As I lay lifelessly under the covers in my bed I began to hum softly. A song I didn't quite know why I was singing. The sheets over my face were shielding me from the light that had seeped into the room. I groaned loudly as it became clear that I would have to stop doing this soon. I heard the bedroom door open slowly and footsteps come over to the bed. I didn't bother to look at the person. They climbed into bed and grabbed my hand. It was too small to be Vics and I highly doubt he would wanna see me right now anyway. It must be Jenna.

"Are you going to leave the room today" I heard her speak up. I didn't respond. "Hayley it has been a week okay, everyones worried and nobody knows what to do. Help us out a little" She pleaded. "At least say something" She muttered. I closed my eyes and sighed. "I know this is difficult. I can't even begin to imagine what you are going through but you need to talk. You need to speak to somone. I don't care if it's me or one of the most randomest people in the house, someone will do. We need you. We need you to get better. Vic needs you" She pleaded more.

I sighed even more. "I don't wanna talk to Vic" I said quietly. She turned on her side to face me and I done the same. She swiped the hair out of my face and smiled. "I want to get better Jenna but I can't right now" I muttered.

She smiled softly. "Hey, take your time. You have two days left and since you're leaving to go to Japan, I decided to come with you guys. Since things aren't great but only for the two weeks before you go home for the holidays" She said softly. I smiled widely at her. "Please get out of bed today" She said with hope in her eyes. I closed my eyes and nodded.

I pulled the sheets off my head and sat up, throwing my legs off the other side of the bed. I went over to my suitcase and pulled out clothes to wear. "I'm only doing this for the simple fact that I need to. Otherwise I wouldn't. Tell me this though" I said picking up my jeans and shirt. "Why hasn't Vic tried to talk to me?" I asked.

"Vic hasn't said a word to anyone Hayley. He is broken" She said softly. I nodded and accepted her words.

I went to the nearest bathroom and got dressed quickly. I washed my face and put my hair in a messy ponytail. I looked at my reflection in the mirror. I was pale and broken. My eyes looked tired and dull, the circles under them from not sleeping and crying all night were purple and horrible. I tried my best to put on some makeup but it really didn't make a difference. I was breaking down and everyone would be able to see it.

I left the bathroom and went back to my room. Jenna was sitting on the edge of my bed waiting for me. She smiled softly at me and stood up. "Come on, everyone will be delighted to see you" She said as she gabbed my hand. She pulled me out of my room and down the stairs. I could hear talking and laughing. As I approached the end of the stairs I seen Tony, Jeremy, Taylor, Whakaio and Jaime playing Xbox. They were chatting away until Taylor seen us over at the stairs.

"Hayley" He said dropping his controller and walking over to me. He pulled me into his arms and hugged me tightly. "You okay? I've missed you being around. I'm glad you've came down" He said quickly. I pulled back and smiled weakly.

"Needed a change I guess. What are you guys doing?" I asked looking back to the rest of them. They all looked at me happily. I guess people were beginning to miss me.

"We are playing Call Of Duty. Wanna play?" Jaime said holding his controller up. I looked at Taylor and he nodded.

"Sure guys" I smiled and walked over to them. We played a few rounds of Call Of Duty when I heard the front door open and shut quickly. I continued to play when I heard whispers. "Alright Tony, prepare to be served" I said evilly as I shot him in the head. He threw his controller down and groaned. "Bitches, I come down here for five minutes and already woop your asses" I said with sass.

"Hey, it's not our fault that you're better than us" Jaime pouted. I rolled my eyes and looked around to find Jenna. She was sitting on the stairs with Vic. He looked up and all I could see was pain in his eyes. He looked like I did really. Like nothing was okay. "Yo, Hayley you playing again?" Jaime said snapping me out of my daydream.

"No, Jaime I'm gonna go for a walk down to the beach" I said softly. I got up and went over to the door and put on my shoes and a hoody. I left the house and walked down onto the beach and sat down on the sand. The sun beat down on me so I took my shoes off and decided to let my feet sink into the sand.

I stayed like this for about ten minutes until I felt someone sit down beside me. I looked to see Vic staring out into the ocean. I did the same. Without a word being said we sat there, silently for what felt like hours. That couldn't last though, Jenna was right... we had to talk. "I'm sorry" I whispered. He looked at me with hurt in his eyes.

"Why, you don't have to be" He muttered. I looked away and tried not to let the tears well up in my eyes. "It's no ones fault what happened. We just gotta try to grow from this" He said softly.

"I don't know how to. I don't want to" I said shaking my head. "I just can't seem to look past what you done" I shook my head even more. He looked so hurt.

"Hayley, I had to chose if you lived or not. As harsh as it sounds, I need you alive. We can make another baby but without you I would have nothing" He said sincerely. I closed my eyes and let the tears fall. "That was so hard to do. Honestly, if I can't make you understand then I'm sorry. I guess this is it huh?" He asked and began to stand up.

I panicked and pulled him back down. "No. Don't leave me" I said pleading with him. He closed his eyes and nodded. "I'm sorry, I really am. I just need time to deal with this" I whispered. He looked into my eyes and wiped away my tears.

"I'll be there every step of the way but you gotta include me" He said sternly. I nodded and he pulled me into his arms. "I love you, so fucking much Hayley. I just don't wanna lose you" He mumbled into my hair. I pulled back and looked up at him.

"I love you, I love you" I said looking straight into his eyes. Those beautiful brown eyes made everything feel a little better, even if it was only for a second. I leaned in and kissed his lips lightly. "I love you" I whispered against his lips.