Palm Springs
Chapter 5
I was still crying after getting off the phone with Ashley, it hurt a lot knowing that Vic was avoiding me and I guess it’s my entire fault. I should have never came to Palm Springs; I just wanted a way out to actually feel free and to maybe make Vic jealous. I was so angry with him; he ignored me so much that I felt like rebelling against him like an immature teenager would make him realize how much he should stay. I wanted him to notice me; we may be best friend but sometime I felt invisible. I guess I was being selfish but that didn’t matter.
I was about to get packed for Buffalo, New York tomorrow and I had to say I was pretty excited to be in Darien Lake, I hadn’t been there since I was a kid and I couldn’t wait to relive what is left of my childhood there. My phone began ringing Victor Fuentes Is calling, I debated to pick it up because he hadn’t picked mine up but I felt so down today and I really wanted to hear his voice.
“Hello” I managed to get out clear; my eyes were swollen and I was extremely tired.
“Amy, I’m so sorry”
“It’s okay”
“No it isn’t, I haven’t been there for you and I want to be there for you” Vic’s voice was calming me down, I loved to hype to it and the deep tone. “You should have told me about your parents”
“You didn’t answer your phone” I stated, now my crying was audible as I sobbed. “Vic; you got all you wanted so fast but all I have is being ripped from my hands”
“I’m going to make it better; please just trust me on this and tomorrow when we see each other we’re going to spend the whole day together” Vic explained and I responded with a sob. “I hate this, my best friend is hurting and I can’t comfort you”
“It’s okay Vic, I’m kind of used to this you know”
“You shouldn’t be, you should be able to come to me and talk to me – I’m such a bad best friend”
“No you’re not”
“I was but I’m going to be so much better” Vic stated, I just sat there as we were both silent and I was still crying a bit. “Please stop crying”
“Sorry, I’m just emotional today”
“Is there anything else that happened?” Vic asked, curiosity running through his veins. I sighed; I didn’t really want to talk about this but I couldn’t lie to Vic.
“Uh, the owner of the Music Shack passed away on Friday” I said, it was true my old friend Jenkins passed away at 82 and when his son called me; I was shocked to find out because I had on seen him a few weeks prior.
“Oh babe, I’m so sorry” It was weird, him calling me babe and I mean he has done it before on a few occasions but this time it felt different and it was because my feelings for Vic were stronger than before. “What are they doing with the store?”
“I don’t know, I never asked out of respect but I’m still going to work in a few weeks so hopefully he left the store to his son and his son will take over”
“I hope so too”
“Vic?”
“Yeah”
I had almost brought up the courage to ask him about the kiss, but as I was about to say it I chickened out – how was I supposed to ask him? Should he bring it up first? I was so confused, boys confused me.
“Am I annoying?” I blurted out, did I seriously just ask this? How am I supposed to follow up?
“No! Who told you that?” Vic was becoming agitated.
“No one, I mean do you think boys find me annoying”
“I don’t find you annoying”
“I know but like.. I don’t know”
“Does this have anything to do with that boy?” Vic asked, I was shocked when he asked but I guess I could fall through with it.
“No, I mean well kind of”
“What did he do? I swear I’ll have Mike rip his face out” Vic ranted and I giggled. I heard Vic sigh.
“He just didn’t call me back, that’s all – it doesn’t even matter he’s out of my league”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m saying he’s way too good for me, super model type with a swimmers body” I explained and Vic scoffed.
“You’re too good for him, Amy – you’re nice, caring, funny, beautiful, intelligent and irresistible” Vic’s words got to me, he was only making me fall for him even more but he had to say all this, I was best friend.
“It’s probably because the other girls are skinner and more attractive”
Vic’s POV
“Don’t say that about yourself” I said sternly, pissed off she would ever say that. I could hear a vacant sob escape her mouth, what was eating her up so much? “Amy, is there something else?”
“No, I just really miss you”
“I miss you too”
“I’m sorry I was being so difficult” She said, laughing a bit – I could almost picture the tears trickling down her pretty little face. Her perfect brown hair tied up into a bun, she’s probably lying in her bed with just an over-sized shirt on and nothing but a pair of lace underwear underneath. “I was acting childish; it’s just hard sometimes when you’re all I have”
“I ignored you for too long and I want to make it up to you”
“God, this got so movie cliché – so fast” She stated, trying to laugh through her tears.
“I just wish I brought you with me instead of..” I trailed.
“Wait, what?”
“I—i-I”
“Victor, please me honest with me” She pleaded
“I brought Ravyn on tour with us” I stated, trying to stand my ground.
“The girl you like?” She asked, her voice was interesting to me it had this tone to it that wasn’t mad but wasn’t totally content.
“Actually we’re dating”
“Oh”
“Yeah, I wanted to tell you I mean I should have but I – “
“It’s okay Vic, I mean I’m happy for you and you deserve to be happy”
“Amy I-“
“You know Vic, I have a really early flight in the morning” She interjected and somehow I felt like I was doing this to hide the feelings I truly had.
“Yeah, I can’t wait to see you”
“Me too, night” Dial Tone
“Night”
She hung up even before I could say goodnight, I didn’t know if she was mad or if she was truly happy for me. I didn’t even know if I was happy for me.
Do I like Ray?
Yes.
Do I like her more than America?
No.
America’s POV
I hung up, grabbed the pillow from the couch and screamed into it. I screamed into it until I had no ability to scream anymore. The pillow was now stained with my tears and I was now yelling at myself.
“Why did I even think he would like little old me?” I sobbed and then I heard Lanta and Jersey come in.
“What did that idiot do?” Jersey asked softly, sitting next to me and wrapping her arm around me.
“We were getting all feely on the phone and then he just blurts out that he brought a girl on tour with him and that they’re dating now – I thought for one moment that he actually liked me”
“You like him?” Lanta asked, and I sobbed into the pillow.
“I love him Lanta”
I was about to get packed for Buffalo, New York tomorrow and I had to say I was pretty excited to be in Darien Lake, I hadn’t been there since I was a kid and I couldn’t wait to relive what is left of my childhood there. My phone began ringing Victor Fuentes Is calling, I debated to pick it up because he hadn’t picked mine up but I felt so down today and I really wanted to hear his voice.
“Hello” I managed to get out clear; my eyes were swollen and I was extremely tired.
“Amy, I’m so sorry”
“It’s okay”
“No it isn’t, I haven’t been there for you and I want to be there for you” Vic’s voice was calming me down, I loved to hype to it and the deep tone. “You should have told me about your parents”
“You didn’t answer your phone” I stated, now my crying was audible as I sobbed. “Vic; you got all you wanted so fast but all I have is being ripped from my hands”
“I’m going to make it better; please just trust me on this and tomorrow when we see each other we’re going to spend the whole day together” Vic explained and I responded with a sob. “I hate this, my best friend is hurting and I can’t comfort you”
“It’s okay Vic, I’m kind of used to this you know”
“You shouldn’t be, you should be able to come to me and talk to me – I’m such a bad best friend”
“No you’re not”
“I was but I’m going to be so much better” Vic stated, I just sat there as we were both silent and I was still crying a bit. “Please stop crying”
“Sorry, I’m just emotional today”
“Is there anything else that happened?” Vic asked, curiosity running through his veins. I sighed; I didn’t really want to talk about this but I couldn’t lie to Vic.
“Uh, the owner of the Music Shack passed away on Friday” I said, it was true my old friend Jenkins passed away at 82 and when his son called me; I was shocked to find out because I had on seen him a few weeks prior.
“Oh babe, I’m so sorry” It was weird, him calling me babe and I mean he has done it before on a few occasions but this time it felt different and it was because my feelings for Vic were stronger than before. “What are they doing with the store?”
“I don’t know, I never asked out of respect but I’m still going to work in a few weeks so hopefully he left the store to his son and his son will take over”
“I hope so too”
“Vic?”
“Yeah”
I had almost brought up the courage to ask him about the kiss, but as I was about to say it I chickened out – how was I supposed to ask him? Should he bring it up first? I was so confused, boys confused me.
“Am I annoying?” I blurted out, did I seriously just ask this? How am I supposed to follow up?
“No! Who told you that?” Vic was becoming agitated.
“No one, I mean do you think boys find me annoying”
“I don’t find you annoying”
“I know but like.. I don’t know”
“Does this have anything to do with that boy?” Vic asked, I was shocked when he asked but I guess I could fall through with it.
“No, I mean well kind of”
“What did he do? I swear I’ll have Mike rip his face out” Vic ranted and I giggled. I heard Vic sigh.
“He just didn’t call me back, that’s all – it doesn’t even matter he’s out of my league”
“What do you mean?”
“I’m saying he’s way too good for me, super model type with a swimmers body” I explained and Vic scoffed.
“You’re too good for him, Amy – you’re nice, caring, funny, beautiful, intelligent and irresistible” Vic’s words got to me, he was only making me fall for him even more but he had to say all this, I was best friend.
“It’s probably because the other girls are skinner and more attractive”
Vic’s POV
“Don’t say that about yourself” I said sternly, pissed off she would ever say that. I could hear a vacant sob escape her mouth, what was eating her up so much? “Amy, is there something else?”
“No, I just really miss you”
“I miss you too”
“I’m sorry I was being so difficult” She said, laughing a bit – I could almost picture the tears trickling down her pretty little face. Her perfect brown hair tied up into a bun, she’s probably lying in her bed with just an over-sized shirt on and nothing but a pair of lace underwear underneath. “I was acting childish; it’s just hard sometimes when you’re all I have”
“I ignored you for too long and I want to make it up to you”
“God, this got so movie cliché – so fast” She stated, trying to laugh through her tears.
“I just wish I brought you with me instead of..” I trailed.
“Wait, what?”
“I—i-I”
“Victor, please me honest with me” She pleaded
“I brought Ravyn on tour with us” I stated, trying to stand my ground.
“The girl you like?” She asked, her voice was interesting to me it had this tone to it that wasn’t mad but wasn’t totally content.
“Actually we’re dating”
“Oh”
“Yeah, I wanted to tell you I mean I should have but I – “
“It’s okay Vic, I mean I’m happy for you and you deserve to be happy”
“Amy I-“
“You know Vic, I have a really early flight in the morning” She interjected and somehow I felt like I was doing this to hide the feelings I truly had.
“Yeah, I can’t wait to see you”
“Me too, night” Dial Tone
“Night”
She hung up even before I could say goodnight, I didn’t know if she was mad or if she was truly happy for me. I didn’t even know if I was happy for me.
Do I like Ray?
Yes.
Do I like her more than America?
No.
America’s POV
I hung up, grabbed the pillow from the couch and screamed into it. I screamed into it until I had no ability to scream anymore. The pillow was now stained with my tears and I was now yelling at myself.
“Why did I even think he would like little old me?” I sobbed and then I heard Lanta and Jersey come in.
“What did that idiot do?” Jersey asked softly, sitting next to me and wrapping her arm around me.
“We were getting all feely on the phone and then he just blurts out that he brought a girl on tour with him and that they’re dating now – I thought for one moment that he actually liked me”
“You like him?” Lanta asked, and I sobbed into the pillow.
“I love him Lanta”
Notes
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6/21/13