The World Tour

The morning after a horrible night out is always the worst. Waking up and realising things have been said that shouldn’t have been said is awful, it’s not even worth waking up for. Maybe telling everyone about me and Tony wasn’t the smartest idea ever but it’s done now. Thankfully Tony wasn’t weird about it, I definitely made the right choice when it comes to who I lost my virginity with. Tony was and always will be special to me. I just don’t understand why Vic was so upset about the whole thing, it was eight years ago. I know it isn’t nice to hear but still, it’s not like we’re together or have been since it happened.

“Are you sure you want to get up just yet?” I heard a voice outside my bunk. I pulled the curtain open to find Michael standing, looking into my bunk with his head to the side. “Good morning” He smiled too cheerily. How can he be so upbeat? He was so wasted he had to be carried home by Sky and AJ after half an hour in the club.

“How are you alive?!” I said rubbing my eyes. He chuckled lightly and sat on the bunk across from mine.

“I’m used to this kind of life style now” He shrugged as if it was totally normal. I don’t understand how you can get used to feeling like utter shit. Maybe he doesn’t get hangovers like some people do.

“Lucky for you” I laughed, sitting up and swinging my legs over the edge of my bunk.

“So I heard a little story about you Lyndsey” He wiggled his eyebrows.

“What?” I felt my cheeks burn red.

“You had sex with Tony after your prom?” He laughed. I just rolled my eyes.

“You guys are the biggest gossips I’ve ever encountered in my whole entire existence” I jumped down off my bunk completely.

Michael faked being shocked. “No way, we’re men. We don’t gossip” He flicked his barely existing hair to the side. “Anyway why’d you tell them that? It’s just giving them fuel for the fire” He said jumping down too.

“Let them do or say as they want, I’m not ashamed of it and he was good for a first timer” I smiled sweetly at Michael and walked away into the lounge area.

My laughter was cut short when I seen Vic, Mike and Alex in the lounge area chatting. “Hey guys” I said feeling kinda out of place. I realised I’m only wearing a baggy shirt from the night before. “I’ll be right back” I backed out of the lounge area and back into the bunk area.

“I was gonna say maybe change before going in there, but this is funnier” Michael laughed from behind me. I spun around and glared at him.

“You’re such a nice friend, thanks for all the support” I said sarcastically as I went over to my suitcase and pulled out some clothes for the day.

After getting dressed I walked back out into the lounge area where Vic and Alex still sat. “I’m now prepared for the day, hi again” I said walking past them and sitting next to Alex.

“Lynn when is Alan gonna be joining us?” Alex asked me. I looked at him and smiled.

“Next week” I smiled at him childishly.

“Great, I miss that dude” He laughed at my stupid face.

“I do too, he is the bae” I joked. Vic looked at me funny and then back at his phone.

“Please don’t use that word ever again” Alex cringed at me.

“When bae is embarassed” I joked. Vic looked up and laughed a little too much for the joke.

“Sorry” He mumbled when he realised it was too much.

“I need to get some coffee” Alex stood up and left me there, awkwardly with Vic. I pulled my phone out of my pocket and began aimlessly looking through Twitter and Instagram just to avoid the awkwardness.

“Well fuck this is awkward” Vic said louder than he should have. My eyes winded and I looked up, I began laughing nervously. Why? I don’t know.

“Oh my God” I breathed out, he looked up and laughed along with me.

The laughter died down and then it was awkward again. “How much does a polar bear weigh?” Vic asked. I looked at him and tilted my head to the side.

“ENOUGH TO BREAK THE ICE” A voice boomed through the bunk area and into the lounge.

“I don’t even know who that was” I laughed. He laughed too, which made me feel a bit more at ease.

“Tyler” Vic said casually.

“How’d you know?” I was curious how he could be so sure.

“I know his sweet voice” He smiled. Is he suddenly okay with me now?

“That’s cute” I giggled.

He looked around for a minute then he looked straight at me. “Hey Lynn, do you wanna sing onstage with us tonight during one of our songs?” He asked. I felt myself smiling, without even trying.

“Of course, I’d love to actually. What song?” I asked.

“Hold on Till May” He said softly. I nodded and looked up the lyrics on my phone.

“Sure, of course” I smiled.

“Wanna go rehearse it?” He questioned me. I nodded quickly and stood up.

We walked over to the venue, there were kids lining up already. “Hey Vic!” One kid shouted.

“Hey guys” Vic nodded slightly. We went into the venue and through the building till we got to the stage area. He walked over and picked his guitar up and tuned it. “Okay do you know the song at all?” He asked me. I nodded slightly.

“I know the chorus mostly, but like not the part that I’d be singing” I told him nervously. I don’t understand why though.

“Come here then” He nodded me over. I walked over and he took my hand and sat me on the amp in front of where his mic stand would be.

He smiled down at me and I felt kinda nostalgic. “Are you gonna serenade me?” I giggled up at him. He just winked at me and started playing the opening.

“She sits up high, surrounded by the sun. One million branches and she loves every one. Mom and dad, did you search for me? I’ve been up here so long I’m going crazy” He sung out. “And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground, I heard the train shake the window as you screamed over the sound. And as we owned this night, I’ll put your body to the test with mine. This love was out of control, 3-2-1 where did it go?” He sounded so beautiful. I never really knew how well his songs would plan out. I actually remember this one from his note books all those years ago. “Now don’t be crazy now, of course you can stay here, been in a touring band for going on ten years. ‘Big deal’ she said ‘I guess you’re official’ I only said it cause I know what it’s like to feel burned out” He screamed. I felt my heart racing as I watched him. “It gets you down, we’ve all been there sometimes but tonight I’ll make you feel beautiful once again” He looked down at me and winked. “And as the sun went down, we ended up on the ground. I heard the train shake the window as you screamed over the sound. And as we owned this night I put your body to the test with mine. This love was out of control, 3-2-1 where did it go...?” He stopped singing for a second and played a small solo on the guitar. “If I were you, I’d put that away...” He kneeled down in front of me and took my hand. I felt sick. “See you’re just wasted and thinking ‘bout the past again. Darling, you’ll be okay” He stood up and nodded to me. “And she said...”

“If you were me you’d do the same, ‘cause I can’t take anymore. I’ll draw the shades and close the door. Everything’s not alright and I would rather...” I sung out, I wasn’t sure how my voice was going to sound.

“Ooooh oh, and as the sun went down, we ended up on the ground. I heard the train shake the window and as you screamed over the sound. And as we owned this night I put your body to the test with mine, this love was out of control tell me where did it go?” He finished off the song.

I looked at him curiously, he put so much effort into that song. I watched them briefly last night and he cares so much about the performance. “What’s that song about?” I asked quietly. He took his guitar off and put it back over with the rest.

“Um, a girl I once knew” He mumbled softly. He sat down in front of me on the stage. “She felt like her parents ignored her a lot and she would just go places late at night to see if they’d notice her. I noticed some things about her that no one else noticed. She was unaware of how sad things like that made her, I kinda wrote this for her hoping that one day she’d know it was for her” He looked up from his hands, where his eyes had previously been staring.

“Oh, I hope one day she knows” I patted his leg as a gesture and smiled at him.

“Me too” He whispered. “I wrote so much for her and she doesn’t even know it” He looked right into my eyes, as if to tell me something.

“Maybe you should tell her” I suggested. He bit his lip and looked away.

“I’m getting way too old for that kinda thing. It’s in the past now anyway, I’m not gonna dig something back up that has been dead for years” He sighed. I watched him look around me, avoiding my eyes.

“Alright then, well thank you for asking me to sing this with you. I know it’s an important song for you and the fans so I appreciate it so much” I told him. He looked up and nodded.

“No problem” He smiled at me. But it wasn’t a real smile, it was pained. And it’s my goal to never see that smile again.

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