10 Years.
Chapter 8~ Distant memories
We went to Iron Man Three then went back to mine. Mom and Steve's silhouettes were projected on their bedroom curtain.
"Fuck" I breathed. I got out of my car and walked up the garden path. Only muffled arguing could be heard.
"-You- Dad- Tony!" Steve shouted
"I don't ca- She wants- Tony" Mom argued back. As I approached the house, it was clearer...
"I don't want you.seeing him"
"Why not? It's Ember's dad. She wants to see him, so that's what will happen"
"And what about Tony?"
I walked in the door and shouted "TONY KNOWS"
They both came downstairs and stood facing me.
"What?" Mom spoke dangerously.
"Tony. Knows." I repeated slowly
"What do you mean by that?" Steve growled, gritting his teeth.
"I just fucking said, Tony knows everything"
"But that's impossible! It's been 10 years since you saw each other" Mom stated
"Yeah, there's this thing called a gig reyt? And you go and see bands? Tony was in the band."
"Which band?"
"Pierce The Veil" I held up a picture of me and Tony from earlier.
"It cant be"
"It is Mom, but he doesn't want to see you"
"Did you tell him about... You know"
"Yeah, he deserved to know"
"Ember, we told you about not telling anyone! About how it will ruin our reputation! How-"
"So glad my well being is more important that your fucking reputation! I will TELL whoever the fuck I wish!"
"Sophie Perry-" Steve started
"NO! Fuck you, fuck your shit! I don't want anymore of this! I fucking hate you both! We have never talked about WHY I tried to commit, and whyyyy? Because you two were busy arguing and fucking each other to care about me! I'm going to find Tony"
"Oh no you're not"
"What are you fucking gunna do to fucking stop me?" I said dangerously and then I went out of the house.
I rang everyone but Mike was the only one who answered.
"Ember? What's wrong? Are you okay?" Mike panicked
"No, I'm fine... Is everyone else asleep?" "Yeah, they are, why? Ember what's wrong?"
I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.
"Ember..." He said again "Where are you?"
"J-Just at the park near mine"
"I'm on my way"
I sat on a swing and a few minutes later Mike ran round the corner. I ran to hug him. I fell into his chest and wrapped my arms around his neck. He held me close to him.
"Hey, shhhh" He whispered, stroking the back of my hair. I ran my hand through his hair and cried harder.
"Aw Ember what's happened?"
"My Mom and Steve... They're real fuckin' dicks" I stopped crying, but kept hugging him. "They were talking about how my attempt to commit was a dent in our family's reputation"
"They don't understand, that's all, you should try talking to then about it"
"Because they'll actually listen!" I said, pulling away, starting to cry again.
"Why did you... Try to commit?" He asked slowly, as we sat down on the swings.
"I-It was about four years ago... And it was the worst year of my life..."
*~flashback~*
I walked through the school halls. It was the last day of high-school. College place was sorted, I had my apprenticeship all ready. I walked into homeroom wearing the stuff I normally do, baggy jumper, shorts, thigh high socks and knee high converse. I had my black headphones on, attempting to drown everyone out. Sir called my name. I replied with a mumbled 'yeah'.
"Could you PLEASE take your headphones off please So- Ember" He corrected himself.
I reluctantly took them off and hung them round my neck. I glanced at the girls in the corner.
"Did you get my message last night?" One said
"Yeah I did, but like the mature person I am, I ignored your bullshit" I replied
"Sure, did you slit after?"
"Did I shit..." I lied through my teeth.
"Whatever, every word I said was true"
"But you said I slept with Sam..."
"Exactly, he's my boyfriend, and you slept with him."
"Sorry? I don't like that bastard he's a fucking cunt"
"Ha! What the fuck ever"
I turned round. Only 5 more hours until it's all over. The bell rang through the halls and everyone stood up and went to first period. The whole day went like a drag. After 5 hours, I was the one to leave first. I counted the bus money in my hand, while half jogging to the stop, trying to avoid everyone. There was a clicking of heels behind me, quickening with mine. Suddenly, rocks started flying at my back. I still was jogging to the stop, rain pouring down my face. I was about to cross the road when I was pushed, and I landed in the middle. Glass was smashed all over the place, but most of it was in my arm. Then, a car swerved out of the way. That woman died. Her name was Averlangia Perry... And she was my grandmother. I killed my grandmother. I woke up in hospital my arm stitched up, and I was greeted by my Mom who was fuming. She swore at me, she called me useless and a cunt. I asked her why and she almost ripped my lungs out through my throat. I ripped the drip out of my arm and ran out of the hospital and hopped into Sam's car. Unknowing it was Sam, I shut the door.
"Hey what're you doing here?" He asked
I looked up and bit my lip.
"Sam! Shit I am so sorry, I'll leave, I-" I hurried, trying to open the door.
He'd already locked the doors.
"What's wrong" He smiled friendly
"Why are you being nice to me?"
"I never said I hated you, you just never gave me a chance"
"Because of-"
"Sienna..."
I nodded awkwardly and rested my head against the back of the head rest.
"Can you take me home please" I asked, playing with the bottom of my jumper's sleeves.
"Sure, no problem"
"What are you doing here anyway?" I asked as we pulled out of the car park.
"Oh, Sienna's here, she thought she got pregnant"
"Woah... For your sake I hope not"
"I actually don't like her, but it's our parents, they're really good mates."
"I wondered, you're too emo for her anyway"
He laughed.
"Yeah, you're too emo for me apparently" He sighed looking at my wrists
I shuffled awkwardly.
"Don't judge me..." I managed to croak
"Hey, you're not alone"
I looked at my lap and sighed.
"Most of these are from yesterday"
"What did happen to you?"
"Some girls pushed me into a road"
"Oh... That'll've been Sienna and Alice..."
"I know, she sent me this yesterday"
I held up my phone to show him the message.
Sienna
YOU CUNT LEAVE MY SAM ALONE! HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU ANYWAY
"Woah... I like you more than her" He smiled
"You did know how she meant that right?" I pointed out
"Yeah, I know"
Stunned, I fell silent.
"Wait..." I finally said
"It doesn't matter" He laughed as we pulled up against the kerb. "See you round"
I grabbed my bag and went into my room.
~*Present*~
"... and after that, people stated saying that I was trying to commit by stepping out in front of the car, and they wished that I did, so I swallowed a load of sleeping tablets and hopped for the best" I finished, taking a deep breath "As for me and Sam, we got together after he broke up with Sienna."
Mike smiled comfortingly at me.
"I'm sorry you had to go through all that" He soothed, holding my hand in his. "But at least you're happy now"
"I wish" I mumbled before standing off the swing. "So what now?"
"I know, why... don't you come on tour with us to England?"
"What?"
"Tour. Us. England. You comin' with?"
"But what about Mom an-"
"Ember, it'll take your mind off them and everything else"
I sighed. It was true, I'd feel a lot better after a break. I could meet some new people and stuff. Make some new friends... all I had to do was tell Sam and the guys...
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Auther's note: Longer update than I anticipated! Sorry I havem't been active, some shit with mock exams and Dance choreography shit so IMSOSORRYBUTILLUPDATELOADSTOMORROWIPROMISE<3
Alvider zain (I am aware that is not correct) mon (I know that's french) Mershenlasses c:<3
"Fuck" I breathed. I got out of my car and walked up the garden path. Only muffled arguing could be heard.
"-You- Dad- Tony!" Steve shouted
"I don't ca- She wants- Tony" Mom argued back. As I approached the house, it was clearer...
"I don't want you.seeing him"
"Why not? It's Ember's dad. She wants to see him, so that's what will happen"
"And what about Tony?"
I walked in the door and shouted "TONY KNOWS"
They both came downstairs and stood facing me.
"What?" Mom spoke dangerously.
"Tony. Knows." I repeated slowly
"What do you mean by that?" Steve growled, gritting his teeth.
"I just fucking said, Tony knows everything"
"But that's impossible! It's been 10 years since you saw each other" Mom stated
"Yeah, there's this thing called a gig reyt? And you go and see bands? Tony was in the band."
"Which band?"
"Pierce The Veil" I held up a picture of me and Tony from earlier.
"It cant be"
"It is Mom, but he doesn't want to see you"
"Did you tell him about... You know"
"Yeah, he deserved to know"
"Ember, we told you about not telling anyone! About how it will ruin our reputation! How-"
"So glad my well being is more important that your fucking reputation! I will TELL whoever the fuck I wish!"
"Sophie Perry-" Steve started
"NO! Fuck you, fuck your shit! I don't want anymore of this! I fucking hate you both! We have never talked about WHY I tried to commit, and whyyyy? Because you two were busy arguing and fucking each other to care about me! I'm going to find Tony"
"Oh no you're not"
"What are you fucking gunna do to fucking stop me?" I said dangerously and then I went out of the house.
I rang everyone but Mike was the only one who answered.
"Ember? What's wrong? Are you okay?" Mike panicked
"No, I'm fine... Is everyone else asleep?" "Yeah, they are, why? Ember what's wrong?"
I couldn't hold back the tears anymore.
"Ember..." He said again "Where are you?"
"J-Just at the park near mine"
"I'm on my way"
I sat on a swing and a few minutes later Mike ran round the corner. I ran to hug him. I fell into his chest and wrapped my arms around his neck. He held me close to him.
"Hey, shhhh" He whispered, stroking the back of my hair. I ran my hand through his hair and cried harder.
"Aw Ember what's happened?"
"My Mom and Steve... They're real fuckin' dicks" I stopped crying, but kept hugging him. "They were talking about how my attempt to commit was a dent in our family's reputation"
"They don't understand, that's all, you should try talking to then about it"
"Because they'll actually listen!" I said, pulling away, starting to cry again.
"Why did you... Try to commit?" He asked slowly, as we sat down on the swings.
"I-It was about four years ago... And it was the worst year of my life..."
*~flashback~*
I walked through the school halls. It was the last day of high-school. College place was sorted, I had my apprenticeship all ready. I walked into homeroom wearing the stuff I normally do, baggy jumper, shorts, thigh high socks and knee high converse. I had my black headphones on, attempting to drown everyone out. Sir called my name. I replied with a mumbled 'yeah'.
"Could you PLEASE take your headphones off please So- Ember" He corrected himself.
I reluctantly took them off and hung them round my neck. I glanced at the girls in the corner.
"Did you get my message last night?" One said
"Yeah I did, but like the mature person I am, I ignored your bullshit" I replied
"Sure, did you slit after?"
"Did I shit..." I lied through my teeth.
"Whatever, every word I said was true"
"But you said I slept with Sam..."
"Exactly, he's my boyfriend, and you slept with him."
"Sorry? I don't like that bastard he's a fucking cunt"
"Ha! What the fuck ever"
I turned round. Only 5 more hours until it's all over. The bell rang through the halls and everyone stood up and went to first period. The whole day went like a drag. After 5 hours, I was the one to leave first. I counted the bus money in my hand, while half jogging to the stop, trying to avoid everyone. There was a clicking of heels behind me, quickening with mine. Suddenly, rocks started flying at my back. I still was jogging to the stop, rain pouring down my face. I was about to cross the road when I was pushed, and I landed in the middle. Glass was smashed all over the place, but most of it was in my arm. Then, a car swerved out of the way. That woman died. Her name was Averlangia Perry... And she was my grandmother. I killed my grandmother. I woke up in hospital my arm stitched up, and I was greeted by my Mom who was fuming. She swore at me, she called me useless and a cunt. I asked her why and she almost ripped my lungs out through my throat. I ripped the drip out of my arm and ran out of the hospital and hopped into Sam's car. Unknowing it was Sam, I shut the door.
"Hey what're you doing here?" He asked
I looked up and bit my lip.
"Sam! Shit I am so sorry, I'll leave, I-" I hurried, trying to open the door.
He'd already locked the doors.
"What's wrong" He smiled friendly
"Why are you being nice to me?"
"I never said I hated you, you just never gave me a chance"
"Because of-"
"Sienna..."
I nodded awkwardly and rested my head against the back of the head rest.
"Can you take me home please" I asked, playing with the bottom of my jumper's sleeves.
"Sure, no problem"
"What are you doing here anyway?" I asked as we pulled out of the car park.
"Oh, Sienna's here, she thought she got pregnant"
"Woah... For your sake I hope not"
"I actually don't like her, but it's our parents, they're really good mates."
"I wondered, you're too emo for her anyway"
He laughed.
"Yeah, you're too emo for me apparently" He sighed looking at my wrists
I shuffled awkwardly.
"Don't judge me..." I managed to croak
"Hey, you're not alone"
I looked at my lap and sighed.
"Most of these are from yesterday"
"What did happen to you?"
"Some girls pushed me into a road"
"Oh... That'll've been Sienna and Alice..."
"I know, she sent me this yesterday"
I held up my phone to show him the message.
Sienna
YOU CUNT LEAVE MY SAM ALONE! HE DOESN'T LIKE YOU ANYWAY
"Woah... I like you more than her" He smiled
"You did know how she meant that right?" I pointed out
"Yeah, I know"
Stunned, I fell silent.
"Wait..." I finally said
"It doesn't matter" He laughed as we pulled up against the kerb. "See you round"
I grabbed my bag and went into my room.
~*Present*~
"... and after that, people stated saying that I was trying to commit by stepping out in front of the car, and they wished that I did, so I swallowed a load of sleeping tablets and hopped for the best" I finished, taking a deep breath "As for me and Sam, we got together after he broke up with Sienna."
Mike smiled comfortingly at me.
"I'm sorry you had to go through all that" He soothed, holding my hand in his. "But at least you're happy now"
"I wish" I mumbled before standing off the swing. "So what now?"
"I know, why... don't you come on tour with us to England?"
"What?"
"Tour. Us. England. You comin' with?"
"But what about Mom an-"
"Ember, it'll take your mind off them and everything else"
I sighed. It was true, I'd feel a lot better after a break. I could meet some new people and stuff. Make some new friends... all I had to do was tell Sam and the guys...
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Auther's note: Longer update than I anticipated! Sorry I havem't been active, some shit with mock exams and Dance choreography shit so IMSOSORRYBUTILLUPDATELOADSTOMORROWIPROMISE<3
Alvider zain (I am aware that is not correct) mon (I know that's french) Mershenlasses c:<3
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