly. I put my finger to my lips and pointed at Tony and Jaime nodded and kissed me on the cheek. “Good to have you back.” He said. “I got you a present!” he looked all please with himself and handed me a little box that was neatly wrapped in pink paper. I opened It to find a locket in the shape of a heart, I opened it and the picture inside was a shrunken version of the group photo of the day we first met. It’s so cute I couldn’t help but cry. “Jaime! This is beautiful! Come here!” I hugged him again tightly and kissed him. I noticed Vic and Mike walk in behind him waving at me silently. They in turn came over and hugged and kissed me. They all took a chair and sat around the bed, which woke Tony up.

He sleepily sat up and looked around. “Oh hey guys” he said rubbing his eyes and looked at me and kissed me again. I love the fact he’s making up for lost time. I showed him my new necklace and he laughed, turned to Jaime and said “So that’s what you were doing this morning then?” Jaime just nodded with a massive grin on his face. “You better start thinking if you’re gonna out do me Tone.” Jaime winked at him. Tony just threw him the finger and kissed me again then stuck his tongue out at Jaime. Vic stood up and walked past Jaime to get to me and handed me another parcel, which was wrapped in purple paper and the label read ‘glad to have ya back Sydney. Love Vic and Mike xx’ I unwrapped it to see some new clothes, a vans shirt, some jeans and a photo frame, it had me and Vic in it from when we were backstage one night pulling silly faces.

“This is amazing! Thanks guys” I blew them kisses and they came and gave me proper ones and hugs. “We figured you could use some new clothes, seeing as your favourite ones were ruined, okay so it’s not a star wars hoodie or a dress bu-“
“It’s perfect! Thanks so much! Hey thanks for dedicating that show top me by the way. Oh and could we possibly take a group photo to send to them- the well-wishers I mean.”
“Sure!” They all pretty much said in unison with a few head nods. Tony sat up a little more next to me, Jaime got in the other side, Vic sat at the edge of the bed and laid across my legs and Mike sat just in front of Tony. Vic and Jaime did a thumbs up, Mike the the devil horns and Tony was kissing my cheek. Vic took the photo of us all on the bed on his phone and sent it round to us. We look like an absolute bunch of nutjobs, but I wouldn’t want to be anywhere or anyone else. We’re a family.