What If I can't forget you?
What's the point of living?
Flashback~
8 years before
Shy's POV-
As a child I always hoped to have a fairytale like Cinderella. The one where my prince charming and I meet, fall in love and he takes me away from my evil step mother. Or in my case, my evil foster parents and their demon children. Instead I find myself back in hell. By hell I mean the house I live in. As a child my mother died because of me. People say my dad ran away because of me. But he was a dead beat anyway. After all that I was sent to a foster home where I met my parents Ashlynn and David and their Kids Lexus and Nan. They never really excepted me as their own. I was always the odd one out. I guess it was because the love I had for music, at a very young age I found a Van Halen vinyl in my music teacher's drawer at school. Then after that I would sneak off and go to the music store to listen to Metallica, Slayer, Queen, and Anthrax. I also liked different music, sorta like Pop Punk.
After my parents found me listening to a Iron Maiden Vinyl my dad beat me and my mom burned all of my vinyls I had gotten with some money I MADE on my own. They threw away my band shirts and beanies along with my make up. I was grounded for a whole year for dying my hair and my step sisters always spread rumors about me at school saying that I worshipped the devil and was the so called weird one.
I mean they sorta excepted me. They legally changed my last name to Chaplin when I was five years old.
I never had a birthday, which was fine with me knowing I never got anything new even though they were very wealthy. Hell, I didn't even get a phone until this year! And it was from my sponsors as a birthday gift from the school because I never got anything from my own parents.
Anyway. When I was younger I dropped out of school in 7th and got back in when I was in 10th grade.
But today was the end of hell. It took me 18 fucking years to realize nobody gives a damn about me.
I grabbed my black duffel bag shoving all my clothes in it not caring if it wrinkled. Packing all my stuff In one bag along with my cd's and phone. Nobody will care anyway! I zip my bag shut opening my bedroom window. I look back into my crappy room. How did I ever survive? There were cracks in my wall with my bed sheets years old. Not even a TV or anything. I close the window looking down. It was 9 in the evening. You could see the stars come out as the moon complemented it. It was the only thing I would look forward to seeing everyday. I hop off of the roof grabbing onto a tree and swinging from it landing on my feet on the grass. I already called a cab. I see he's parked where no one can see him. I look back at the house flipping it off. I run to the cab opening the door.
"Hey Shy!" My friend the cab driver Toby said. I get in the front seat by him. He drove me to the music store since I was 10 and we became friends. He's in his 50's I would say. He has white short hair with a gray mustache and is a heavy set guy. He's the nicest person in the world. "Hey Toby" I smile. "Where to?" He asks. "San Diego". He looks back at me giving me a strange look. "Please Toby, I know it's far but I can't live here anymore it's messing me up" I say.
"Are you sure?" He asks. I nod. "Please" I beg. He nods. "Thank you so much Toby" I say in relief. He starts driving around the block. "By the way, happy birthday Shy" Toby says with a smile. I smile. I feel myself tear up. He's the only one who remembered. "Thanks Toby" I say. He smiles and nods. "You're gift is in the glove compartment" he says. I open it up pulling out a box. It was red with a pink bow with a birthday card. I open the box. "Thanks Toby this is the nicest thing ever" I say. It was a 'Stay Strong' necklace. I give him a quick hug.
"No problem" Toby says. He puts on the radio. I look out the window. Goodbye Los Angeles. I fall asleep.
7 hours later~
"Shy, wake up we're here" I hear Toby say. I open my eyes as the light glares at me. I look over to see we're at a hotel. "Thanks Toby!" I say. I look at him. He has bags under his eyes. "You're very welcome Shy, come visit me and Rose anytime" he smiles. Rose is his wife. I smile and nod. "Here" I say handing him a hundred. "I can't take this" he says. "I insist, thank you for being apart of my child hood, you and Rose were more supportive than the others" I say letting tears roll down.
"Go live your life and play music, I hope the best for you" he smile. "I'll miss you Toby" I smile. "I'll miss you too Shy" he says. He gets out giving me a hug. We pull away as I grab my gift and duffel bag. I wave at Toby one last time. He drives away. I walk in the hotel getting a room.
Today is my last day on earth. I want to die where my mom did. I want to be with her, I want to be an angel just like her. I want to finally be happy and feel loved for once. I walk over to a drug store buying a bottle of pills and a bottle of water. I noticed a guy wearing black shades with black skinny jeans a snap back and a gray shirt with a lip ring looking over at me. I shrug it off. He looks familiar but maybe I'm just tired. I pay for my things and go to the hotel. I run to my room locking the door closing my curtain. I spill the pills in one hand holding my water in the other.
I lift the pills to my lips. The door falls down causing me to spill the water and drop my pills. I get scared. "No! Don't do it!" A British accent shouts. I look up to see the guy from the drug store. "Please no" he begs.
I back up scared. "H-how did you find me?" I choke out. "I followed you" he answers. He comes toward me wrapping me in a hug. "Please don't do it" he begs. "Who are you?" I nearly shout. "Ben Bruce" he answers.
It finally clicks. He's from Asking Alexandria. I knew he looks familiar. I feel myself begin to cry into his chest. "I don't know who you are, but you have a meaning to live" he says crying.
He talks to me for a few hours saying his band has a free day today before they play a show. We quickly became friend. He gave me his number and left. We kept in touch.
8 years before
Shy's POV-
As a child I always hoped to have a fairytale like Cinderella. The one where my prince charming and I meet, fall in love and he takes me away from my evil step mother. Or in my case, my evil foster parents and their demon children. Instead I find myself back in hell. By hell I mean the house I live in. As a child my mother died because of me. People say my dad ran away because of me. But he was a dead beat anyway. After all that I was sent to a foster home where I met my parents Ashlynn and David and their Kids Lexus and Nan. They never really excepted me as their own. I was always the odd one out. I guess it was because the love I had for music, at a very young age I found a Van Halen vinyl in my music teacher's drawer at school. Then after that I would sneak off and go to the music store to listen to Metallica, Slayer, Queen, and Anthrax. I also liked different music, sorta like Pop Punk.
After my parents found me listening to a Iron Maiden Vinyl my dad beat me and my mom burned all of my vinyls I had gotten with some money I MADE on my own. They threw away my band shirts and beanies along with my make up. I was grounded for a whole year for dying my hair and my step sisters always spread rumors about me at school saying that I worshipped the devil and was the so called weird one.
I mean they sorta excepted me. They legally changed my last name to Chaplin when I was five years old.
I never had a birthday, which was fine with me knowing I never got anything new even though they were very wealthy. Hell, I didn't even get a phone until this year! And it was from my sponsors as a birthday gift from the school because I never got anything from my own parents.
Anyway. When I was younger I dropped out of school in 7th and got back in when I was in 10th grade.
But today was the end of hell. It took me 18 fucking years to realize nobody gives a damn about me.
I grabbed my black duffel bag shoving all my clothes in it not caring if it wrinkled. Packing all my stuff In one bag along with my cd's and phone. Nobody will care anyway! I zip my bag shut opening my bedroom window. I look back into my crappy room. How did I ever survive? There were cracks in my wall with my bed sheets years old. Not even a TV or anything. I close the window looking down. It was 9 in the evening. You could see the stars come out as the moon complemented it. It was the only thing I would look forward to seeing everyday. I hop off of the roof grabbing onto a tree and swinging from it landing on my feet on the grass. I already called a cab. I see he's parked where no one can see him. I look back at the house flipping it off. I run to the cab opening the door.
"Hey Shy!" My friend the cab driver Toby said. I get in the front seat by him. He drove me to the music store since I was 10 and we became friends. He's in his 50's I would say. He has white short hair with a gray mustache and is a heavy set guy. He's the nicest person in the world. "Hey Toby" I smile. "Where to?" He asks. "San Diego". He looks back at me giving me a strange look. "Please Toby, I know it's far but I can't live here anymore it's messing me up" I say.
"Are you sure?" He asks. I nod. "Please" I beg. He nods. "Thank you so much Toby" I say in relief. He starts driving around the block. "By the way, happy birthday Shy" Toby says with a smile. I smile. I feel myself tear up. He's the only one who remembered. "Thanks Toby" I say. He smiles and nods. "You're gift is in the glove compartment" he says. I open it up pulling out a box. It was red with a pink bow with a birthday card. I open the box. "Thanks Toby this is the nicest thing ever" I say. It was a 'Stay Strong' necklace. I give him a quick hug.
"No problem" Toby says. He puts on the radio. I look out the window. Goodbye Los Angeles. I fall asleep.
7 hours later~
"Shy, wake up we're here" I hear Toby say. I open my eyes as the light glares at me. I look over to see we're at a hotel. "Thanks Toby!" I say. I look at him. He has bags under his eyes. "You're very welcome Shy, come visit me and Rose anytime" he smiles. Rose is his wife. I smile and nod. "Here" I say handing him a hundred. "I can't take this" he says. "I insist, thank you for being apart of my child hood, you and Rose were more supportive than the others" I say letting tears roll down.
"Go live your life and play music, I hope the best for you" he smile. "I'll miss you Toby" I smile. "I'll miss you too Shy" he says. He gets out giving me a hug. We pull away as I grab my gift and duffel bag. I wave at Toby one last time. He drives away. I walk in the hotel getting a room.
Today is my last day on earth. I want to die where my mom did. I want to be with her, I want to be an angel just like her. I want to finally be happy and feel loved for once. I walk over to a drug store buying a bottle of pills and a bottle of water. I noticed a guy wearing black shades with black skinny jeans a snap back and a gray shirt with a lip ring looking over at me. I shrug it off. He looks familiar but maybe I'm just tired. I pay for my things and go to the hotel. I run to my room locking the door closing my curtain. I spill the pills in one hand holding my water in the other.
I lift the pills to my lips. The door falls down causing me to spill the water and drop my pills. I get scared. "No! Don't do it!" A British accent shouts. I look up to see the guy from the drug store. "Please no" he begs.
I back up scared. "H-how did you find me?" I choke out. "I followed you" he answers. He comes toward me wrapping me in a hug. "Please don't do it" he begs. "Who are you?" I nearly shout. "Ben Bruce" he answers.
It finally clicks. He's from Asking Alexandria. I knew he looks familiar. I feel myself begin to cry into his chest. "I don't know who you are, but you have a meaning to live" he says crying.
He talks to me for a few hours saying his band has a free day today before they play a show. We quickly became friend. He gave me his number and left. We kept in touch.
Notes
So another Story!
This was kind of a chapter of how she met Ben. And her childhood memories.
Next chapter will be with PTV I promise. :)
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