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Feelings Are a Thing...

After dropping Sarah off at her apartment, I went back into the car and sat there still for a couple of seconds as I processed what had just happened. The kiss we shared was special; different and I needed some time to wrap my head around what had happened so I decided I’d make a pit stop in the nearest McDonald’s. A part of me wasn’t sure whether I was doing this because I was legitimately hungry, a craving or because I was trying to avoid Vic and the countless questions that would come up after having Sarah over, have her sleep in my room without me and just have nice breakfast. The problem was that I wouldn’t know how to tackle those questions myself. It’s not that I wanted to hide something or just try to keep Vic out of my personal life - although he did try to get involved a lot of the time - but I truly wasn’t sure of what the fuck was going on between Sarah and me.

When Alysha cheated on me, I decided to swear off women and relationships in general. No more falling in love, no more commitment. Just pure pleasure and no attachment. However there was something about Sarah that made me want to turn my car around and kiss her again. I knew Vic would want to know what I was going to do, but the issue was that I didn’t know and that’s what scared me the most. Alysha was the first woman I ever loved, and one that I thought I’d spend my life with and in the blink of an eye, she had broken my heart in so many pieces and I wasn’t sure if all of those had been picked up, or if they could even be picked up at all.

I lined up at the drive thru and asked for an Oreo McFlurry and a large set of fries - that was the best combination of sweet and salty that there was and since Jaime had shown it to me, I was obsessed. I got my order and I drove off to a nearby parking lot and enjoyed my food. I still wasn’t ready to face whatever Vic had been cooking up for me, but I couldn’t run away all day; that would actually bring me more question which I really wanted to avoid.
Taking the long way home made up for the fact that it was time to go back. There was also a little traffic on the highway which was the greatest excuse for taking as long as I took. I parked outside on the driveway because Mr. Amazing Driver here, Vic, had parked in the middle of the fucking garage and he still hadn’t moved his car,

Even though I’d left about an hour and a half ago, the house still smelled like breakfast burritos, and although that wasn’t really an issue it made me really hungry - again. Vic and Danielle were watching TV in the living room and so I began to clean the kitchen on my own until it was time for Danielle to watch one of her Brazilian soap opera shows and Vic came along and began to help me.

“So, what’s up between you and Sarah?” Vic finally asked me. “I mean you’re not the kinda guy who goes out twice without sealing the deal,” he mocked. I knew he was right, but with Sarah I had stopped thinking of just fucking her the moment she gave me the napkin and rejected me with no shame.

“I don’t know man, I really don’t” I responded in full honesty. He stared at me for a couple of seconds, I guess it was to check whether I was fucking with him or not, and then he realized that I really was confused and I had no idea what to do. “I mean at first I was just thinking of her as another chick to bang but she turned out to such a better person and so interesting that I really stopped seeing her in that way,”

“So you’re telling me you’re going to end this whole Pig-phase?” he joked whilst at the same time remaining a little serious. “she does seem like a nice girl, unlike the others”

“Yeah, she does” I smiled. I could still remember everything that had happened the night before and as much as I wished we could have kept going, I was kind of glad Vic interrupted. I didn’t want her to think I just wanted to bang her and ditch her anymore, because that wasn’t the case anymore. When we kissed at the front of her door, there was some kind of spark and it was so different from any other kiss I’ve ever had. With Alysha there was more lust and more aggressiveness. This was more caring and something unlike I’ve ever experienced; I’m not good at explaining feelings, girls are usually the good ones at that and it’s something I definitely not used to experience things like this.

“Well man, you’ve got to make a decision about it and see what you’re gonna do,” Vic said, attempting his best at the whole big-brother-advise, which I appreciated greatly. “Look, not everyone’s like Alysha. She’s a bitch and she doesn’t deserve you, just like you don’t deserve this whole pig-act you’ve been pulling off ever since.” he added “I think Sarah will be good for you, give you a change of heart. Just see where it goes,”

We finished up in the kitchen and he went back to sitting with Danielle on the couch whilst I went back upstairs with my annoying and loud thoughts.

What did I want to do? See her again.

What was I going to do about it? I wasn’t sure.

Notes

Comments

@PierceTheMillerr
awe thanks so much!!
I've been dealing with midterms and stuff but I'll update asap :)

ZAYUMM..I silently wait for the update.

@missywrites97_2.0
I'll be patiently waiting for your update c:
Well that last one was an awesome outfit.
hope you're good :)

@pierce-my-soul
hahah there's loads to come I promise!! And thank youu! I love making outfits haha
I'm not in town right now, so I won't be able to update for a couple more days but I will as soon as I get back home!! Thank you for reading and I'm glad you're liking it!!

Update soon ,please. <3
I hope that there's drama in between Sarah and Alysha.
I loved Sarah's outfit, btw

pierce-my-soul pierce-my-soul
2/27/16