You Will Never Be Alone
Maybe i'm Better Off Dead
Gerard's POV
Ever since that day Kellin came we have become closer and closer. And trust me i'm not complaining but I feel like The way I feel about Kellin isn't the way he feels about me. So it looks like i'm gonna have to keep my feelings in for a little while longer.I know he likes Vic and I know Vic like him back but they are so awkward around each other it's confusing. I guess I will text him to see what he is doing
Hey Kells what's up when he responds immediately I blush and lay down on my bed.
Nothing much just thinking about Vic... oh of course I should have known . Ugh he is so frustrating sometimes.
Wanna come over? I hope he says yes i'm getting kinda lonely and bored.
Uhhhh yea sure dude why not :P yaay. Wow Shit I don't think Kellin know's i'm Bi. Well it's not like it would matter anyways. About 30 minutes later Kellin show's up and we go sit outside. "So have you heard from Vic?" I say "yea" he replied and lied down on the ground "We are supposed to be hanging out later tonight." a smile crossed his face and I shook my head and lied down beside him. "oh well that's good" I looked over at him and he looked back at me. It seemed like we sat like that for a while, but probably not. "Gerard you wanna go climb a tree?" Kellin said still looking at me. "Hell yea, follow me " I said jumping up and running down the road. When I see Kellin following suit I laugh to myself and stop when I see the perfect tree. "Here we are" I say looking back at Kellin who is now staring at the tree. "Wow nice...but it's right in the middle of someone's yard" he says still looking at the tree. "Fuck it" I say walking over and grabbing a branch attempting to climb.When I got up the tree I wrapped my legs around the branch and hung upside down. I didn't know this was possible but apparently people look better upside down because Kellin looked like an angel. Soon he is hanging upside down with me and we are laughing as people walk and drive by us looking confused. "Whooaa Kellin i'm getting lightheaded." I say just before falling out of the tree. "Omg Gerard" Kellin says jumping out of the tree trying not to laugh and failing miserably.
Kellin's POV
When Gerard fell out of the tree I wanted to laugh so bad but I didn't because I didn't know how he would feel about it. After I helped him up he started laughing and began to jog back to his house. "WELP that was fun" he said pulling open the freezer and throwing an ice cream sandwich at me. "Hell yea" I said and checked my phone to see what time it was. Almost time for Vic I should go get ready " Hey Gerard? I gotta go now .Ya know take a shower and stuff." I said feeling bad. "Oh... ok" he said and walked out of the room. "Great now he's mad at me." I said to myself and left out of the back door. When I got home I saw Tony sitting on the couch staring at my sister with admiration as she talked on the phone."uuuhhh hey Tony what's up?" "Oh hey Kellin me and Kylie were just hanging out...what are you doing here?" Did he really just ask me what I am doing in my own house? "um it's my house...tony" He looked at me with an amused look on his face " Naw dip dude, haha I meant aren't you supposed to be with Vic in like 5 minutes." "5 min- oh shit bye tony" I said running up the stairs. I decided to throw on my Doctor Who beanie, my white skinnies and a blue tee. running back down the stairs my sister yelled after me "Have fun Kells don't do anything I wouldn't do" "Laters Kylie" I said and jumped into the car.
When I got to Vic's house I knocked on the door but no one answered so I just walked in. Going straight to Vic's room after I noticed his room light on. "Hey Vic sorry i'm la- HOLY SHIT VIC!"
Vic's POV
I missed Kellin.I missed his touch and his warmth. But i'm just gonna have to wait until later this afternoon. Walking over to my locker I notice a bunch of people huddled up around it. I finally push trough to see Mike ripping off pieces of paper that read FAG, GO KILL YOURSELF, YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED IN THE CLOSET,EMO BITCH and a bunch of other ones. And all of a sudden I am being pinned up to my locker and I see Mike being held down. They threw me down on the floor and started to kick me In my chest screaming "fucking fag". I couldn't take it anymore. I jumped up and took off running. I looked behind me to see Mike running after me but I didn't stop I just kept running until I reached my car and drove all the way home. I took off running into my house and grabbed out my old friends.Maybe i'm better off dead. I put in my earbuds and let Asking Alexandria do their job. When the cold blade touched my arm a smile spread across my face. Oh how i have missed you..."1..for tony.2 for jaime 3 for mama 4 for mike and 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 and 14 for kellin. Poor, poor kellin.So lucky to run into a freak loser like me.15 for me....And my mind goes blank. "Hey Vic sorry i'm la- HOLY SHIT VIC!" "Kell-in" I say and pass out..
When i woke up I was lying in my bed with a sobbing Kellin beside me. My arm was now wrapped."kells" I said and grabbed him and buried my face in his hair as we hugged. "Vi-vic" he said choking on his tears "What happened to you. Y-you can tell me anything. I'll always be here for you Vic you just need to let me i-in. I love you Vic"
"I love you too kells" I whispered and continued to hold him. We sat like that for about an hour until we were both ready to go to sleep.
Ever since that day Kellin came we have become closer and closer. And trust me i'm not complaining but I feel like The way I feel about Kellin isn't the way he feels about me. So it looks like i'm gonna have to keep my feelings in for a little while longer.I know he likes Vic and I know Vic like him back but they are so awkward around each other it's confusing. I guess I will text him to see what he is doing
Hey Kells what's up when he responds immediately I blush and lay down on my bed.
Nothing much just thinking about Vic... oh of course I should have known . Ugh he is so frustrating sometimes.
Wanna come over? I hope he says yes i'm getting kinda lonely and bored.
Uhhhh yea sure dude why not :P yaay. Wow Shit I don't think Kellin know's i'm Bi. Well it's not like it would matter anyways. About 30 minutes later Kellin show's up and we go sit outside. "So have you heard from Vic?" I say "yea" he replied and lied down on the ground "We are supposed to be hanging out later tonight." a smile crossed his face and I shook my head and lied down beside him. "oh well that's good" I looked over at him and he looked back at me. It seemed like we sat like that for a while, but probably not. "Gerard you wanna go climb a tree?" Kellin said still looking at me. "Hell yea, follow me " I said jumping up and running down the road. When I see Kellin following suit I laugh to myself and stop when I see the perfect tree. "Here we are" I say looking back at Kellin who is now staring at the tree. "Wow nice...but it's right in the middle of someone's yard" he says still looking at the tree. "Fuck it" I say walking over and grabbing a branch attempting to climb.When I got up the tree I wrapped my legs around the branch and hung upside down. I didn't know this was possible but apparently people look better upside down because Kellin looked like an angel. Soon he is hanging upside down with me and we are laughing as people walk and drive by us looking confused. "Whooaa Kellin i'm getting lightheaded." I say just before falling out of the tree. "Omg Gerard" Kellin says jumping out of the tree trying not to laugh and failing miserably.
Kellin's POV
When Gerard fell out of the tree I wanted to laugh so bad but I didn't because I didn't know how he would feel about it. After I helped him up he started laughing and began to jog back to his house. "WELP that was fun" he said pulling open the freezer and throwing an ice cream sandwich at me. "Hell yea" I said and checked my phone to see what time it was. Almost time for Vic I should go get ready " Hey Gerard? I gotta go now .Ya know take a shower and stuff." I said feeling bad. "Oh... ok" he said and walked out of the room. "Great now he's mad at me." I said to myself and left out of the back door. When I got home I saw Tony sitting on the couch staring at my sister with admiration as she talked on the phone."uuuhhh hey Tony what's up?" "Oh hey Kellin me and Kylie were just hanging out...what are you doing here?" Did he really just ask me what I am doing in my own house? "um it's my house...tony" He looked at me with an amused look on his face " Naw dip dude, haha I meant aren't you supposed to be with Vic in like 5 minutes." "5 min- oh shit bye tony" I said running up the stairs. I decided to throw on my Doctor Who beanie, my white skinnies and a blue tee. running back down the stairs my sister yelled after me "Have fun Kells don't do anything I wouldn't do" "Laters Kylie" I said and jumped into the car.
When I got to Vic's house I knocked on the door but no one answered so I just walked in. Going straight to Vic's room after I noticed his room light on. "Hey Vic sorry i'm la- HOLY SHIT VIC!"
Vic's POV
I missed Kellin.I missed his touch and his warmth. But i'm just gonna have to wait until later this afternoon. Walking over to my locker I notice a bunch of people huddled up around it. I finally push trough to see Mike ripping off pieces of paper that read FAG, GO KILL YOURSELF, YOU SHOULD HAVE STAYED IN THE CLOSET,EMO BITCH and a bunch of other ones. And all of a sudden I am being pinned up to my locker and I see Mike being held down. They threw me down on the floor and started to kick me In my chest screaming "fucking fag". I couldn't take it anymore. I jumped up and took off running. I looked behind me to see Mike running after me but I didn't stop I just kept running until I reached my car and drove all the way home. I took off running into my house and grabbed out my old friends.Maybe i'm better off dead. I put in my earbuds and let Asking Alexandria do their job. When the cold blade touched my arm a smile spread across my face. Oh how i have missed you..."1..for tony.2 for jaime 3 for mama 4 for mike and 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 and 14 for kellin. Poor, poor kellin.So lucky to run into a freak loser like me.15 for me....And my mind goes blank. "Hey Vic sorry i'm la- HOLY SHIT VIC!" "Kell-in" I say and pass out..
When i woke up I was lying in my bed with a sobbing Kellin beside me. My arm was now wrapped."kells" I said and grabbed him and buried my face in his hair as we hugged. "Vi-vic" he said choking on his tears "What happened to you. Y-you can tell me anything. I'll always be here for you Vic you just need to let me i-in. I love you Vic"
"I love you too kells" I whispered and continued to hold him. We sat like that for about an hour until we were both ready to go to sleep.
Notes
^~^ this chapter kind of depresses me
Omg I need an update.
5/26/15