Kissing in Cars
I slipped up I am sorry
Jaime left my room about an hour ago because he thought that I was sleeping. I can’t sleep, I can’t really do anything. I have the urge to cut or get high or get drunk anything to take away the pain of what Whitney said to me earlier today. I decided I would do all of the above
I quietly walked over to my dresser and pulled out the blade that I had been hiding since I was 13.
‘just one little cut that is all I need’ I thought to myself. Sliding the blade across my skin was like letting all my inner demons come loose. One after another I slide the blade across my skin of my thighs. I got up and got into the shower to clean myself off. I feel selfish for doing this but I feel like everytime something good happens to me something bad has to come and fuck shit up.
I hopped out of the shower and got dressed. My thighs stung as I pulled on my jeans but somehow the pain made everything feel better (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=87992542). I plan on feeling even better when I hang out with Mike. I texted Mike.
Hey wanna hang I am long overdue for some good weed and alcohol to go with it.
Yeah sounds good come in like 10 I will have everything all good to go.
I smiled knowing that my pain was going to go away for at least a little while. I felt bad because Tony hated when I got high but he knows it is something that I do every once in awhile and I don’t need it to survive.
I got in the car and drove to Mikes house. He only live 15 minutes away so it didn’t take long to get to his house. I walked up to the door and his mother answered the door.
“Elli long time no see how've you been?” I smiled politely
“I have been good and thank you for letting Tony and I use your back yard for our wedding”
“Oh its no problem sweetie we love you and Tony we have known Tony for as long as we can remember and I loved you ever since Mikey brought you home and told me that he had a best friend” I hugged her and thanked her once again.
“Speaking of Mike is he around?” I already knew he was but I didn’t want to make her feel like what she was saying to me didn’t matter.
“Oh yes he is in his room go on up now” She shewed me off to his room.
I opened the door to find him drumming on his practice pad with his headphones in. This brought a smile to my face, seeing him happy always makes me smile. I waved my hand and he stopped and took out his headphones.
“Hey sorry I was bored waiting” he laughed
“Oh no problem I was just talking to your mom about the wedding” I sat on his bed.
“Oh nice so next week?” I shook my head putting the blunt between my lips and lighting it.
“yep next week, Mike Tony makes me so happy its just what happened today its sending me back into this depressed mode and the only thing that i can think to do is get high with you and totally wasted.” I said truthfully.
“Elli I am sure that this will just pass and besides I love getting high with you and not to mention how fucking funny you are when you are completely baked” I laughed feeling the effects of the weed.
“true that I am a pretty hilarious stoner I will admit that” We sat and talked for a while longer when I told mike that I should probably go talk to Tony about what happened at school today. He didn’t have a problem with me leaving so I told him that I would most likely come back in the morning or later in that night.
I drove to Tony’s without telling him because I wanted to surprise him. I knocked on the door and no one answered they just yelled for me to come in so that is what I did.
“Oh its Elli the beautiful bride to be” His mother has alway had this thing where when Tony and I hung out she would tell us that we would end up together one day and here we are getting married in a week.
“Hey momma Perry, Is Tony around?” She nodded and pointed to his room while she returned to her sewing.
I was a bit nervous walking in to see Tony I hated that he saw me so vulnerable.
“Hey baby how are you ?” I asked while laying next to him on the bed
“I am okay I just don’t like to see you hurting like you did today” I hugged him trying to forget about it. I sat up pulling him up with me.
“I know but i am not all better but I am doing better” I tried to smile but I wasn’t going to force something that wasn’t true.
“Um Lucy why are your legs bleeding?” He asked looking down and this is when I started to panic.
“Umm well I I” He cut me off
“Take off your jeans now please I wanna see how bad these are please do this for me” I was hesitant at first but I gave in.
“I slipped up Tony and I hate myself for it I am so sorry I should have called you or Jaime but I just couldn’t I had Urges and I had never had them so strong before so I just gave in and I am so sorry. you probably don’t wanna marry me any more” I sobbed more as he hugged me tighter.
“Hey I still wanna marry you I love you with every fiber of my body, everyone does something that they regret once in awhile and this is something that we can get through together, whitney is a bitch she means nothing to you and after we graduate she will be out of our lives for good” He kissed my forehead and rocked me gently back and forth.
“I love you Tony, I love how you care for me, I love that you take me for what I am and not for who you want me to be and I can’t wait until next weekend when I can finally call you my husband” I looked up into his eyes and kissed him with passion.
Tony and I layed in bed for a while before I sat up I had to get something off of my chest.
“Tony I need to tell you something” I said and he sat up and took my hands in his.
“What is it?” He asked
“I -I well before I came here I -”
“You got high with Mike I know and I am not mad because I know you were just trying to forget about what happened at school” He cut me off
“How do you know?” I giggled
“Well you only ever wear that sweatshirt when you and him get high and Mike texted me before you got here” I giggled falling back on the bed.
“Oh haha I should have known I was wearing this” Tony smiled and crawled on top on me planting a kiss on my lips.
“Tony?” I said in between a kiss.
“We never did get to well you know” He chuckled at me
“I know what do you say we do it now but we should prank Mike and Vic” I raised an eyebrow.
“What do you mean?”
“I am saying that we should go to there house park in the driveway and fuck in the car” I playfully hit him on the arm but agreed. Tony texted Vic and Mike to tell them that they need to get there parents out of the house at least two hours. To our advantage their parents had gone out to dinner and a movie.
“You ready to do this?” Tony said as he parked my car in the Driveway. I just nodded my head as I took off my sweatshirt. We climbed in the back of the car and I straddled tony as I tried to unbutton his shirt.
“Just take this fucking thing off already” I said as I tried to grind my hips into Tony’s. Small grunts and moan erupted from the both of us as he pushed inside of me. faster and faster he would push and I would move my hips to match his pace.
“FUCK OH MY AHH GO FASTER!” I couldn’t hold it in any more I yelled at the top of my lungs.
“Oh shit Elli fuck oh yes oh my god” Tony threw his head back in ecstasy as I heard the door of the house open and close.
“Fuck I think they are coming” I tried to say between moans but I could care less if they saw right now because I was in pure bliss.
“What the fuck guys fucking in my driveway? major party foul” It was Vic banging on the windows of the car.
“Fucking shit I am going to cum fuck “ I threw my head back.
“Oh fuck yes this is so fucking good” Tony said and there it was I had an orgasm in front of my best friends brother.
“You know I can Never unsee that?” Vic half asked half mocked through the window. tony and I got dressed and got out of the car.
“Oh hey vic didn’t see you there” I laughed at Tonys Joke
“you guys are so fucking weird i can never see Elli’s orgasm you know it is now permanently burned into my brain” Vic said while we all walked into the house.
“yeah well you better unsee it because that is my special gift I give to her and only her” I blushed in embarrassment.
“Unsee what?” Mike asked walking into the living room
“Well For starters Tony and Elli were fucking in our driveway and I saw Elli have a giant Orgasm in the backseat and I said I can never unsee it” Tony laughed
“What the fuck and i missed it?” Mike fake whined
“Shut up can we stop talking about me and Tony having sex” I said flicking on the T.VThe rest of the night consisted of movies and popcorn. At some point during the night we called Jaime to come join us.