I'll be the Brightest, You'll See

The funny thing about your family is that no matter what they're supposed to be there for you, and most people don't really know who they consider their real family to be. For instance, my mom and dad are not my real family anymore. Vic, Jamie, Tony and Mike? Yeah they're my family. They are where my heart lies.

You can't trust a person who forced you to give up your own child, there's no reason why you should ever have to. I have all I need right now, but something is missing and Vic, is doing everything he can to get her back. It's not easy but he's literally digging into the depths of it all.

There has been a lot of dead ends and it's beginning to look as though the child doesn't even exist. But we aren't giving up yet. We still have a couple more options to look into but for now, we are going to take it slow.

"Vic?" I stared at him as he sat in front of me with a notebook and pen in his hand.

He looked up and his face was filled with concentration. "What's up?" He asked.

"How long have you been writing music for?" I questioned him, looking down at the notebook in front of him. He followed my gaze and it made him smile a little.

"I was 16 when I first wrote a song I liked he said softly, I just nodded.

"What was the first song you wrote for Pierce the Veil?" I replied. I was half expecting him to mention the song I found in his notebook all those years ago.

"It's called Yeah Boy and Doll Face." He said simply.

"What's it about?" I raised an eyebrow.

"Well..." He began, dipping his head to avoid looking at me. "I wrote it after you went back to the hospital, it kinda bummed me out that you chose to go back and it was something I found hard to deal with. So I wrote about it." He said.

"Can I hear it?" I asked him. His cheeks turned a slight shade of pink, which made my stomach do cute little flips.

"We are planning to do a secret show next week in LA, so you will hear it then." He told me.

"Okay, I can live with that I guess." I said grabbing his hand.

My phone began to buzz from my pocket, I pulled it out and the number was blocked so I ignored it. "Who was that?" Vic asked, raising an eyebrow.

"The number was blocked." I said with a frown on my face.

My phone begun ringing again so this time I answered it. "Scarlett?!?" The voice said down the phone.

"Mom?" I asked as I realised it was her. I noticed Vic looking at me with a shocked look on his face.

"Yes, Scarlett it's me." She said softly.

"What the fuck do you want?" I asked with so much hate in my voice.

"That's no way to speak to your mother." She said with a warning tone.

"Last time I checked throwing your kid into a mental hospital and taking their child off them isn't any way to treat your daughter but here we are." I snapped at her.

"Scarlett, I need you to listen to me." She said.

"Why should I?" I asked shaking my head.

"Because your father told me what happened when he visited you." She told me.

"And your point is?" I asked getting up off my bed and beginning to pace around my room.

"You're still with Vic?!" She almost shouted down the phone.

"Does that honestly shock you mom?" I laughed bitterly.

"I thought that place would make you realise what he done to you." She said softly.

"How can you blame him?" I frowned. "Honestly, how is it possible? He's successful and happy now. It is nothing to do with him and the sooner you realise that, the better!" I had to refrain myself from screaming at her down the phone.

"Just stop searching for your child Scarlett, it's not going to make everything better." She told me, a warning tone evident in her voice.

"You can't stop me." I told her.

"No, I can't but you're going to ruin this child's life." She sighed down the phone.

"No, you ruined her life when you took her from me!" I said raising my voice.

"Do you honestly think that you're gonna be able to walk back into her life now and take her back? Honestly?" She was right, as much as I didn't wanna face it she was.

"I don't know." I said rubbing my free hand over my face.

"Think rationally before you ruin someone's life Scarlett, I need you to grow up for once in your life." She said sternly.

"I hope you're happy mom, you've fucked it for everyone." I said, feeling the tears welling up in my eyes and I couldn't stop them from flowing down my face. I hung up the phone and began crying. Vic got up and walked over to me, wrapping his arms around me and hugging me tightly.

"Ignore her Scarlett, she's poison." He mumbled, I couldn't help but feel disappointed though because she is right. I need to stop playing this game.

-

"What's the point in being like that Scarlett?" Vic frowned at me.

"Because we need to give up!" I shouted at him.

"You were the one who wanted to search for her and now you wanna give up?" He asked with confusion all over his face. "Your mom is just doing what she does best here Scar, she wants to break us apart and make you do what she wants." He tried to explain.

"I was stupid, I made a dumb mistake." I sighed, rubbing my hands over my face.

"Okay, well next time you decide you do wanna go searching for her, don't come to me." He growled at me, walking out of my room and leaving me to sit on my bed and cry.

Three hours we argued for, three fucking hours and it feels as though my life has been ripped apart again after finally getting it back on track. "He'll come around." I heard a voice say softly. I looked up and noticed Tony standing at the door of my room.

"How do you know though?" I frowned, wiping away some tears.

"You are the love of his life, there is no way he's going to let that go." Tony strolled into my room and sat down on my bed across from me. "I honestly don't understand why you can't see how much that boy loves you Scarlett. You changed his life." Tony smiled.

"I didn't change his life." I laughed lightly and rolled my eyes.

"He beat kids up for fun until you came into his life." Tony grinned, shaking his head.

"Okay maybe I made him a little nicer but I didn't change him, I just showed him he is better than that." I shrugged.

"My point is that a small bump in the road isn't going to stop you guys, and you two have had some serious bumps." Tony patted my knee.

"Tony?" I asked, looking at him curiously. "What would you do?" I sighed.

"Honestly?" He raised an eyebrow, I nodded waiting for his reply. "I'd let her go. She is a four year old girl with her whole life ahead of her and she is probably so happy where she is right now. You don't wanna rip her out of it to make you happy, because no matter how much you think she needs her real mom and dad, it's you two who need her more." Tony explained to me.

"You're so smart Tony." I mumbled, crawling over to him and hugging him tightly.

"I'm quiet for a reason, I just keep all the smart thoughts for the most necessary moments." He said proudly. "Now go and speak to Vic like an adult, he needs to realise things from your point of view." Tony smiled at me.

-

Vic's P.O.V

I don't want Scarlett to change her mind about looking for our child, I really don't. As much as she thinks it's for the best I on the other hand think the child she be with us. And that's why I've been having help to search for her and now I have an address. The only thing is that it's in Canada?

I don't need to think twice about going to Canada but finding a reason to go without Scarlett knowing is going to be difficult. A knock on my bedroom door brought me back to my thoughts. "Come in." I said softly. The door opened and Scarlett walked in, a sad look on her face.

"Hey." She said sweetly, making my heart melt. Even though she's pissed me off I can't help but love her.

"Hey." I repeated, she walked over to me and wrapped her arms around my torso.

"I don't wanna fight with you Vic." She mumbled into my chest.

"Me either." I said, kissing the top of her head.

"We need to be rational here though." She started, pulling back and looking up at me. "We need to give up trying to find her and accept that she has a better life." Scarlett's eyes filled with tears and it broke my heart.

"Okay." I mumbled, it made her facial features soften and that's all that matters to me.

"Thank you Vic, it's better this way." She kissed me quickly and it made my heart feel heavy. I hate lying to her but it's gonna be worth it. It'll be worth it to see the look on her face when I find out kid, to bring her home to her mother. This is a lie worth lying.

Notes

Holy shit I apologise for the lack of updates but I am back and in full swing!



soooo basically at the weekend I went to reading (near London) for the ptv and bmth date of the festival. They played the Devine zero and I cried a lot omg. Then I travelled up to Leeds that night and went to the Leeds date that ptv played and met up with a friend from tour. It was an amazing day. Got a backstage pass and met some bands too :)



i literally had one of the best weekends of my life and it marked my 23rd and 24th time seeing ptv (whAtttt?!?!) I know it's a lot but hey I love them! It's also cute because Vic now knows me as the Scottish girl and actually knows who I am, how did my life become so great? I just wanted to share my weekend with some of you because you seem to like my writing and hey why not? Feel free to message me about ptv in general omg