The Last Punch

I had been up for nearly 24 hours now, just waiting for our arrival home. I was in the back lounge, smoking out of the window and listening to Creep by Radiohead. I felt l was alone. No, not in the way that I actually was. Alone although I had no one on my side. Like everyone had left me. I hadn’t seen Mel in forever and I was dreadfully missing the two lost pieces of my heart that were stollen from me. I missed my old friend, my sister, my best friend, my forever and always… My older brother, my guardian, my boy, my greaser… I could feel emotions start to roll over my body. Pounding me down like a storm.
I flicked away the butt and pulled a new cigarette from the carton. I lit it and continued to do what I had been doing for the past hour or so. It must’ve been about 3 AM when I looked outside to see where we were. With the time not occurring to me I got worried why it was still dark. I was determined not to sleep until home, worrying that I would not awake. I couldn't wait to be in my own bed and off of this bus. I would probably not see Nathan again. I'll miss my girls but I'm sure I'll see them at some point. I continued to look out of the window, I miss Tony. I may only be a few feet from him but it feels like a thousand miles. I may have forgotten to mention that even Mike found someone. She’s a fellow model. We had met on a shoot a while ago and has had a crush on him forever. Alysha is her name. She’s a little blond bombshell and has gotten on quite well with Mike. He loves her so much and I’m happy they are both happy. I’m alone and it’s hard to face it. I haven’t been single for this long in forever. I’ve always relied on someone and this new journey of independence would unlocked it. 4:29 AM. We were 10 minutes from home and I didn’t hear anyone getting up. As soon as this bus arrives, I’m leaving. I can’t wait to get home. I took a long drag and tossed the cig out. I got up stiffly and walked out of the back lounge doors, for the last time this tour. I saw someone in the front of the bus. I squinted to try and see who it was.
“Al?” I heard Em whisper.
“Em? Why are you up?” I asked as if I didn’t know that she wanted to surprise Ricky.
“Ricky! Why are you up so early?” She retorted.
“More like why did I not sleep..” I let out a quiet laugh and went to my bunk. I had everything all packed, and I was ready to get Ghostie. I pulled my suitcase out of the bunk and let out a sigh.
“You okay?” Jaime whispered very quietly from his bunk. I smiled a bit and turned to his bunk.
“Just ready to be off of this bus. Ya know?” I laughed nervously. I hoped he wouldn’t hear the fear of being alone in my voice. Truthfully I try and not show emotions, especially fear, but being alone was my biggest fear. Or one of them at least. I pulled my suitcase to the front of the bus and I watched the bus driver drive down the road on which he would drop us all off. Our cars were all parked there and waiting for their daily use once again. He pulled into the lot and the bus came to a stop. The driver looked back at us.
“Have fun ladies!! Till next time!” He opened the doors to the bus and waved us on. I smiled and quickly got out of the bus, heading towards my car I saw a small paper on the windshield.
“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.” I ran to my car, pissed at the fact that I had gotten a ticket when no one else had. As I got to my car I noticed it was a small note in a plastic bag. I grabbed at it and held it in my hand to read.
[…] I know you won’t read this until you get home.. but I needed to let you know that I love you. I have since I first moved here, since our first kiss, since our first time, and will forever. Know this and keep this with you. I think some people are after me, I made a bad drug deal and.. that’s all I can say for right now. No matter what happens, just remember that you are always loved.. -Connor xoxo I felt a hot tear start to fall down my cheek. I quickly packed my suitcase into my car and got in. I was headed for Mel's, I couldn’t be alone...

Notes

Hey guys!! Some big things in store. Sorry, again, for the short chapter!! I hope you like what has happened.. Well I know most of you aren't that happy with the whole dating thing... >.> How many of you miss Lian and Kel... And are concerned about Connor's death?? Anyways, I love you all!! Comment, rate, subscribe!! <3 xoxo