Was it really your time?

I woke up just in time. I turned the alarm off before it could wake Jenna. I was so careful not to wake her with my movements. I stared at her features and felt her every breath. I wanna kiss her but I don’t wanna wake her up. She looks so beautiful I can’t even begin to describe it. And knowing that I almost lost this, there is this feeling that I have in my gut that I never want to leave her side again. I’m gonna cherish every moment with her and our little angels.

This is what I live for. Mornings like this. Her body pressed against mine. Her curves and edges perfectly fit my body. Just thinking about that made me really, really excited. I stared at her for another good five minutes before finally kissing the tip of her nose. She immediately smiled at the gesture.

“Good mooorning,” She said in her sleepy voice. And that’s just so dang sexy. What the fuck. This no sex thing for another three weeks just got three times harder. This would definitely be a struggle.

“Good morning.” I replied. And then I kissed her again. This time, on the mouth. And again. And again. And she was kissing me back. This continued until suddenly I’m on top of her. I’m now thinking and finding the strength to stop before I hurt her. But shit, it’s so damn hard. I just missed her so much. Every muscle, every tissue in my body, every bit of my soul craved and yearned for her. My bones are shaking and our breaths are getting heavier. She needs this too, I can feel it. She put both her hands at the back of my head as I continued the journey of my lips from her face to her neck.

After a leaving a few marks, I continued my journey south again. I slowly lifted her top up to reveal the gorgeousness underneath. A light moan escaped her lips as I got to her now flat tummy and her healing scar. I gently kissed it but she pulled her shirt down. She might be thinking that I find it disgusting or something. But it’s not, not even close.

“You’re beautiful.” I whispered against her skin. I removed her shirt completely off and she didn’t resist anymore. I stared at the beauty in front of me before I went back to kissing her on the lips. From there, soft kisses trailed down her throat to her bare chest. I positioned my lower body in between her legs and removed my shirt off. Then I placed both my hands on her waist gently rubbing it with my thumb as my kisses went south again. I kissed her lower abdomen as I gently tugged on her shorts down. I continued lower and lower and lower until her shorts are completely down. She slightly enclosed her legs encouraging me to move forward. I stared at her exposed core. Fuck, she’s so beautiful. Holy fucking shit. This is divine. I licked the inner part of her left thigh, playfully teasing her. And then touched her clit for a moment, and she threw her head back gently arching her spine. I fucking love it when her spine arches like that because of me.

“V—vic.” She moaned.

“What do you want?” I asked. One thing about Jenna is that she is really quiet during sex. Something that we’ve already argued about, which is stupid, I know. So right now, I want her loud. I want her screaming for my name. The kids are going to be asleep for another hour and this is the only time we get. “What. Do. You. Want?” I repeated and still no answer. I exhaled blowing air on her.

“I..”

And then the room was suddenly filled with a cry. Not Jenna’s cry. No. But Caleb’s, from the audio baby monitor. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I thought. Really?! I never saw someone got up and dressed up so fast like that. She left me there hanging and wanting more! I collapsed on the pillows so nobody would hear me let out a loud grunt. I’m not really sure what it is, but it’s definitely a negative blow. We were so close! Fuck shit. I let all my frustrations leave my body before composing myself. Relax, Vic. You will get your time. You leave for Australia today. She needs to take care of your son first. That’s your son, Victor. Get your shit together. It’s alright. Okay. I sighed and then dressed up. It’s going to be an interesting day.

I went to Caleb’s room to see Jenna holding him. She gave me an apologetic look but before a word, I held out my hand and said, “Don’t. It’s fine. How is he?”

She sighed, “He just needed to be changed. Hold him, please. I’m going to make breakfast.”
I took Caleb from her and she gave me a kiss before going downstairs. We went to Quinnie’s room to wake her up.

“Quinn,” I called. “Wakey-wakey, sleepy-head! Look who’s here to greet you Good morning.”
She tossed and turned before opening up her eyes. We sat on the edge of her pink and purple bed.
She sat up. “Are we going to Australia now, daddy?” She rubbed her eyes. “Hi, Caleb. Good morning. Good morning , daddy.” She said crawling next to us. She kissed her baby brother on the head and yawned one more time.

“Yep. Today’s the day princess. Are you ready? Are you excited? Uncle Mike, Uncle Tony, and Uncle Jaime will be joining us and lots of mom and dad’s friends are coming too.” And her face lit up. She clapped her hands and bounced in excitement. “But we got to go to the doctor first.” I noticed her facial expression dropped. Going to the hospital really traumatized everyone.

“Is mommy sick again?” she asked

“No. It’s okay, angel. It’s just a checkup for mom and your baby brother. You know Australia is very far from San Diego. We just wanna be very, very sure they’re healthy enough to travel that long. You’ve been there when you were very little too, you know.” I explained.

“Really? Little like Caleb?” She asked.

“Yep. Now come downstairs. Mom prepared breakfast already.”

The rest of the morning went easy. Quinn didn’t fight over broccoli and carrots, so that’s a good thing. She’s just so stoked to leave tonight. I got us the best seats on the plane so there wouldn’t be a problem with Caleb. We just need to do one last checkup. I really wanna be sure they’re both ready to travel a good 16 hour flight. Dave and the guys already agreed that we’d only do half of the tour. I think everyone needed this. Just pure quality time with each other. It has been a very stressful past two months. We need this break.

We made our way to the hospital, all four of us. We listened and sang along to some of Tonight Alive’s first songs while I drive. Quinn really enjoys listening to our music. If we’re lucky, she might follow in our footsteps. But we don’t wanna pressure her or something. She can be whatever she wants to be when she grows up.

I pulled up in front of the hospital. “Ready?” I looked at Jenna who looked so classy in a black long sleeved top, tight jeans and a pair of brown boots. She nodded.

We made our way to our appointment with Dr. Paige. She hugged Jenna as soon as she saw her. She said she was so glad to see her again. I have to admit, I was nervous at first but when the doctor performed some of the tests, she said Jenna’s responding very well. She asked her some questions and Jenna answered back honestly. Quinn sat on my lap.

“Wow,” Dr. Paige said, “That is very impressive. You are healing very well Jenna. That’s good. But I’d still recommend to slow it down with heavy activities. We still can’t risk it. But all in all, I think you’re good. The bleeding has stopped, right?.”

“Yes. A week ago.” She replied.

“Okay. I think you’re ready to travel,” She said and I sighed. What a relief. “But as for Caleb.” She paused for a few seconds, “Did you get the sling-type baby carrier that I recommended?”

“Yes. We did. It’s in the car. Do you wanna see it?” I said.

“No, it’s fine. Just make sure you wear him. Slings enable you to carry baby in a variety of comfortable positions and to nurse discreetly. Also, sling carriers allow newborns to be covered up, which discourage other people from bending over and touching them. Just before you board the plane, put your baby in the carrier and pace a while to lull him to sleep. Is the flight fully-booked? ‘Cause you’ll want to request the seat next to you to be empty.” She explained.

“Uh, we’re riding a private jet with our friends so that wouldn’t be a problem.” I said. It’s true. We all agreed to get a private plane since everyone is coming. This isn’t just for SoundWave, this is also a vacation for the whole fam.

“That’s good. That’s perfect. Newborns are often easier to travel with than older babies because they sleep a lot. Chances are your son will sleep through the entire flight.” She added. “And also, just before you board the plane, feed your baby and be sure to burp him well. In some aircraft, the lower atmospheric pressure at cruising altitudes can expand the air in the intestines.”

“Yikes.” I commented.

“So yeah, just remember all that and you’re ready to go.” She said.

Jenna got up and gave her one last hug. “Thank you so much, doctor.”

“Have fun on Australia. But,” She said emphasizing on the but. “Do not, do not overdo it. Okay?”

We all laughed. Quinn waved her goodbye and she walked us out. Just when we were approaching the door she stopped walking, “Wait, can I speak to Jenna alone please? I almost forgot.” I wanted to protest but Jenna gave me our son already and went back with the doctor. I have no choice but to wait in the car. I fixed the kids’ car seat and patiently waited for Jenna to arrive.

After five minutes, she and Doctor Paige appeared on the doorway of the hospital. I can see them from the parking lot very clearly. Jenna hugged her once again and walked to the car. She has a smile on her face so I’m guessing nothing bad happened. The doctor waved us goodbye before going inside.

“What happened?” I asked. I won’t move this fucking car until I find out what they talked about.

“We can talk about it at home.” She replied glancing on our kids at the rear mirror.

“No we can talk about it now. I wanna talk about it know.” I protested.

“Victor.” She widened her eyes at me. She let out a deep sigh. “You still don’t get it. We can talk about it at home. Start the car, please.”

“What is it, mommy?” Quinn asked.

“Nothing, sweetie.” She smiled at our nearly three year old daughter. “Can we go please?” She put on her seatbelts, but I’m so determined to find out what they talked about, I just stared right ahead and tapped the wheel with my fingers.

“Victor!”

I hummed in response.

“Okay, fine!” She said finally giving up. “The doctor…umm” She said lightly gagging. She kept on glancing at Quinn on the rear mirror who looked so confused. “She gave the go signal for, umm” She said gagging once more.

Holy shit. Holy fuck yes. Yes! The motherfucking go signal. I gave her the widest smile that I could possibly give. I’m so stupid.

“Oohhhhhh, yeah! Okay, um, let’s go then! Come on.” I said nearly jumping on my seat. I’m so glad Quinn didn’t say something. How could we possibly explain that to a three-year-old?
Jenna rolled her eyes on me and said, “Let’s go. And wipe that stupid grin off your face.”

No. I couldn’t! I just couldn’t stop smiling. I feel like I’m going to break my face any time soon from excessive smiling but I don’t care. I probably smiled the whole ride home. I’m the happiest motherfucker on earth right now.

The rest of the day was just filled with last minute packing and making sure everything is all set. I told Q to have a nap since it’s going to be a long night but she’s just so excited.
We leave at 10pm. I check the clock and we still have three hours. It’s dinner time already and I prepared Quinn’s favorite food. I found Jenna pacing on the nursery and checking our son’s things for the third time. I grabbed her shoulders and pulled her to the arm chair to sit on my lap.

“Relax.” I said carefully massaging her shoulders. “Everything is all set. Come on, let’s eat dinner. I made Q’s favorite.”

The time flew very fast and it’s almost time for us to go to the airport. Jenna took Quinn for her bath and I decided to hit the showers too. I closed my eyes and let the water wash away all the negative things that’s been on my head for the last two months. This is the first decent and worry-free shower that I’ve ever taken in forever. Everything’s alright now.

I hummed Bathwater by Tonight Alive while I shower. After that, I got dressed immediately so that I can help with the preparations. I put on a white long sweater, a pair of faded ripped jeans, and my red ultra-boost. I went straight to Quinn’s room so Jenna can shower.

“Hey, I got this. Go shower. You take forever to get ready.” I said grabbing her waist while she dries Quinn’s hair.

“I do not!” She smacked me in the arm before disappearing. I let out a light laugh and took care of drying our daughter’s hair.

“This is what you’ll wear? Oh man, that’s so pretty.” I said referring to the long sleeved shirt and leather jacket on her bed.

“Thanks, daddy. Mommy and I are matching.” She replied.

“Really? That’s a cool jacket.” I said. I was dressing her up when it just hit me. She’s turning three already. We already have a second child. And soon she’ll turn five. She’ll start school and be exposed to the real world. I know that I can’t always protect her, and that she’ll have to figure things out by herself but I don’t know, she’ll always be my little girl. I still remember the first time I heard that tiny heartbeat, the first time that I held her. Flashback to the time when I don’t know jackshit about parenting and babies. But I guess, I turned out to be an okay father.
After I dressed her, I started combing her hair. “What hairstyle do you want, princess?”

“Um dad, maybe it’s better if we leave that to mom.” She said smiling at me.

“What? You don’t like garbage twisties?” I said tickling her. And she collapsed on her bed laughing.

“Dad!” She yelled laughing. “Stop, please? Stop!”

“Okay. Let’s get your backpack.” I said sitting her up. I just fixed her hair in a cap and put her green backpack on her. “Come on, Q!”

And then we found Jenna and Caleb inside our bedroom. She’s blow drying and curling up her hair. She looked absolutely gorgeous in a leather jacket that’s quite similar with what our daughter is wearing, white lacey top, black ripped jeans, and the pair of cherry red Dr. Martens Alysha got her last Christmas.

“Wow, my girl looks hot.” I stared at her from head to toe, basically eye-fucking her in front of our kids. But it’s okay, Quinn is busy playing with Caleb.

“Stop.” She said, letting out a very sexy laugh. I don’t know if she did that on purpose or what but I’m not happy about it. She’s killing me. “Jaime called. He said the ride’s gonna be here in 10 minutes. So um, please put the luggage in the lobby.”

“You want me to put our entire luggage in the lobby?” I widened my eyes on her, “I’m tiny!”

“Riiiight, okay fine. So you want me to put them in the lobby?” She replied.

“No, there will be people who’ll pick them up. Plus you packed eighty percent of the whole house in there. Seriously Jen, this sh—“ I looked at our daughter who seemed to be waiting on what I’d say next. “--sugar…is heavy. This sugar is heavy.”

“Fine, okay. I knew you couldn’t do it.” She said looking away as she fixed up her hair one more time.

“You know what? I’ll do it! These are my guns.” I said flexing my arm, “They can do all the work.” Fuck this shit. I can carry all this.

“Go daddy!” Quinn cheered on me. I winked at her and she giggled.

I dragged two suitcases to the stairs. And since I can’t just drag them down, I need to fucking carry them. Shit, these things are heavy. I nearly dropped one causing a loud sound on the wooden stairs. What the fuck was I thinking buying a massive house with difficult stairs?

“You okay?” Jenna yelled.

“Yep! Fine! They’re not as heavy as I thought.” I lied.

I almost dropped the other one when I heard a honk outside the house. Saved by the bell! I left the luggage on the stairway and let four well-built guys in. I couldn’t be more thankful to our crew.

“Hey, guys. I was just carrying them down. Thank you for coming.” I said walking upstairs and referring to the suitcases on the stairway.

I entered our room to see Quinn jumping from excitement. “Babe, they’re here.” Two guys followed me and carried the remaining luggage. Q ran off and went to see the crew downstairs.
Jenna finished up doing her eyebrow and fixed her things. “Alright.” She said facing me. “Let’s go.”

I wrapped my arms around waist and kissed her cheek. “You look gorgeous.” I whispered in her ear before kissing her neck.

She chuckled and pulled away lightly then, she leaned in and pecked me on the lips. I smiled at her and then turned my attention to the guys getting our luggage.

“Are we all set, Frank?” I asked. Frank is the head of our crew. He takes care of our stuff like our guitars and all other essentials when touring.

“Yeah, boss. Hi, Jenna. It’s nice to see you.” He said, picking up the last suitcase.
“Ya’ll think I was gonna die, huh?” Jenna joked putting her arms on her waist. “How are you, Frankie?”

“Just happy to be working again.” Frank shrugged.

Jenna laughed. “Okay. Come on.”

“Wait before I forget.” I walked to the drawer and reached for the single white rose that I hid there. “We’re just too busy all day and this is all I got.” I laughed, “I actually just picked this up somewh—“

And then suddenly my lips met hers. “Thank you.” She said pecking me again. “Come one we gotta go.” We picked Caleb up and put him on his car seat. We made sure we got everything that we might need before locking the house.

We got to the airport and checked in. We didn’t want to cause unnecessary attention especially that the kids are with us so we went to the lounge directly. But of course there were still photos taken. Tony and Erin are the first ones there. The usual hugs and his and hellos we exchanged. Quinn was so anxious not to see her Uncle Mike there and got bored so she asked Erin if they could walk around the airport. We sat beside Tony.

And then the Tonight Alive dudes arrived, Whak, Jake, Cam, and Matt. They look so excited to be returning home. I turned to Jenna who’s feeding Caleb before the flight like what the doctor said. I couldn’t resist but take a picture.

“Are you worried?” I was surprised when she asked me.

“Me? No. Not at all.” I smiled at her and she smiled back at me. “That shower that I took earlier is actually the first worry-free shower I took in a long time.”

“That’s good, babe. You deserve that.” She said kissing me on the lips.

“How about you?” I asked. I know the weight of quitting what she loves to do for our family is still hanging around her shoulders. Even though she smiles in front of me and everyone, I know she’s bothered. “Just try to keep your mind off of it for a while. Listen, okay? We’re not gonna do this. The reason why we’re all going is just to have fun and spend quality time with our family. Don’t worry. I’m gonna help distract you once we get there.” I said wiggling my eyebrows.

She gave a reassuring smile as she finished feeding our son. And then everyone started to arrive one by one, or two by two. Whatever. Mike and Alysha are already here. Of course, Quinn ran and jumped to her Uncle Mike and laughed as he tossed her in the air. Jamie and Jess are now here too. Some of our friends just agreed to meet there since they all have to take care of their own businesses, but hopefully we get to be complete when we get there.

Jaime asked for a group photo before boarding the plane. Alright, Australia, here we come.

Notes

smut-ish chapter lol i enjoyed writing this.