If This Was a Movie, I'd be Dead by Now

I must've fallen asleep in his arms because I woke up in them. I got up hoping that I wouldn't wake him, but I did.
"What are you doing?" he asked.
"I have school" I sigh.
"I'm driving you" I decided not to argue because I knew I would not win. I quickly got dressed and left for school.
"You want to get some breakfast first?¨ Dravin asked.
"Nah, I'm not hungry" As soon as I said it I knew that he would know. He could always figure stuff like that out.
"We used to always get breakfast together before school" he whined.
"Used to, not anymore" I sigh.
"Ok, why aren't you eating?" I knew he would figure out but how would I tell him. What would I do? I wasn't about to give up everything. I hadn't eaten for five weeks and six days. My goal was ten, and I wasn't going to give up now. I was more than half way there. I sighed.
"I'm just not hungry¨ that didn't convince me, I knew it wasn't going to convince him.
"When was the last time you ate?" he asked.
"Yesterday" I tried.
"Celosia," he said sternly
"Fine," I sighed, "five weeks and six days ago"
"Damn, that's not good. You need to eat something" turned into Taco Bell.
"No¨ I said firmly, "I'm not stopping now. I've gotten so far and I'm more than halfway to my goal. "
"Celosia, I don't want to lose you. You're my baby sister, I don't know what I would do without you." He started crying. That's when I saw Vic. He must've noticed me because he smiled at me. His face dropped as fast as it lit up. A worried expression grew on his face, he must've realized that Dravin and I were crying.
He walked over to the car and knocked on the window. Dravin looked up. He rolled down the window and Vic immediately yelled "Dude! You're alive. I thought you died"
"So did I" Dravin replied, "They found me and fixed everything so I lived."
"That's great man," he said happily. "Are you Celosia's brother?"
"Ya, you know my sister?" he asked
"Ya, we went to school together. Plus she practically saved my life" said.
"Really? How?" he exclaimed.
"She was on the battlefield. She came near me and bent down, so I grabbed her ankle" he stated.
"That sounds like her," he looked at me "that explains mom last night"
"Yep," I sighed.
"What happened?" Vic asked, "she seemed very nice when I met her."
"Nothing she was just a bit mad," Dravin said quickly. I shivered remembering what happened last night.
"Ok?" Vic obviously didn't believe what Dravin said, "Well are you guys okay? I saw you crying so I wanted to make sure you guys were okay."
I looked over a Dravin who smirked at me. Shit, he was going to tell Vic why we were crying, like the actual reason. UGH.
"Well if you want to know" Dravin started off. I looked at him and shook my head. I didn't want Vic to know. He would hate me after this. Finally, someone other than my brother liked me and now Dravin was going to ruin that. Maybe he didn't even like me in the first place. He probably just thought I was a stupid emo bitch, like everyone else thought. I just looked straight ahead, I didn't want to see Vic's disgusted expression.
I wasn't paying attention so I figured that Dravin had finished telling Vic what happened when I saw Vic walking away. Vic turned back and walked toward my side of the car. I noticed he had tears in his eyes.
"It will be okay," He said hugging me "Believe me when I say this. It will be okay. I used to do extreme self-harm and stuff but I eventually got better and it will get better for you too. I promise"
With that said Vic got up and left he said he had to go somewhere but he'd see me at school. As soon as he left Dravin pulled into the drive-thru, bought food and we left for school again.
"How much did you tell him?" I asked after we left the parking lot.
"Only about your eating disorder," he said like he had told him nothing.
"Why did you have to tell him that?" I asked "He probably thinks" I'm a freak now."
"He doesn't," Dravin said "He went through a lot of self-harm, depression, and shit himself. He doesn't think you're a freak."
"Sure" I sighed. We pulled into the school parking lot. I said goodbye to Dravin before I left for school.
As soon as I walked into school I pushed against the lockers.
"Hey bitch," said the person who was holding me against the lockers. I knew who it was. It was Amber, the queen of the school.
"What do you want?" I sighed.
"What do I want," she said, "Well I want you to go kill yourself bitch!"
"And why would I do that," I said annoyed.
"Because I told you to and you are going to listen to me" she screamed, "Now go kill yourself bitch!" she yelled at the top of her lungs. nobody gave a crap, most people were laughing.
"Well to bad," I said to her. With that, she punched me.
"I will make your life a living hell if you don't kill yourself" she threatened.
"Get off of her" a voice yelled. I wasn't sure who it was. No one ever stood up for me.
"And who do you think you are?" she asked turning around. I saw Vic standing there. Shit.
"It doesn't matter who I am. You are going to leave her alone" he pointed at me.
"And why would I listen to you. You're just another emo fag" she spat.
"Maybe because I fought in the war and could easily beat your ass" he smirked. Amber looked taken back a bit. She let go of me and pushed me towards him.
"Why would you do that?" I asked once we were out of hearing range.
"Why would I not," he said "she was hurting you"
"I'm used to it" I sigh "but now she's going to hate you."
"So, you needed help and I just wanted to help you, " he said "plus, I told your brother I would"
"I don't need your pity," I say.
"It's not pity," he said, "is it so hard for you to accept that someone might actually like you."
"No one could ever like me, do you see me. all I am is a fuck up" I mutter "Plus I won't need anything after tonight."
He stopped in his tracks and stopped me. I didn't mean to say it out loud but it came out.
"Celosia, you can't do that," he said tears welling in his eyes "Please, I won't let you."
"Well, it looks you will have to," I say "Because it's going to happen and I don't care if you want it to or not" With that said I ran away. I didn't want to face him. I knew I shouldn't have said that. He was going to tell my brother. Shit.
The rest of the morning went by horribly slow. Thankfully Vic wasn't in any of my morning class but he was in all of my afternoon ones. When lunch came around I went to the lunch room and sat down at the corner table where I always sat. Normally people ignored me at lunch but I guess not today.
"Did your stupid ass boyfriend leave you?" a voice called. I ignored it but I guess they didn't like it because they came over. And you can guess who it was.
"I asked you a question" Amber said picking me up and pushing me against the wall.
"He's not my fucking boyfriend," I say.
¨whatever freak" she said "but you know someone's got to pay for what he did earlier"
'whatever just get it over with" I sighed.
"oh no, I'm going to make your life a living hell" she smirked.
¨great¨ I say. With that, she slammed me to the floor and proceeded to kick me while I was curled up in a ball on the floor. They seemed to get bored of that really fast because they picked me up and put me on my feet.
¨why don´t we take off her sweatshirt?¨ one of Amber´s minions suggested.
¨that´s a wonderful idea¨ she responded. Great now the were going to do take off my sweatshirt. Now the whole school can know who much of a freak I am.
They took off my sweatshirt. One of the girls gasped while Ambe smirked.
¨Hey everybody¨ Amber yelled and the room got quiet, ¨the emo really is a freak. See what she does!¨
I tried to resist when she pulled my arm up but I failed. There were a few gasps but mostly people just yelled freak. I saw Vic standing there staring at me with wide eyes. He looked disgusted. I quickly pulled my arm down grabbed my sweatshirt and ran.
I ran to the art room. Thankfully no one was there. I grabbed an Exacto knife then ran to the bathroom. No one was in there, thank god. I looked at my phone, I had fifteen minutes. I pulled up my shirt and ran the blade across my stomach five times. It was so calming. Feeling better I grabbed a couple paper towels and wiped off my stomach.
I had two minutes. I ran to my locker and grabbed my stuff. Just then the bell rang. I walked to my next class. I sat in my usual seat in the back. A kid I had never talked to came and sat down next to me.
"Hey, I saw what happened at lunch," he said, "are you okay?"
"Ya," I sighed, "I'm Celosia" I reached out my hand.
"Jaime" he replied shaking my hand, "You sure you're okay?"
"I will be," I said.
"Ok," he said obviously giving up on trying to get something more out of me. Then Vic walked in. I had forgotten about him. I immediately hid my face. Jaime noticed.
"What are you hiding from?" he asked.
"Vic" I whispered.
"Who?" he asked confused.
"The kid with the long brown hair and beanie" I replied.
"Ohh," he said "he's walking this way"
"Shit" I mutter.
"Now he's walking away," he said commentating the whole scene, "He sat down in the front." I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding.
I managed to avoid Vic the rest of the afternoon thanks to Jaime who was in all of my class.
"Thanks again" I called as I got in my brother's car.
"No problem" Jaime called back.
After we left the parking lot Dravin asked: "Who's that?"
"Jaime" I replied
"Does Celosy have a boy-e-friend?" he laughed
"No" I yelled defensively, "We're just friends"
"Sure," he said as we pulled into our driveway. I grabbed my backpack and ran inside and up to my room. I closed and locked my door. This was going to be a long night.

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