I Promise You, Someday

*Max's POV*
We had already watched Pocahontas and half of the Transporter but I wasn't enjoying it so now we were watching Aladdin and we were about 20/30 minutes into it when A Whole New World starts to play, I honestly couldn't help myself but sing, whether I was good or not I was going to sing,

"I can show you the world
Shining, shimmering, splendid
Tell me, princess, now when did
You last let your heart decide?

I can open your eyes
Take you wonder by wonder
Over, sideways and under
On a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
A new fantastic point of view
No one to tell us no
Or where to go
Or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
A dazzling place I never knew
But when I'm way up here
It's crystal clear
That now I'm in a whole new world with you
Now I'm in a whole new world with you

Unbelievable sights
Indescribable feeling
Soaring, tumbling, freewheeling
Through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world
Don't you dare close your eyes
A hundred thousand things to see
Hold your breath - it gets better
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world
Every turn a surprise
With new horizons to pursue
Every moment red-letter
I'll chase them anywhere
There's time to spare
Let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world
That's where we'll be
A thrilling chase
A wondrous place
For you and me"
When I was finished I laughed a little, I caught Austin looking at me out of the corner of my eye, I turned and looked back at him, "What?" I said laughing before turning my attention back to the film, "That was really good! Why didn't tell me you could sing?" He asked, shocked about what just happened like it was a big deal, "You never asked?" I said shrugging and taking a swig of my cola and getting up to grab a new bottle, "So you're pretty and you can sing?" He said smiling, I rolled my eyes as I went to sat back down pouring myself a drink and topping his glass up, "Looks aren't everything, Austin?" I said sitting back and enjoying the last bits of popcorn, "I know but you are pretty?" He said shrugging, I laughed, "Yeah pretty sure I'm ugly!?" I scoffed, he looked at me like I was an idiot, we sat there talking and laughing through the rest of the movie, when we finally ran out of things to talk about the movie was finished, "Frozen?" I asked, he nodded, I got up and tried to reach the remote to stop the TV playing Aladdin again, but I couldn't reach it, I felt Austin come up behind me as he grabbed my waist as he stretched up and got it, I turned around to take it from him but he was just staring at me, I went to grab the remote but he pressed a button turning the TV off and placed the remote back on the unit, he stared into my eyes, "Austin stop" I said turning back around so he wouldn't kiss me, "Is that how you want to play it then?" He asked, snaking his arms around my waist stopping at the button of my jeans, I felt him thumblr about with it, "Don't!" I said, scared, "Come on Max, it's just a stupid one night stand, it'll mean nothing?" He said, walking towards me, "I have a boyfriend!" I said turning around and barging past him, doing up my button again, "He doesn't need to know, I mean, I won't tell him?" He shrugged, I shook my head, "I uhh need to go!" I said quickly running and grabbing my shoes so I was only in my socks, I slammed the door behind me and ran as fast as I could, I felt the tears build up in my eyes as I ran back to our bus, I stopped to put my shoes on and heard Austin shout on me as I was leaning against a bus, I had no option, well I probably did but I couldn't think of one in the heat of the moment, to go on the bus I was leaning on, I didn't even know who's tour bus it was, I pulled the handle and the door opened easily, I ran on shutting the door behind me and crouching down, I saw Austin run past, I stood up and breathed a sigh of relief, as I turned around I realized I was on PVRIS's bus, Lynn was staring at me smiling while Alex and Brian looked at me shocked, "Welcome to the tour bus, babe!" Lynn smirked winking, I smiled and apologized before quickly backing out and running around the back of the buses making my way along to PTV's, finally I reached it, the lights weren't on so thankfully the guys weren't home, I unlocked the bus and walked on, locking it behind me, I didn't turn any lights on, I didn't want to risk Austin seeing it and then come banging on the door, I drew the curtains and switched the TV on, I took drastic measures by turning the brightness down to the lowest I could get it without having to squint to watch it.

I let The Big Bang Theory play in the background as I went over what just happened in my head, I don't know why but I broke down, I started crying hard, pulling my knees up to my chest, I was angry I let myself get in such a vulnerable position, all they want me for is my body and looks, I got so angry that I stood up and started throwing things in a fit of tears, I made my way through to the backroom and raked throw my suitcase until I found my wash bag, I know I said to Tony that I threw them out and I wouldn't do it again, but I couldn't help it, it feel so stupid, worthless and vulnerable, I pulled out a shiny, metal razor blade and walked in to the bathroom running the tap in the sink, I pulled up my sleeve and started to drag the blade across my forearms, it felt so good to feel the cold, sharpness and pain again after so long, I made the cuts deeper until I couldn't take anymore, I fell to the floor and sat there crying as my numb arm stayed resting on the edge of the sink, letting the blood drip down the drain with the water. After 10 minutes of sitting there pitying myself and letting the blood clot I got up and slowly walked through to the living room, dodging the glass shard which I had caused earlier, I reached up and got the first aid box, it was 11pm and the guys would be home soon, they aren't the type to stay out until all hours of the morning, I pulled out a bandage and some medical tape bandaging my healing cuts and putting it away again. I decided to clear up the mess so they wouldn't suspect anything, I put all the glass shards in a bag and took them out to the big bin in the middle of the grounds, I thought I heard Austin shout so I ran back in locking the door behind me and turning the TV off. I traipsed myself through to the bunks and changed into my pyjamas before collapsing on my bunk, sighing as I slowly fell asleep to the sound of nothing.

About an hour after me falling asleep I heard a banging on the front door and heard Mike laughing while Jaime giggled like a little girl, I rolled my eyes as I got up and walked through, unlocking the door and throwing it open, "Why do you never take your keys?" I asked rolling my eyes and walking back to bed, "Woah someone's grumpy?" Mike said picking me up and putting me back down, "That's because it's 12am, if you haven't noticed and some of us are trying to get to sleep, fucktard?" I said hitting his chest and walking back, "Wait babe?" Tony slurred, grabbing a hold of my left wrist, "Oww!" I yelled as he let go, it really hurt, I turned around and looked at him, "What's wrong!?" He asked worriedly, pulling me closer by my waist, "Nothing, I'm just tired?" I said quietly, he nodded and gave me a sympathetic smile, "Okay baby, goodnight, I love you" he said before kissing my forehead and letting me go, "I love you too" I said smiling at him as I walked back through and climbing into my bunk, I lay awake listening to them talk and laugh until they came through and climbed in their bunks, I pretended to be asleep, Tony climbed into my bunk, surprisingly, "Max, I know you're asleep and you won't hear me but I love you so fucking much and I promise from now on I'm going to be the bestest boyfriend you could ever ask for, you're my princess and that's how I'm going to treat you, I love you baby, good night!" He whispered before kissing the back of my head and spooning me, I smiled a sympathetic smile, I thought about earlier tonight and all that I could think about it was what the fuck have I done!?

Notes

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