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Close Both My Eyes

Chapter Five.

Banging. Loud banging. I had no idea where it was coming from; it hurt to bad to open my eyes to investigate. My head was throbbing, pounding like never before. It hurt to move; to think.

"Rowan?!" I heard my name, followed by more banging, and I pried an eye open, cringing as the pain radiated in my skull.

Why did I drink so much last night? And what the hell happened?

Everything hurt. I had no recollection of what happened last night. All I remembered was going to a bar with Vic, Mike and Tony after the show; everything else was a mystery.

"Rowan, are you alive in there?"

It was Jaime; I would recognize his cheerful voice anywhere.

I moved to get out of the bed to answer the door, sitting up slowly as the room spun around me.

It was then I realized I was naked. And that I wasn't alone in this bed.

Clinging to the sheet that was draped loosely over my body, I stared in horror at the naked form that lay sprawled beside me.

"Shit," I muttered to myself as I rubbed at my face.

What had I done? This wasn't like me at all; I didn't sleep with randoms. I don't even remember his name. Jackson? Jason? Jarod?

"ROWAN!!"

"Fuck, Jaime, I'm coming!" I groaned, throwing my legs over the bed as I wrapped the sheet around myself and shuffled slowly towards the door.

As I walked everything came flooding back; the meet and greet. My uneasiness. My feelings.

My feelings for him; for Jaime.

I opened the door a crack, not wanting Jaime to catch a view of the stranger who occupied my bed.



"Hey, Ro - oh! You look like shit!" He exclaimed.

"Shh, Jaime please. Not so loud, okay?"

He chuckled a little, pouting out his bottom lip as he tousled my already unruly hair. "How ya feeling? Tony told me you had quite a bit to drink last night, and seeing your past with handling your alcohol I thought I should check on you."

I tried to force a small smile, but it hurt too bad so I gave up. "It hurts. But I'll live. Can I go back to bed now?" I pleaded.

"Sure thing, kiddo. Call me if you need anyth-"

He paused, stopping mid-sentence as something caught his eye. Something, or someone.

Footsteps sounded from behind me. I heard them, and I knew Jaime had too. His face transformed with confusion, and it was only then did he allow his eyes to stray from my face, traveling downward to see what I was wearing, or rather, what I wasn't.

Without warning Jaime pushed his way into the room, taking in the site of my one night stand pulling on his once discarded jeans.

"Who the fuck are you?!" Jaime barked, his voice echoing throughout the tiny room. His face was red, seething with anger, and I backed away from him instinctively.

"I, uh, I'm Justin-"

"Get the fuck out!" Jaime shouted, motioning towards the open door. Without another word Justin picked up the rest of his clothes, sprinting out the door as if his life depended on it. Jaime's eyes flickered towards my cowaring form for a brief moment before he took a few quick steps towards the door, grasping it with his right hand, and slamming it shut with all his might, causing me to flinch.

"Jaime..." I paused, not knowing what to say, not quite understanding why he was so mad about this.

"Damnit Rowan!" he started, turning around to face me, his fists clenched at his side, "What the fuck is this?"

"Jaime, I, I don't know, I was drunk, just, just calm down."

"Calm down? I can't, God, Rowan! Do you know how stupid this is?"

"Yes, Jaime, geez! Just, will you stop, please?"

"Oh, what, I should just be okay with the fact that you got wasted and fucked some random guy?!"

His voice was increasing in decibal with each passing moment; I had never seen Jaime like this, not ever, and it was scaring me. I was so confused; this didn't make any sense.

"Why does it even matter to you, Jaime? Why are you making such a big deal about this?"

"Why? Because, Rowan, you're my best friend! And this isn't you! You don't do this! And it's not okay!"

The more he spoke, the more angry I got. This wasn't okay, I didn't deserve the verbal lashing I was receiving. And I wouldn't take it; not even from him.

"I made a fucking mistake, Jaime! Don't act like you're all innocent and have never hooked up with someone! You used to do this all the time, Jaime; don't pretend like you don't remember! I never beat you up about it!"

"Rowan, just stop, that's not even-"

"What, Jaime? It's not the same? Of course it is! I already feel like shit, I don't need you yelling at me about it like you're my father or something!"

Something about my words hit him; his facial features softened, his shoulders relaxed, and his eyes glazed over with sadness.

"Ro, I-"

"No, Jaime. Just, no. I'm an adult! I can do whatever the hell I want to do, and you have no say in it! It sucks that it happened; I didn't mean for it, but I was drinking and I was upset, and - no, you know what, Jaime? I don't owe you an explaination!"

"Rowan, listen, I'm sorry okay? I just, I'm sorry. I don't know why I got so upset." He stepped towards me, but I backed away, keeping him at a distance.

"Save it, Jaime. I'm done talking about it. Get out." I pointed towards the door, my tone stern, my face matching my feelings.

He opened his mouth to protest, but I wouldn't let him.

"Out, Jaime!"

He bowed his head in defeat, nodding once before pulling the door open and taking a single step out into the hallway. He paused, not turning to face me as he raked his hand through his deflated hair. "I love you, Ro," he mumbled, the words hardley audible, but I heard them.

I slammed the door loudly, leaning my back against it as I slid down to the floor.

And it was there I sat for hours, drowning in my own tears.

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7/28/13
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