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Compilations & Complications

I Don't Care If You're Contagious



“Mijo, que paso!”

“Nothing, ma, we’re okay.”

“Okay?! Look at you three!”

She was right, we were far from okay. At first glance we looked as if we’d literally been through Hell and back.

I couldn’t remember much from the accident. I remembered the car crashing into us and our car spinning out of control and flipping into the grass. There was an intense heat, like the car was on fire but that’s it. I couldn’t see it or smell it, just feel it as I passed out. Next thing I knew I was waking up in a hospital room hooked up to various machines and monitors. Jaime filled me in when I woke up.

He and Tony had found us on the side of the road inside the car. According to Jaime, the car had collapsed under the fire but by some miracle the cops and fire department had shown up in time to save us before any permanent damage could be done to our bodies.

We were all still badly beaten up. Each of us had second degree burns that thankfully would heal with time. Kellin had a concussion; he had hit his head against the dashboard. He also had a broken arm and fractured bones in his neck and collarbone. Mike had a broken leg and some bruised ribs. I shattered some bones in my foot, had a collapsed lung, and a giant gash on my forehead that the doctors thought would lead to brain damage. They dismissed that when I woke up with my memory and the ability to talk.

Now the five of us were standing in the foyer of my house in front of my parents. Tony had called them days ago when we were admitted into the hospital in El Paso. We spent about a week there before we were given the okay to go home. The whole time Jaime was muttering something about revenge or whatever; I was pretty drugged up. I do remember the look in his eyes as we drove. He looked hurt but also malicious, like he wanted to kill. I was sure I didn’t imagine that.

“Viv, give them a break; they’ve been through a lot,” my dad said.

“Yes but look at them. I didn’t know it was this bad.”

“Ma, we’re okay, promise,” Mike reassured her. Of course she looked skeptical. “I’m serious. Just, can we go get some rest? I’d like to sleep in a comfortable bed.” My dad nodded while my mom stood there crying. Kellin, Jaime, and Tony helped Mike and I to the room we’d be staying in. Because of our injuries my brother and I were both in wheelchairs so we had to stay in the guest room on the first floor. Our parents had replaced the full-sized bed with two twin mattresses they had gotten from the neighbors. Kellin pushed me into the room while Tony helped Mike and Jaime carried whatever belongings we picked up on the way home.

“You guys gonna be okay?” Jaime asked as he put the bags down in the room.

“Yeah man, we’ll be fine. Thanks.”

“Don’t mention it.” He stood there with his hand on the back of his neck, scratching it nervously.

“Okay Jaimito, what’s up?” He gave me a shy smile.

“It’s just…I thought I lost you guys.” Mike and Tony stopped in front of the door and looked in. “Yeah, you too Mike.”

“But you didn’t,” Mike said. Jaime looked down at his shoes.

“Hime?” I asked. He looked up. “Sit down buddy. You guys too.” Tony led Mike to his bed before standing by the wall next to the desk. Kellin took a seat on the bed, leaving space for me. Jaime stood next to the bed.

“Guys,” I started, “what happened the other night was-”

“Fucked up,” Tony interrupted.

“Yes, that. The point is that we all got out of it alive. I’m so thankful that you two were there to call for help,” I recalled, referring to Tone and Jaime, “otherwise who knows where we’d be right now.”

“Let’s not talk about that,” Jaime pleaded.

“But we have to,” Mike interjected. “We can’t act like it didn’t happen. As fucked up as it is that someone tried to fucking kill us we still have to accept that it happened. We need a plan of action.”

“Plan of action? I’ve got it, we call the fucking cops.”

“Kell, Jaime and Tony already did that,” I reminded him. “They told them everything they knew so now it’s in their hands. Besides, I didn’t call you guys in here to go over ‘plans of action’.”

“Then why?” Tony asked.

“Because I wanna say that I love you guys. This whole thing made me realize that life is so precious and I almost lost it and all of you. You guys are my brothers; I’d do anything for you. I love you with everything in me.” The guys looked at me as I wiped tears from my eyes. It was silent for a while before Mike spoke up.

“Damn bro, I knew you were gay but shit.” He chuckled that sentence out with tears streaming down his cheeks. I laughed along with him and soon Jaime, Tony, and Kellin were joining us.

“Speaking of me being gay,” I started once we’d calmed down. I looked at Kellin with a loving smile and laced my fingers with his.

“Oh fuck, finally!” Mike shouted. Jaime and Tony looked at him in confusion. “What? I’ve been keeping this secret for a week. It’s been brutal.”

“Shut up,” I joked.

“So wait, you guys are really back together?” Jaime questioned. I nodded.

“We’ve been back on for a few months; we just wanted to be stable before we told you guys.”

“Makes sense I guess.”

“You aren’t mad, are you Jaime?” Kellin asked.

“No, just…”

“Just?” I asked.

“How come I didn’t know? We’re supposed to be closer than that.” Kellin and I laughed at his statement.

“Sorry dude,” Kellin said. “How ‘bout this, you’ll be the first to know when we get engaged.”

“Done deal,” Jaime replied with a smile.

We sat around and chatted for a couple hours before Tony and Jaime decided to go home. They didn’t want to but they had told their parents they would be back. They helped Mike and me into the beds before they left our house.

“So,” I said when Kellin had closed the door to the bedroom and Mike was asleep, “what’s this about us getting engaged?” His cheeks went bright red.

“Well, um, you see, uh,” he stuttered. I couldn’t help but laugh at his nervousness.

“Relax Kell, I’m just messing with you.”

“You jerk,” he said. I chuckled again and motioned for him to join me on the bed. “How are you feeling?”

“I’m okay I guess.” I knew he was referring to my lung and the fact I’d been laughing with the guys. I really was okay though; drugs make it so you don’t feel anything.

“Are you sure?”

“Yes now stop worrying. I’m so hopped up on pain killers that you could punch me in the balls and I wouldn’t feel a thing.” He rolled his eyes.

“I’m not doing that.”

“But what if-”

“Not even if you paid me.” I chuckled a little as I tried to lie back against the pillows. “Let me help,” Kell offered.

“Nah, I’ve got it.”

“Maybe but I’m still gonna help.” He made his way over to the closet and pulled something out. When he returned to me he was holding a pillow. He set it at the foot of the bed and fluffed it with his one good hand. He then stepped closer to me and gently lifted my bum foot onto the pillow.

“Do you need another one?” he asked. I smiled.

“No, I just need you.” He blushed again and slowly crawled into bed.

“Are you sure you’re okay?”

“Kellin-”

“I don’t mean physically.”

I sighed. “No,” I answered. “No, I’m not okay.”

“Wanna talk about it?” I didn’t really but I was trying this new thing where I would actually be open with Kell. He only wanted to help me get through the shit in my life so why not let him in. I stared up at the ceiling to collect my thoughts before I spoke.

“I just…I don’t know. I don’t know how I feel.”

“What do you mean?” I glanced down at his face. He was drawing little shapes on my forearm with his finger.

“I mean I have so many different emotions inside of me and I’m not sure which one I should act on.”

“Well, which one’s the strongest?” I thought about it.

“Rage,” I said. He stopped moving his finger.

“Rage?” he questioned. I nodded.

“When that car first hit us I was scared. I thought it was an accident or that the driver had lost control on the ice. Then they hit us again and again and all I could think was ‘this bitch is gonna get it,’ but then I remembered that you and Mike were in the car. I couldn’t put you two in danger so I did what I did and now…,” I trailed off.

“Vic,” Kellin tried to console.

“You don’t know what it felt like. Being behind the wheel, having all that put on you.”

“All what?”

“Your lives. Your lives were in my hands. If I turned the wheel the wrong way then the three of us probably wouldn’t be here.”

“Don’t think like that.”

“Well how the hell am I supposed to think?” I asked, starting to feel myself getting angry. “If I did one wrong thing then the three of us would’ve never gotten out of that hospital. And if that bastard hadn’t hit us then we wouldn’t have been in there in the first fucking place.”

“Yes but-”

“You know I almost lost the two people who mean the most to me?” He looked at me with his big, beautiful eyes, waiting for me to continue. “You and Mike mean everything to me. I didn’t wanna be the reason why you two would never see the light of day again.”

“That wouldn’t have happened,” he assured.

“It doesn’t matter; it was still on me to protect you two.”

“Says who? Just because you were driving?”

“No, not just that.” I let out a breath. “Ever since I was little I always made it my responsibility to take care of Mike. Even as he got older I always tried to protect him. He went to this party once and was gonna get his ass kicked but I swooped in stood up for him.” I chuckled at the memory. “It’s just, I hate feeling like I can’t take care of him like I should. Yeah he’s twenty now and can take care of himself but he’s still my little brother.

“And then there’s you. I just love you so fucking much, Kell. Seriously. The thought of not having you around scares the shit out of me. I’ve lived so long without opening up and letting people in but now that you’re with me I don’t think I can ever go back to that. I wanna protect you too. I wanna make sure that you’re in my life forever because I never wanna think about you not being around. It’s fucking scary.” I stopped to let my mind catch up with my words. Kellin laced our fingers together and stroked his thumb across the back of my hand. We didn’t say a word for a moment. I finally broke the silence.

“I can’t believe that someone tried to take everything that I love away from me,” I spoke softly. “You and Mike are my everything, and some fucker tried to kill you.”

“But we’re still here. It’s a miracle, a blessing.”

“That doesn’t take away from the fact that some bitch almost killed you.”

“But Vic, you can’t keep thinking like that. You said it yourself, we should cherish the fact that we’re all still here. We’re all still breathing and that’s what matters. Our wounds will heal and the cops will find whoever did this to us but for now let’s be grateful that no one died that night.”

I sighed as I took in Kellin’s words. I knew he was right and that it was pretty hypocritical with my thoughts but I couldn’t help it. Although I was happy that my brother, my boyfriend, and I were alive, I felt like I needed something more.

I needed to make things right.

Kellin and I held each other all night. All the while I thought of how I would feel at ease with the whole situation. Would I ever? Probably not, but I could do something to take some of the anguish away.

***



“How bad is it?”

“Not terrible. I have some bruised ribs and a broken leg but I’ll be okay with some rest and no solid food,” I chuckled. Kay didn’t think it was very funny. “Don’t worry,” I said to her less-than-happy face, “we’re all okay. Vic’s the most banged up, what with a collapsed lung and fractured foot, but I promise you, we’re fine.”

“And Kellin?”

“He has a neck cast thingy,” I said with a bit of a laugh. I’d always found those casts funny.

“Mike,” Kay warned.

“I’m sorry. His neck and collarbone were pretty banged up but he looks like he’s gonna be alright. He has a broken arm too so there’s that.”

“And you’re sure you guys are gonna be okay? I can ask my mom if I can come up th-”

“No,” I cut her off sternly. “The doctor said we needed rest and minimal stress and excitement. Besides, we already have our parents and Jaime and Tony checking up on us every few minutes.”

She huffed. “But Mike.”

“No, stay in Texas and I’ll see you after the break. I should be able to walk by then.” That was supposed to be a joke but she didn’t find it funny. “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay, I’m just glad you’re alive.”

“Yeah, me too,” I said seriously.

“Is that Kaylee?” I heard an excited voice yell from down the hall. I shouted a “yes” and before I knew it Kellin had entered the room with Vic making his way behind him.

“What the hell?” I questioned.

“I needed to use the bathroom,” my brother answered. That didn’t explain how Kellin got in so quickly. Then again he was the only one of us who was able to use his legs so I guess it made sense.

“Kay!” Kellin yelled when he took my phone from me. I saw Kay’s expression when she saw him go from a frown to the biggest smile. I guess Kellin’s happy nature changed her mood.

“Hey Kell. How are you two?”

“We’re okay. Vic’s a funny little cripple.” He tapped the phone and Vic’s frame came into the frame. He was rolling his way to the bed.

“You know, some help would be nice,” Vic said in a disappointed tone.

Kellin chuckled. “You said you didn’t need me,” he said.

“That was when you wanted to help me in the bathroom.”

“You can’t stand on your own,” Kell retorted.

“Yeah, and?”

“Aw, are the lovers having a quarrel?” Kellin shot the phone a look before flipping the camera back around so she could see it.

“Shut up video girl. I can hang up on you.”

“Doesn’t matter, Mike’ll call me back.”

“That’s right baby,” I said excitedly. After the accident all I could really think about was talking to Kaylee. Tony called her along with our families. From what he told me she was scared; she couldn’t stop crying.

“Anywho, I just wanted to check up on you guys. I was so worried about all of you.”

“Don’t worry sis, we’re fine. Better than fine actually.” She looked at Kellin and me skeptically.

“You sure Vic?” she asked. Vic wheeled himself to my bed and got next to Kellin.

“Positive. We’ve got each other and we’ll heal soon enough. We’re lucky to be alive and for that I’d say we’re better than fine.” I saw Vic put his hand on Kell’s thigh and squeeze his knee.

“I’m glad you guys are looking at this so positively,” Kay said with a smile.

“Hey, after something like that we need all the positivity we can get.” Kay nodded.

We talked to Kaylee for about three hours. Every half hour we had to reassure her that we were okay, despite Vic trying to scratch at his foot and Kellin having to find a way to do it for him. In all honestly it was pretty cute; something that Kay would’ve done for me. Around the last hour Gabi joined Kay in her room and we all talked. We had to end the call though; Vic needed to get his bandages changed.

“That was much needed,” Kellin said after I had gotten off FaceTime. He was right. Being stuck on bed rest with your parents fussing over you was exhausting. As much as Jaime and Tony made us feel better, it felt good to talk to Kay and Gabi. Their lighthearted nature was just what we needed.

“Yeah, but there’s something we need to talk about,” Vic said seriously. Kellin and I looked at him with eyebrows raised.

“What’s up bro?”

“Call Hime and Tone,” he said. “I have something I need to say.”

Notes

I suck at endings but hey, the boys are still alive! Leave love, loves

Comments

@rebel_girl
lol I'm working on it. I promise there'll be a chapter up this weekend

Elise Elise
9/8/16

uppddaatteee

rebel_girl rebel_girl
9/7/16

@rebel_girl
lol it's fine. I promise I won't keep you waiting for much longer

Elise Elise
9/3/16

The suspense is real. Like who saves Kellin OMG PLOT TWISH DANIELLA SAVES KELLIN!! sorry for not spelling right lol

rebel_girl rebel_girl
9/2/16

@rebel_girl
maybe he did, maybe he didn't. I honestly have no idea yet

Elise Elise
9/2/16