Seamless

I haven’t left Pixie’s side since we got the results, she hasn’t spoken much and all we have done is cuddle and watch Harry Potter. It makes me sad to see my best friend the girl I have had a crush on since we met be so miserable, she is always so happy and I miss her it’s only been 1 week since I have seen that side of her but I miss it oh so much. But I guess if I was in her shoes I would be sad as well, I am sad I don’t think I have ever cried that much in my life.

I don’t want her to know I’m sad I have to be strong for her but every time she cried I end up crying and then we just lay their hug each other and cry. I think she knows what’s going to happen, even I know it but no one really wants to acknowledge the pig fat elephant in the room. No one really knows yet except her family and me we haven’t told the guys yet and I don’t think she wants to because she doesn’t want to be treated differently, but from now on I am going to treat her like a mother fucking princess she deserves it.

“Pix do you want to do something today?” I asked as we laid there watching Harry Potter like we had been for the past week.

“no I want to do this till my heart stops beating” she said rolling over to look at me.

“no we are going to get up no matter what you say, we are going to shower and I think we should tell the guys or at least go for a walk” I said she just looked at me a little shocked then nodded

“okay, let’s get our fat ass’ up and shower” with that she got up grabbed some clothes and headed into the shower.

I got up and had a shower after she got out, I hopped in and as the hot water hit my back I thought about Pix. I really liked her like a lot and I should probably tell her but I don’t want to brake our friendship. After a while the water started to go cold so I got out and after I got dressed and went back to Pixie’s room she was sitting there listening to bring me the horizon through her speakers sitting on her desk.
“hey Pix” I said sitting on the floor near her desk

“do you think I will die?” Pixie said not moving her eyes away from the piece of paper in front of her

“what no Pixie you are not, you are strong and you are going to live don’t think like that ever” I said kneeling up and hugging her, she wasn’t crying either she was kind of just blank. “I’ll tell you what we should do make a list and it can have the top 5 things you’ve always wanted to” I said pulling out of the hug and handing her a pen,

“why, it won’t help plus I don’t think they will ever happen”

“Pixie if you right down the top five things you want to do I will make them happen I promise and that is a promise I am bound to keep.” I say holding out my pinkie she then linked her little finger with mine.

“don’t let me down Mikey” she said and started to right down her five things.

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“number one watch the sunrise with all my friends, see that’s easy we can do that” I said smiling as we sat on the roof reading through the list “next one, win prom queen” I looked at her as she slightly blushed

“I may not seem like a girly girl all the time, but I promise you winning prom queen is every little girl dream” she said laughing, I missed her laugh

“okay, three fall in love…” I looked at her as she looked away into the distance

“everyone wants to fall in love.”

“four, have someone fall in love with me, well that one is already done I love you” I said pulling her into my side

“yeah but I mean like someone who like loves you to marry and have sex with and little children and grow old together”

“I mean hey we have had sex” I said she gave me a death glare

“okay next one Mikey” she said nudging my side

“last but not least, throw the biggest and best going out party. Pix you’re not going out” I said looking at her as a tear rolled down her cheek

“Mikey I am dying and we all know it; I have fucking leukaemia and its fucking everywhere. I’m dying and we all know it my mom knows it, my brothers know it I need you to know it because I just want to live my final fucking part of my tiny life with you my best friend and I need you to know that I won’t be here forever” by now I was balling my eyes out and so was Pixie I hugged her a nodded into her shoulder.

“Mikey and Pix vs the world remember.” She said looking me in eyes and smiling.

“Mikey and Pix vs the world” I said then we stayed and watched the sunset.

Notes

So this took a dark turn :/ comment what you think because I'm not sure at the moment soo. rate comment and subscribe<3

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