A Match Into Water
Catorce
~A year and a half later~
Today is Mike and I's two year anniversery. I haven't seen him today yet because he had to go meet someone before I woke up. We're having all the guys come over for an epic party. All the guys include Austin, Kellin (Katelynn can't come on accord of having to take care of my Goddaughter Copeland Quinn), Jaxin, Casey, Vic, Jaime and Tony. Mike has been acting a bit distant for about a month, but he does that sometimes. He goes in and out of depression a lot. He's helped me stop cutting all together and I've helped him get past his drug addiction. We're good for each other. I'm proud to say that both of us are almost 2 years clean. I'm currently cleaning the house. Yes, Mike and I went out and actually bought a house. We've been talking about getting married in the next year and starting a family. Though we aren't engaged, no ring. I heard the door bell ring and I yelled for them to come in while I was sweeping the kitchen. I looked up and saw my best friend. "Hey Austin." I smiled at him. "Hey beautiful. Need help cleaning?" He asked me. I nodded and handed him the broom. "Here you finish sweeping while I got vaccum. An hour later we were done with the cleaning and everyone was there. I put on some Fall Out Boy, Save Rock and Roll album, and I went to go talk to my friends. "So, Trinity, where is my brother?" Vic asked me. "He went to go meet up with an old friend this morning. He should be back soon." I smiled at him and he nodded. I heard the front door open so I ran to it. I ran into Mike's arms and kissed him. "Happy two year anniversery baby." I told him. "Yeah, happy anniversery." He mumbled. I just now got a good look at him. He looks like he just saw a ghost. "Mike, what's wrong?" I asked him, worried. I didn't hear anyone talking and looked around to see them looking at us. "Um, Trinity can I have a word with you in private?" He asked me, not wanting to meet my eyes. "Yeah.. sure." I said in an uneasy voice. I looked at everyone. "We'll be right back." I told them and we walked to our bedroom. I closed the door and looked at him. "What's wrong Mike." "I uh, I did something really bad." He wouldn't meet my eyes. "You didn't kill someone did you?" I joked, trying not to freak out. "No. I didn't kill anyone." "Ok. Did you relapse and use again?" "No. I- Trinity, I'm so sorry." "What the fuck did you do? You're scaring me!" I started to yell. "I got someone pregnant." My heart stopped. "What in high school?" I asked him hoping that it was from high school and that he just has a teenage kid now. Tears were starting to flow out of my eyes. "No. She's- she's a month pregnant." He muttered. "You motherfucker!" I screamed at him. "You fucking cheated on me?" I screamed again. I didn't care who heard. "And you got her fucking pregnant? Congragu-fucking-lations Michael Christopher Fuentes!" I walked to the bedroom door and opened it. I slammed the door behind me and went to the living room. Everyone was looking at their feet and standing awkwardly. "Congrats Vic, you're going to be an uncle. Your brother fucked another girl." I said and went to the back door. I closed it behind me and went to go sit on the stone steps. I took my pack of cigarettes out of my jean pocket and lit on. I just sat there and smoked, silent tears pouring down my face. I heard the door open and close. I felt someone sit next to me, but I didn't need to look at him to know who it was. I leaned my head against Austin's shoulder and he put his arm around me. I started to cry and scream into his shoulder. "Kellin, Jaxin and Casey went home. They said they love you but knew that you needed your space." I nodded. "Vic yelled at Mike for a long time and now he's sitting on the couch. Tony and Jaime are still sitting there shocked. I think Jaime actually went and started to yell at Mike." I looked at Austin. "Jaime.. yelling?" I asked him. "Yeah. I've never seen Jaime so mad." Austin told me. I stood up. "Where are you going?" He asked me. "I need to go do something." I walked into the house and the guys looked at me. I walked past them and to the bedroom. I opened the door and saw Mike with his head in his hands and crying. "Get your shit and leave." I told him, folding my arms and glaring. "What?" He asked me through tears. "You fucking heard me, Mike. I'm done. I've done nothing but love you and treat you with respect. It's been officially two years now, and you still think that you have to go and sleep with someone else? I can't even look at you right now, let alone trust you anymore. Now get your shit and leave!" He got up and grabbed his suitcase. When he was done packing it, he left the bedroom and went to the bathroom. He then went to the front door and opened it. He walked out of it, and then turned around and looked like he wanted to say something. I looked at him with tears streaming down my face. I slammed the door in his face and crumbled to the floor. It felt like a hole was punched through my chest and I started screaming.
Today is Mike and I's two year anniversery. I haven't seen him today yet because he had to go meet someone before I woke up. We're having all the guys come over for an epic party. All the guys include Austin, Kellin (Katelynn can't come on accord of having to take care of my Goddaughter Copeland Quinn), Jaxin, Casey, Vic, Jaime and Tony. Mike has been acting a bit distant for about a month, but he does that sometimes. He goes in and out of depression a lot. He's helped me stop cutting all together and I've helped him get past his drug addiction. We're good for each other. I'm proud to say that both of us are almost 2 years clean. I'm currently cleaning the house. Yes, Mike and I went out and actually bought a house. We've been talking about getting married in the next year and starting a family. Though we aren't engaged, no ring. I heard the door bell ring and I yelled for them to come in while I was sweeping the kitchen. I looked up and saw my best friend. "Hey Austin." I smiled at him. "Hey beautiful. Need help cleaning?" He asked me. I nodded and handed him the broom. "Here you finish sweeping while I got vaccum. An hour later we were done with the cleaning and everyone was there. I put on some Fall Out Boy, Save Rock and Roll album, and I went to go talk to my friends. "So, Trinity, where is my brother?" Vic asked me. "He went to go meet up with an old friend this morning. He should be back soon." I smiled at him and he nodded. I heard the front door open so I ran to it. I ran into Mike's arms and kissed him. "Happy two year anniversery baby." I told him. "Yeah, happy anniversery." He mumbled. I just now got a good look at him. He looks like he just saw a ghost. "Mike, what's wrong?" I asked him, worried. I didn't hear anyone talking and looked around to see them looking at us. "Um, Trinity can I have a word with you in private?" He asked me, not wanting to meet my eyes. "Yeah.. sure." I said in an uneasy voice. I looked at everyone. "We'll be right back." I told them and we walked to our bedroom. I closed the door and looked at him. "What's wrong Mike." "I uh, I did something really bad." He wouldn't meet my eyes. "You didn't kill someone did you?" I joked, trying not to freak out. "No. I didn't kill anyone." "Ok. Did you relapse and use again?" "No. I- Trinity, I'm so sorry." "What the fuck did you do? You're scaring me!" I started to yell. "I got someone pregnant." My heart stopped. "What in high school?" I asked him hoping that it was from high school and that he just has a teenage kid now. Tears were starting to flow out of my eyes. "No. She's- she's a month pregnant." He muttered. "You motherfucker!" I screamed at him. "You fucking cheated on me?" I screamed again. I didn't care who heard. "And you got her fucking pregnant? Congragu-fucking-lations Michael Christopher Fuentes!" I walked to the bedroom door and opened it. I slammed the door behind me and went to the living room. Everyone was looking at their feet and standing awkwardly. "Congrats Vic, you're going to be an uncle. Your brother fucked another girl." I said and went to the back door. I closed it behind me and went to go sit on the stone steps. I took my pack of cigarettes out of my jean pocket and lit on. I just sat there and smoked, silent tears pouring down my face. I heard the door open and close. I felt someone sit next to me, but I didn't need to look at him to know who it was. I leaned my head against Austin's shoulder and he put his arm around me. I started to cry and scream into his shoulder. "Kellin, Jaxin and Casey went home. They said they love you but knew that you needed your space." I nodded. "Vic yelled at Mike for a long time and now he's sitting on the couch. Tony and Jaime are still sitting there shocked. I think Jaime actually went and started to yell at Mike." I looked at Austin. "Jaime.. yelling?" I asked him. "Yeah. I've never seen Jaime so mad." Austin told me. I stood up. "Where are you going?" He asked me. "I need to go do something." I walked into the house and the guys looked at me. I walked past them and to the bedroom. I opened the door and saw Mike with his head in his hands and crying. "Get your shit and leave." I told him, folding my arms and glaring. "What?" He asked me through tears. "You fucking heard me, Mike. I'm done. I've done nothing but love you and treat you with respect. It's been officially two years now, and you still think that you have to go and sleep with someone else? I can't even look at you right now, let alone trust you anymore. Now get your shit and leave!" He got up and grabbed his suitcase. When he was done packing it, he left the bedroom and went to the bathroom. He then went to the front door and opened it. He walked out of it, and then turned around and looked like he wanted to say something. I looked at him with tears streaming down my face. I slammed the door in his face and crumbled to the floor. It felt like a hole was punched through my chest and I started screaming.
I will, I'm sorry, I've been very busy. <3
10/15/13