The Last Snow: A Mother's Love

The second I stepped inside of our main house, I made a quick dash to the kitchen to get myself a couple shots of espresso to keep me as alert and awake as possible. Maybe I was a little too excited to have her today, which resulted in my having to wake up at 3:30 am to be ready for her at 5.

I had managed to take some time to put on an outfit that would help Bella take thing more seriously. That meant pulling out one of my suits. I knew she would be coming in with only her pajamas on, which would leave me with one more advantage over her. Anything to help me get it through to her that we’re in control, and have the upper hand.

The clock on the wall struck 4:45, and I knew I had to start making my way down to my office.

By the time I got to my office, there was only 5 minutes until Bella was supposed to be here with me. It would be incredibly wise of her to get here on time. She would not want to start her training off by disobeying her first instruction.

As it reached 4:57 am, I took a peek out of the room into the hallway, and saw no evidence of Bella approaching.

“Come on, come to Master.” I cooed, walking back into my office.

I pulled up the security cameras feed on my desktop and tried to quickly find her.

She wasn’t in any of the bedrooms in the other house, so I hoped that meant she was just about here.

In no time at all the second hand on my watch was counting down the last 30 seconds she had.

I leaned back against the wall, folding my arms across my chest and waiting for her.

A knock at the door, got my attention, and looking up I saw it was Bella. Peering down at my watch to check the time, I shook my head and chuckled.

She was something else.

“Come on in, sit.” I told her.

She cautiously stepped in to my office and took a seat across from me at my desk.

“What do you want?” She whispered, refusing to look at me.

“I want you to not try to test me by showing up 5 seconds before you’re supposed to be here.” I told her, figuring that there was no way chance would have only left her with 5 seconds left.

Bella covered her mouth with one of her hands, but it was still very clear to me that she was trying to hide a sly smile.

Yeah, she wasn't too hard to figure out.

I left my position leaning against the wall, went to go shut the door, and locked it just to see her momentarily jump.

“I’m not stupid you know. I do know you, and I know that you are a fan of pushing us and the rules to the very edge. It would be smart of you to break that bad habit, or I could always break it for you.” I whispered in her ear, behind her with my arms slowly wrapping across the front of her chest.

“Fine.” She said through gritted teeth.

“Good. Now, let me remind you of what you agreed to.” I told her, getting up.

I rummaged through my desk, found our contract, and slid it over the desk to her.

“Yeah, that’s not something someone can forget.” She told me, in an almost bored tone of voice.

“Good, so then you’ll also remember the second you break a rule, this goes out the window. So please, let’s not make this any harder than it has to be.” I begged her.

“Alright, but just so you know I will read this as many times as needed until it’s memorized. If you think you’re going to hold me to everything in it, you better bet I’ll be even more wary of you and making sure none of you step over a line.” She warned me.

I let out a laugh.

“I wouldn’t expect any less from you, dear.” I told her.

“Good.” She stated, keeping a very straight face.

I flipped the contract open to the start of where her rules started and pointed to the first one.

It read ‘Submissive entering into this binding contract must refer to all dominants as Sir, or Master in times of training, or service.’

“Let’s start there.” I suggested.

Bella let out a little groan.

“Is that at all negotiable?” She asked, obviously annoyed by it.

I went to say no, but then I thought I could perhaps give her a little incentive.

“Sure, if you want to take a gamble on who’s room you’ll be in tonight, then by all means feel free to refrain from calling us our titles.” I said.

“You and I both knows that means I’d be sleeping with TJ.” She responded.

“Do I?” I questioned her.

She took in a deep breath, sighed and then whispered “Yes, Sir” with a very exaggerated eye roll.

“Thank you, love.” I thanked her.

“Mmhmm.” Bella grumbled.

“Next time though, I could really live without seeing you roll your eyes at me.” I told her.

“Woah, let’s take things one step at a time.” Bella joked.

“I will, we will, ok?” I promised her.

“I’m trusting you to not destroy who I am, alright? That’s the only promise I need.” She suddenly told me, changing her tone to desperate and not hostile.

“Bella.” I started, but noticed her eyes were looking down at the floor.

“Look at me.” I commanded her, slipping a finger under her chin.

“What?” She whispered.

“I think you know I can’t make you become something you’re not. I’m not going to fight you on that, but I hope that one day, you can realize that too.” I replied.

“So what’s next for today?” Bella asked, changing the topic.

“That was really it for today, I got you to show up on time and address me as Sir. I think that’s a good days worth of work.” I answered her.

“Oh, I just figured there was more since you know, I woke up at 5 am to get started. Plus, I was kind of imagining this whole retraining process would be quicker, kind of in the ripping a bandaid off way.” She explained to me.

“Well...I can definitely find something for us to work on.” I told her.

“I didn’t mean to be pushy...I’d just rather not drag this process out.” She apologized.

“Don’t apologize, Bella. It’s more than ok.” I assured her.

I stood back up, threw my jacket over my chair, so I was now just wearing the white dress shirt underneath, and proceeded to go over to the door.

I opened it up, and held it open as Bella got up and cautiously exited into the hallway.

“You’re not taking this as I’m excited to do any of this, right?” She wondered, as we walked side by side down the hall.

“I have my theories, we all do.” I responded.

“You guys should place a bet on who’s right.” She whispered softly, chuckling to herself.

“We would, but that would just mean Tyler would get a huge payday.” I told her.

“Why do you say that?” She wondered.

“You and Tyler are just very close. He’s proven himself to be right about well..everything about you.” I explained.

“Does it make you angry? That I got close to someone who wasn’t you?” She asked me.

I stopped in my tracks, that was a very sudden- very intense question.

“That’s requires more than a simple yes or no answer, Bella.” I told her.

“I’m all ears.” She said.

“It’s not anger that I feel, and if it was anger that I was feeling, it could only be directed at myself. Things haven’t exactly gone the way I expected them to go, as you can probably figure out on your own. However, back to your question. It’s more of a longing that I feel. I wish that I had taken previous opportunities to create a bond with you as strong as Tyler’s. I’m also sure that if you asked anyone else that same question, their answer would be in the same ballpark.” I admitted.

“Thanks for being honest.” She sighed.

“Of course.” I cooed.

We both stood in silence for a few minutes, Bella seemed unsure of what to say, and I was trying to give her enough time to take in what I had told her.

“So what’s next?” Bella asked.

Damn, that was a good question. I thought about it for a couple seconds, and I realized what I needed to do.

“We’re going back to bed.” I stated.

“Like...sex?” She wondered, her face showing fear even at the mention of it.

“No, not sex. Sleep. The thing you and I both need right now.” I chuckled.

“I thought you wanted me up this early though.” She said.

“Looking back on it, I got a little too excited to have you first. We’re not going to get anything productive done this tired.” I answered.

“I thought you said we already were productive.” She stated.

“I meant we weren’t going to be any more productive.” I said, chuckling.

“I’m thinking it’s safe to just say it’s not worth it for anyone to have to wake up before 6:30.” Bella laughed along with me, now walking back to the second building.

“Don’t push it Noel, 6am it is.” I told her.

“I can live with that.” She responded, shrugging.

“Sorry again for getting you up so early.” I apologized.

“Hey, you got it worse than I did. You were in a fucking suit.” She pointed out.

That was true.

We continued just small talk out of the building, and down the path to the second building. As we did that, I something finally clicked.

This morning I had gone into everything with the same mindset that I’ve had every other time we’ve went to go and try to train or retrain Bella, which was exactly what we were trying to get away from. We were on the right path with the contract, but we had to give her reigns a bit more slack. Like I had her, we couldn’t make her something she didn’t want to be. I knew deep down, Bella had a part of her that craved becoming our perfect little sub. She would get there one day, but it couldn’t be forced. We had to show her the path, and gently guide her along it, with enough of a leash to let her do it her way, but still be able to have control over it, and her.

That included not jumping down her throat the first day, which is what I was fully ready to do this morning.

We could both go back to sleep, and hopefully recharge and get into a more positive mindset for later on in the day.

“Are you headed back to your room?” I asked.

“Yeah, I don’t think Tyler would appreciate at 5:25 wake up call.” She whispered, not wanting to wake anyone since we were now on the second floor.

“Good call. When you get up, just come and find me.” I said, in front of my band’s room.

“Sounds good.” She said, quickly and quietly making her way up the stairs.

Once I couldn’t hear her going up the stairs anymore, I slipped into our room, being careful not to wake anyone.

We had a fairly large closet in the back of the room, so I managed to quickly slip out of my shirt and pants, finding something far more comfortable.

“Chris?” Ryan grumbled.

“Yeah?” I whispered back.

“What the hell are you doing back her so early? What happened with Bella?” He asked.

“She did the few things I needed her to do for now, I realized how tired we both were, so she’s back getting some more shut eye. I’ll explain more, later.” I said, getting back into bed.

That must have been a good enough answer for him, or he passed out once more, as I didn’t hear another peep from him.

It didn’t even take me five minutes, and I too was fast asleep.

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Later that Day
9 p.m

“Shit, did you guys see that we’re supposed to get hit with a damn blizzard for the next three days?” Ben exclaimed, suddenly entering the little lounge/ ‘family’ room we had.

“Shhhh.” We all shushed him.

Bella had just fallen asleep, and we didn’t want to wake her from her peaceful state.

“My bad.” He whispered.

Only a few of us were still up for the night, and that included Tyler. B, Craig, Ronnie, Angelo, Alan, Danny, Michael Bohn, and myself.

Tyler was sitting on the far left of the couch, I was on the right, and Bella was completely sprawled out in between the two of us. Her head was resting in Tyler’s lap with his right arm wrapped around her, ensuring that she wouldn’t fall off. That left her legs to ever so gently bump into my thighs, her short stature didn’t allow them to rest in my lap.

As far as the rest of the day had gone, it was definitely a success. Bella and I actually ended up waking up a few minutes after one another, around 10 am. After I made us a nice little breakfast, I took her to the closet we had set up for her that contained her more exciting outfits if you will. I went over what she was to wear when, and just like with proper addressal, I could she that she was a little weary about it, but nonetheless she went along with it.

I started her off easy for the day, letting her keep on her usual leggings and sweatshirt, but now she was in a noticeably more revealing black satin camisole, with a matching pair of shorts.

I won’t lie, I was absolutely loving getting so see more of her beautiful body. She was gorgeous through and through.

“Chris, pay attention.” Angelo said.

I snapped myself out of the thinking about Bella train and looked up from her.

“What’s up?” I asked.

“Ben wasn’t lying, we’re basically going to get snowed in over the next 3 to 4 days.” He replied, pointing to the local weatherman on the now turned on television.

“Oh shit, that sucks.” Michael groaned.

“What really will suck is if we get stuck inside with not enough food for everyone, and other supplies. Ange, if it’s safe enough to drive on the roads tomorrow, why don’t you and Brandon go and buy some stuff so that we’re fully stocked and prepared.” I suggested.

“Alright, I’m going to head to bed then so we can wake up early enough to beat the snow.” He told us, and quickly left.

“What are you and the little satin rabbit up to tomorrow?” Ben asked, nodding towards Bella.

“Whatever she allows us to do.” I chuckled.

“Based on the fact that she’s wearing what she’s wearing, I’d say she’s letting you do something. Or was that you, Tyler?” Danny stated.

“It wasn’t me.” Tyler said.

“Well damn, what magic did you work on her?” Danny wondered.

“I don’t think it was something I did, I think it might have been something I told her when I first had her up.” I told them.

“Which was what?” Tyler demanded to know.

“I just told her we couldn’t make her become something she isn’t. I think hearing that, may have helped her come to terms with everything.” I explained.

“Either way, that’s a fucking good point. If she really didn’t want to give in to any of her urges, in the past or now, she wouldn’t. She’s not the kind of girl that you can control, in that sense only, of course.” Craig replied.

“That’s for damn sure.” I said, resting my hand gently across her leg.

“Well, I’m going to take that good news and have that be the last thing I think about tonight, and not that fuckung blizzard.” Alan announced, getting up and heading out.

“Yeah, I’m with Ashby on that one.” Ben agreed.

“Fuck it, me too.” Michael chuckled, heading out with them.

“See you tomorrow.” Craig said.

“What about Bells, hmm? Are you going to bed?” Danny whispered to me.

“I don’t think she’s getting up anytime soon.” Tyler laughed, brushing a section of her hair back so it wasn’t covering her face.

“I’ll just stay here with her for the rest of the night.” He told us.

It quieted down, until the only noise we could hear was Bella’s soft talking as she slept. They were more of incoherent grumbles than anything.

The newscast kept replaying the images on the radar of what was to come continuously, until one by one the rest of the guys made their way back to their rooms.

“Hey, are you sure you don’t want me to take her for the night?” I asked Tyler.

“I’m fine either way, I just think that if I try to get up, she’s going to do the same, and she seems very comfortable right now.” He said back, very softly.

“You’re right.” I stated.

I stood up, and went to go back to my room to finally get to bed,

“Hey, don’t be discouraged. I really think Bella will come around to you. Just give her time, time to grieve, time to truly know you, time to think about everything. It’ll all work out really well in the end.” Tyler told me.

“I hope so.” I sighed.

“Goodnight Bella.” I whispered, leaning down and planting a kiss on her forehead.

With that, I turned around and headed back to my room. The only thing on my mind was Bella, sweet, gentle Bella.

Now that we finally had her back, it’s been so clear to me how much this one human means to me.

Yes, I would be strict, and expect her to follow and uphold all of the rules, but above all as I’ve promised in so many ways- I would keep her safe first and foremost.

We only had one shot to find the perfect girl, and Bella was her.

We, no I, couldn’t blow it.

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