When You Can't Sleep at Night
5
My heart skipped a beat as the beginning chords played. I know this song, I helped write this song. I grabbed my guitar off of the bed and played along. I stopped playing and held my breath when the familiar voice of Vic Fuentes filled my ears;
Like a rush shot through you
Everyone is watching you
Told you why I see no need for the sun
(I've found a reason to say)
A love you light is a love soon gone
If this is it
Don't bother cause this love is a lie
I'm a chemical kid
You're a mechanical bride
(When every vein is red out of the blue)
I held a diamond to the sun
To count the moments on account of the way you
Smile, smile for me
(Oh, we're in slow motion when you)
Smile, smile for me
But, oh my God, I've been looking
But I still hold your breath so you won't leave
Pastel-red and porn star-white
Ghost on the altar
We breathe, don't leave
Say that the night sings alone
And if there's a God
Then I'm letting Him go
All for you, you alone
Raise my hands
At the thought of you leaving me alone
What if I... what if I...
What if I, I still care?
Don't torture me or beg me
Can you make me believe in tiring?
As the guitar solo, my guitar solo, started, I started playing along again. Even though it's been years, I still have it memorized. I was proud of this when I wrote it, and even more when the three of us performed it for our music class.
As you fall fast asleep, it reminds me
Of the slow symphonies behind me
(They sing along)
All the nightmares you'll see tomorrow
All the stars on your ceiling
They glow but not for you
Through the trees, I'll blow
When the song ended, I felt tears welling in my eyes. How had I been so stupid not to realize that the Vic we met today was Vic Fuentes? But... Does that mean that his brother, the drummer, was my Mike? It had to be him, Vic only had one brother... It makes sense now, why looking at him brought back memories of our relationship, because I was looking at Mike himself.
I felt my heart start beating faster, and a familiar pit filled my stomach. The air around me got heavy, it was getting harder to breath, I started hyperventilating, trying to get in as much air as I could. I stood up slowly and stumbled down the hall to the bathroom. I rumaged through the drawers until I found my stash, I held one of my blades in a shakey hand.
I pulled my shirt off and pressed it into my stomach and pulled. I winced at the pain, but after a few more cuts, I wasn't so shakey anymore. After a few more cuts, the air lightened and I could breath again. A few more and I was calm again. I took a few deep breaths before cutting myself a few more times, just to make sure I stayed calm. I grabbed a towel and wiped my stomach off before bandaging myself up. I poured bleach over the blood stained floor, even though it didn't do much. Not like any of the guys would care too much, except for Jaime maybe...
I headed back to my room, but I stopped infront of Jaime's. I heard the sound of his bass fill the room. It sounded nice against the recording of Chemical Kids playing in the background. Hearing them together made me feel weird... I continued passed his room and into my own.
Do I still want to continue in the audition process? I knew that if I told Vic who I was he'd let me in... But that didn't seem quite fair... Could I possibly be in band with Mike? I remembered the promise I made Jaime, that we'd be famous together, this was a big chance for us. Both Vic and Mike have a lot of talent, they'd be famous someday no matter what... I don't want to do this just for fame though, something about them being who they are made it a lot easier to do it for the music. I loved it, I really did, of course it was for the music.
I remembered that at one point Mike told me we should start a band together with Vic. And here I am now, auditioning for their band... Could this be fate? Or am I going crazy? I desided on the latter... But still, this is some coinsidense, I have to roll with this I think. But maybe I'd keep my identity secret until after I made it into the band, and if I didn't... Then that would be the end of that, and I wouldn't tell them. That sounds like a pretty good plan.
I picked up my guitar and started playing the song that I composed years ago.
Like a rush shot through you
Everyone is watching you
Told you why I see no need for the sun
(I've found a reason to say)
A love you light is a love soon gone
If this is it
Don't bother cause this love is a lie
I'm a chemical kid
You're a mechanical bride
(When every vein is red out of the blue)
I held a diamond to the sun
To count the moments on account of the way you
Smile, smile for me
(Oh, we're in slow motion when you)
Smile, smile for me
But, oh my God, I've been looking
But I still hold your breath so you won't leave
Pastel-red and porn star-white
Ghost on the altar
We breathe, don't leave
Say that the night sings alone
And if there's a God
Then I'm letting Him go
All for you, you alone
Raise my hands
At the thought of you leaving me alone
What if I... what if I...
What if I, I still care?
Don't torture me or beg me
Can you make me believe in tiring?
As the guitar solo, my guitar solo, started, I started playing along again. Even though it's been years, I still have it memorized. I was proud of this when I wrote it, and even more when the three of us performed it for our music class.
As you fall fast asleep, it reminds me
Of the slow symphonies behind me
(They sing along)
All the nightmares you'll see tomorrow
All the stars on your ceiling
They glow but not for you
Through the trees, I'll blow
When the song ended, I felt tears welling in my eyes. How had I been so stupid not to realize that the Vic we met today was Vic Fuentes? But... Does that mean that his brother, the drummer, was my Mike? It had to be him, Vic only had one brother... It makes sense now, why looking at him brought back memories of our relationship, because I was looking at Mike himself.
I felt my heart start beating faster, and a familiar pit filled my stomach. The air around me got heavy, it was getting harder to breath, I started hyperventilating, trying to get in as much air as I could. I stood up slowly and stumbled down the hall to the bathroom. I rumaged through the drawers until I found my stash, I held one of my blades in a shakey hand.
I pulled my shirt off and pressed it into my stomach and pulled. I winced at the pain, but after a few more cuts, I wasn't so shakey anymore. After a few more cuts, the air lightened and I could breath again. A few more and I was calm again. I took a few deep breaths before cutting myself a few more times, just to make sure I stayed calm. I grabbed a towel and wiped my stomach off before bandaging myself up. I poured bleach over the blood stained floor, even though it didn't do much. Not like any of the guys would care too much, except for Jaime maybe...
I headed back to my room, but I stopped infront of Jaime's. I heard the sound of his bass fill the room. It sounded nice against the recording of Chemical Kids playing in the background. Hearing them together made me feel weird... I continued passed his room and into my own.
Do I still want to continue in the audition process? I knew that if I told Vic who I was he'd let me in... But that didn't seem quite fair... Could I possibly be in band with Mike? I remembered the promise I made Jaime, that we'd be famous together, this was a big chance for us. Both Vic and Mike have a lot of talent, they'd be famous someday no matter what... I don't want to do this just for fame though, something about them being who they are made it a lot easier to do it for the music. I loved it, I really did, of course it was for the music.
I remembered that at one point Mike told me we should start a band together with Vic. And here I am now, auditioning for their band... Could this be fate? Or am I going crazy? I desided on the latter... But still, this is some coinsidense, I have to roll with this I think. But maybe I'd keep my identity secret until after I made it into the band, and if I didn't... Then that would be the end of that, and I wouldn't tell them. That sounds like a pretty good plan.
I picked up my guitar and started playing the song that I composed years ago.
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