Can You Tell From the Look In Her Eyes?
No Pain Inside, You're Like Protection
It was 4:27 a.m., and I couldn't sleep. Tonight was a really fun night. I had hung out with Ruby and watched Rocky Horrow Picture Show (my favorite move of all time!), eaten chocolate, talked about our exes, and I relaized that I should give Jaime a chance. But, I just don't really want to right now. I just had my heart broken by a man I loved for six years. Can I fall in love again? Am I even capable anymore?
I sighed and got off the couch in the back lounge. I was trying to be quiet, but my skin was practically glued to the leather. I rubbed my eyes and stumbled out to the small kitchen.
I reached into the fridge and got a bottle of water, then went outside. It'll be nice to just see the stars. Proof that there's a huge world out there with problems that are probably worse then mine.
I stepped off the bus barefoot, and walked over to another silhouetted figures sitting in the grass a few feet away. I sat down beside them to find out it was Jaime.
"Hey," I said softly so I wouldn't scare him.
"Hey," he smiled. "It's 4 o'clock in the morning..."
"And I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home," we smiled at the P!nk song lyric.
"Why are you out here?" Jaime smiled, I could see his big, cute dimples in the moonlight.
"I just couldn't sleep," I said. It wasn't a lie, at least.
"Too much on your mind?"
"Yeah. I mean, we were together for six years and he's just... done. I don't see how I deserve any of this," I whispered brokenly, trying not to cry.
"You don't," he stated softly.
I leaned into his shoulder and we sat like that for a few minutes, in a completely and utterly comfortable silence. He gently pulled me into his lap, and threw his arms around my waist. It's nice to be in the arms of someone who doesn't want you purely for sex.
I felt a tear slip out at the sudden thought. Was I really just sex to him?
"You're too beautiful to be crying over an idiot like him," Jaime whispered, leaning down to kiss the single tear that slid down my cheek. I looked up at him.
Me with a faltering smile, and him radiating pure affection, holding me in his arms under the moonlight. This is how it should be. Someone should hold me when I cry, not be the one I'm crying about. That someone was Jaime.
He slowly leaned down and brushed his lips against mine, giving me a chance to react. I pressed my lips to his and we slowly kissed. Nothing more nothing less. It was needy and lust-filled like I was so used to at this point. It was a kiss of pure love. A sweet, soft kiss telling me there was still hope.
He pulled away and cradled me against his chest, like I was a broken doll. In a sense, I suppose I was. I was the doll that someone got tired of when I couldn't do anything new, so I got thrown away.
We watched the sun go up, then walked back onto the bus where Jaime made me breakfast. Well, un-breakfast. I really just didn't like having breakfast food at breakfast. I like it at 12 in the morning when you have the munchies. So, Jaime meda me Ramen noodled, which I loved.
"How's your un-breakfast?" Jaime grinned.
"The best un-breakfast ever!" I winked.
"Dude, who made Ramen and didn't give me any?!" Vic yelled.
"I did!" Jaime smirked. "But I gave it to the most beautiful girl on the bus!"
"You gave it to Ruby?" Mike asked.
"No, Whiskeyhands! He gave it to me!" I giggled.
Vic came out into the small living area and got on his knees. "Oh, amazing Jaime! Will you please use your awesomely big dick and huge brains to make me some Ramen?"
I was laughing so hard that I almost dropped my empty bowl on Vic.
"WHAT?!" I gasped, trying to contain my laughter.
"Oh, if Vic wants me to make him food, he has to tell me I have a big dick and a lot of brains," Jaime chuckled from the kitchen.
"Glad I don't," I mumbled.
"That's because Jaime knows you already know about his big dick," Vic whispered in my ear, wiggling his eyerbrows. I slapped him in the arm and walked into the bunk area to get my stuff.
"Hey, babe!" Tony said from his bunk.
"Yeah, I miss you, too!"
"Don't worry, we'll see each other as soon as the ATL bus gets here, and I get you all to myself!"
"Yeah. See you in a bit!"
"I love you, too! Goodbye!"
He hopped out of his bunk and I raised my eyebrows.
"That was Logan, my girlfriend," he explained.
"I want to meet her," I smirked.
"Oh, you will!"
The bunk are was now empty, leaving me to throw on some clothed. I decided on a racerback with a heart on it, a pink bandeau, black shorts, a pair of pink converse, and a cross-body bag that looked like a bird. That was my sixteenth birthday present from my grandma. I walked into the bathroom, already sweating. I put on deodorant, waterproof makeup, and pulled my hair up into an elaborate ponytail. (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=86834986)
I walked back into the lounge end everyone ecept Jaime was gone.
"I told them to go on ahead of us," he smiled. "You and I are going on a date."
I smiled. I'm so EXCITED! He slipped my hand into his, rubbing his thumb gently over the top of my hand, and helped me out of the bus, into the bright Seattle sun.
We walked and walked until we got to this little restaraunt just a few blocks away from the venue. It was a chinese place, and he had obviously already called in our order, because someone walked out the door and handed him a medium-sized box. We walked back to the venue, taking bites of our food every now and then, and he led me to one of the stages. We sat backstage and watched Of Mice & Men while eating Chinese food. Not gonna lie, it was the best date ever.
"Are you having fun?" Jaime asked smiling, but I could hear the concern in his voice.
"This is the best date I've ever had Jaime bear!" I yelled, kissing him on the cheek, leaving some sesame sauce in the shape of my lips.
"Good," he smiled, kissing my nose, leaving orange sauce in the shape of his lips. We giggled when we saw the marks we had left on each other. We both decided we weren't going to take them off, just let people wonder.
"Hey, our call time is in ten minutes. Wanna come watch from the sidestage?" He asked excitedly.
"OF COURSE!" He grabbed my hand and we ran, not caring we had just left a bunch of empty Chinese containers. We ran through tons of fans who saw that we were in a hurry and let us pass. Finally, we were at the other side of the venue and Jaime was tuning his guitar.
"THANK YOU FOR THE GREAT TIME FOLKS! WE ARE BRING ME THE HORIZON!" Oli said walking offstsge in my direction. I froze and Jaime stepped in front of me.
Oli smirked in my direction and walked over to some trashy redhead who was kissing his neck and had her hand dangerously close to his... area.
"Happy 6 months, baby!" He grinned, kissing her. He looked up to see my reaction.
I turned away so that he didn't have the satisfaction of seeing me cry. Jaime kissed my cheek.
"You're fine."
"What the fuck d'you think you're doing, mate?" Oli yelled when he saw Jaime kiss me.
"I'm trying to make the girl I love, and the girl who you just dumped after six years, feel better."
"No! She's fucking mine!"
"No, I'm not, asshole! You were cheating on me when I did nothing but love you! You cheated on me!" I smacked him.
"Oli! Is that true?!" Screeched the redhead who was close to tears. "What's your name?" She turned to me.
"Carter."
"Carter, I'm so sorry. Whenever I asked him who Carter was, he said that you were just one of his guy friends! I swear, I didn't know!" She sobbed.
"It's okay. I understand," I reassured her. Oli played us both.
The redhead took one look at Oli and stormed off. Jaime and I walked to sidestage, leaving Oli to think about his awfulness.
I watched as they stood in a circle, yelling something about the devil, and then went onstage. The crowd really loved them. These guys really are amazing.
"Hey, are you Jaime's girl?" Asked a short girl with black hair dyed blonde at the ends. She had sleeves of tattoos that I couldn't quite make out, but she was very pretty.
"Yeah, I guess so," I blushed.
She giggled. "I'm Logan, Tony's girlfriend."
"It's really great to meet you," I smiled. "He was talking to you earlier on the phone and he had the biggest smile on his face. It was adorable."
"You know what's really adorable? The way Jaime keeps "sneaking" glances at you," she turned my head to look at Jaime.
He was looking up at me with a big dopey grin on his face.
"So, everyone!" Vic yelled to the crowd. "Some of us are lucky enough to have amazing girls by our sides this tour!" The crowd went wild. "Now, I have yet to find that one special girl, but the rest of the guys have!"
"Come on out, ladies!" He smiled at Logan and I.
Soon, Ruby was pulling us out on stage. I walked over to stand by Jaime, who put his arm around my waist and kissed my cheek. Ruby was sitting on Mike's lap messing with the drums and Logan had whispered something in Tony's ear that made him blush really bad.
"So this," Vic stated, walking towards me. "Is Carter. She recently broke up with Oliver Sykes because he's a dick, and Jaime hasn't had the balls to ask her to be his yet."
Jaime blushed and I hid my face in his shoulder as Vic handed Jaime the mic.
"Carter, I know it hasn't even been a full 24 hours since we met yet, but I like you waaayyy too much to let that stop me. Will you be my girlfriend and make me the happiest guy at Warped?" He smiled.
"Yes," I whispered.
"What was that?" Vic yelled.
"YES!"
The crowd broke into applause and whistling and yelling. I grinned like a madwoman as Jaime kissed my forehead and Ruby led me backstage.
"That was a little soon, don't you think?" She asked, genuinely concerned.
"I don't care," I grinned. "I like Jaime. A lot."
Her eyes softened and she pulled me into a hug.
"Just don't let your heart get too carried away," she whispered in my ear.
I sighed and got off the couch in the back lounge. I was trying to be quiet, but my skin was practically glued to the leather. I rubbed my eyes and stumbled out to the small kitchen.
I reached into the fridge and got a bottle of water, then went outside. It'll be nice to just see the stars. Proof that there's a huge world out there with problems that are probably worse then mine.
I stepped off the bus barefoot, and walked over to another silhouetted figures sitting in the grass a few feet away. I sat down beside them to find out it was Jaime.
"Hey," I said softly so I wouldn't scare him.
"Hey," he smiled. "It's 4 o'clock in the morning..."
"And I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home," we smiled at the P!nk song lyric.
"Why are you out here?" Jaime smiled, I could see his big, cute dimples in the moonlight.
"I just couldn't sleep," I said. It wasn't a lie, at least.
"Too much on your mind?"
"Yeah. I mean, we were together for six years and he's just... done. I don't see how I deserve any of this," I whispered brokenly, trying not to cry.
"You don't," he stated softly.
I leaned into his shoulder and we sat like that for a few minutes, in a completely and utterly comfortable silence. He gently pulled me into his lap, and threw his arms around my waist. It's nice to be in the arms of someone who doesn't want you purely for sex.
I felt a tear slip out at the sudden thought. Was I really just sex to him?
"You're too beautiful to be crying over an idiot like him," Jaime whispered, leaning down to kiss the single tear that slid down my cheek. I looked up at him.
Me with a faltering smile, and him radiating pure affection, holding me in his arms under the moonlight. This is how it should be. Someone should hold me when I cry, not be the one I'm crying about. That someone was Jaime.
He slowly leaned down and brushed his lips against mine, giving me a chance to react. I pressed my lips to his and we slowly kissed. Nothing more nothing less. It was needy and lust-filled like I was so used to at this point. It was a kiss of pure love. A sweet, soft kiss telling me there was still hope.
He pulled away and cradled me against his chest, like I was a broken doll. In a sense, I suppose I was. I was the doll that someone got tired of when I couldn't do anything new, so I got thrown away.
We watched the sun go up, then walked back onto the bus where Jaime made me breakfast. Well, un-breakfast. I really just didn't like having breakfast food at breakfast. I like it at 12 in the morning when you have the munchies. So, Jaime meda me Ramen noodled, which I loved.
"How's your un-breakfast?" Jaime grinned.
"The best un-breakfast ever!" I winked.
"Dude, who made Ramen and didn't give me any?!" Vic yelled.
"I did!" Jaime smirked. "But I gave it to the most beautiful girl on the bus!"
"You gave it to Ruby?" Mike asked.
"No, Whiskeyhands! He gave it to me!" I giggled.
Vic came out into the small living area and got on his knees. "Oh, amazing Jaime! Will you please use your awesomely big dick and huge brains to make me some Ramen?"
I was laughing so hard that I almost dropped my empty bowl on Vic.
"WHAT?!" I gasped, trying to contain my laughter.
"Oh, if Vic wants me to make him food, he has to tell me I have a big dick and a lot of brains," Jaime chuckled from the kitchen.
"Glad I don't," I mumbled.
"That's because Jaime knows you already know about his big dick," Vic whispered in my ear, wiggling his eyerbrows. I slapped him in the arm and walked into the bunk area to get my stuff.
"Hey, babe!" Tony said from his bunk.
"Yeah, I miss you, too!"
"Don't worry, we'll see each other as soon as the ATL bus gets here, and I get you all to myself!"
"Yeah. See you in a bit!"
"I love you, too! Goodbye!"
He hopped out of his bunk and I raised my eyebrows.
"That was Logan, my girlfriend," he explained.
"I want to meet her," I smirked.
"Oh, you will!"
The bunk are was now empty, leaving me to throw on some clothed. I decided on a racerback with a heart on it, a pink bandeau, black shorts, a pair of pink converse, and a cross-body bag that looked like a bird. That was my sixteenth birthday present from my grandma. I walked into the bathroom, already sweating. I put on deodorant, waterproof makeup, and pulled my hair up into an elaborate ponytail. (http://www.polyvore.com/cgi/set?id=86834986)
I walked back into the lounge end everyone ecept Jaime was gone.
"I told them to go on ahead of us," he smiled. "You and I are going on a date."
I smiled. I'm so EXCITED! He slipped my hand into his, rubbing his thumb gently over the top of my hand, and helped me out of the bus, into the bright Seattle sun.
We walked and walked until we got to this little restaraunt just a few blocks away from the venue. It was a chinese place, and he had obviously already called in our order, because someone walked out the door and handed him a medium-sized box. We walked back to the venue, taking bites of our food every now and then, and he led me to one of the stages. We sat backstage and watched Of Mice & Men while eating Chinese food. Not gonna lie, it was the best date ever.
"Are you having fun?" Jaime asked smiling, but I could hear the concern in his voice.
"This is the best date I've ever had Jaime bear!" I yelled, kissing him on the cheek, leaving some sesame sauce in the shape of my lips.
"Good," he smiled, kissing my nose, leaving orange sauce in the shape of his lips. We giggled when we saw the marks we had left on each other. We both decided we weren't going to take them off, just let people wonder.
"Hey, our call time is in ten minutes. Wanna come watch from the sidestage?" He asked excitedly.
"OF COURSE!" He grabbed my hand and we ran, not caring we had just left a bunch of empty Chinese containers. We ran through tons of fans who saw that we were in a hurry and let us pass. Finally, we were at the other side of the venue and Jaime was tuning his guitar.
"THANK YOU FOR THE GREAT TIME FOLKS! WE ARE BRING ME THE HORIZON!" Oli said walking offstsge in my direction. I froze and Jaime stepped in front of me.
Oli smirked in my direction and walked over to some trashy redhead who was kissing his neck and had her hand dangerously close to his... area.
"Happy 6 months, baby!" He grinned, kissing her. He looked up to see my reaction.
I turned away so that he didn't have the satisfaction of seeing me cry. Jaime kissed my cheek.
"You're fine."
"What the fuck d'you think you're doing, mate?" Oli yelled when he saw Jaime kiss me.
"I'm trying to make the girl I love, and the girl who you just dumped after six years, feel better."
"No! She's fucking mine!"
"No, I'm not, asshole! You were cheating on me when I did nothing but love you! You cheated on me!" I smacked him.
"Oli! Is that true?!" Screeched the redhead who was close to tears. "What's your name?" She turned to me.
"Carter."
"Carter, I'm so sorry. Whenever I asked him who Carter was, he said that you were just one of his guy friends! I swear, I didn't know!" She sobbed.
"It's okay. I understand," I reassured her. Oli played us both.
The redhead took one look at Oli and stormed off. Jaime and I walked to sidestage, leaving Oli to think about his awfulness.
I watched as they stood in a circle, yelling something about the devil, and then went onstage. The crowd really loved them. These guys really are amazing.
"Hey, are you Jaime's girl?" Asked a short girl with black hair dyed blonde at the ends. She had sleeves of tattoos that I couldn't quite make out, but she was very pretty.
"Yeah, I guess so," I blushed.
She giggled. "I'm Logan, Tony's girlfriend."
"It's really great to meet you," I smiled. "He was talking to you earlier on the phone and he had the biggest smile on his face. It was adorable."
"You know what's really adorable? The way Jaime keeps "sneaking" glances at you," she turned my head to look at Jaime.
He was looking up at me with a big dopey grin on his face.
"So, everyone!" Vic yelled to the crowd. "Some of us are lucky enough to have amazing girls by our sides this tour!" The crowd went wild. "Now, I have yet to find that one special girl, but the rest of the guys have!"
"Come on out, ladies!" He smiled at Logan and I.
Soon, Ruby was pulling us out on stage. I walked over to stand by Jaime, who put his arm around my waist and kissed my cheek. Ruby was sitting on Mike's lap messing with the drums and Logan had whispered something in Tony's ear that made him blush really bad.
"So this," Vic stated, walking towards me. "Is Carter. She recently broke up with Oliver Sykes because he's a dick, and Jaime hasn't had the balls to ask her to be his yet."
Jaime blushed and I hid my face in his shoulder as Vic handed Jaime the mic.
"Carter, I know it hasn't even been a full 24 hours since we met yet, but I like you waaayyy too much to let that stop me. Will you be my girlfriend and make me the happiest guy at Warped?" He smiled.
"Yes," I whispered.
"What was that?" Vic yelled.
"YES!"
The crowd broke into applause and whistling and yelling. I grinned like a madwoman as Jaime kissed my forehead and Ruby led me backstage.
"That was a little soon, don't you think?" She asked, genuinely concerned.
"I don't care," I grinned. "I like Jaime. A lot."
Her eyes softened and she pulled me into a hug.
"Just don't let your heart get too carried away," she whispered in my ear.
Notes
Song Credit: Sober - P!nkThere is Logan, as requested by foreverdead. Who will be Vic's girl? Hmmm...
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