Don't Hit me

These nightmares are so much more than nightmares. They’re flasbacks. Of me. In this house. 5 years ago. I was a virgin. Danielle and I heard about this awesome party that Austin was having. So we told her mom that we were going to a friends and we went to the party. We walk up to the house and Austin walks out. My heart drops. He’s gorgeous. He’s older and he has tattoos and I need to talk to him. But I can’t have Danielle hanging around me. So we go inside and we meet this guy names Alan. He’s be good for Taylor.
“Yea, me and Austin are thinking about starting a band together.”
This definitely gets Danielle’s attention.
I find Austin in the giant crowd of people and we start dancing. After a while it gets really hot so we make our way outside.
“You’ve got some pretty good moves”
“I was just trying to impress you”
“Let me get you a drink”
He isn’t gone that long.
“Here ya go.”
I almost chug it down.
“Thanks. So Alan said you guys were gonna start a band?”
“Yea, we’re pretty excited about it.”
“Nice, what’s the name gonna be?”
“We done really know yet. We’ve got a couple of ideas”
“That’s awesome.”
“Yea Alan just got this sick guitar! Do you wonna see it?”
“Yea totally!”
“Hey are you okay? You look kinda sick.”
My head starts to pound and my stomach is in knots.
“Um I think I need to lay down.”
“Here come with me, you can sleep in my bed.”
I go to take a step and my whole body gives out. Austin catches me,
“Woah there”
He carries me up stairs and lays me on his bed. But then he starts to take off my clothes. I want to scream but I can’t. It’s like I forgot how to talk. Then he does it. He raped me and there is nothing I can do about it. I want to scream. I can’t move.

I wake up screaming and sweaty. Austin runs in the room.
“Shhh. Shhh. It’s okay.”
“GET OFF ME!”
“Taylor!”
“What? You ruined my life! You took everything from me! I thought I got away from you but this whole fucking time you’ve had this plan to keeping ruining my life!”
I run to the bathroom and slam the door. I wash my face off and fill the bathroom up with cool water. I sink nose deep and imagine Tony sitting across from me looking into my eyes. I stay here for a long time. When I get out I go downstairs and change close.
“Taylor?”
“What Austin?”
“We need to talk.”
“About what?”
“We’re going to take you home.”
I turn around.
“Don’t fuck around.”
“I’m not. But we have terms. If you don’t follow them, we will take you back and you will never see Tony again.”
“What do I have to do?”
“You can’t say anything about his ever.”
“That’s it?”
“Yes. As far as they know, you just went somewhere and forgot your phone.”
“Let’s go.”
“Okay.”
“Okay.”

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