"And do you see me at all under the tall waves?

and do you see me at all?"

I felt the last tear escape from my eyes as I heard the final piano melody from the last song. This entire album brought so many emotions I had a hard time listening to it. I was either angry or crying during the entire time.

Most of the album was about Vic's love for me and some where about more sensitive matters. But there were two songs on that record that really stuck out to me. These two songs were like shots to the heart and I was left here bleeding.

One thing's for sure....I have to go talk to Vic about it. I was really unsure if I had liked this album. But it really brought me back to the time where I fell in love with him. They way he wrote his lyrics and found the perfect melodies for them...it was like art. Back in the day his music mesmerized me so much that it had me completely fallen for him. It was one of my favorite things about him...

**Flashback**

It's been three months. Three whole months since anyone had heard or seen from Vic. It's been three months since I felt that warmth I used to crave so much. The warmth that kept my sanity all together. The warmth that I needed.

At this point I didn't even believe he was real anymore. How could I find somebody so perfect and then they just disappear out of my life? Of course it was too good to be true. How could I be so stupid?

Mike killed the engine to his car we were sitting in. It was almost midnight and we were parked in front of a house about two hours away from San Diego.

Since no one's heard from Vic, we thought his parents might have. So Mike and I went to visit them and his mom told us that Vic was staying two hours away here. She said he was staying with a friend. There's that word. A friend. I had a pit of anxiety form in my stomach. There was no way this was a good idea and I knew something was going to go terribly wrong. But I had to confront it. I had to know what it is.

We sat in the car for a second and I didn't move at all. Mike must have noticed I was feeling uneasy because he broke the silence that had filled the air.

"You know Addy, you don't have to do this. I can go-," I cut him off.

"No, I have to Mike. It's the only way." I told him giving him a slight smile.

He nodded. "I won't let you go alone...I'll be right behind you the whole time."

"Promise?" I asked him.

"Promise." I nodded.

I exhaled a deep breath and got out of the car. The walk up to the door seemed like miles compared to what it actually was. It felt difficult to get there but I had the help of Mike who stayed behind me just like he said. No matter what happens, I know I can count on him.

As we approached the door I went to ring the doorbell but I couldn't. My finger was hovering over it and there was something keeping me from pushing the button.

"I got it." Mike said as he reached around me and rang the doorbell. As soon as he did we both heard a baby start to cry. We both looked at each other with confused expressions.

We heard some rustling in the house before the door swung open to a girl about my height with blonde hair. She was pretty and looked to be about my age.

"How can I help you?" She asked us.

"Cara?" Mike had said.

"What the fuck...Mike?" The girl named Cara said.

"What are you doing here?" Mike asked her.

"Uhm...I live here?" She said back to him.

A light bulb clicked on in his head, "Wait...are you the 'friend' Vic is staying with?" He said in a hostile tone.

"I wouldn't call it...friends-," Cara got interrupted by an all too familiar voice.

"Who's at the door?" Vic said as he walked up behind her trying to see who it was.

"Nothing sweetie...go back to bed." She said to him.

That's when Mike lost it.

"SWEETIE? VIC GET THE FUCK OUT HERE NOW, IT'S MIKE!" He screamed to them. Vic
had walked up to the door and Cara was trying to push him back.

"Cara, let me talk to my brother...go upstairs." He told her.

"But-,"

"GO!" Vic yelled at her. She nodded and walked back into the house and disappeared.

"Mike, what are you doing here? Addy?" He has asked Mike when his eyes suddenly landed on me. That's when Mike's fist came swinging and landed on Vic's face, sending him hurdling back a bit.

"Mike what the fuck?" Vic asked the angry Fuentes brother.

"That's for hurting Addy! You were out here breaking promises while she was back at home worried sick! I had to answer every phone call and nervous text she sent me because you were no where to be found!" Mike yelled as he swung his arm up again to punch Vic.

I couldn't believe it. It's like all the blood had drained from my body and I was frozen to the ground. My heart had a sudden pain and it wouldn't leave no matter how much I convinced myself that non of this was actually happening. How could he go behind my back like this? I thought we were meant to be...I thought he truly loved me. I know I did.

I honestly didn't know what to say to this entire thing. I mean I've never even met Cara before and I don't even know how Mike and Vic knows her. All I know is that Vic had cheated on me and had a baby with another girl. That I know for sure. The world around me was suddenly becoming too much for me to handle and I just needed it to stop.

"Mike stop!" I told him before he could punch Vic again. "Please can I just be alone with him?" I asked.

He looked at me for a second, "Are you sure?" I nodded.

He took another look at Vic and made his way back to the car. Vic stood up holding his face that just got punched by his younger brother.

"You know you never even called me to tell me you were okay." I confessed to him.

"I wanted to." He said looking down.

"That's not good enough for me Vic. You were gone for three months without a single word. It's like you fell off the face of the Earth and I was left alone." A single tear making it's way out of my eye.

"I know, I'm sorry." He said as his eyes became filled with guilt and regret. The face that I've always loved now betrayed me and I didn't even want to look at him. He took a step closer to me to wipe away the tear from my face. I backed away.

"Addy, you don't have to back away from me."He said as his voice became a little shaky.

I closed my eyes for a swift moment, "You lied to me about where you were and who you were with. How can I forgive you so easily for that?" I told him sternly.

"And on the plus side you might be the father of that child!" I said as I completely started to breakdown in front of him. That's when I had to get out of there. I couldn't even stand to be around him I was filled up with so much hate and anger I had to leave.

I took a look at him before my legs had a mind of their own and sprinted off away from the house. They ran straight into the darkness, not stopping for anyone or anything in their path. I could hear Vic running after me and calling my name, but all I did was run faster.

**End Flashback**

I was awoken by Skye who was shaking me, "Hey wake up...we go on soon! You better wash up and get dressed little lady." She said as she booped my nose.

"Oh shit...I got like zero sleep last night. I must have dozed off for a few minutes." I rubbed my eyes and crawled out of the bunk.

"Yeah I know. I heard you were listening to the album, how do you feel?" She asked as I followed her out to the main area and taking a seat on the couch.

"Like he shot me in the heart a dozen times. After I listened to it the first time, I ended up listening to it on repeat for several hours." I told her truthfully.

"Sounds like a long rough night, but you know I'm always here for you if you need me. We can watch movies or play video games when you're feeling down." She handed me a plate with a hot pocket on it. She knew it was my go-to food on tour.

I smiled, "Thanks."

"Not a problem my dear. I'm gonna leave you alone for a bit to get dressed but by the way, the ADTR boys are throwing a party tonight so you should come and just hang out." I nodded as she disappeared off the bus.

After the show, we all went back to the bus to change for the party A Day to Remember was throwing. I threw on my pink Vans crop top, some black shorts and my checkered vans. I put my hair up in a ponytail and called it a day.

The party was going well. No sign of Vic anywhere and I enjoyed it. Everyone was just out here having a good time and I was actually having fun for once on this dreadful tour.

"Aw shit! We're out of drinks guys! Who wants to drive to the nearest liquor store and get some?" Jesse from Sleeping with Sirens asked.

"Fuck it, I'll go." Jeremy said volunteering himself.

"Ooo can I tag along?" I asked him.

"Hell yeah..let's go!" He motioned for me to get on his back and I did. He gave me a piggy back ride all the way to the car.

We both got in, "Fuck...hey do you have your phone?" Jeremy asked patting down his pockets.

"No, I left it on the bus." I told him.

"Okay so did I. Here I'm gonna go get it...you wait here." I nodded as he got out of the car and disappeared.

About ten minutes had passed and I heard Jeremy get back in the car or at least I had thought. I turned to see someone who I didn't expect to.

"VIC WHAT THE HELL!" I yelled and he started the car. Fuck, Jeremy left the keys in the ignition.

"Vic?!" Jeremy yelled as he ran to the car, but it was too late.

"Victor Vincent Fuentes, you better turn this car around now or so help me God I will bash your head right into the window." I spoke through clenched teeth.

"Then who's going to drive the car?" He said smirking.

"This is kidnapping, I could have you arrested for this!" I threatened him and he sighed.

"You never listen to me Addy, I have a good explanation to what happened." Vic said a little louder. "And since you're never going to give me the time of day, I felt the need to force this."

"You're crazy, turn around." I grabbed the wheel and he shoved my hands away.

"Asshole." I muttered and he shook his head.

"Addy, I'm being serious right now." Vic's face fell to a pleading tone and he scoffed, making him groan in anger.

He hit the steering wheel harshly, scaring me in the process and I looked around to see where we were.

"You wrote a full album about me? And wrote a song about HER on it?" I finally spoke up to him, and he shook his head.

"To be honest, I wrote one and a half albums about you, and if you let me explain you'll see why I added her on there. " Vic looked at me and this time I shook my head.

"Jesus Christ Vic." I hit him and made him swerve.

"Look Addy, you don't understand." He stated and I saw he was heading towards the beach.

"I DON'T UNDERSTAND? I understand completely. You drove off with me in this car so you could explain yourself. Haven't you realized that I don't care about us anymore?" I told him and he sighed.

"Adeline, look-"

"VIC TURN THE CAR AROUND NOW!" I yelled at him trying to get him to turn. I was enraged and he was pissing me off more by the second.

"JUST GIVE ME A CHANCE TO EXPLAIN ADDY!" Vic yelled and it caught me off guard. " I-I never should have cheated on you and then left you, that had to be the biggest mistake I have ever made. I love you Addy, every day I would pray and hope you were okay...it was damn near killing me inside I couldn't hear your voice. I wanted to come back so desperately."

"Then why didn't you? The door was always open Vic." I asked him.

"She needed me." He choked out.

"BULLSHIT. That's a bunch of bullshit. Vic I was the one who needed you. Not her...me. I was the one who was kept up at night with anxiety wondering if you were dead or not. I was the one who felt abandoned when you decided to never come back. I was the one left with a broken heart who still to this day, has never healed. You were the best thing that had happened in my life but you changed that when you vanished out of thin air. My days and nights were different, they were completely empty without you. And I tried everything to fix that pain but nothing ever worked. So I was the one who really needed you Vic...I was." I said as tears came falling down my cheeks.

"And to make it worse you had a baby with her. So there is nothing...absolutely nothing you could do that could fix this. Why do you keep trying Vic, I never gave anyone a second chance?"

"Because I love you." He said as he teared up a little. Maybe speaking my mind made him feel how I felt all these years. Vic looked at me with his chocolate brown orbs and I stared back cruelly. I opened the door and shut it violently.

"Go home Vic!" I yelled and began to walk the beach.

Notes

Hey you guys hoped you enjoyed this one!!

I'm trying to make things as juicy as possible and it's not easy.

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More to come soon so stay tuned :)

-E