I sighed loudly, I had been wandering around for the past 2 hours. I was completely lost. I was freezing. I knew he was still here. He may not be showing himself, but I could still feel his presence. I stared off into the blackness, that's all I could see now. It was pitch black. I could feel my sanity escaping me, which was something I was surprised didn't happen before. I felt like shit, and I knew that I was alone again. I just got physical with the only person willing to deal with all of this craziness. Fucking idiot, look at yourself. Look what you got yourself into. Idiot! It may have not been me exactly, but I didn't fight it enough. I didn't fight him enough. I would hate myself forever for that. How could I let him hurt the person I loved? How could I let myself hurt the person I loved? If he was going to do that just because Vic was 'making me do something I didn't want to do' what else was he going to do? What else is he capable of? I know he's capable of murder. I needed to be careful..

I was figuring it all out now- I couldn't let him get to me. I wouldn't let him get to me. I'm not insane, all of this really happening, and if I believe I'm going insane, he's winning. I won't let it happen to me. I won't let him get inside my head anymore. I'm me, I'm my own person. He's not going to take over me, he's not going to take over my actions anymore. I needed to be strong. He won't control me. I won't let him. This was it, I was going to break free. This is why I have been so tortured, I've been letting myself be tortured.

Not anymore. I'm done with the past, I'm done dwelling on things that happened so long ago. I'm going to become a new person, a better person. I'm going to be happy. I'm going to be normal. And nobody was going to stop me from doing that. I'm done living my life in fear. I'm done being weak.

I stood up and brushed myself off. I began walking the way that my mind told me to. And soon enough, I was back at my house. I stepped inside and closed the door, turning on the lights. As soon as I did that, he stood in front of me.

"Hey, it's nice to see you again." I smiled. "I'm going to sleep though, help yourself to anything."

I walked into my room and tore off my clothes. I stepped into some pajama pants and a t-shirt. I threw my clothes from before in my hamper, then stepped inside my bathroom. I brushed my teeth and turned to see him standing next to me again.

"I don't have any extra toothbrushes, sorry." I smirked. I could tell he was becoming weak, he fuels off of fear. I wasn't going to fuel him anymore. I walked past him and climbed into my bed. I pulled out my phone and checked the time, 3:18am. Lovely. I unlocked my phone and checked my messages. I had 3 new ones, all from Vic.

From Vic:
I'm sorry for whatever I did wrong. I can see now that you just need your space, I'll leave you alone.

From Vic:
You won't have to deal with me any longer, I'll just stay out of your life.

From Vic:
Carlee oh my god, please tell me you're okay. I'm sorry for leaving you out there, I should've stayed. I'm so sorry, please call me as soon as possible!

I checked my missed calls, I had 8 missed calls. 7 from Vic, 1 from Mike. I sighed and tapped on Vic's number. He answered after the second ring.

"Carlee oh my god, are you okay?!"

"Vic, I'm fine. Come over?"

"Of course. I'll be there in like 5 minutes."

"Alright, bye." I hung up the phone, and just like he said, 5 minutes later I heard tires screeching. I went to the door and let him inside. We walked into my room and he sat down on the edge of my bed while I sat next to the headboard. I studied his face, it had a huge welt in the shape of a hand. I didn't realize that I-he, hit him so hard.

"Oh, baby.." I sighed. I stood up and ran into the kitchen and pulled out an icepack. I returned and held it up to his face.

"I just want to say, Vic.. it wasn't me. It wasn't me who hit you. I know it sounds crazy and you probably don't believe it, but it wasn't me. I would never hurt you like this."

"I know," he mumbled. "I believe you."

I removed the icepack and kissed his cheek lightly before returning it to his face.

"I'm so sorry, it must hurt a lot," I sighed, looking down at myself.

"Carlee, the only thing that hurt me was what you said.." he mumbled, his voice shaking a bit. I didn't realize I hurt him so bad.. Not even just physically, but emotionally.

"Vic I didn't mean any of it, I just needed you to get away because I knew you'd end up getting hurt." I sighed. "You need to believe that it wasn't me, none of what happened earlier was me. I'm so sorry."

"Who was it then?" he asked. I looked up and my eyes met with his, confusing filling his eyes. I was about to speak when I saw him in the corner of my eye.

"He's here Vic.. turn around. Can you see him?"

Vic turned around and shook his head. "I have no idea what you're talking about."

"It's my brother, he's here and he's mad."

"What?" he asked, staring at me weirdly.

"My brother is back Vic. He's here, he's mad at me. He wants me to go insane, he wants us to be scared. It fuels him."

He chuckled a bit, "Carlee I'm starting to get worried."

"I knew you wouldn't believe me." I said, a tear falling from my eye. His eyes went sad and he put his hand up to my cheek, wiping the tear away.

"I do believe you. I'm worried about him, what is he going to do?"

"Nothing. If we don't let him." I said.

"Well, I can't even see him so that's not a problem for me." he laughed.

"You really want to stay with me after all of this?" I asked. He furrowed his eyebrows and looked at me with concern.

"Of course I do, why wouldn't I?" he said, moving over on the bed so he could lay next to me.

"Because it's all just crazy.. and you don't deserve to have to deal with it." I sighed. He scoot over next to me and pulled me into his arms.

"I'm perfectly fine dealing with all of this because I love you. I love you so much, okay?"

"Why though? How did I get so lucky?"

"It has nothing to do with luck, and if anything I'm lucky for having you. You're beautiful, you're strong, you're so much fun to be around, you make me so happy it's insane. You give me a reason to be here."

I felt a huge smile form across my face. I looked over to the corner of my room where my brother was, but he was gone now.

"I love you." I smiled.

"I love you too."

And then I fell asleep in his arms, sleeping the best I had in months.