Dive In
Take a Breath
February 14 2017, Valentine's Day
I had been with Jacob for about a year and a half, but the last six months have been difficult. I've been beaten, I had to hide the bruises from everyone, but the hardest part was faking a smile and pretending like everything was okay. In August of 2016 was when he started getting abusive. He went out with some friends and had a few drinks, he was oblivious to what he was doing. Or so I thought. The following weeks have consisted of me holding my tongue to make sure I don't say the wrong things, and crying myself to sleep as he held onto me.
Now here I am, in a counselor's office telling her all my problems, on Valentine's Day.
'Hang in there, get out, call someone.'
They all say the same thing, but they have no idea what I'm feeling. I'm afraid to call someone because he'd find me and beat me, but I also can't put up with this any longer.
As I walked out of the lobby from the counselor's office I bumped into a guy. Sort of emo looking and attractive, look where that's gotten me.
"Sorry." I said under my breath, grabbing my purse and walking away. He started running to catch up with me.
"Hey, are you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I replied.
I had a flashback, of Jacob beating me. It was when he was drunk, he beat me, kicked me in the stomach and punched me in the face. I remember being on the cold floor, coughing out blood.
"You're fine." Jacob said.
"Excuse me?" The guy asked, bringing me out of my flashback.
"Look, I'm sorry if we're bugging you, it's just that. Well you don't seem fine. Maybe we could help."
"Thanks, but no thanks." I replied.
I started walking towards my car and blasting 'Bring Me The Horizon'. The car rides were my escape from everything. Listening to my music, going wherever I wanted. My favorite song by BMTH was 'Can You Feel My Heart'.
When I got home, Jacob was asleep on the couch. I sneaked my computer from next to him and went into the room.
'Upcoming Shows'
Pierce The Veil - Tampa, FL - Related to Bring Me The Horizon
'Hm.'
I've heard of these guys but never really listened to them, so I checked out their profile on Spotify. They had just come out with a new album, so I listened to their song 'Dive In'. To be honest it made me feel insane. I could picture myself breaking out of this place and getting even with Jacob. A few hours later and I was obsessed. I went to Google to search them and when I saw their pictures I freaked out. Vic was the guy I ran into earlier. I heard Jacob get up, and took a deep breath.
I had been with Jacob for about a year and a half, but the last six months have been difficult. I've been beaten, I had to hide the bruises from everyone, but the hardest part was faking a smile and pretending like everything was okay. In August of 2016 was when he started getting abusive. He went out with some friends and had a few drinks, he was oblivious to what he was doing. Or so I thought. The following weeks have consisted of me holding my tongue to make sure I don't say the wrong things, and crying myself to sleep as he held onto me.
Now here I am, in a counselor's office telling her all my problems, on Valentine's Day.
'Hang in there, get out, call someone.'
They all say the same thing, but they have no idea what I'm feeling. I'm afraid to call someone because he'd find me and beat me, but I also can't put up with this any longer.
As I walked out of the lobby from the counselor's office I bumped into a guy. Sort of emo looking and attractive, look where that's gotten me.
"Sorry." I said under my breath, grabbing my purse and walking away. He started running to catch up with me.
"Hey, are you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, I'm fine." I replied.
I had a flashback, of Jacob beating me. It was when he was drunk, he beat me, kicked me in the stomach and punched me in the face. I remember being on the cold floor, coughing out blood.
"You're fine." Jacob said.
"Excuse me?" The guy asked, bringing me out of my flashback.
"Look, I'm sorry if we're bugging you, it's just that. Well you don't seem fine. Maybe we could help."
"Thanks, but no thanks." I replied.
I started walking towards my car and blasting 'Bring Me The Horizon'. The car rides were my escape from everything. Listening to my music, going wherever I wanted. My favorite song by BMTH was 'Can You Feel My Heart'.
When I got home, Jacob was asleep on the couch. I sneaked my computer from next to him and went into the room.
'Upcoming Shows'
Pierce The Veil - Tampa, FL - Related to Bring Me The Horizon
'Hm.'
I've heard of these guys but never really listened to them, so I checked out their profile on Spotify. They had just come out with a new album, so I listened to their song 'Dive In'. To be honest it made me feel insane. I could picture myself breaking out of this place and getting even with Jacob. A few hours later and I was obsessed. I went to Google to search them and when I saw their pictures I freaked out. Vic was the guy I ran into earlier. I heard Jacob get up, and took a deep breath.
Notes
My first fanfic in a while, sorry if it's a little off, still trying to work out all the details.
