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Was it really your time?

So I look but you’re not by my side

“Come in”

“Hey.” I greeted her with a week smile
.
“Hey.” She greeted back. She has her long hair in a bun and her earpods on which she removed when I entered the room. She held her arms up asking for a hug. I walked over to her and gladly wrapped my arms around her. I buried my face into her neck, inhaling her scent. In just a few moments, I may never have this again. I couldn’t let go of her. And suddenly I was crying on her shoulders.

“I talked to the doctor.” I whispered in her ear.

“Yeah?” She said patting and caressing my back.

“Yeah.” I’m still trying to process all this. I thought everything was going to be okay. And that we’ll all live happily ever after. That’s what she told me. Why do I have a feeling that she’s going to leave me? Jenna is the best thing that has ever happened to me. It was her. She was the one. It was her lips that kissed my scars. In a room full of people, it was her face that I’d seek. It was her arms that comfort me whenever the fire’s getting out of control. Her touch that made me fly. It was her smile, and her crazy pre-show warm ups. Sure, I have taken her for granted. But I was scared! Is this my karma for it all? Is the universe punishing me for all the mistakes I’ve made?

After a few minutes she lightly pulled away. “Hey, do you believe in me? Do you think I can survive this?” She asked.

“O-of course. You’re a fighter.” I said.

Then she gave me her sweetest, most vibrant smile I’ve ever seen. “Yeah, I think so too. Be strong, okay? Be strong for Quinn, and for my family.”

I just stood there. I couldn’t do anything but nod and agree. I couldn’t fight for her, change her mind maybe. But I know her too well. She wouldn’t listen to anyone. She’s made up her mind. She’s gonna do it. As much as I hate to admit it, if this is really going to be the last time I’m going to see her, and talk to her, and hold her, I would not spend it fighting and yelling.
I lay down on the bed with her and cuddled with her. We stayed like that for some time until I asked her if she wanted to see our friends. She was surprised to know that they are still waiting outside.

“Hey McDougall!” Lyndsey said entering the room. They greeted Jenna one by one as they all entered the room.

“Hey, hot momma. How are you holding up?” Jack asked Jenna.

“Fine, I guess. I don’t really know how a person must feel if she’s about to die.” Jenna joked. I just couldn’t ride her death jokes. I went to the corner of the room and stood next to Jaime who patted me on the shoulder.

“You okay, man?” He asked.

“Do you want an honest answer?” I said.

“No, you don’t really have to answer that question. Sorry.” He said shaking his head. I looked away and just watched Jenna with all our friends.

“Shut up, tubbers. You’re not gonna die.“ Tony said sitting on Jenna’s bed and putting an arm around her.

“We all should write Jenna a song. “ Lynn said with a big ass grin, “Imagine all the attention those songs are gonna get if they’re about Jenna McDougall.”

“Oh you’re gonna benefit from my death. In that case you guys have to give me half of what you’re gonna get if you make an entire album about me.” Jenna said wiggling her eyebrows.

“Who’d want to listen to a song about you?” Whak said and Jenna stuck her tongue out on him.

“Hey you know in movies where a person is like going through an operation and the soul leaves the body? When you come back to earth, can you tell us what you saw?” Jack said.

“Jack wants you to tell him what heaven looks like.” Alex added.

“Uh-oh but she can’t tell you Jack. Only Vic has the right to.” Kellin said and everyone in the room laughed including Jenna. How could they joke about this? This is serious. This is not funny. I did the only thing I know reasonable. I stormed out of the room before I could say anything bad to my friends. I heard Jenna said, “Don’t worry bout it” to them. I made sure I slammed the door very hard to send my message.

*Jenna’s POV*
“Uh-oh but she can’t tell you Jack. Only Vic has the right to.” Kellin Quinn said. This isn’t too bad at all. If I’m really going to die in an hour this how I’d like spending my remaining time, just goofing around with our best friends. And then Vic just suddenly stormed out of the room.

“Don’t worry about it.” I said to them. There was a long pause, an awkward silence before Jaime volunteered to go after Vic.

Spending time with our friends feels nice. I nearly forgot about the pain I was in.

“Hey, is it cool if we take like a video or a photo or whatever?” Tony said. “Because the fans are bombarding my twitter. We have the sweetest fans in the world.”

“Yeah absolutely. We can take a photo and you guys can upload it in Instagram.” I agreed.

“Yeah that’s a great idea. My notifications have exploded literally. And I haven’t answered any of their questions because I wanna ask you first if it’s like okay,” Matt said.

We all took a picture on their phones to update the fans about my condition. “I really wanted to let them know. They deserve to know.” I said.

Not long after we took a photo, the door swung open nearly hitting Alex. It’s Vic and Jaime. They’re back. “I’m sorry dude.” Vic said to Alex. “No, I deserved that. I did.” Alex said laughing.

“No, I’m sorry. I should’ve said something. I should’ve told you guys that I am not comfortable with the jokes. So I apologize for storming out like that. I shouldn’t have done that. I love you guys.” Vic said and then there was a lot of Awwwws .

“Group hug!” Jaime shouted. And then they surrounded me and we all hugged. I think I saw Katelynne snap a photo of us.

We took another group photo and this time with Vic and Jaime. I want to upload this photo on my Instagram this time. I have no idea what to caption it so I simply put a heart emoji on it. I don’t know what to say to the messages I have received from the fans. The amount of love that I’m getting from my friends and the people who loves Vic and our family is just incredible.

“Yo listen! We would like to sing Jenna a song, if that’s okay.” Alex said.

“What?” I’m not complaining I’m just surprised by this. Alex, really? “Wait really?”

Before Alex could talk the door swung open again. It’s Mike.

“Where’s Quinn, Mike?” Vic asked.

“Oh, your parents took her.” Mike said turning to me.

“You okay, Mikey? You look flushed buddy.” Tony said putting an arm around Mike who sat down between Whak and him. Mike asked for a towel and wiped his face before saying, “Yeah it’s just crazy out there. There are like people outside with flowers and cards and stuff. If they didn’t grab me and Quinn I would actually think that they are one of those crazy royal watchers.”

“Holy fuck really? Ya’ll are royalty now. Shit I’m jealous again.” Jack said.

“They grabbed me and Quinn and asked for a picture. And they were all asking questions about you and Vic. I mean it’s cool but yeah, it’s tiring. They wouldn’t let us go if Q hadn’t cried.” Mike explained.

“They’re just concerned. That’s very sweet.”

“Yeah! Yo! I’m being a sweet guy right now, don’t ruin my moment!” Alex protested.

“Alright. Let’s hear it!” I said clapping.

“Okay so we asked Jake to bring one of his guitars out. Yep, there it is!”

Everyone applauded as Jack and Alex set up with Jake’s guitar.

“I’m taking a video, guys.” Lynn said. “Alright, I’m recording this.”

“Alright. *ehem ehem* This song is for the one and the only, Jenna Mcdougall. Warped will not be the same without you. Not that you’re gonna die or something but, you already have two kids, for fucks sake. But really, we know you can survive this. Duh, Jenna can survive anything. You’re a fighter. So fuck it, and we’re here for you.” Alex said.

Vic sat on the bed with me. I entwined our fingers and leaned on his shoulder. And then Alex started strumming the guitar and Jack tapped the side.

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side
You know I'll take your hand

Alex started. And just with that, I started crying again. I squeezed Vic’s hand lightly. “I’m so scared.” I whispered in his ear. And he just sighed and kissed my forehead.

When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No, I won't give in

Keep holding on

And everyone started singing along in the chorus.

'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say

They are all singing incredibly now. It actually kind of looked like they’re performing for an audience right now.

Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late
This could all disappear

Before the doors close
And it comes to an end

And Vic started to sing along as well. He looked straight into my eyes as he sang the words.

With you by my side, I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend

Yeah, yeah

I just rested my head on his shoulders and I let the song take me.
Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change
Nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you
I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through
We'll make it through

The song finished and Vic and I shared a kiss. It wasn’t long ‘til I realized my head’s spinning again. It’s like someone is sucking the soul outta me. Like a monster is draining my insides.

“Jenna! Jenna!”

I couldn’t really process what’s going on. All I can see is chaos. They are all running to me. And they are all panicking. What’s wrong? I looked down to see a pool of blood on my bed. I was breathing heavily. I looked to the side to see Vic crying, and Kellin was hugging him. And then the doctors and nurses came rushing in. Was I fading out? They put me into another bed and pushed it along the hallways. I think I saw Mike pushing along, or Jaime. I don’t know which hand I held. But I managed to say, “If anything happens, please take care of Victor for me.”

And then I was out.

Notes

i just cant help but update lol sorry

Comments

@piercejenna
omg plez update!! I love this! Thx.. :D

PandaStar PandaStar
10/16/16

Let me know if u guys still want more chapters :))

piercejenna piercejenna
9/14/16