So Lock and Load
Show Me the Way
A week later
Vic’s POV
I had mixed emotions. I was a little relieved I guess that he was finally leaving me alone. But I was also pretty mad that he was ignoring my calls and texts. What was going on with Kellin? First he refusing to let go and now he won’t talk to me.
I was trying to not let it distract me from my friends, considering we have been spending a lot more time together and I didn’t want to worry them. But I could tell Jaime knew something was up. He gave me nervous glances when I was quiet.
Out of my two new friends I had grown extra close to Jaime. So I was sure he would know something was up.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when Jaime nudged me with his elbow and I looked up to see Mr. Way standing at my desk with his hands on his hips and I worried expression.
“Mr. Fuentes, I would like to see you after class if that’s okay with you,” he looked at me in a way that said I had no choice anyway so I just nodded and ignored the stares I got from the rest of the class.
He nodded and gave me another glance before walking back up to the front of the room and resuming the lesson.
All too soon the bell finally rang and after all of the students were in the hall I walked up to the desk.
“Vic, you’ve been very distracted lately is there something wrong? you know you can talk to me, hell I’m probably the only teacher in the school that would keep a secret. They all hate me because they’re homophobic asshats…you didn’t here that last part,” he ranted. I chuckled a little, humorless.
“Yeah…” I trailed off.
“Girl problems?” he raised his eyebrows when I didn’t respond, “Boy problems?” he asked.
I just nodded.
“Well, trust me it gets better kiddo, high school sucks, I would know I got out not too long ago. If this boy cares about you, he’ll talk to you. Or if you need help getting said boy, grow some balls and ask him out,” I smiled at my art teacher and nodded. He motioned for me to leave and I did. God if only it was that easy. Frank probably didn’t kill his parents.
I walked down the hall and was pulled to the side and face to face with Jaime with a worried look on his face.
“Vic, what’s wrong?” I knew it.
“Nothing…” I mumbled, he just shook his head.
“Is it hot record store guy, I’ll kick his ass…” he started. I just shrugged. “you know you can tell me anything Vic. And if you don’t want me to I won’t tell anybody, not even Tony or Mike and I’ve known Tony since we were three,”
“No, it’s not, don’t worry,” I knew I sounded unconvincing. Jaime gave me a really serious look, which was a little weird because when he’s serious you begin to notice just how intimidating he really is when he’s not silly.
“Vic, I can tell you’re lying,” he cocked an eyebrow at me. I sighed and shook my head.
“It’s just I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately and I’m a little distracted. That’s all,” I tried my best to look in his eyes as I semi-lied to him. he stayed quiet for a second.
“Just…Vic, I hope you know me, Tony and Mike are all here, if you, y’know need to talk. We’re here,” he said with the most sincere look I’ve seen on someone since Kellin told me about…well, you know and apologized.
“Thanks, Jaime, but don’t worry. I’m fine,” I said patting his shoulder with my hand. He just sighed.
“Okay to cheer you up we’re having a movie night, to get your mind off of things ‘kay? Just you and me buddy. Mostly because if Tony and Mike came, the only movies we would watch would be harry potter and star wars. Well, I guess it would be pretty fun to watch them argue over which one,” he ranted, quickly turning back to the fun Jaime we all know and love. I smiled and nodded.
“It’s Tuesday, Jaime, it’s a school night,” I said.
“Fuck the police,” he chuckled. I just smiled and shook my head.
“Alright, but don’t be too loud my Uncle’s home and if he doesn’t sleep. He’s not a happy Manny,” I warned, actually a little worried about that. Jaime nodded and we bid our separate ways to our next classes.
My day had brightened a little at the realization that no matter what would happen my friend would always be there. Psh, who needs Kellin anyway?
You need Kellin.
Shutup brain.
Nope.
I shook my head a little at the thoughts and continued through the rest of the school day, as normal as possible, but when you’re me, nothing is normal.
~~~time lapse because I’m too lazy to write the rest of the day~~~
I soon found myself on the couch with some popcorn as Jaime sat in front of the T.V. at my house looking through our movie selection, I really shouldn’t have told him to pick.
“How about we watch a movie about a ruthless killer who kills this guy’s wife and his kid is left with an injury that effects his everyday life. Then the child gets kidnapped and his father goes on a long quest to find him, with the help of a mentally ill female,” I looked at Jaime with a quizzical expression at his sudden query.
“What’s it called?” I asked.
“Finding Nemo,” he responded seriously. I burst out laughing and looked back up at him to see he had a completely normal facial expression.
“What? That’s what it’s about.” He shrugged. I thought about it for a second before realizing that was completely true.
“Wow,” I said, “Fine, just put it in,” I sighed, plopping down the couch.
Jaime put the disk in the player before saying, “that’s what she said,” and making himself comfortable on the armchair next to the couch and focusing on the T.V., but being Jaime, I’m almost positive he wasn’t paying attention at all.
I laughed at one of the small jokes as I heard the doorbell ring. It’s 10 pm who would be here?
I cautiously walked to the door and hesitantly opening the door. I was quite surprised at who I found….
Kellin’s POV
I sat on the bench breathing in deeply, trying my best to not break down sobbing. This is where I am now, sobbing on a park bench at 10 pm, on a fucking Tuesday because I can’t fucking do anything right. Yes I’ll say fuck every other word because that’s how mad I am at myself.
I wondered what Vic was thinking right now, I bet he hates me. Hell, I would too.
But it was for his sake, if I keep contact with him, he’ll get hurt like everybody else, I can’t let that happen, he doesn’t deserve that.
He’s probably happy, I’m not prying into his life anymore, and he probably never forgave me anyway. Like I said, I wouldn’t either.
This is for the best.
No it’s not.
I think Matty’s been noticing my behavior, oh god I don’t want to affect more people with this. Why can’t I just forget Vic?
Vic’s POV
I had mixed emotions. I was a little relieved I guess that he was finally leaving me alone. But I was also pretty mad that he was ignoring my calls and texts. What was going on with Kellin? First he refusing to let go and now he won’t talk to me.
I was trying to not let it distract me from my friends, considering we have been spending a lot more time together and I didn’t want to worry them. But I could tell Jaime knew something was up. He gave me nervous glances when I was quiet.
Out of my two new friends I had grown extra close to Jaime. So I was sure he would know something was up.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when Jaime nudged me with his elbow and I looked up to see Mr. Way standing at my desk with his hands on his hips and I worried expression.
“Mr. Fuentes, I would like to see you after class if that’s okay with you,” he looked at me in a way that said I had no choice anyway so I just nodded and ignored the stares I got from the rest of the class.
He nodded and gave me another glance before walking back up to the front of the room and resuming the lesson.
All too soon the bell finally rang and after all of the students were in the hall I walked up to the desk.
“Vic, you’ve been very distracted lately is there something wrong? you know you can talk to me, hell I’m probably the only teacher in the school that would keep a secret. They all hate me because they’re homophobic asshats…you didn’t here that last part,” he ranted. I chuckled a little, humorless.
“Yeah…” I trailed off.
“Girl problems?” he raised his eyebrows when I didn’t respond, “Boy problems?” he asked.
I just nodded.
“Well, trust me it gets better kiddo, high school sucks, I would know I got out not too long ago. If this boy cares about you, he’ll talk to you. Or if you need help getting said boy, grow some balls and ask him out,” I smiled at my art teacher and nodded. He motioned for me to leave and I did. God if only it was that easy. Frank probably didn’t kill his parents.
I walked down the hall and was pulled to the side and face to face with Jaime with a worried look on his face.
“Vic, what’s wrong?” I knew it.
“Nothing…” I mumbled, he just shook his head.
“Is it hot record store guy, I’ll kick his ass…” he started. I just shrugged. “you know you can tell me anything Vic. And if you don’t want me to I won’t tell anybody, not even Tony or Mike and I’ve known Tony since we were three,”
“No, it’s not, don’t worry,” I knew I sounded unconvincing. Jaime gave me a really serious look, which was a little weird because when he’s serious you begin to notice just how intimidating he really is when he’s not silly.
“Vic, I can tell you’re lying,” he cocked an eyebrow at me. I sighed and shook my head.
“It’s just I’ve been thinking about a lot of things lately and I’m a little distracted. That’s all,” I tried my best to look in his eyes as I semi-lied to him. he stayed quiet for a second.
“Just…Vic, I hope you know me, Tony and Mike are all here, if you, y’know need to talk. We’re here,” he said with the most sincere look I’ve seen on someone since Kellin told me about…well, you know and apologized.
“Thanks, Jaime, but don’t worry. I’m fine,” I said patting his shoulder with my hand. He just sighed.
“Okay to cheer you up we’re having a movie night, to get your mind off of things ‘kay? Just you and me buddy. Mostly because if Tony and Mike came, the only movies we would watch would be harry potter and star wars. Well, I guess it would be pretty fun to watch them argue over which one,” he ranted, quickly turning back to the fun Jaime we all know and love. I smiled and nodded.
“It’s Tuesday, Jaime, it’s a school night,” I said.
“Fuck the police,” he chuckled. I just smiled and shook my head.
“Alright, but don’t be too loud my Uncle’s home and if he doesn’t sleep. He’s not a happy Manny,” I warned, actually a little worried about that. Jaime nodded and we bid our separate ways to our next classes.
My day had brightened a little at the realization that no matter what would happen my friend would always be there. Psh, who needs Kellin anyway?
You need Kellin.
Shutup brain.
Nope.
I shook my head a little at the thoughts and continued through the rest of the school day, as normal as possible, but when you’re me, nothing is normal.
~~~time lapse because I’m too lazy to write the rest of the day~~~
I soon found myself on the couch with some popcorn as Jaime sat in front of the T.V. at my house looking through our movie selection, I really shouldn’t have told him to pick.
“How about we watch a movie about a ruthless killer who kills this guy’s wife and his kid is left with an injury that effects his everyday life. Then the child gets kidnapped and his father goes on a long quest to find him, with the help of a mentally ill female,” I looked at Jaime with a quizzical expression at his sudden query.
“What’s it called?” I asked.
“Finding Nemo,” he responded seriously. I burst out laughing and looked back up at him to see he had a completely normal facial expression.
“What? That’s what it’s about.” He shrugged. I thought about it for a second before realizing that was completely true.
“Wow,” I said, “Fine, just put it in,” I sighed, plopping down the couch.
Jaime put the disk in the player before saying, “that’s what she said,” and making himself comfortable on the armchair next to the couch and focusing on the T.V., but being Jaime, I’m almost positive he wasn’t paying attention at all.
I laughed at one of the small jokes as I heard the doorbell ring. It’s 10 pm who would be here?
I cautiously walked to the door and hesitantly opening the door. I was quite surprised at who I found….
Kellin’s POV
I sat on the bench breathing in deeply, trying my best to not break down sobbing. This is where I am now, sobbing on a park bench at 10 pm, on a fucking Tuesday because I can’t fucking do anything right. Yes I’ll say fuck every other word because that’s how mad I am at myself.
I wondered what Vic was thinking right now, I bet he hates me. Hell, I would too.
But it was for his sake, if I keep contact with him, he’ll get hurt like everybody else, I can’t let that happen, he doesn’t deserve that.
He’s probably happy, I’m not prying into his life anymore, and he probably never forgave me anyway. Like I said, I wouldn’t either.
This is for the best.
No it’s not.
I think Matty’s been noticing my behavior, oh god I don’t want to affect more people with this. Why can’t I just forget Vic?
Notes
hey guys i'm back, a lot sooner than i thought i would be but i'm still without internet, but i had a lot of inspiration so i wrote four whole chapters and i had to update with them or it would eat away at me O.O so now here you guys go, i'm at my grandma's house for her wifi, i'm babysitting my little cousin here until about midnight (here) which is in about five hours, and i might have another update in me ;) (i know it's a little short, sorry :c)i know everybody wants you guys to do the same thing but will you PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE, comment? Rate, subscribe and all of that good stuff.
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12/31/13