Sharpen Your Teeth And Bite As Hard As You Want
You're Just A Lonely Star
"Da da da da dada, da da da da dada, da da da da dada. Hell had you by the throat you never got to heaven but you got real close" I sung as I danced around the kitchen of the PTV bus. "Your past has you in a choke hold but you deserve it from what I've been told" I heard from behind me and seen Kellin had walked into the kitchen. I grinned at him. "Call my bluff say what you want" I sung. "I'm looking down at you from the top" He sung coming closer. "I beg for attention in small doses" I sung. "Leave the scene smelling of dead roses" He sung back to me. "LOVERRRRRBOY, YOU PLAY THOSE HEARTS LIKE TOYS, DONT YOU FEEL BAD? FILLED WITH REPENT" We both sung from the top of our lungs and danced around. Vic walked in and laughed at us. We continued the song and danced more. LOVERBOY, YOU PLAYED THOSE HEARTS LIKE TOYS, DON'T YOU FEEL BAD? DON'T YOU FEEL BAD? FILLED WITH REPENT AND GIVEN THE CHOICE, WOULD YOU DO IT AGAIN, OF COURSE I WOULD, OF COURSE I SHOULD. WELL I'M YOUR FRIEND, FRIENDS WITH BENEFITS" We sung even louder. We fell into the counter in heaps of giggles and Vic just stood over us and got a drink. He left the kitchen and me and Kellin sat up still laughing.
"I heard what happened last night" Kellin said straightening himself up. I looked up at him. "Oh" I sighed. "People think you tried to commit suicide, it's all over the internet" He whispered. My head shot up. "Oh fucking hell" I groaned. "It's okay man, we'll deal with it" He smiled and grabbed my hand. I nodded and smiled at him. "Kellin?" I asked. "Yeah kid?" He asked back. "I love you so much" I said pulling him in for a hug. "I love you too" He said into my hair. We pulled away and stood up. We walked to the front of the bus and I smiled at the guys.
"Hey" I said as we sat down next to everyone. "Hey" They all said. "So you know it's all over the news and internet..." Tony said softly. I nodded and he gave me a sympathetic smile. "Come on Hayley. We need to talk" Vic said standing up. I nodded and followed him off the bus. He gave me a piggyback over to my bus as I lacked shoes. They sorta got ruined last night. I went on my bus and got changed. The guys all asked if I was okay. They were concerned and stuff but I told them I had to go talk to Vic. They said okay and let me go.
"You look nice" Vic said as I climbed off the bus. I smiled and thanked him. We walked out of the bus area and ended up at the park I was at last night. I looked over the scene again and I felt guilty for scaring everyone. I sighed as we sat down on a bench. I looked over him and seen only sadness in his features. "I'm sorry I didn't have trust in you" I whispered. I turned and looked at me. "Why?" He said looking directly in my eyes. "I heard you talk to her on the phone then lie to the guys about where you went..." I whispered. "I was trying to protect your feelings Hayley" He sighed and rubbed his eyes. "I'm sorry" I said with tears forming in my eyes. He opened his eyes and nodded.
We sat in silence for awhile and I liked it. No need for thinking. "You know I wanted to tear my heart out when I seen you fall off that bridge. I didn't know how deep it was and if maybe you hit your head and drowned" He whispered. I seen tears forming in his eyes. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it" I said with a tear falling down my face. "Don't scare me like that ever again, please" He begged. He grabbed my hands and kissed them. "I'll try my best" I smiled through the tears. He placed his hands on my cheeks and pulled me to him. Our lips collided and I smiled into our kiss. We moulded together perfectly and I wrapped my arms around his neck to get closer. We pulled apart and he kissed my nose. I smiled and kissed him quickly.
I stood up and held my hand out. "Come, we need to get back to the buses" I smiled. He took my hand and we walked back to the buses happily. We joked and talked. I felt happy for once. Again.
The show had been amazing and we were pretty pumped up. I ran offstage and I just kept jumping up and down. "HAYLEYS GOING TO JUMP TO THE MOON IN A MINUTE" Jaime screamed and picked me up. He threw me over his shoulder and ran to the bus area. "Jaime put me down" I shouted and pounded on his back. "Not til you say you love Hime-Time more than Victor" He shouted and ran around in circles. "No way Jaime" I looked up and seen Vic, Tony, Jeremy, Mike and Taylor all laughing at me. "Stop guys" I shouted through laughter. "You all suck, not helping me out" I said pretending to cry. "Shit" Jaime said and placed me on the ground. "I'm soo sorry Hayley you okay?" He asked and Vic ran over to see if I was okay. I stood up and giggled. "You losers fall for it everytime" I grinned. They all began tickling me. "Oh my god stop, stop" I shouted through laughs.
"Hayley" I heard someone say. I looked up and all of the guys were looking in a certain direction. I looked over and seen the last person I wanted to see. Chad. I closed my eyes and groaned. "What are you doing here?" I asked. Everyone moved back from me a little. I sighed waiting for his answer. "Hayley, you tried to kill yourself. I'm here to take you to your mom" He said stepping forward. My eyes widened in shock. "What?" I almost shouted. "You need away from here. You're going to really hurt yourself" He said stepping forward again. "I'm fucking fine where I am okay" I said with a laugh. "Hayley you've been in the media 4 fucking times in the space of a month for negative things. I blame them" He said looking at the PTV guys. I looked at him with shock. "Oh you do now?" I laughed. "Yeah, you've went off the rails since you started hanging around with them. Drinking and dressing like a slut" He sneered. "Hey, don't talk about her like that" Vic said stepping forward. "Oh is this the new boyfriend Hayley? Wow, fucking picked him didn't you" I rolled my eyes at that. "Chad. I'm going nowhere with you" I said grabbing Vics hand. "You are going to end up dead, because of these fuckers. Look at yourself. Taylor, Jeremy come on guys you have to see what's happening to her" Chad said trying to get backup. "Chad, go home. She's happy here" Taylor said stepping forward and taking my other hand.
It all happened so fast. Chad came over and went to punch Vic. He moved out of the way and Tony and Mike moved forward, pushing Chad backwards. Vic was still holding my hand. We stepped back and Chad pushed his way through. He tried to punch Vic again but missed and ended up throwing me to the ground. I felt my head go light, grabbing it I seen blood on my hand and everyone looked at me. Vic sweeped me up and and we all ran. I looked behind Vic and seen Chad standing in the parking lot looking defeated. I used to love him. Once. That was the last thing I thought before I passed out.
"I heard what happened last night" Kellin said straightening himself up. I looked up at him. "Oh" I sighed. "People think you tried to commit suicide, it's all over the internet" He whispered. My head shot up. "Oh fucking hell" I groaned. "It's okay man, we'll deal with it" He smiled and grabbed my hand. I nodded and smiled at him. "Kellin?" I asked. "Yeah kid?" He asked back. "I love you so much" I said pulling him in for a hug. "I love you too" He said into my hair. We pulled away and stood up. We walked to the front of the bus and I smiled at the guys.
"Hey" I said as we sat down next to everyone. "Hey" They all said. "So you know it's all over the news and internet..." Tony said softly. I nodded and he gave me a sympathetic smile. "Come on Hayley. We need to talk" Vic said standing up. I nodded and followed him off the bus. He gave me a piggyback over to my bus as I lacked shoes. They sorta got ruined last night. I went on my bus and got changed. The guys all asked if I was okay. They were concerned and stuff but I told them I had to go talk to Vic. They said okay and let me go.
"You look nice" Vic said as I climbed off the bus. I smiled and thanked him. We walked out of the bus area and ended up at the park I was at last night. I looked over the scene again and I felt guilty for scaring everyone. I sighed as we sat down on a bench. I looked over him and seen only sadness in his features. "I'm sorry I didn't have trust in you" I whispered. I turned and looked at me. "Why?" He said looking directly in my eyes. "I heard you talk to her on the phone then lie to the guys about where you went..." I whispered. "I was trying to protect your feelings Hayley" He sighed and rubbed his eyes. "I'm sorry" I said with tears forming in my eyes. He opened his eyes and nodded.
We sat in silence for awhile and I liked it. No need for thinking. "You know I wanted to tear my heart out when I seen you fall off that bridge. I didn't know how deep it was and if maybe you hit your head and drowned" He whispered. I seen tears forming in his eyes. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean it" I said with a tear falling down my face. "Don't scare me like that ever again, please" He begged. He grabbed my hands and kissed them. "I'll try my best" I smiled through the tears. He placed his hands on my cheeks and pulled me to him. Our lips collided and I smiled into our kiss. We moulded together perfectly and I wrapped my arms around his neck to get closer. We pulled apart and he kissed my nose. I smiled and kissed him quickly.
I stood up and held my hand out. "Come, we need to get back to the buses" I smiled. He took my hand and we walked back to the buses happily. We joked and talked. I felt happy for once. Again.
The show had been amazing and we were pretty pumped up. I ran offstage and I just kept jumping up and down. "HAYLEYS GOING TO JUMP TO THE MOON IN A MINUTE" Jaime screamed and picked me up. He threw me over his shoulder and ran to the bus area. "Jaime put me down" I shouted and pounded on his back. "Not til you say you love Hime-Time more than Victor" He shouted and ran around in circles. "No way Jaime" I looked up and seen Vic, Tony, Jeremy, Mike and Taylor all laughing at me. "Stop guys" I shouted through laughter. "You all suck, not helping me out" I said pretending to cry. "Shit" Jaime said and placed me on the ground. "I'm soo sorry Hayley you okay?" He asked and Vic ran over to see if I was okay. I stood up and giggled. "You losers fall for it everytime" I grinned. They all began tickling me. "Oh my god stop, stop" I shouted through laughs.
"Hayley" I heard someone say. I looked up and all of the guys were looking in a certain direction. I looked over and seen the last person I wanted to see. Chad. I closed my eyes and groaned. "What are you doing here?" I asked. Everyone moved back from me a little. I sighed waiting for his answer. "Hayley, you tried to kill yourself. I'm here to take you to your mom" He said stepping forward. My eyes widened in shock. "What?" I almost shouted. "You need away from here. You're going to really hurt yourself" He said stepping forward again. "I'm fucking fine where I am okay" I said with a laugh. "Hayley you've been in the media 4 fucking times in the space of a month for negative things. I blame them" He said looking at the PTV guys. I looked at him with shock. "Oh you do now?" I laughed. "Yeah, you've went off the rails since you started hanging around with them. Drinking and dressing like a slut" He sneered. "Hey, don't talk about her like that" Vic said stepping forward. "Oh is this the new boyfriend Hayley? Wow, fucking picked him didn't you" I rolled my eyes at that. "Chad. I'm going nowhere with you" I said grabbing Vics hand. "You are going to end up dead, because of these fuckers. Look at yourself. Taylor, Jeremy come on guys you have to see what's happening to her" Chad said trying to get backup. "Chad, go home. She's happy here" Taylor said stepping forward and taking my other hand.
It all happened so fast. Chad came over and went to punch Vic. He moved out of the way and Tony and Mike moved forward, pushing Chad backwards. Vic was still holding my hand. We stepped back and Chad pushed his way through. He tried to punch Vic again but missed and ended up throwing me to the ground. I felt my head go light, grabbing it I seen blood on my hand and everyone looked at me. Vic sweeped me up and and we all ran. I looked behind Vic and seen Chad standing in the parking lot looking defeated. I used to love him. Once. That was the last thing I thought before I passed out.
11/29/13