I still think you're beautiful, and I don't ever want to lose my bestfriend.
Forgive and Forget
I've been writing in my journal for school a lot lately, trying to catch up on the days I missed. I decided to write about everything; and when I say everything, I mean everything. I started from when my parents died, to when I was sent to live with my grandparents, when my brother killed himself, when I got emancipated.. Everything that happened with Aubrey, every name I got called that stuck out in my mind.. Everything that happened with Ethan and his friends, and then the night I went into a coma.
I also wrote about the happy things in my life though. I wrote about meeting Tony and how he helped me through this year a lot. I wrote about meeting Vic, Mike and Jaime. I wrote about everything with Vic. I wrote about how much he means to me and how he saved me.
I literally wrote about everything. And I was caught up. In fact, I was ahead. I was so far ahead I probably wouldn't have to write anything else in it. I was running out of pages anyways.
We were nearing the end of our first semester and we were about to go on Christmas break, thank God. We were going to get 2 weeks off of school for Christmas and New Years.
I was getting ready for my last week of school before our break. Today was Monday. Just one more week and then I get a break away from all the people I despised. I was getting ready and I pulled on a plain white tank top and a leather jacket. With that, I pulled on some plain washed jeans with a couple of holes and some combat boots. I straightened my hair and put on my makeup. I walked out into my room and looked in my full body mirror, feeling confident about today.
My phone (I got a new one when I woke up from my coma) started to ring and I picked it up to see Jaime's name on the screen. I tapped accept and held it up to my ear.
"Hey Hime." I smiled, putting some stuff into my backpack.
"Hey! Vic asked me to pick you up today because he got called into work early. So when do you want me to come?"
"Whenever. I'm ready, so just let me know when you're on your way." I said.
"Alright. I'll call you in a few minutes then." he replied. I hung up the phone and decided to make myself a quick breakfast. Vic taught me how he made his omelets, so I decided to make one of those. I fried it up and put it on a plate, scarfing it down quickly. My phone started ringing, and instead of picking it up I walked outside to see Jaime waiting. He hung up the phone as I slid into the car and he pulled off.
"So what are you doing for Christmas?" he asked. I pushed my lips together and furrowed my eyebrows a bit. I honestly had no idea. I was pretty much alone, and I'm sure Vic had plans with his family.
"I'll probably just watch some movies, maybe go shopping or something." I laughed.
"Wow. Sounds like a party." he laughed.
"I don't know, there's nothing really for me to do." I sighed.
"Well I'm sure Vic has something planned." he said as we pulled into the school.
"We need to hang out more, Hime." I smiled, getting out of the car.
"Yeah we do." he laughed. We walked into the school to see Tony and Aubrey fighting in the middle of the hallway. We got there right as it was ending.
"Fuck you! I used you just to fuck up Carlee more anyways!" she yelled, storming off. Tony's eyes were full of tears as he turned to the lockers and slammed his head into it. Jaime and I ran up to him, pulling him away from the lockers.
"Tony what the hell happened?" I asked. Tony and I weren't talking since that night. So I was pretty surprised by my own actions.
"Aubrey and I just broke up, in case you're too stupid to fucking see that." he snapped.
"Calm down dude. Don't be a dick." Jaime said.
"I'm sorry. I'm just super stressed out." he said, looking at me.
"Well why did you guys break up?" I asked.
"Wasn't it obvious? She used me."
"Tony.. I tried telling you.. I wasn't just saying that cause I don't like her. I truly cared about you and I didn't want you to get hurt. I'm sorry, though. Is there anything I can do?"
"No. It's over. It's fine." he said, looking down at his feet. "I'm just mad that I let her change me. I'm sorry guys.."
"It's fine." Jaime said, patting his back. "Let's hang out today. Maybe I'll be able to get your mind off things." he winked.
"Oh my god." I laughed. Jaime and Tony always said things like that. Well.. used to at least. I'm happy to see Tony is back now.
"Alright, babe." Tony laughed. The bell rang and Tony and I headed to first period. We took our seats and he kept staring at me.
"I've missed you." he mumbled.
"I've missed you too." I laughed.
"I'm sorry for everything.. I'm sorry for everything I did. I'm sorry for taking Aubrey's side. I'm sorry for becoming the thing I promised I never would. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." he kept repeating that he was sorry. I just let him let all his emotions out. He must feel awful, or at least he should for what he did. Not even just to me, but to Vic. Vic didn't deserve any of that.
"Tony. It's okay. I'm okay now. The person you should be apologizing too is Vic, not me." I said. He nodded and pulled out his phone.
"Not over the phone." I laughed. "Come over to his house with me today and tell him in person."
He hesitated for a minute but then agreed to doing it.
--
The rest of the day went by fine. Tony and I talked about things and we're friends again. Same with Jaime, obviously. We all had a good time in music class and now we're heading to Vic's. We got to his house and went up to his door. I knocked and he opened it, pulling me into a hug.
"Hey beautiful." he smiled.
"Hey. Guess what happened today?" I smiled.
"What?"
"Aubrey and Tony broke up and Tony is back to normal again." I laughed.
"Oh thank god." he smiled. I walked inside and Jaime and Tony came up and walked in.
Vic turned around and saw Tony walk in.
"Hey Tone." he mumbled.
"Hey Vic."
Jaime walked over to me while Vic and Tony talked.
"This is so awkward." he laughed. I nodded and shushed him so I could hear what Tony and Vic were saying.
"I'm so sorry dude. What I did was so fucking messed up, and I know that now. I'm not necessarily blaming Aubrey for everything, but she was a big help to why I did what I did. I was just super jealous of you guys and Aubrey came up with the idea.. so I went through with it obviously.. and I'm so sorry. I don't expect you to forgive me, but I am really hoping we can at least end this on good terms." Tony was going to go on, but then Vic stopped him in the middle of it.
"It's been a month, Tony. I'm over it a little by now. Especially since Carlee is okay. Forgive and forget, I guess."
Tony smiled and then they hugged for a minute.
"Vic! Stay away from my boyfriend!" Jaime yelled, running over to them.
I was definitely happy. This was how things were supposed to be. Things were finally okay again.
I just hope it stays this way.
I also wrote about the happy things in my life though. I wrote about meeting Tony and how he helped me through this year a lot. I wrote about meeting Vic, Mike and Jaime. I wrote about everything with Vic. I wrote about how much he means to me and how he saved me.
I literally wrote about everything. And I was caught up. In fact, I was ahead. I was so far ahead I probably wouldn't have to write anything else in it. I was running out of pages anyways.
We were nearing the end of our first semester and we were about to go on Christmas break, thank God. We were going to get 2 weeks off of school for Christmas and New Years.
I was getting ready for my last week of school before our break. Today was Monday. Just one more week and then I get a break away from all the people I despised. I was getting ready and I pulled on a plain white tank top and a leather jacket. With that, I pulled on some plain washed jeans with a couple of holes and some combat boots. I straightened my hair and put on my makeup. I walked out into my room and looked in my full body mirror, feeling confident about today.
My phone (I got a new one when I woke up from my coma) started to ring and I picked it up to see Jaime's name on the screen. I tapped accept and held it up to my ear.
"Hey Hime." I smiled, putting some stuff into my backpack.
"Hey! Vic asked me to pick you up today because he got called into work early. So when do you want me to come?"
"Whenever. I'm ready, so just let me know when you're on your way." I said.
"Alright. I'll call you in a few minutes then." he replied. I hung up the phone and decided to make myself a quick breakfast. Vic taught me how he made his omelets, so I decided to make one of those. I fried it up and put it on a plate, scarfing it down quickly. My phone started ringing, and instead of picking it up I walked outside to see Jaime waiting. He hung up the phone as I slid into the car and he pulled off.
"So what are you doing for Christmas?" he asked. I pushed my lips together and furrowed my eyebrows a bit. I honestly had no idea. I was pretty much alone, and I'm sure Vic had plans with his family.
"I'll probably just watch some movies, maybe go shopping or something." I laughed.
"Wow. Sounds like a party." he laughed.
"I don't know, there's nothing really for me to do." I sighed.
"Well I'm sure Vic has something planned." he said as we pulled into the school.
"We need to hang out more, Hime." I smiled, getting out of the car.
"Yeah we do." he laughed. We walked into the school to see Tony and Aubrey fighting in the middle of the hallway. We got there right as it was ending.
"Fuck you! I used you just to fuck up Carlee more anyways!" she yelled, storming off. Tony's eyes were full of tears as he turned to the lockers and slammed his head into it. Jaime and I ran up to him, pulling him away from the lockers.
"Tony what the hell happened?" I asked. Tony and I weren't talking since that night. So I was pretty surprised by my own actions.
"Aubrey and I just broke up, in case you're too stupid to fucking see that." he snapped.
"Calm down dude. Don't be a dick." Jaime said.
"I'm sorry. I'm just super stressed out." he said, looking at me.
"Well why did you guys break up?" I asked.
"Wasn't it obvious? She used me."
"Tony.. I tried telling you.. I wasn't just saying that cause I don't like her. I truly cared about you and I didn't want you to get hurt. I'm sorry, though. Is there anything I can do?"
"No. It's over. It's fine." he said, looking down at his feet. "I'm just mad that I let her change me. I'm sorry guys.."
"It's fine." Jaime said, patting his back. "Let's hang out today. Maybe I'll be able to get your mind off things." he winked.
"Oh my god." I laughed. Jaime and Tony always said things like that. Well.. used to at least. I'm happy to see Tony is back now.
"Alright, babe." Tony laughed. The bell rang and Tony and I headed to first period. We took our seats and he kept staring at me.
"I've missed you." he mumbled.
"I've missed you too." I laughed.
"I'm sorry for everything.. I'm sorry for everything I did. I'm sorry for taking Aubrey's side. I'm sorry for becoming the thing I promised I never would. I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry. I'm sorry." he kept repeating that he was sorry. I just let him let all his emotions out. He must feel awful, or at least he should for what he did. Not even just to me, but to Vic. Vic didn't deserve any of that.
"Tony. It's okay. I'm okay now. The person you should be apologizing too is Vic, not me." I said. He nodded and pulled out his phone.
"Not over the phone." I laughed. "Come over to his house with me today and tell him in person."
He hesitated for a minute but then agreed to doing it.
--
The rest of the day went by fine. Tony and I talked about things and we're friends again. Same with Jaime, obviously. We all had a good time in music class and now we're heading to Vic's. We got to his house and went up to his door. I knocked and he opened it, pulling me into a hug.
"Hey beautiful." he smiled.
"Hey. Guess what happened today?" I smiled.
"What?"
"Aubrey and Tony broke up and Tony is back to normal again." I laughed.
"Oh thank god." he smiled. I walked inside and Jaime and Tony came up and walked in.
Vic turned around and saw Tony walk in.
"Hey Tone." he mumbled.
"Hey Vic."
Jaime walked over to me while Vic and Tony talked.
"This is so awkward." he laughed. I nodded and shushed him so I could hear what Tony and Vic were saying.
"I'm so sorry dude. What I did was so fucking messed up, and I know that now. I'm not necessarily blaming Aubrey for everything, but she was a big help to why I did what I did. I was just super jealous of you guys and Aubrey came up with the idea.. so I went through with it obviously.. and I'm so sorry. I don't expect you to forgive me, but I am really hoping we can at least end this on good terms." Tony was going to go on, but then Vic stopped him in the middle of it.
"It's been a month, Tony. I'm over it a little by now. Especially since Carlee is okay. Forgive and forget, I guess."
Tony smiled and then they hugged for a minute.
"Vic! Stay away from my boyfriend!" Jaime yelled, running over to them.
I was definitely happy. This was how things were supposed to be. Things were finally okay again.
I just hope it stays this way.
Notes
Carlee's school outfit:http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=89684993
I hope you guys liked this chapter, update will be out soon :)
god i was in the middle of writing this when I was attacked by ants
so i vacuumed them all up hehe
fuck you ants
@Moshforfuentes
haha, aw! thanks. the stories over now, but there is a sequel. :) thank you though!
2/11/14