Sperm Donor

It’s been 16 days 3 hours and 19 seconds since my mother passed.
I graduated high school early the top of my class did one sport every season and I was doing good. Cheerleaders except for my best friend hated me because I was better then them and I constantly attracted their boyfriends which by the way I had no interest in them since I was dating a girl but they don’t need to know that. I have a Dad and I have no idea who he is all I know is that my mother had me deliver this letter to the post office to my father which he was supposed to come for me 2 weeks ago but he never came so I’m going to stick with my plan and go to Warped Tour, I’m a YouTuber/ Singer in a band with my two best friends Jennifer aka Jen and Maddison aka Maddy. Jen and I have been together since diapers both of our Moms started in homeless shelters and they helped each other until we could afford a house and we lived together up until we were about 10 and then my mother had a promotion so big that she bought two houses and that’s how we met Maddy. We struggled a lot but it paid it off, up until April 8th when my mother found out she had stage 3 breast cancer. She passed away no more than a month later, I did everything to make her happy again, it just didn’t work. On May 4th I told her the corny “May the fourth be with you” joke and she smiled tiredly.
“Go to sleep you dork” she smiled and patted the space beside her and I curled up next her warm and cozy, I felt relaxed when she slept, she looked so peaceful like she finally escaped the pain for a little while. At 10:39pm she woke me up and said “I love you baby” and gripped my hand so hard she broke it, I didn’t even feel it with all the adrenaline rushing.

“Mom please, I haven’t even turned 18 yet, Mom please! Don’t leave! Your my only blood! I can’t do this! Mom! Wake up! ...please” My voice cracked as I watched her go pale, doctors swarmed her and kicked me out of the room. I sat outside the door crying and punching the metal door breaking my other hand, which again I didn’t feel at the time. I still hear her, sometimes when the wind blows I can hear her, I wish she was still here to tell me “put that down”, or “wash the dishes” as much as I hate washing dishes, I would much rather have her tell me “Your home late 200 sit ups, 150 lunges, and 1,500 jumping jacks” oh god I could hardly walk the next day.

Back to warped I had everything packed and tomorrow we leave, it takes place in America so I want to try a twinkie, Americans eat so much junk food its insane, but then again.. Share? We’re called DoLL faCe. We all play guitar, ukulele, trumpet, drums, bass, piano, and we sing for fun. If Pierce the Veil, Paramore, and Twenty One Pilots had a baby that would be our band. A dash of everything, I can scream but not super deep like the men, anyways I’m lead singer and guitar, Jen is Bass and back up, last but not least our little Maddy is drums and trumpet. We had been signed for less then a year but we are releasing our album the day Warped starts. Sadly I’m not able to play guitar so get this! Vic MF Fuentes volunteered to play guitar for me! I had a fangirl moment and literally almost passed out. I used to have THE hugest crush on Tony Perry but then I realised they are all old enough to be my Dad, so I was like ew no.

Tomorrow is the start of something either something amazing or the end of me really.

Notes

I don't know where I'm going with this but I hope you stick around to read it ;)