You'd Better Hide the Bullets

School was finally over for the day and I couldn't wait to get home. I wasn't gonna be home for long before I had to head back out again but it was nice to relax. "Hey Scarlett, how was school?" My mom greeted me as I walked into the house.

"Yeah it was alright, was work good?" I knew the answer but hey, I'm just being polite.

"Same old, same old. Oh there was a letter for you this morning. I put it on your bed for you." She told me.

"Thank you, I'm having dinner at Pete's tonight by the way, I forgot to tell you." I informed her. She nodded and walked off into the kitchen, leaving me to sprint up the stairs.

I kicked my shoes off and then walked over to my bed. The letter was hand written, maybe it's from someone back home? I opened it up and it wasn't particularly long.

Dear Scarlett, I see that you got the notebook written by Vic Fuentes, on Christmas Day. I'm glad you liked it and it helped you to see that he's no good for you. Keep that thought in mind because I have so much more to show you if you go near him again. It's not a threat, it's a warning. You can't go near him, and if you do then you'll find out first hand every reason why Vic Fuentes will ruin your life.

I stared down at the letter, is this supposed to be a threat? Or a joke? What the fuck is this? It can't be serious surely. I mean we're almost 18 for fuck sake. Whoever wrote this has way too much time on their hand. I put the note into my drawer and laughed at it. I'm not exactly scared of the "Warning" to be honest, if the person can send dodgy letters and notebooks then they're hardly anything to be scared of.

I quickly changed into another shirt and then grabbed my keys. The drive to Pete's house was quick, making me extremely happy to get to band practice. Pete has been in a few bands already, so he has the perfect rehearsal space. I walked into his house and I could hear Patrick playing drums and Pete was clearly screaming. What dorks they are.

I walked down the stairs to the basement and they all stopped playing. "Scarlett's here!" Lewis yelled like an excited puppy.

"Scarlett is here." I laughed in reply. They all made a cheer and I walked over to the mic stand.

"So basically everyone knows Kick Me." Pete announced. I nodded and was happy to do that one first.

Lewis began playing the opening guitar riff to the song and I couldn't help but smile, hearing it come together was like a masterpiece. "Let's hang the jury, you sick judgemental fool, I'll bury you six feet deep cause I'm tired of your rules." I sung into the mic. Pete gave me an approving nod. "Fuck you and your opinion, how could you be so blind? What goes around comes back around in time." I could feel the anger build in me. "You don't know shit, you don't know shit about me. You don't know shit shit shit, don't know a Goddamn thing about me." I looked at Patrick drumming and smiled. "Keep looking down on me, I am more than you'll ever be. Cut me deep but I won't bleed, you're gonna kick, kick, kick me when I'm down. By all means put me through Hell and I'll make you see, I’ll be your worst enemy, try to kick, kick, kick me when I’m down kick me when I’m down." Amber, Lewis and Pete were all looking at me as I sung this. Everyone was in awe. "Of all the sinners, you’re first in line so go to hell and tell the devil, I’m not that far behind. Fuck you and your decision 'Cause it's not mine, what goes around comes back around in time." I imagined the scenes that led me to write this song. It was my first week at Mission Bay and Vic was driving me insane. "You don’t know shit, you don’t know shit about me, you don’t know shit, shit, shit. Don’t know a goddamn thing about me. Keep looking down on me, I am more than you’ll ever be cut me deep but I won’t bleed. You're gonna kick, kick, kick me when I’m down. By all means put me through Hell and I’ll make you see. I’ll be your worst enemy try to kick, kick, kick me when I’m down." I could feel the rage build up inside of me. The anger I felt because of this song. "You’re gonna kick, kick, kick me when I'm down kick, kick, kick me when I’m down. Kick me when I’m down, kick me when I’m down, down, down, kick me when I’m down, down, down, kick me when I’m down." I screamed, finishing the song.

Everyone stopped and looked at me. "Are you okay?" Lewis asked, concern written all over his face. I took deep breaths, trying to avoid fainting.

"I'm fine, great, dandy even." I lied. The song reminded me why I disliked Vic, how he made me feel. It's strange because now I feel completely different towards him but I can never seeing it being worth the fight.

"Do you wanna go again or?" Patrick asked, looking at everyone. I nodded and wiped the sweat beginning to bead on my forehead.

"Yeah I'm up for that." I let out a shaky breath. Lewis began playing the opening riff again and we dove right into the song, this time I felt more confident.

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I lay upon a hill, next to the mausoleum. The stars were shining so brightly in the sky, making me smile so much. I don't think anyone understands how much I love the night sky. The way the stars shine, sparkle and dance for you is unbelievable. I could literally lie here all night and appreciate their beauty. "Do you think there's aliens?" I looked towards Vic and I couldn't help but smile. He had a completely serious look on his face. "What?" He asked with an innocent look on his face.

I turned my head back to look at the stars again. "I think it's ignorant to assume we're the only life form out there. For all the planets, galaxy's and possible universes out there, it'd be stupid to think we are all there is. I guess they could be exactly like us but like have three eyes instead of one." I replied. "Or maybe they have a tail or green skin. I don't know but I don't think we'll ever find out. Not in our lifetime." I smiled into the night.

"That's a pretty smart way to think about it Scarlett." Vic mumbled. I looked at him and smiled, he returned it and his teeth came into view. I noticed he has a little snaggle tooth, which is actually really adorable.

I looked back up at the stars and closed my eyes. "I've been having this dream that we could fly." I mumbled to myself.

"So darling, close your eyes." I heard Vic say softly. "Cause you're about to miss everything." I couldn't help but break out into a huge smile.

I turned my head to look at him and he was looking at me. "Come at me with everything you've got." I grinned at him.

"But if these demons keep falling from the sky, it's alright." He smiled back at me.

I stood up and looked up at the stars again. I began spinning around on the spot, taking in the feeling of being dizzy and having no control over how I felt. "So dance, if it moves ya. Jump in the fire, if it burns you." I said to myself as I spun.

Vic got up and stared at me. "I'll throw my arms around you darling, and we'll turn to ashes, drowning in the flames." He grabbed me and stopped me from spinning.

"Why are we talking like poets?" I laughed, my head spinning and finally getting bored of the cute talk.

"Because we are, it's like Romeo and Juliet right now." Vic laughed. I looked at him and I couldn't help but feel butterflies in my stomach.

"Hey this is no time for suicide and romance." I laughed, looking up to the sky. "Nor is it time to celebrate the way the night hides scars." I said looking back at his face. He raised an eyebrow and nodded. He threw himself back onto the grass and then pulled me back down next to him.

"Why did you follow me here?" He asked, suddenly bringing tension back to the night. I stared straight ahead, avoiding his eyes as I knew they were boring right into the side of my head.

"Why not?" I couldn't help but smile at my answer. "Why not follow you? I knew you had a fight with my sister and I knew you weren't okay. So I decided that maybe you needed someone to make you happier. Maybe I'm not the best at that but like, I dunno. I thought I'd give it a shot." I sighed.

"Thanks." He said softly. I glanced around at him and he was staring at the stars too.

"Hey if I knew you loved stars as much as I do then I might not have hated you so much when I first came here." I said sweetly. He looked at me and I could feel everything inside of me telling me to pounce on him, but I kept my cool.

"Well, I'm glad that you like me now." He had the biggest grin on his face.

He got up onto his elbow and looked down at me. Man was he beautiful right now. I closed my eyes. "Please... Keep chasing me." I mumbled, hoping it would be quiet enough for only me to hear. When I opened my eyes I realised how close he was to me. I looked at his lips and then his eyes, they were the most beautiful shade of brown, and the sky just illuminated his face, making him insanely gorgeous.

I could feel him get closer and closer to me. I wanted him to kiss me so bad, to just feel his lips against me like so many times before. But it didn't come. His phone began ringing, startling both of us. He sat up quickly and pulled his phone out of his pocket. "Hello? Yeah. Sure. Okay. Yeah I'll be right there. Bye." He said quickly and then hung up. He looked back at me and sighed.

"What's wrong?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows. He just shook his head.

"Ali wants to speak to me." He said softly.

He got up to leave and I felt a part of me die. "Please don't go." I begged. He stopped and then looked at me. "This is me, laying it all out there. Vic I'm in love with you." I could feel the tears beginning to sting my eyes and nose. He stared down at me, a pained look on his face.

"I'm sorry." He mumbled and then walked down the hill. A loud sob escaped my lips and the tears began flowing down my face. I couldn't feel my own breathing anymore, If I stopped breathing in the next five minutes I wouldn't be surprised because right now it feels as though my heart has been ripped out of my chest and shattered into a million pieces. Putting it back together would be impossible, finding all the pieces would be like trying to find a needle in a haystack. Impossible.

Notes

So that chapter was fun to write! I know Kick Me is by Sleeping With Sirens but the lyrics fit the story very well so yeah. Did you guys like that chapter? It was so sad to write, I almost cried !!!