Tangled in the Great Escape
Wake Me Up
“Haley has been stabilized. She is currently asleep and due to the trauma to her brain it is unknown when or if she will wake up. The babies appear to be healthy for being 4 weeks premature. They are being further examined for organ problems such as brain and heart. There is no guarantee that they will live through this. They will most likely be put in incubators but it hasn’t been determined for how long. One of your daughters is 4.5 pounds and 17.47 inches long and the other is 4.3 pounds and 17.25 inches long. You may see Haley in an hour and I will let you know when you may see your daughters,” the man pauses making sure I’ve taken everything in. “Haley is in recovery but she will be in the maternity ward. First floor, room 121. Just a little ways past where the incubators are. I could show you the way if you’d like though she won’t be in the room.”
I shake my head at his offer of showing me the way. I don’t want to be there until she’s there. “Thank you,” the nurse nods and walks away. I turn around and walk to where Vic, Tony and Mike are watching and waiting for me. “Haley’s alive,” I state when I reach them.
Smiles come across each of their faces but there’s still concern there. “Fucking thank god. Can we see her?” Vic inquires.
I speak with tears threatening to stream down my face. “In like an hour we can. It doesn’t mean she’ll be awake. Doesn’t mean she’ll ever be awake.”
“What the fuck does that mean?” Mike asks a bit harshly.
“She hit her head or something. They don’t know if she’s going to wake up.” I continue to fill them in on the rest of what I had been told then I make calls to my family while the guys make calls to their girlfriends and families. I know my family will want to know. Between all the years in school then all the time we’ve spent together after we graduated then when we started dating my family acts as if Haley is family. She really is though. She’s my best friend and my fiance and the mother of my daughters, she’s already been my family for a long time in my eyes. I don’t know what I’d do without her. I really don’t think I’d be able to stay in that house if I lose her, it would just torture me.
Haley Grace James. That women is my world. She’s the one I want to live the rest of my life with, grow old with. I want to celebrate many anniversaries with her. I want to see her smile and hear her voice every day that I live. I want to see her smile when she sees our daughters for the first time. Name them with her. Celebrate our daughters birthdays with her. Raise them with her. Haley Grace James is the women that I want to see walk down the aisle in white with a beautiful smile on her face. I want to hear her say “I do” and I want to say it back to her. She’s the only one I want and I can’t bare to lose her. If she dies then it’ll be like I die too.
Tonys voice interrupts my thoughts before I can cause myself to cry uncontrollably. “Hey man, I’m gonna head over to your house. I don’t think we locked the door or anything and I- uh, I think someone should clean up-” He trails off unsure of how to word the sentence. “I just think you need to stay here.”
“Thanks,” he gives me a hug and I hand him the keys to the truck and he leaves.
I walk aimlessly trying to pass the time until I get to see my beautiful fiance. Somehow I’ve found the 2 windows in the maternity ward, one showing a room with newborns and the other showing a room with newborns in incubators. I look around at the incubators. There’s some babies connected to so many cords and others that are just so small. I see a woman in scrubs walk into the room without incubators while carrying a baby. She places the baby in one of the beds marked with pink indicating its a girl. Soon a man does the same as the nurse had and when he looks up at me I realize it’s the same nurse who had been updating me on Haley and instantly he smiles at me then down at the babies then back at me.
Realization hits me. Those are my girls. And my girls aren’t being incubated. I quickly walk around the corner and go to the door of the room in hopes that I may be able to hold my little girls. My girls who haven’t even been named yet. The nurse opens the door allowing me into room. A smile grows on my face when I reach my baby girls, “Would you like to hold them?” the man asks me.
“Y-yes,” I manage to choke out and he pulls a chair over from against the wall. I sit and the nurse brings me one of my girls, then the other, making sure I’m able to hold both. They’re so small and fragile and beautiful. They’re not completely identical but they’re close. One has lighter hair like her mom and the other has darker hair like me. They both have hazel eyes and they’re the most beautiful babies I’ve ever seen. And they’re mine. I sit, rocking back and forth and stare down at my daughters completely speechless. There’s a tap on the window to which I look up and see my 3 friends grinning at me.
“Haley is in her room now if you’d like to see her now.”
I want to just carry my little girls down the hallway and right to my fiance and the both of us hold them and name them together. On that thought I decide to ask, “Can I name them now?”
~~
It’s been 4 days since Haley came into the hospital and she’s still asleep. I hate seeing her like this, wires connected to her and a tube down her throat for food. She looks so lifeless and it’s killing me. Our girls are going to be released in another 2 days. They wanted to keep them for further observations to confirm no problems appear. I’ve been going between Haleys room and the room that my daughters are in and the only times I’ve actually left the hospital has been to shower and change and I haven’t been away from here for longer than an hour at once. I just got back here from going home to shower and eat about an hour ago and since then I’ve been sitting by my fiances side clinging onto her hand with my head down as I typically do. Feeling Haleys hand twitch I just keep my head down knowing it’s the same as always. Just a fucking muscle spasm giving me false hope.
I hear a mumble sounding much like my name then a groan so I look up and see beautiful blues eyes staring back into my eyes. My jaw drops before I recompose myself, “Hey baby. Don’t try to talk okay? It’ll just hurt. Let me go get someone.” Her grip is like a vice on my hand as soon as I say that and she shakes her head with pleading eyes. “Baby, I’ve got to-” before I can finish my sentence Haley presses the nurse button on the side of the bed using the hand not holding mine. Quickly I pull out my phone and shoot a text to my 3 best friends to let them know Haley’s woken up knowing they’ll come as fast as they can.
There’s a knock at the door before Haleys nurse walks in, “Wow, you’re awake. It’s nice to meet you Haley, I’m Addie” the nurse says with a warm smile. “I’ll page the doctor and in the meantime we will remove the tube. He hasn’t left your side longer than an hour at a time. Very dedicated fiance. I wish I had someone like that,” the nurse leaves to call for the doctor and moments later she returns with another nurse. They quickly remove the feeding tube along with the catheter and the IVs.
Once the nurses are done, though still in the room, Haley scoots to the side of her bed. “Come here,” she rasps, throat still sore from the recent removal of the tube. Addie looks at me with a grin of approval so I kick off my shoes and settle into the bed beside Haley and she quickly cuddles into my side. Soon the doctor appeared and explained to my fiance what had happened and that she could go home around the time our daughters get to, however he didn’t mention the girls, he left it up to me. “Jaime,” Haley says after the doctor leaves and she sits up wincing at the discomfort in her stomach. “What really happened? They told me the concussion and the c-section but nothing about what really happened.”
“I don’t know completely. I got home and found you on the floor in our hallway bleeding. We got you here and,” I trail off seeing her begin to cry. “Please don’t cry, beautiful. Hey, look at me Hales,” I tilt her chin so she looks at me.
“What about the babies?” I climb off the bed with a huge smile and offer her my hand.
“C’mon, let’s take a walk.” She complies and walks by my side down the hallway until we reach the window of the room where our twins are. Haley stops, staring into the room with silent tears running down her face. Next thing I know I feel a hand on my shoulder and see Mike out of the corner of my eye with Tony beside him and Vic circles around us to stand by Haley. Seconds later Emily, Steph and Kate are standing with us.
“Good to have you back Hales,” Tony says and gives her a hug.
“Thanks,” she mumbles then looks up at me. “Can I see them?” Leaving the guys I pull her with me to the door where Addie lets us in and leads Haley to sit in the chair that I’ve occupied quite a bit since Haley was checked in then Addie brings over another chair. Without a word I pick up one of our daughters and stand in front of Haley and Addie joins me.
Tears run down Haleys face and I place the small fragile girl into her arms before I sit and take my other daughter into my arms. “Haley, meet Kathryn Rose Preciado,” I say motioning to the little girl in her arms. Then to the baby in my arms, “and meet Emma Jane Preciado. I hope it was okay I used my last name. I just figured that it’s going to be your last name eventually so it just made sense.”
Her smile grows larger, if that’s even possible, and she looks up at me with her beautiful blue eyes. I swear to god I’m never letting this woman go. Looking down at our fragile daughters Haley says to me, “I told you we’d be fine.”
“What?”
Haley looks into my eyes, “When you went to go record I promised you we’d be fine. We’re fine Jaime,” I lean in and before I can kiss her she mumbles, “We’re fine. Everything’s okay now.”
I shake my head at his offer of showing me the way. I don’t want to be there until she’s there. “Thank you,” the nurse nods and walks away. I turn around and walk to where Vic, Tony and Mike are watching and waiting for me. “Haley’s alive,” I state when I reach them.
Smiles come across each of their faces but there’s still concern there. “Fucking thank god. Can we see her?” Vic inquires.
I speak with tears threatening to stream down my face. “In like an hour we can. It doesn’t mean she’ll be awake. Doesn’t mean she’ll ever be awake.”
“What the fuck does that mean?” Mike asks a bit harshly.
“She hit her head or something. They don’t know if she’s going to wake up.” I continue to fill them in on the rest of what I had been told then I make calls to my family while the guys make calls to their girlfriends and families. I know my family will want to know. Between all the years in school then all the time we’ve spent together after we graduated then when we started dating my family acts as if Haley is family. She really is though. She’s my best friend and my fiance and the mother of my daughters, she’s already been my family for a long time in my eyes. I don’t know what I’d do without her. I really don’t think I’d be able to stay in that house if I lose her, it would just torture me.
Haley Grace James. That women is my world. She’s the one I want to live the rest of my life with, grow old with. I want to celebrate many anniversaries with her. I want to see her smile and hear her voice every day that I live. I want to see her smile when she sees our daughters for the first time. Name them with her. Celebrate our daughters birthdays with her. Raise them with her. Haley Grace James is the women that I want to see walk down the aisle in white with a beautiful smile on her face. I want to hear her say “I do” and I want to say it back to her. She’s the only one I want and I can’t bare to lose her. If she dies then it’ll be like I die too.
Tonys voice interrupts my thoughts before I can cause myself to cry uncontrollably. “Hey man, I’m gonna head over to your house. I don’t think we locked the door or anything and I- uh, I think someone should clean up-” He trails off unsure of how to word the sentence. “I just think you need to stay here.”
“Thanks,” he gives me a hug and I hand him the keys to the truck and he leaves.
I walk aimlessly trying to pass the time until I get to see my beautiful fiance. Somehow I’ve found the 2 windows in the maternity ward, one showing a room with newborns and the other showing a room with newborns in incubators. I look around at the incubators. There’s some babies connected to so many cords and others that are just so small. I see a woman in scrubs walk into the room without incubators while carrying a baby. She places the baby in one of the beds marked with pink indicating its a girl. Soon a man does the same as the nurse had and when he looks up at me I realize it’s the same nurse who had been updating me on Haley and instantly he smiles at me then down at the babies then back at me.
Realization hits me. Those are my girls. And my girls aren’t being incubated. I quickly walk around the corner and go to the door of the room in hopes that I may be able to hold my little girls. My girls who haven’t even been named yet. The nurse opens the door allowing me into room. A smile grows on my face when I reach my baby girls, “Would you like to hold them?” the man asks me.
“Y-yes,” I manage to choke out and he pulls a chair over from against the wall. I sit and the nurse brings me one of my girls, then the other, making sure I’m able to hold both. They’re so small and fragile and beautiful. They’re not completely identical but they’re close. One has lighter hair like her mom and the other has darker hair like me. They both have hazel eyes and they’re the most beautiful babies I’ve ever seen. And they’re mine. I sit, rocking back and forth and stare down at my daughters completely speechless. There’s a tap on the window to which I look up and see my 3 friends grinning at me.
“Haley is in her room now if you’d like to see her now.”
I want to just carry my little girls down the hallway and right to my fiance and the both of us hold them and name them together. On that thought I decide to ask, “Can I name them now?”
~~
It’s been 4 days since Haley came into the hospital and she’s still asleep. I hate seeing her like this, wires connected to her and a tube down her throat for food. She looks so lifeless and it’s killing me. Our girls are going to be released in another 2 days. They wanted to keep them for further observations to confirm no problems appear. I’ve been going between Haleys room and the room that my daughters are in and the only times I’ve actually left the hospital has been to shower and change and I haven’t been away from here for longer than an hour at once. I just got back here from going home to shower and eat about an hour ago and since then I’ve been sitting by my fiances side clinging onto her hand with my head down as I typically do. Feeling Haleys hand twitch I just keep my head down knowing it’s the same as always. Just a fucking muscle spasm giving me false hope.
I hear a mumble sounding much like my name then a groan so I look up and see beautiful blues eyes staring back into my eyes. My jaw drops before I recompose myself, “Hey baby. Don’t try to talk okay? It’ll just hurt. Let me go get someone.” Her grip is like a vice on my hand as soon as I say that and she shakes her head with pleading eyes. “Baby, I’ve got to-” before I can finish my sentence Haley presses the nurse button on the side of the bed using the hand not holding mine. Quickly I pull out my phone and shoot a text to my 3 best friends to let them know Haley’s woken up knowing they’ll come as fast as they can.
There’s a knock at the door before Haleys nurse walks in, “Wow, you’re awake. It’s nice to meet you Haley, I’m Addie” the nurse says with a warm smile. “I’ll page the doctor and in the meantime we will remove the tube. He hasn’t left your side longer than an hour at a time. Very dedicated fiance. I wish I had someone like that,” the nurse leaves to call for the doctor and moments later she returns with another nurse. They quickly remove the feeding tube along with the catheter and the IVs.
Once the nurses are done, though still in the room, Haley scoots to the side of her bed. “Come here,” she rasps, throat still sore from the recent removal of the tube. Addie looks at me with a grin of approval so I kick off my shoes and settle into the bed beside Haley and she quickly cuddles into my side. Soon the doctor appeared and explained to my fiance what had happened and that she could go home around the time our daughters get to, however he didn’t mention the girls, he left it up to me. “Jaime,” Haley says after the doctor leaves and she sits up wincing at the discomfort in her stomach. “What really happened? They told me the concussion and the c-section but nothing about what really happened.”
“I don’t know completely. I got home and found you on the floor in our hallway bleeding. We got you here and,” I trail off seeing her begin to cry. “Please don’t cry, beautiful. Hey, look at me Hales,” I tilt her chin so she looks at me.
“What about the babies?” I climb off the bed with a huge smile and offer her my hand.
“C’mon, let’s take a walk.” She complies and walks by my side down the hallway until we reach the window of the room where our twins are. Haley stops, staring into the room with silent tears running down her face. Next thing I know I feel a hand on my shoulder and see Mike out of the corner of my eye with Tony beside him and Vic circles around us to stand by Haley. Seconds later Emily, Steph and Kate are standing with us.
“Good to have you back Hales,” Tony says and gives her a hug.
“Thanks,” she mumbles then looks up at me. “Can I see them?” Leaving the guys I pull her with me to the door where Addie lets us in and leads Haley to sit in the chair that I’ve occupied quite a bit since Haley was checked in then Addie brings over another chair. Without a word I pick up one of our daughters and stand in front of Haley and Addie joins me.
Tears run down Haleys face and I place the small fragile girl into her arms before I sit and take my other daughter into my arms. “Haley, meet Kathryn Rose Preciado,” I say motioning to the little girl in her arms. Then to the baby in my arms, “and meet Emma Jane Preciado. I hope it was okay I used my last name. I just figured that it’s going to be your last name eventually so it just made sense.”
Her smile grows larger, if that’s even possible, and she looks up at me with her beautiful blue eyes. I swear to god I’m never letting this woman go. Looking down at our fragile daughters Haley says to me, “I told you we’d be fine.”
“What?”
Haley looks into my eyes, “When you went to go record I promised you we’d be fine. We’re fine Jaime,” I lean in and before I can kiss her she mumbles, “We’re fine. Everything’s okay now.”
Notes
so cause of jackie im posting the rest of the fic tonight.fuck you jackie but i still love you bby
title credit: Ed Sheeran
8/27/13