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The Last Snow: A Mother's Love

Change Lies in The Future, Not The Past

“Good Morning you two!” Kylie cheered, as I entered the kitchen with my little baby in my arms.

“May I?” She asked, practically jumping up and down as she made her way right over to Bianca with her arms out stretched.

“Promise to give her back?” I chuckled.

“No, because she’s the most precious little girl in the world.” Kylie smiled, carefully taking Bianca from my hands and into her arms.

As she sat down in one of the many rocking chairs, I made myself a cup of coffee and some toast.

The last few days had been one wild ride.

Kylie had brought her old friend Gaia to the bands’ house where I had been staying with them. She had been the one to take care of Bianca as Kylie had me prove myself to her, to show that I was serious about wanting to stay away from the bands, and live without them.

The two of them drove us to a secret little hide away house deep in the forests somewhere in Maine.

The craziness played into the event of taking a newborn cross country in a little van, I wouldn’t recommend trying it.

However, now that we were in one stable location, things were far better. Bianca was much happier and less crabby, so was her mama.

Hearing a sharp cry from the other side of the room pulled me out of my thoughts and back to the room we were in.

Apparently Bianca wasn’t in the mood to be away from me.

“Oh, I’m sorry sweet girl.” Kylie cooed, as I got up and took Bianca back into my arms.

“It’s not your fault. She’s super weird with who she will allow to hold her and when.” I explained, trying to rock her so that her crying would stop.

“Can I ask how she was with...them?” She wondered.

“Of course, I just kind of assumed you knew a lot about what’s been going on since her birth.” I replied.

All she did was let out a laugh.

“I actually don’t know about anything that went on in that house. I just knew about there whereabouts outside the house as well as where you were located. I knew I had to intervene though before they took you away from her.” Kylie explained.

“Thank you. This is the second time you’ve saved my ass. A simple thank you doesn’t do anything though, I wish I could give you more as a proper thank you.” I told her.

“Aww, Bella. Coming from you, I know that a thank you is as valuable as a million dollars. There’s few people like you left in this world it seems lately. People who are genuine, kind, and loving. I honestly wish I could do more for you two. I so desperately want to tell you you’ll never have to worry about the bands again, but we’d both be fools to be that naive. So please don’t ever think that you aren’t showing enough gratitude. You are, especially for someone who’s gone through as much shit as you.” Kylie answered, covering Bianca’s ears for the cursing.

“I think between the three of us girls, you, Gaia, and I, we’ll be able to make things work.” I stated.

“I’m more optimistic than not. Gaia’s a lovely woman and quite the hard worker, and she’s an incredibly good friend of mine that’s willing to go the distance with us. And I already know that you and I are badasses.” Kylie chuckled, wrapping me tight in a warm embrace.

“Hear that, Bee? Momma’s finally got a place and a way to keep us safe and together.” I cooed, at the adorable infant in my arms.

It was crazy to think that this little human was actually mine.

She gave me one of her silly smiles and reached up to grab onto my hair.

Did it feel good, absolutely not, it actually kind of hurt.

But as I looked down to see this small precious hand tangled up in my long hair, it made her happy. That’s all I could ask for.

I was a part of bringing her into this world, even though it wasn’t exactly my plan.

Since…...he would never be allowed to come anywhere near here, that left me to be her main protector, to keep her safe and healthy and give her as normal as a life that was possible.

“Oh goodness.” I giggled, as she held on tighter and let out a shrill excited noise.

“She’s so flippin’ cute. Those bright blue eyes, are like crystals that pull you into a trance.” Kylie cooed.

“Thank you.” I thanked her.

“There’s only one person she could have gotten that much beauty from.” Kylie giggled.

“Why does everyone say that stuff? I am nothing to croon over, so B’s beauty must have just been a gift from God, not me.” I told her.

“No, no, no! There will be no talking down about ourselves at this house! Is that understood? You’re gorgeous inside and out.” Kylie playfully yelled/ growled.

“Ok, ok.” I groaned, rolling my eyes slightly.

“Think of it like this…...why else would they have picked you out of all those other girls? Sorry to put it in terms that way, but seriously, they could have had anyone…...and they picked you. Let me also tell you this, Chris doesn’t let anyone within 10 miles of his heart unless he seriously trusts that person, or would kill for them. That’s another reason why you’re so damn special. He saw your face once, and heard you speak and he knew you were special enough to be the one he’d risk everything for.” Kylie explained to me.

“How do you know them? You talk about them like you know or have known them pretty well. You’ve never told me how you got into this.” I asked her.

“Easy, I was their merch girl for a whole year, but I didn’t make enough and wasn’t a fan of being on the road for that long. So, I quit. That’s why I’ve been able to keep tabs on them, because I still have some access into some of their databases. And that’s how we got here.” Kylie told me.

“Ok, but you weren’t ever like…..’with’ them, right?” I wondered, cautiously.

“Hell no. I’ll admit though Ghost and I went on a date once, but nothing ever came from it.” She admitted.

“You guys would actually make a cute couple.” I told her.

All she did was laugh at that.

“Are you asking me to take your place, Bella?” She chuckled.

“Yeah…” I sheepishly admitted.

“Ok, I’ll do it on the terms that I get to keep that little sleeping angel on your lap.” Kylie replied.

I groaned and rolled my eyes once more, that would never happen and Kylie knew that, but hey everything was worth a shot.

“I’m back, and I’ve got food!” Gaia exclaimed, pushing open the front door.

“Good morning!” Kylie and I greeted her.

I carefully picked Bianca back up and got her situated safely and comfortably snuggled into her infant swing before I went to the table and helped them set the table.

Gaia unpacked 3 little containers of these delicious looking pancakes and my stomach growled with delight.

“Oh my gosh, you’re a miracle worker. Thank you so much!” I thanked her.

“No problem.” She laughed.

“So, Bella and I were just talking about how I know and was involved with the bands, more specifically Motionless. I think it would be pretty beneficial to her if you shared your story of involvement with Motionless.” Kylie told Gaia.

“Sure, why not? It’s not nearly as exciting or dirty as Kylie’s tone of voice would make it seem.” She chuckled.

“Well that’s good.” I sighed in relief.

It wasn’t that I cared if either of these 2 girls had taken part in more of a sexual relationship with any of the guys. It was more of a fear that it could posiblly complicate their loyalty to me.

I was truly in essence no one to them.

They didn’t need to do any of this for me.

“Let’s go out on the patio, I always feel bad when I bring them up around Bianca.” Gaia softly suggested.

“Yeah, no problem.” I agreed, internally thanking her.

Trust me, she wasn’t the only one who was not a fan of speaking so openly in front of Bianca about them.

“Ok, let’s see…..do you know anything about my involvement with Motionless?” She asked me.

“No, nothing.” I answered honestly.

“Basically Chris and I ran into each other about 5 years ago at some sketchy little bdsm group down in Atlanta. I had been going for about 8 months, as I was fairly new to the whole community. It was run by these two weirdos who were whacked out of their damn minds, but they somehow managed to have a plethora of knowledge as to a lot of different things in the bdsm world. 8 months in, I was attending my 16th meeting with the group and that’s when I saw him...Chris. He as you very well know had a very alternative look, I knew we were more similar than the rest of the bunch so I pulled him out of that room and told him we could figure things out on our own.” Gaia explained in detail to me.

“And?!?” I eagerly prompted her.

“And we went out to have coffee. He told me that he had come to the group to try and find a submissive. Chris failed to ever tell me the full story, but I guess his girlfriend previous to that had fucked him over by being with another guy. That’s when he first started his search for his perfect submissive, but also the love of his life. I didn’t fit that mold as I myself am not what anyone would consider submissive, so that led to a 4 year search for him…..that led him straight to you. Both of us had busy lives at that point so we hadn’t spoken too in depth for a long time. Once I heard what he had done though with the other bands…….I cut off communication. I don’t approve of kidnapping.” Gaia finished.

“Holy shit.” I whispered, trying to take in all of that information at once.

“Tell me about it.” She groaned.

“What does all of that mean though….what does it mean for Bianca and I’s future?” I wondered.

She hung her head and that’s when I felt my heart sink to the ground.

“I can’t say anything about Bianca….I’m positive that they’re not even sure what to do with her. For you though….I’d give it a year at max. Don’t tell Kylie I said that, she’d actually kill me for telling you that part. You and I both know those guys better than she does, at least Chris. He doesn’t let things he loves just get away, and you’re the only person he truly does love.” Gaia answered.

“Talking about Bianca….can I get something off my chest that’s been on my mind forever? It NEEDS to stay between us though, I love Kylie, but she’d freak on me if she found out.” I asked her.

“Absolutely, anything.” She urged.

“Everyday now I can’t help but think….what if I never ran away in the first place? What if I had just sucked it up and went along with everything the bands said. Or….what if I had died that night where I almost bled out at Michael and DJ’s? You know what the answer is to all of those questions? Bianca wouldn’t have ever happened. She was never planned, all this time I tried so fucking hard to get myself out of this mess and because I’m so damn stupid I end up pulling in an entirely innocent being into this mess as well.” I told her, my voice crumbling half way through as I erupted in tears.

“Oh goodness.” Gaia muttered, quickly popping up and squeezing my body tight in her warm embrace.

“I just want to wake up from this nightmare.” I sobbed.

“Oh you sweet thing….I promise you that I’ll keep that little angel as well as you safe.” She cooed, holding me tighter and wiping the tears from my eyes.

Both she and I jumped as out of nowhere the front door slammed wide open.

“Hey, sorry to interrupt, but she just decided she hates me again and is screaming like crazy.” Kylie quickly said.

“Oh shit.” I whispered, jumping up from my seat on the patio swing.

“Go take care of that beautiful baby you created, I’ll stay down here and keep our little fort safe.” Gaia told me.

“Thank you, thank you, thank you.” I gushed, giving her an enormous hug.

I let go then only to now hear the crying of my little baby and that got me sprinting back inside to try and make things better.

I suppose that was all I could do.

You can’t erase the past, what’s done has been done.

I could change the future though, for both of us.

No, it wasn’t that I could.

It was that I will.

Notes

One More Chapter Up!

I hope you all enjoyed this chapter, and for those of you who weren't really fans of Chance....I think you'll appreciate what's to come to him in the next chapter!

Thanks again for reading, commenting, and voting!

I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving!

~BlackVeilsinWhite

Comments

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@Motionless.Rinio
It still won't let me on :( Keeps saying the domain isn't there

HI THEY FIXED IT IM TALKING FROM IT NOW!!!!!!!!

@xXStalkerXx
Hi! Oh my gosh am I happy to hear from you. I can't get to it either, I think that website is done for :(
Makes me so damn sad.
I actually ended up moving my stories to Wattpad. If this PTV one stays up I'll keep updating here, but if not I'll have everything on Wattpad!

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