Into You.
"I needed you more than anything, all of you."
MIKE'S POV
"You're supposed to protect her!" screamed Vic as soon as I walked into the hospital's waiting room with Tony and Jaime.
"I know Vic." I told him.
"Do you Mike? You know what kind of people go to that school."
"I know Vic!" I screamed back at him.
"You've seriously have let this shit go too far!"
"And don't you think that I feel bad for it? There was no way that she could take them. I know that okay! But what the fuck are you yelling at me for, it's not like you're about to get the award for best older brother either" I screamed back at him.
"Guys stop!" came Jaime's voice. "We've all fucked up royally, again and again, but right now that only thing that matters is that Tay is okay and that we be there for her now." he added. Vic and I sat at different corners of the room.
My mom and dad came out and told us that she was finally stable. She was still not out of the woods, but she was more stable than before. Then they told us that the 4 of us could go see her, but to beware because she didn't not look good at all.
Vic walked into the room first and gasped. I was just as shocked when I walked in. Tay was connected to different machines, her leg was in a cast, the color from her skin had faded, she looked cold and thin. There were bruises all over her face, her wrists were bandaged, it was awful seeing her this way. I couldn't help but feel responsible for this. This was my little sister for fuck's sake. I was supposed to protect her and be there for her. I told her to trust me and I failed her.
"Mike, Mike, she's gonna be fine." came Vic's voice. I couldn't help but let the tears fall.
"This is all my fault." I whispered.
"Mike, don't think that way. We all fucked up."
"I told her to trust me and she did. That's the hardest thing for her to do and she did it with me. Yet here she is, so fucked up because I couldn't hold my end of the deal. How the fuck is this not my fault?" I walked over to her and touched her face, her hair.
"You need to get better because I need you. I know it's lame and that I've apologized over and over and I've let you down over and over but it's not until now that I realized how fucking important you are to me. It's a shitty thing not to realize what you have until something like this happens, but I need you." I whispered.
The hours went by and I refused to leave her side. She was supposed to have woken up by now according to the doctors yet she was still out. I would not leave her side this time.
"Mike you need to eat." came my mom's soft and tired voice.
"No it's okay. I'll eat when she wakes up."I responded. She sighed and walked out of the room with Vic and my dad to eat something. Visiting hours ended soon and I volunteered to stay the night with her, well, I more like demanded, but same thing.
Tony skipped school the next day to spend to keep me company at the hospital while my parents were at work. Tony was a complete mess. His eyes were red and puffy from all his crying and he couldn't sit still. He liked Tay, and this incident just showed him how much he cared for her.
"Tone, calm down."
"I can't Mike. What if something happens? I was such a jerk to her, all because I couldn't get over my shyness and ask her out."
"You'll get that chance Tone."
"Yeah, like she'll ever want to be friends with me again after how things have been going." He stated.
"Shut up." came a soft voice. I looked around the room and Vic, Jaime and Tony had the same looks. Once we realized that that hadn't been any of us we rushed to Tay's bedside. Her eyes were closed.
"Just shut the fuck up already." she whispered and then opened her eyes slowly adjusting to all the light.
"Oh thank God!" I screamed and hugged her. Vic called a nurse in and she proceeded to take some tests.
"Alright Ms. Fuentes, can you tell me what day it is?"
"No."
"Alright, can you tell me your name?"
"Taylor."
"Age?"
"19 and my favorite color is red." she stated.
"Alright, what is the last thing that you remember."
Tay remained silent for a couple of seconds.
"We need to know so that we can see if you have any signs of memory loss Taylor." stated the nurse.
"I remember texting all of them.." she started and pointed at us.
"Do you remember what that text was about?" asked the nurse. Tay nodded and nurse urged her to explain.
"I texted them because I needed help, because I was in pain, then I tried to keep myself awake, but after a while, nobody came, so I gave up." she said.
That broke my heart. I took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the one text that I had yet to read.
From: SissyTayTay<3
I need you please. Down the hall from my locker. I can't get up and my head is unbearable. I think my ankle is broken. Please help. Tay.
"Dammit Taylor!" I screamed after the nurse left. "Why didn't you tell someone that things were so fucking bad?" I asked. She looked away from me and stayed quiet. "Why didn't you come to me? One of us would have helped you!" I stated rather loudly.
"Helped me? None of you had the time to read a fucking text message from me and you're yelling at me for not coming to you? I fucking tried Michael! 8 fucking months and none of you assholes noticed!" she cried.
"We asked you." stated Tony.
"And I fucking lied!" she screamed. "And you want to know why I lied? Because I know that you were just asking to make yourself feel better. To make yourself feel like you tried to help when really you didn't do shit! You all told me to trust you, you told me that things would change and after one fucking week you all turn around and leave again. Do you really think that I would go to any of you with this after all the shit you guys put me through? After making me feel like none of you gave a shit about me anymore? After making it so fucking obvious that I was nothing more than a fucking problem to all of you? How am I supposed to go to one of you for help after you all broke your promises. What the fuck did I ever do to you guys to deserve this huh?" Tay completely broke down after that.
"What did I do to any of you to deserve to be treated like shit? I trusted you, all of you, I thought you guys were different but you're just like everyone else." she cried. Tears began to form in my eyes. She was right. She kept yelling at us and it broke my heart. Her voice kept cracking and the tears never stopped. She looked to broken and hurt and disappointed. I walked over to her and hugged her. She tried to push me away but I wrapped my arms around her tighter, not letting go no matter what.
"I fucking needed you Mikey and you left me for dead! I hate you so fucking much Michael. God I needed you more than anything, all of you. You couldn't even open a fucking text from me." she cried into my shirt. She wrapped her arms around me tightly and continued crying. telling us about how she needed us and how she hated us at the same time. Everyone in the room was in tears by this time. It was like it finally hit us just how much we had all hurt her and we felt horrible.
No, horrible didn't even come close to how I felt.
"You're supposed to protect her!" screamed Vic as soon as I walked into the hospital's waiting room with Tony and Jaime.
"I know Vic." I told him.
"Do you Mike? You know what kind of people go to that school."
"I know Vic!" I screamed back at him.
"You've seriously have let this shit go too far!"
"And don't you think that I feel bad for it? There was no way that she could take them. I know that okay! But what the fuck are you yelling at me for, it's not like you're about to get the award for best older brother either" I screamed back at him.
"Guys stop!" came Jaime's voice. "We've all fucked up royally, again and again, but right now that only thing that matters is that Tay is okay and that we be there for her now." he added. Vic and I sat at different corners of the room.
My mom and dad came out and told us that she was finally stable. She was still not out of the woods, but she was more stable than before. Then they told us that the 4 of us could go see her, but to beware because she didn't not look good at all.
Vic walked into the room first and gasped. I was just as shocked when I walked in. Tay was connected to different machines, her leg was in a cast, the color from her skin had faded, she looked cold and thin. There were bruises all over her face, her wrists were bandaged, it was awful seeing her this way. I couldn't help but feel responsible for this. This was my little sister for fuck's sake. I was supposed to protect her and be there for her. I told her to trust me and I failed her.
"Mike, Mike, she's gonna be fine." came Vic's voice. I couldn't help but let the tears fall.
"This is all my fault." I whispered.
"Mike, don't think that way. We all fucked up."
"I told her to trust me and she did. That's the hardest thing for her to do and she did it with me. Yet here she is, so fucked up because I couldn't hold my end of the deal. How the fuck is this not my fault?" I walked over to her and touched her face, her hair.
"You need to get better because I need you. I know it's lame and that I've apologized over and over and I've let you down over and over but it's not until now that I realized how fucking important you are to me. It's a shitty thing not to realize what you have until something like this happens, but I need you." I whispered.
The hours went by and I refused to leave her side. She was supposed to have woken up by now according to the doctors yet she was still out. I would not leave her side this time.
"Mike you need to eat." came my mom's soft and tired voice.
"No it's okay. I'll eat when she wakes up."I responded. She sighed and walked out of the room with Vic and my dad to eat something. Visiting hours ended soon and I volunteered to stay the night with her, well, I more like demanded, but same thing.
Tony skipped school the next day to spend to keep me company at the hospital while my parents were at work. Tony was a complete mess. His eyes were red and puffy from all his crying and he couldn't sit still. He liked Tay, and this incident just showed him how much he cared for her.
"Tone, calm down."
"I can't Mike. What if something happens? I was such a jerk to her, all because I couldn't get over my shyness and ask her out."
"You'll get that chance Tone."
"Yeah, like she'll ever want to be friends with me again after how things have been going." He stated.
"Shut up." came a soft voice. I looked around the room and Vic, Jaime and Tony had the same looks. Once we realized that that hadn't been any of us we rushed to Tay's bedside. Her eyes were closed.
"Just shut the fuck up already." she whispered and then opened her eyes slowly adjusting to all the light.
"Oh thank God!" I screamed and hugged her. Vic called a nurse in and she proceeded to take some tests.
"Alright Ms. Fuentes, can you tell me what day it is?"
"No."
"Alright, can you tell me your name?"
"Taylor."
"Age?"
"19 and my favorite color is red." she stated.
"Alright, what is the last thing that you remember."
Tay remained silent for a couple of seconds.
"We need to know so that we can see if you have any signs of memory loss Taylor." stated the nurse.
"I remember texting all of them.." she started and pointed at us.
"Do you remember what that text was about?" asked the nurse. Tay nodded and nurse urged her to explain.
"I texted them because I needed help, because I was in pain, then I tried to keep myself awake, but after a while, nobody came, so I gave up." she said.
That broke my heart. I took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the one text that I had yet to read.
From: SissyTayTay<3
I need you please. Down the hall from my locker. I can't get up and my head is unbearable. I think my ankle is broken. Please help. Tay.
"Dammit Taylor!" I screamed after the nurse left. "Why didn't you tell someone that things were so fucking bad?" I asked. She looked away from me and stayed quiet. "Why didn't you come to me? One of us would have helped you!" I stated rather loudly.
"Helped me? None of you had the time to read a fucking text message from me and you're yelling at me for not coming to you? I fucking tried Michael! 8 fucking months and none of you assholes noticed!" she cried.
"We asked you." stated Tony.
"And I fucking lied!" she screamed. "And you want to know why I lied? Because I know that you were just asking to make yourself feel better. To make yourself feel like you tried to help when really you didn't do shit! You all told me to trust you, you told me that things would change and after one fucking week you all turn around and leave again. Do you really think that I would go to any of you with this after all the shit you guys put me through? After making me feel like none of you gave a shit about me anymore? After making it so fucking obvious that I was nothing more than a fucking problem to all of you? How am I supposed to go to one of you for help after you all broke your promises. What the fuck did I ever do to you guys to deserve this huh?" Tay completely broke down after that.
"What did I do to any of you to deserve to be treated like shit? I trusted you, all of you, I thought you guys were different but you're just like everyone else." she cried. Tears began to form in my eyes. She was right. She kept yelling at us and it broke my heart. Her voice kept cracking and the tears never stopped. She looked to broken and hurt and disappointed. I walked over to her and hugged her. She tried to push me away but I wrapped my arms around her tighter, not letting go no matter what.
"I fucking needed you Mikey and you left me for dead! I hate you so fucking much Michael. God I needed you more than anything, all of you. You couldn't even open a fucking text from me." she cried into my shirt. She wrapped her arms around me tightly and continued crying. telling us about how she needed us and how she hated us at the same time. Everyone in the room was in tears by this time. It was like it finally hit us just how much we had all hurt her and we felt horrible.
No, horrible didn't even come close to how I felt.
Notes
Last one for tonight, I have work at 6:30 am and it's 12:47amOOPS hahah
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3/2/17