Vic POV

Mike and I got back to the party to see an ambulance carrying someone away. They put the person in the back and locked it up, driving away. I parked on the side of the road and saw couple of officers going into the house. Mike and I got out of the car and went over to Jaime.

"Shit, did someone get alcohol poisoning or something?" Mike laughed. We both turned to see Jaime crying.

"Why are you crying? And where did Carlee go?" I asked. Jaime looked down and started crying harder.

I felt my whole body go numb. I froze completely. It felt like my stomach sunk to my feet. I felt physically sick. I tried speaking but it felt like there was something lodged in my throat. It was getting harder and harder for me to breathe, so I just sat down. I buried my face in my hands. I wanted to cry. I wanted to die. But I couldn't even cry.. I was numb.

"That.. was.. Carlee." Jaime mumbled. I nodded and turned away.

"What the fuck happened?" Mike asked.

"The drugs.. whatever it was.. She stopped breathing, and I didn't even notice.." Jaime cried. "This is all my fault."

"It's not your fault Jaime." I heard myself say.

"So.. is she.. dead?" Mike asked. I cringed at those words. I didn't even want to know.

"I don't know.." Jaime mumbled.

"Well, do you want to go to the hospital, Vic?" Mike asked. I looked up and shrugged. I honestly didn't know if I would be able to handle seeing her like that. Especially knowing I could've done something instead of run out like that..

"Let's go." Mike said, pulling me up. We started walking when Jaime didn't follow us. "Jaime are you coming?"

"Oh.. um.. sure." he mumbled, catching up with us. We were all packing into the car when we saw Tony come out of the house. I pulled away from Mike and ran over to Tony. I punched him as hard as I could in the face, causing him to fall back.

"THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!" I yelled at the top of my lungs. "CARLEE IS PROBABLY DEAD AND IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!" I yelled.

"What the fuck dude! I didn't do shit to her!" he yelled.

"Then who the fuck drugged her?!" I yelled.

"Aubrey." he mumbled.

"Go get her." I spat.

"No. You are not going to hurt her."

"Tony, you just fucked Carlee while you and Aubrey are going out. If anything YOU are going to hurt her. We're your best friends. You turned your back on us for that whore!" I yelled.

"Actually.. she was the one who wanted me to have sex with Carlee, Vic.. she drugged her so she would agree to having sex with me. She wanted you to find out and break up with her.."

"And you went along with this?" I mumbled. That hurt me so much. Tony was my best friend..

All he did was nod. And all I could think about was how much I wanted to kill Aubrey. I didn't give a shit if she was a girl. I didn't give a shit if I was going to go to jail. She deserved to die.

"Vic. You are not going to do something you're going to regret!" Mike yelled, pulling me away from the house. He pushed me into the car and got into the drivers seat. Jaime got in the back with me and held me down, making sure I didn't run out.

My body went weak and I stopped fighting. Mike drove away and awhile later, we pulled into the hospital.

Was I ready for this?

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A doctor was leading us into Carlee's room. He wouldn't say anything. He turned the corner and we followed behind him, stepping into her room. They had changed her into a hospital gown and there were lots of cords hooked up to her. She didn't look too good.. I rushed over to her side and the tears found their way out of my eyes.

"Please tell me she's going to be okay." I cried. The doctor hesitated for a minute and then began to speak.

"She's in very critical condition. We're doing everything we can.. Prepare yourselves for the worst."

I looked at her and held onto her hand.

"Please don't leave me. Please." I cried. Of course she couldn't hear me.. but I still needed to talk to her.

"I never got to tell you how I really, truly feel about you.." I cried.

"Carlee, I love you. I'm in love with you. The first day I met you, I knew you were something special." I started.

"I was so jealous of Tony because I thought you guys had something going on." I laughed.

"But now I know the truth. I'm so sorry I brought you with us to this party.. I'm so sorry this is happening. Just please don't leave me. I need you here." I squeezed on her hand tighter.

"Remember.. if you leave, I'm going with you." I cried.

I sat there for awhile in silence. Mike and Jaime left awhile ago. They couldn't stand hearing me say these things to her I guess.. I stayed by her side the whole night. I didn't sleep. I just held onto her hand. The doctors would come in occasionally and put some more medicine and shit in her IV. I held onto her hand and slowly drifted off into sleep.

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I was awaken by the sounds of her monitor. It was beeping weirdly, but she wasn't gone. It was signaling something else. A few doctors ran in and I watched as one took some notes into a file and while the other hooked her up to a different machine. They had a worried expression, but I knew she wasn't dead. One of them lead me out of the room and they told me they would call me back in as soon as possible.

I ended up waiting for about an hour until a doctor called me back into the room.

"I'm sorry, sir. I'm afraid she has slipped into a coma."

My heart felt like it shattered into a million pieces. She wasn't dead.. but she wasn't exactly alive.. All I did was nod.

"Now, because you are the only person here for her, we are going to let you decide if you want her to stay on the machine or if you want to pull th pl-"

"Keep her on the machine." I snapped. How could they even ask me that? The doctor nodded and I went in to visit her one last time alone.

I gave her a kiss and sat by her side for awhile. I held onto her hand and just stared at her. She looked dead. I gave her another kiss before I left.

"I love you, Carlee. You'll be okay."

Notes

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