I'll be the Brightest, You'll See

I looked at myself in the mirror, inspecting the new artwork on my arms. I always had a fascination with Lord of the Rings when I was a kid, hence why I chose the artwork. "It looks really good on you." Oli told me. I watched him pack his bag on my bed as I stood in front of the mirror.

"Thank you." I could feel my cheeks blush.

"That's me ready." He announced, I turned to face him.

"I'll call your taxi." I told him, walking out of my room and downstairs. I picked up the house phone and then called a cab for Oli.

He walked downstairs with a small smile on his face. "Thank you for having me." He told me. I walked over to him and hugged him.

"You're always welcome here." I smiled into our hug.

A few minutes passed and there was a beeping outside. "That was quick." Oli laughed.

We walked outside and down the path. "Thanks again Oli, if it wasn't for you then I would never have gotten the courage to tell Vic about our kid." I sighed, watching Oli's features soften.

"Anytime Scarlett, it's not every day I get to pretend to be a hot girls boyfriend to tell him about his unknown child." He said so casually.

"I would be lost without you Oli." I smiled, my teeth completely on show.

"I'll see you soon okay." Oli kissed my cheek and got into the taxi. I watched it drive away, maybe I won't see Oli again for awhile but it doesn't matter how often or little I see him; he'll always mean a lot to me.

I looked across the street and noticed Vic standing on his porch. Last night ended strangely. Instead of him getting angry at me or upset he just left. No reaction whatsoever. I mean I understand that finding out you have a child out there must be shocking but I dunno. He began walking over to my side of the street. "Hey." He said awkwardly, he could barely even look me in the eye.

"How are you feeling this morning?" I asked, beginning to feel awkward myself.

"Hungover, like someone hit me over the head with a hammer and confused." He said as he adjusted his hat.

"I hope you feel better soon then." I felt so fucking awkward. The silence fell between us and it made me want to scream.

"Look I think we need to talk about what happened last night." Vic announced. I nodded in agreement.

"Do you wanna come in?" I asked, pointing towards my house.

"Yeah that would be good." He said and followed me into my house. We walked up the stairs and into my bedroom. Vic sat down on my bed and looked around. "It's funny because after five years I kinda thought your room would change a little but you haven't been living in this room, no one has. It's like your whole life was on pause until now." He sounded so broken saying the words. It hurt to see him sad like this but he isn't wrong, in fact that's exactly how it seems my life has appeared for anyone who doesn't know me.

"That's the saddest thing anyone has ever really said about me." I frowned. His eyes met mine and I realised how hurt he was.

"Scarlett why didn't you tell me sooner? Honestly I don't care that we broke up but you should've told me. I didn't get any say in what happened to our child." He seemed furious, but he was hiding it well.

"I'm sorry, there honestly isn't anything I can say to justify or really explain why I didn't tell you. I made a huge mistake and I regret it so much." I paced in front of him.

"So what now?" Vic asked. I stopped pacing and looked at him.

"What do you mean?" I retaliated, confusion consuming me.

"Like do you want to find her or I don't know what is it that you want to do now that I know?" He asked. I just stared at him, unsure of what to do or say.

"If I'm being completely honest, I would love to know where she is or how she is but it'd be out of a selfish impulse. She doesn't need this kinda confusion in her life Vic." I explained to him.

"But you got to meet her, I didn't." Vic said softly.

"I'm sorry Vic, I don't want to get involved." I tried to sound convincing but from the look on his face he wasn't convinced.

"Please, Scarlett I just want to see her." Vic pleaded with me. I frowned, my eyes began to water up.

"Vic please stop. I just want you to think about this." I tried to reason with him. "I honestly don't want to make things more complicated than they have to be." I closed my eyes. "The best thing you can do now is let her live her life." I finished.

"What if I can't though? My mind is full of wonder about her, she's my daughter for fuck sake." Vic stood up, anger beginning to show. "I just need to know." He shook his head, eyes beginning to fill with tears.

"I can't do it." I looked at my feet, feeling so ill.

"Then I'll do it myself!" He shouted. I flinched from his tone of voice, he pushed past me and out of my room. Leaving me in my own thoughts.

Notes

Sorry if this sucks or is too short