Give Me Therapy
On Thursday morning, I woke up alone without Brendon. I looked around and heard silence. He knows I hate when he leaves early so why would he do it? Huffing, I trudged around and showered and got dressed and ready for therapy.
Once I had made it downstairs, I entered the kitchen to see Brendon hunched over a notepad, holding a mug of coffee in his fingers. He was shirtless, wearing nothing but pajama bottoms. It was adorable in all honesty.
His hair was messy and his glasses sat, shielding his tired eyes. I kissed his spine gently before making a mug of tea to drink and calm my nerves. Each session, we were getting closer to the big reason why I tried to kill myself.
Hopefully, I can move on after this. Maybe all my emotions towards Kellin will just flush out of my system. Brendon watched me with his sleepy eyes and smiled tiredly. "I'm going to be home when you get here." He informs.
Finally, a Thursday that isn't so lonely at night. "You sure?" I question cautiously. I don't like getting in the way of his work. "Hell yeah, I'll be in my little studio until you get home. I can't lock away at the big studio and leave you alone at night." He shrugs like its so big deal.
"But, your work I don't want to get in the way." I frown. Brendon chuckles before placing his mug down and standing up. He pushed me into his chest and kissed my forehead with his soft warm lips. "You don't get in the way and you're way more important. As much as I like to say I don't like putting girls before my band, you're not just some silly girl." He murmurs.
"Okay." I sigh, finally giving in. Brendon grins down at me and pressed a deep kiss to my lips. "I love you." He bites his bottom lip and walks me to the door. "I love you more." I reply opening the front door. I walked to the waiting cab and entered the back.
The cab sped off and before I know it, I'm there. I handed him his money and walked over to the building. Luckily, Tony wasn't around so I rushed to the office. Agnes stood by the door and escorted me into her mini office. I sat and crossed my legs before letting her talk.
I felt dirty, used, and like a cheater. But lately Kellin's medication seemed like it cost a million dollars. I was in too deep, all for Kellin. I stopped by the local bakery and picked up cookies for Kellin to believe my little stupid stories.
He was sitting on floor with his notepad in his hand pondering his next lyrics. "Hey babe, I'm back! And I brought you cookies!" I try to sound pleasant, handing him the bag. "Great great." He mutters.
I sat next to him and kissed him. He didn't kiss back yet he pulled away. I tried holding his hand but he yanked away quickly. And when I pulled him closer to me, he pulled away. It was weird and I tried kissing his neck but he pushed me off.
"Maggie, you're in the way I'm trying to work." He grumbles. "Alright." I reply quietly before exiting into our small kitchen. Was I really in the way? Usually he'd drop almost everything to kiss back . Now he couldn't even look at me?
Todays session wasn't really a big deal. I was just getting closer to when it all ended and when I tried to leave Earth. That's when I might break. I went home with the cab fare with no troubles and entered the house.
Brendon was nowhere to be found and I already knew he was in the studio. I went out back and slowly entered the small studio like I do when I come home and he's here. Hushed voices were the first thing I heard.
My heart clutched once I heard a girl laugh. I entered casually and saw Dallon and Breezy sitting on the couch watching Brendon Periscope, a thing he's been doing a lot. Why is it that I always think Dallon is a girl he's cheating on me with?! How paranoid am i?
Brendon turned around and grinned at me before standing and greeting me with a passionate kiss as always. He had me on his lap once he sat back down at looked at the screen. "They're all excited you're here." He laughs, slowly intertwining our fingers.
I tensed remembering everything with Kellin but when he kissed my neck, I relaxed. I looked at the screen and read all of the comments before waving and going on my phone. "Well, thanks for hanging out and as always have a good day and I'll see you guys later. Bye!" He waves before exiting the app.
Breezy and Dallon left soon after we ate lunch and left Brendon and I to watch a movie together. It was late when the second movie ended so Brendon carried me upstairs and we got ready for bed. We both crawled in and Brendon turned to his side to face me.
He stared at me for a long period of time before slowly leaning in and kissing me gently. "Is it possible to have a baby after at least a month of growing?" Brendon whines, brushing his fingers against my growing stomach. "They'll die." I state.
"Ugh, I just want to hold the spawn of you and I." He whimpers. I giggle and he stares at me with joy in his eyes. "I love your laugh." He grins. "I love you." I counter. "And I love you a lot more." He informs, taking my hand and pulling me closer to himself.
He buried his face in my neck and hair and kissed me. It was like the opposite of Kellin and I loved every moment of it.
Ugh I love writing these chapters this story makes me slightly proud but not at the same time?? Anyways, comment? Wanna know what you think I see you subscribers ;) xoxox