Today is the second day of school. I jumped into the shower, looking at all of my scars. I didn't cut last night, because for once, I felt a bit of happiness. I didn't want to ruin it by cutting. I didn't cry as much as I usually do in the shower today, and for that I felt good. I jumped out of the shower and wrapped myself up in a towel. I combed through my hair and blow dried it. Today I decided I would curl it. I grabbed a bunch of big and little pieces and made loose curls in my hair, and it looked really good. I did my makeup and decided to do a little bit of eyeshadow today. I had a good feeling today wasn't going to be that bad. I went into my closet and scanned over my clothes, looking for something to wear. I pulled out a plain grey sweater, some black leggings, a lavender cashmere scarf and my grey combat boots. I pulled my outfit on and grabbed my backpack. I looked at the time. It was only 7:45, but since I have Tony and Jaime now, I decided I would go to school early. I had nothing better to do anyways. I jumped in my car and headed to school. It was raining a little bit today, but not too bad. I loved the rain anyways.

I parked my car and got out. I started walking up to the school when I heard my name being called out. I turned around to see nobody calling my name, so I just kept walking. I walked into the school and turned down a hall to see a certain person that I hated to see.. Aubrey. I immediately turned around to go back around the hall when I heard her start talking.

"Oh hey Camrie look, it's Whore Devore!" she said, emphasizing on the words 'whore devore.' I turned around, my face flushed red and I could feel my skin start to boil. Just the sight of her made me want to rip her throat out for what she did to me, and for her to say that to me, Oh fuck. I need to get out of here. I gave her a dirty look and turned back around and started walking. She ran up to me and pushed me back.

"Don't fucking walk away when I'm talking to you, whore." she spat in my face. I started clenching my teeth together, trying to keep my self-control, something I barely had any of. Why did I have to come to school early today? I just looked at her, my eyes full of rage and she backed up a bit, only to come back and push me harder.

"Does this piss you off, fat ass?" she asked, shoving me again. I just stared at her, clenching my teeth and tightening my jaw. She shoved me again. "Huh?" She shoved me once again and I decided to say something this time.

"Stop fucking touching me." She looked at me and started laughing. "Obviously it does piss you off." she shoved me again. Camrie, of all people knew not to fuck with me like that, and she was laughing too. I shot her a glare. Aubrey shoved me again, making me stumble into the lockers.

"You're so fucking pathetic." she said, shoving me again.

"Seriously, FUCKING STOP TOUCHING ME." I shouted. Camrie looked at me and knew I wasn't fucking around anymore. "Uh, Aubrey, maybe you should stop now. She looks really pissed." she mumbled.

"No, it's funny to see this pathetic WHORE get pissed off." she said, shoving me again.

"Touch me one more fucking time. I dare you." I spat. If she touches me again, I swear to god I might fucking kill her. More and more people were in the hallway now, none of them saying a word, just watching.

"Oh really?" she said, challenging me. She shoved me again, and I wasn't going to go back on what I said. I grabbed her by the throat and pushed her into the opposite row of lockers from us as hard as I could. Everyone around us just stared in disbelief, a couple of them running out of the hallway.

"Holy fucking shit! You're satanic!" she yelled.

"I told you to stop fucking touching me, but no, you had to go and be a fucking cunt and keep messing with me. I told you to stop, you put this on yourself. So fucking touch me again bitch, and I swear I will beat the shit out of you." I spat, clenching my teeth together again. She got herself together and pulled her first back, letting it fly into my face. I stumbled back a little bit but caught myself. This fucking bitch is going to get it. I ran over to her, and threw my fist into her face as hard as I could, knocking her to the ground. I jumped on top of her and continued to punch her over and over again. By this time, there was a bunch of kids surrounding us. There were no teachers in sight. I pulled her and myself up to our feet, and shoved her back into the lockers. I grabbed her head and slammed it against the locker. She winced in pain and pushed me off of her. She started to run, and I ran after her, only to be pulled back halfway through the crowd. I whipped around to see who it was.

Tony.

"What the fuck are you doing, Carlee?!" he yelled. I looked at him, barely being able to handle being yelled at. It's a different thing for a girl to be yelling at you, but for a guy to be yelling at you, yeah, it hurts. Especially when you care about him. I just looked at him. He shook me a bit before asking again. "Seriously Carlee, what the hell?" he said, pulling me away from the crowd. He brought me outside and walked me through the parking lot of the school. He pulled me into his car and got inside himself.

"Why were you hitting her?!" he yelled.

"Tony, you didn't see the whole entire thing, so I would really appreciate it if you wouldn't fucking yell at me." I shouted back, voice trembling. Why the fuck am I about to cry? He just looked at me.

"Okay, I'm sorry. Explain please." I told him the whole story of what happened before he got there. He just looked at me.

"Wow, fuck her. Why did she even do that in the first place? Why did she say those things to you?" he asked. I sighed.

"It's such a long story.."

"I don't care, I have time." he replied. I looked at the clock and laughed.

"Tony, we're already late for first period." I said, laughing. He looked at the clock and laughed himself.

"Oh well, we're late anyways. Might as well just make the best of it. Please tell me." he said, sticking out his bottom lip, making a pouty face. I just laughed and sighed again. I hated bringing it back up.

"Okay, it's really long though, so if you get bored of listening, just let me know. I don't want you falling asleep on me." I laughed. He just nodded.

"Alright, well, to start it off.. Aubrey and I used to be bestfriends, 2 years ago. If you haven't noticed, I've changed completely over the past 2 years. And the reason for that is her. She fucked me up so bad Tony, you don't even know. She's the reason for all the scars I have. She's the reason everyone hates me." I started. He nodded again, telling me to go on.

"Okay.. So.. let me just put this out there so it makes more sense for you. Camrie and I were bestfriends for the longest time, before I even met Aubrey. Then I met Aubrey and it'd either just be me and Aubrey hanging out, or me and Camrie hanging out. Until I introduced them to each other. Then we were all three bestfriends, like instantly. Camrie and I don't have all the money in the world, and Aubrey has a lot of fucking money. Or her parents I guess. Anyways, her parents would always offer to buy Camrie and I things. Things we didn't want. Even when we told them no, they'd buy it for us anyways. They felt the need to buy us things, just because we didn't buy ourselves things. It's not that we didn't have money or whatever, but we just knew how to spend it. Aubrey would always pay for our entry to parties and whatever else, and I would always tell her no, but she'd do it anyways. There was no getting out of it once she offered. Her parents would take Camrie and I out to eat and shit, and we'd order like the cheapest thing on the menu to SHARE, and then her parents would get us the most expensive thing on the menu, one for each of us. Even after we told them no. So needless to say, they spent a shit load of money on us, like we were their own kids."

"Anyways, there was one summer when Camrie went to her mom's house and was away from us, so me and Aubrey hung out almost every single day. More money spent, more things I didn't want, blah blah. And Aubrey was a total whore, she had a new boyfriend every three days and was hooking up with a new boy every night, not even exaggerating. She was a whore, and I didn't like that. There was one night when she was trying to get with a guy who was like 6 years older than us, and we were only 15. So I told him how old she really was, and he cut her off completely. She got so pissed off at me and stopped talking to me for a couple of days. I just kind of shrugged it off, I was only trying to look out for her, you know?"

"Anyways.. Camrie was coming back from her mom's for 3 days, then leaving for the rest of the summer again to her aunt's house. So there was 3 days that whole summer I would get to see her, obviously I was going to take advantage of it. I invited Aubrey every day to come with us, and she turned us down each time. So I just shrugged that off too. The day that Camrie left also the same day as my birthday, I woke up and got on Facebook to see that Aubrey's dad had posted on her wall saying "You deserve a better friend than the one you call your bestfriend. She's just a selfish bitch and my daughter deserves better than that. I love you!" And that fucking hurt, so bad. I had a close relationship with her parents and to see her dad say that about me killed me. And what killed me even more, was all of my close friends liked the post. So I texted her and asked about it, and she just pretending like she had no idea why he would say that. I got back on Facebook to see her comment on that post saying "I love you daddy, I couldn't agree more." and that seriously killed me so much. You don't even know. That night - my BIRTHDAY, I cried myself to sleep. The next day, I got a text from her saying, "Just to let you know, we're not friends anymore. You used me for my money. And I fucking hate you." And to be honest, I didn't even care anymore. She was a fucking terrible friend, and I didn't even care for the stuff she bought me. I didn't want any of it anyways. I just texted back saying, "Okay then. That's your choice." and she replied, "Fuck you, you're just a rat-faced fat ass ugly bitch!" and that hurts seeing your 'bestfriend' say that to you. So I just didn't reply, and cried myself to sleep another night. I woke up and she posted a status saying "I know I'm fat and ugly, but you don't need to remind me." and everyone asked who said that, and she told them all I said that. And ALL of my friends were commenting awful shit about me."

"She turned all of my friends against me, she made every single person hate me, telling them god-awful lies about me. And ever since then, I haven't been the same. I've become so afraid to even talk to people anymore. That's why I'm so fucked up now. And thinking about it makes me cry every fucking time. She ruined my life. And even my family took her side, too. I was completely alone.."

"I've thought about suicide multiple times, and attempted it more times than I can count on my hands. I resorted to just cutting myself to ease the pain. She ruined me, and she still continues to fuck with me. I couldn't help it anymore today.. That's the reason for all of my scars, Tony. That's the reason I can't even have a decent fucking conversation anymore. She has fucked me up so bad, Tony. And there's much more to the story than just all of that. It was fucking horrible, and I was so young. For a grown ass adult - man to be saying shit about a little 15 year old girl? That's fucked up. And Camrie took Aubrey's side, which is what killed me the most."

"I've been completely alone for 2 fucking years Tony.." I started crying, I couldn't help it. Every single time I thought about it, I just fucking broke down. "You're the first person to even give me a chance.." I cried. He just sat there, staring at me. I saw tears start to form in his eyes.

"Why are you crying?" I asked, voice shaking.

"Because, I feel so fucking bad.. I'm so sorry Carlee, oh my god.. That's terrible what she did to you. I can't believe people don't see through the lies. I can't believe I never saw through them. I'm so sorry for yelling at you before, I had no idea.. I'm so, so sorry. She deserves to get beat to fucking death. That's so fucked up.."

I opened the car door and got out. I took out a mirror and fixed my makeup. Great, I pretty much cried all of it off.. Oh well. Tony got out and ran over to me, wrapping his arms around me. His sudden embrace scared me, but I hugged him back. I just opened up to him, and I've only known him for a day. He's the only person to ever know my story, and.. he's still here. That felt fucking amazing. We just sat there hugging and crying for what seemed like 10 seconds, but I checked the time and it was more like 10 minutes. I pulled away and looked into his eyes.

"You're so strong, Carlee. You don't even know." he mumbled. I look down at my arms.

"Tony, if I was strong I wouldn't have these.." I said, pointing at my scars.

"They're just battle scars, Carlee. They're proof that you're still fighting. You're not alone anymore. You'll never be alone again, and I can promise you that, but only if you promise me you won't even think about hurting yourself again." I took a deep breath, letting it out with a smile. I smiled so big. I couldn't help it. I was so happy to hear him say that. I looked him in the eyes again.

"I promise."

Notes

Carlee's outfit for school: http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=88600560

I hope you guys are liking this story so far.. this was a very emotional chapter for me. Enjoy. :)