I only miss the game
What If?
*Alexis POV*
“Aria!” I ran towards my collapsed sister. My knees felt weak and with every step I took. I felt them buckle under me. Memories of my sister lying in a hospital bed unresponsive to my stories the ones that once made her laugh but now just make her want to cry about everything that happened leading up to the accident. I don’t know exactly what happened but I know Aria secretly blames herself for the accident and every time she is reminded she shuts down and I want to be there for her but she makes it really hard.
Every time I am reminded of what happened to them, I die a little inside because if I had been there, if hadn’t waked away because of my anger, my jealousy, my hatred, I would have been there to say goodbye to my father, goodbye to my mom who arrive alive but died on the table. Sometime I even image what would have changed if I had been there. If instead of walking away, if I had told Aria the truth. If I had stood up to Caleb. If I had honest about my bruises and scars and everything else they had asked about. Would I have died instead of my mom or dad, would I have been the one that needed a heart transplant, maybe Aria wouldn’t have suffered like she did, I would be the one with a fuck up heart. I would be the one that is terrified of crossing that bridge. The one that was reminded of what happened just by thinking of that bridge or that name the one that we spit out like poison. But instead I am remind of not being there, almost being too late to save Aria because my stupid flight was delayed.
Every day I wake up with a guilt that eats me alive because I wasn’t there. I wasn’t there for my mom or my dad and I almost missed my chance with Aria and if I had I would never forgive myself. She is all the family I had left and I wasn't going to lose her. I promised her and myself that I would never leave her and that was one promise that I wasn't going to break she's my sister and I love her no matter what.
“Aria!” I ran towards my collapsed sister. My knees felt weak and with every step I took. I felt them buckle under me. Memories of my sister lying in a hospital bed unresponsive to my stories the ones that once made her laugh but now just make her want to cry about everything that happened leading up to the accident. I don’t know exactly what happened but I know Aria secretly blames herself for the accident and every time she is reminded she shuts down and I want to be there for her but she makes it really hard.
Every time I am reminded of what happened to them, I die a little inside because if I had been there, if hadn’t waked away because of my anger, my jealousy, my hatred, I would have been there to say goodbye to my father, goodbye to my mom who arrive alive but died on the table. Sometime I even image what would have changed if I had been there. If instead of walking away, if I had told Aria the truth. If I had stood up to Caleb. If I had honest about my bruises and scars and everything else they had asked about. Would I have died instead of my mom or dad, would I have been the one that needed a heart transplant, maybe Aria wouldn’t have suffered like she did, I would be the one with a fuck up heart. I would be the one that is terrified of crossing that bridge. The one that was reminded of what happened just by thinking of that bridge or that name the one that we spit out like poison. But instead I am remind of not being there, almost being too late to save Aria because my stupid flight was delayed.
Every day I wake up with a guilt that eats me alive because I wasn’t there. I wasn’t there for my mom or my dad and I almost missed my chance with Aria and if I had I would never forgive myself. She is all the family I had left and I wasn't going to lose her. I promised her and myself that I would never leave her and that was one promise that I wasn't going to break she's my sister and I love her no matter what.
Notes
Hey guys!! Sooo this chapter is loooong over due but I promise there are ore to come so worry not my friends. Anyways I have a new story in mind and am planning on posting it up here only after I have completed this story. I hope you like it ive been tweaking it a lot and am finally happy. sorry its short but they are boumd to get longer.
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Love it! Love the friendship starting between Vic and Alexis! Can't wait for the update!
3/22/17