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Chapter 10
Kellin’s POV
I was so shocked that he actually showed up that I forget why I needed him to come in the first place. So I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
“Vic,” I started “I mentioned Brandon right?” he just nodded and holding back tears I explained everything, from my deal to Justin, which has been a sensitive subject since it happened, all the way to yesterday when I went to hell and all of my murders and how it felt each time. There I actually broke down crying. He just stood there staring at me for a minute. I must have looked pathetic, just sitting there in a fetal position crying because of all of the mistakes I made. I was pathetic and stupid.
But what he did next surprised me to no end. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to be met with Vic’s beautiful eyes. He frowned and gave me a hug. I hesitantly wrapped my arms around his slim waist after a few seconds. Maybe things won’t turn out like last time.
Vic’s POV
I shouldn’t care. I shouldn’t fall for his stupid sob story. I really shouldn’t of. But the look on his face was pure pain and regret. He looked like he genuinely wanted to die. Nobody should ever have to feel like that, deal with the devil or not.
He tensed up at my touch but soon melted into the hug. Then I remembered seeing him for the first time. He seemed so normal; he seemed like any normal hot teenage boy. But he was so much more. I’m so stupid.
Why I forgave him I have no idea. But once I said it I knew shit was going to go down.
“It’s okay,” I whispered into his soft black hair. I could feel the smile in his face before he pulled away.
He looked at me so hopeful “Really?” He asked tears still running down his face. I just swallowed the lump in my throat that this was wrong. But it felt to right. I nodded and looked into his blue eyes. The smile on his face was the most beautiful thing I have seen in my whole life. It shouldn’t be but it was.
Everything in my head was screaming at me telling me to walk away and never talk to him again, while my stomach and more importantly my heart held me there with my arms wrapped around the small frail boy. If mike found out what Kellin did he would fucking kill me.
Matty’s POV (OOOOOHHHH SNAP)
I hadn’t seen Kellin in two days and I was a little worried at this point. I mean we live together and he has been gone for a day before but he always usually tells me where he is, or that he’s okay. I felt a little uneasy. It was only half past nine o’clock so I decided to text him.
Are you alright?
I hesitantly sent the question. He took a second to reply.
Kind of. I’ll explain later see you tonight, ginger.
I sighed in relief at his reply and decided to not reply after that considering he was probably busy. I just really hoped he didn’t do anything stupid. Things didn’t exactly end well the last time he went talked to the people he wasn’t supposed to, and not for him. I just really worried for that Vic kid. Andy didn’t exactly approve of Kellin’s last relationship with one of the soul’s family members.
Kellin’s POV
I jumped a little when I felt a little vibration on my right butt cheek but relaxed as soon as I realized it was my phone. I pulled away from my hug with Vic and checked it.
It was from Matty. Shit, I forgot to talk to him. I had to tell him. He won’t be too mad but I don’t know I’ve probably already worried him with a lot of the shit I’ve been getting into lately and he wouldn’t like that very much. I still can’t process what really happened in hell. I just couldn’t understand how much the hurt and how I didn’t pass out or anything. It made me shake a little thinking about it. after replying I didn’t receive another text from Matty so I put my phone away.
I looked up at Vic and he was staring at me.
“Um that was Matty. He’s probably really worried. I’ll text you? That is only if you want me to.” He nodded and I smiled at him.
“Can you help me up the hill,” he asked quietly. I just nodded. He smiled the moonlight lit up his features. I smiled back and we slowly made our way up the hill.
Once we reached the top he smiled at me and I smiled back. We parted with a wave.
Vic’s POV
This was so wrong this was so wrong this was so wrong in so many ways. I wanted to hate him so much. I wanted to be able to spit in his face and insult him and kick him while he’s down for what he did. But I just couldn’t. I wanted to hug him to kiss him and to make him feel better no matter how wrong I knew it was.
When he said he had to leave I wanted him to stay. I wanted to keep my arms around him, but I couldn’t. I knew I would also have to go home before mike decides to break down my door to check on me.
So I made my way home and not wanting to risk the chance of Mike seeing me come in I climbed through my window which may I add was a lot harder than it appeared to be. But I somehow made it up without dying and slid the glass up. I climbed in and thankfully heard nothing outside of my door. I smelled something weird and then realized I hadn’t showered in about 3 days so I stripped out of my clothes and walked into the bathroom that was thankfully connected to my room. I stepped under the warm stream of water and immediately relaxed. It felt like it was melting away all of the stress and drama in my mind and made everything better.
After washing myself I finally turned off the water and dried off with the towel. I dressed in nothing but boxers and climbed under the familiar covers of my bed. I slowly drifted into a dreamless sleep.
Kellin’s POV
In all honesty I didn’t really want to go home but I knew I had no choice. So I walked slowly away from the church.
The cool air brushed against my skin and made me shiver slightly as I walked. Of course I didn’t bring a jacket so I just crossed my arms and rubbed them with my hands in hope of getting warm, though it made absolutely no difference.
I just kept walking to me and Matty’s apartment dreading talking to him more and more with each step. Matty was an understanding guy and was about as threatening as a pink bunny with a bag of marshmallows but I still was worried at what he would do.
I slowly unlocked the front door after climbing the two flights of stairs to the apartment and it opened to reveal Matty watching TV on the couch.
Well here we go.
Kellin’s POV
I was so shocked that he actually showed up that I forget why I needed him to come in the first place. So I closed my eyes and took a deep breath.
“Vic,” I started “I mentioned Brandon right?” he just nodded and holding back tears I explained everything, from my deal to Justin, which has been a sensitive subject since it happened, all the way to yesterday when I went to hell and all of my murders and how it felt each time. There I actually broke down crying. He just stood there staring at me for a minute. I must have looked pathetic, just sitting there in a fetal position crying because of all of the mistakes I made. I was pathetic and stupid.
But what he did next surprised me to no end. I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to be met with Vic’s beautiful eyes. He frowned and gave me a hug. I hesitantly wrapped my arms around his slim waist after a few seconds. Maybe things won’t turn out like last time.
Vic’s POV
I shouldn’t care. I shouldn’t fall for his stupid sob story. I really shouldn’t of. But the look on his face was pure pain and regret. He looked like he genuinely wanted to die. Nobody should ever have to feel like that, deal with the devil or not.
He tensed up at my touch but soon melted into the hug. Then I remembered seeing him for the first time. He seemed so normal; he seemed like any normal hot teenage boy. But he was so much more. I’m so stupid.
Why I forgave him I have no idea. But once I said it I knew shit was going to go down.
“It’s okay,” I whispered into his soft black hair. I could feel the smile in his face before he pulled away.
He looked at me so hopeful “Really?” He asked tears still running down his face. I just swallowed the lump in my throat that this was wrong. But it felt to right. I nodded and looked into his blue eyes. The smile on his face was the most beautiful thing I have seen in my whole life. It shouldn’t be but it was.
Everything in my head was screaming at me telling me to walk away and never talk to him again, while my stomach and more importantly my heart held me there with my arms wrapped around the small frail boy. If mike found out what Kellin did he would fucking kill me.
Matty’s POV (OOOOOHHHH SNAP)
I hadn’t seen Kellin in two days and I was a little worried at this point. I mean we live together and he has been gone for a day before but he always usually tells me where he is, or that he’s okay. I felt a little uneasy. It was only half past nine o’clock so I decided to text him.
Are you alright?
I hesitantly sent the question. He took a second to reply.
Kind of. I’ll explain later see you tonight, ginger.
I sighed in relief at his reply and decided to not reply after that considering he was probably busy. I just really hoped he didn’t do anything stupid. Things didn’t exactly end well the last time he went talked to the people he wasn’t supposed to, and not for him. I just really worried for that Vic kid. Andy didn’t exactly approve of Kellin’s last relationship with one of the soul’s family members.
Kellin’s POV
I jumped a little when I felt a little vibration on my right butt cheek but relaxed as soon as I realized it was my phone. I pulled away from my hug with Vic and checked it.
It was from Matty. Shit, I forgot to talk to him. I had to tell him. He won’t be too mad but I don’t know I’ve probably already worried him with a lot of the shit I’ve been getting into lately and he wouldn’t like that very much. I still can’t process what really happened in hell. I just couldn’t understand how much the hurt and how I didn’t pass out or anything. It made me shake a little thinking about it. after replying I didn’t receive another text from Matty so I put my phone away.
I looked up at Vic and he was staring at me.
“Um that was Matty. He’s probably really worried. I’ll text you? That is only if you want me to.” He nodded and I smiled at him.
“Can you help me up the hill,” he asked quietly. I just nodded. He smiled the moonlight lit up his features. I smiled back and we slowly made our way up the hill.
Once we reached the top he smiled at me and I smiled back. We parted with a wave.
Vic’s POV
This was so wrong this was so wrong this was so wrong in so many ways. I wanted to hate him so much. I wanted to be able to spit in his face and insult him and kick him while he’s down for what he did. But I just couldn’t. I wanted to hug him to kiss him and to make him feel better no matter how wrong I knew it was.
When he said he had to leave I wanted him to stay. I wanted to keep my arms around him, but I couldn’t. I knew I would also have to go home before mike decides to break down my door to check on me.
So I made my way home and not wanting to risk the chance of Mike seeing me come in I climbed through my window which may I add was a lot harder than it appeared to be. But I somehow made it up without dying and slid the glass up. I climbed in and thankfully heard nothing outside of my door. I smelled something weird and then realized I hadn’t showered in about 3 days so I stripped out of my clothes and walked into the bathroom that was thankfully connected to my room. I stepped under the warm stream of water and immediately relaxed. It felt like it was melting away all of the stress and drama in my mind and made everything better.
After washing myself I finally turned off the water and dried off with the towel. I dressed in nothing but boxers and climbed under the familiar covers of my bed. I slowly drifted into a dreamless sleep.
Kellin’s POV
In all honesty I didn’t really want to go home but I knew I had no choice. So I walked slowly away from the church.
The cool air brushed against my skin and made me shiver slightly as I walked. Of course I didn’t bring a jacket so I just crossed my arms and rubbed them with my hands in hope of getting warm, though it made absolutely no difference.
I just kept walking to me and Matty’s apartment dreading talking to him more and more with each step. Matty was an understanding guy and was about as threatening as a pink bunny with a bag of marshmallows but I still was worried at what he would do.
I slowly unlocked the front door after climbing the two flights of stairs to the apartment and it opened to reveal Matty watching TV on the couch.
Well here we go.
Notes
this isnt very good but it was just more of a chapter so you see Vic's reaction. :/but thank you all for reading i love all of you people who actually enjoy reading this shit.
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12/31/13