My eyes flutter open and the first thing I see is my amazing boyfriend still lying next to me. “Jaime, Jaime wake up babe.”
“No,” He groans, dragging out the word, “five more minutes.”
“I wana get a shower before anyone else gets home, take a shower with me.” He gets up quickly and grabs some clothes for us, not bothering with my clothes besides panties and wraps towels around us before pulling me to the bathroom. “I guess you’d rather shower with me than sleep?”
“I’d rather have you against me than anything else.” Jaime closes and locks the door after setting our clothes on the counter and turning the shower on. I let my towel fall to the floor and step into the warm water and Jaime joins me. “How are you baby?”
“I feel good. Amazing actually,” I say as I rub shampoo through my hair. He helps rinse it out for me and continues with washing me before himself. I lean against the wall, watching him, the way he does things.
“You’re staring.”
“I’m admiring,” I remark with a huge smile, “It’s interesting seeing you like this. I mean how you do things. Like even the little things that you do. I’m just thinking that hopefully I’m going to be able to see all of the little things you do someday. It’s all of these things I never knew before. For example, I never knew you hummed in the shower.”
“Next time I should let you wash yourself so I can see what you mean,” he walks over and pulls me to him, though we’re naked it’s not sexual in anyway. He reaches to turn the shower off, we step out and dry ourselves.
“You didn’t get clothes for me Jaime.”
“Yes I did,” He tosses me my panties and one of his shirts. I pull on what he gave me while he just pulls on boxers. I follow him down the stairs and stop in the doorway of the kitchen when I see Vic and Mike in the kitchen. Vic at the table and Mike standing against the wall smoking. Jaime continues into the kitchen getting food as everyones eyes fall on me.
“Uh, I think I should go put more clothes on,” I turn away and Jaime puts his arms around me keeping me there.
“We’ve seen you in less so what’s the point in changing?” My face grows redder when Vic says this. “So, how was it? Is he good? I see he’s claimed you.” He motions towards the purple marks along my skin, I completely forgot that anyone would see them.
“Oh my god.” I bury my face in Jaimes chest to hide the embarrassment. “It was amazing and yes he’s good.”
“How was she?” Mike addresses Jaime.
“She’s fucking perfect.” I pull out of Jaimes arms and sit on a kitchen chair. “Thanks for leaving the house last night. I don’t think it would’ve been as good with you guys here for this time. I guess it’s up to her if she cares whether you hear or not.” Everyone looks over at me, smiling like idiots.
I smirk at them, “You’ll just have to get used to hearing me. Jaime already is.” All 3 of them nearly choke on their food with shocked looks on their faces.
“Since when do you say shit like that?” I laugh, disregarding Mikes question.
“She says a lot of things that I didn’t expect.”
“Oh my god Jaime. We’re done talking about what I say during sex.”
“Well you do things that I didn’t expect.”
Vic looks up, confused and asks, “Wait, what?”
“Just think about it, Vic. It’s not hard to figure out.” Jaime and Mike smiling knowingly as I walk out of the kitchen. I bounce up the stairs and jump into bed feeling the warmth of the blankets. My boyfriend comes in, closes the door and throws himself on the bed and tackles me making me laugh then lays back. I take the opportunity to sit on his lap, leaning down to kiss him. Everything from last night keeps running through my head, keeping a smile on my face. “It looks like we made a mess last night.”
“I don’t see that as a bad thing. We’ll clean up later, it’s like a good mess. It kinda turns me on when you’re like this by the way.” I lean back down and begin to kiss him again. I take his bottom lip between my teeth, receiving a groan from him. “God, Hales, are you trying to torture me?”
“Pretty much. You’ve made it easier by not putting a shirt on too.” I return to his lips, deepening our kiss. He gives me access to his neck where I bite and suck at his skin, leaving marks behind. “You’re not the only one who gets to mark their territory,” I whisper into his ear. I grind against him, and bite his neck getting to the spot that drives him crazy. I leave one last mark on his collar bone before I roll off. He shakes his head at me, smiling, showing what kind of effect I have on him. I zone out as we lay in silence, letting my thoughts get the better of me.
“Are you okay baby?” His voice brings me back to reality, interrupting my thought.
“Do you ever think of what things would be like if things had been different?”
“What do you mean Haley? Do you regret last night? Do you regret being with me?”
“No, I just... I just wonder what if things had been different. What if you hadn’t decided to stay my friend when we met. What if you didn’t make those guys back off in high school. What if you hadn’t stayed when you had gotten girlfriends or when you got busy with school. What if we hadn’t even met. Then there’s the thought of what if you hadn’t been there to save me from myself. There’s a lot of “what if’s” and I don’t know, it just makes me think.”
Jaime sits up as he speaks, “I don’t really know what things would be like. I probably wouldn’t have met the guys or even still be in the town or state or whatever. I kinda wonder the same things, but then I remember that all of that did happen so why think of it. I just know that if we hadn’t met things would be so different.”
“I hold you back don’t I? You could do a lot better than me. You’d be better off without me. I just cause problems. You’ve kinda separated from the guys because of me. If you’re not at work, you’re with me. I don’t work so I’m basically taking your money. I put stress on you because of what’s wrong with me, I know you worry about me still. I can see it in your eyes. I can see it in all of you. You guys are cautious of what you say around me. It’s wrong. I shouldn’t be a problem like that. I hold you back.”
“Haley. Don’t fucking talk like that.”
“Why not Jaime? It’s true. We both know it is. I’m a burden to all of you.”
He’s basically yelling at me now, “Dammit Haley. Don’t think that. You’re not a burden. You never have been. I worry so much ‘cause I feel like you’re slipping out of my grasp and I’m scared that I won’t be able to help you or take care of you. You don’t get it. We all love you. I love you, Hales. We’re careful because we don’t want to lose you. I’m terrified of losing you babe, but I feel like I am. That’s why I keep asking if you’re okay, I’m scared Hales. I’m so fucking scared.” I finally look up at him trying to hold the tears back. I sit up and bury my face into his chest and his arms wrap around me pressing our bodies together. I stop holding back and I just let myself cry so we sit like this for a while.
“Jaime?”
“Yea?”
“I’m sorry. For everything. I’m sorry. I don’t want to be like this. I wish I could be better for you. I just want to be okay. Everything is going great but I’m just.. My thoughts are starting to get bad again, Jaime, and it’s so easy to hide because that’s what I’ve always done. I don’t know what to do.”
“It’s okay baby. I’m going to take care of you.”

Notes

So hey I was going to post this earlier but I've been writing this plus an Of Mice & Men fic (which i have no idea about where I could or should post it) so I got distracted by that and a few other things going on with me but I really hope you guys like it.
And I'm sorry if you guys feel like this is going down hill I promise it's going to get better I have a lot of plans for this fic and I honestly don't know how long it will be but yea tell me what you think please?
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